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Authors: Peter Cameron

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“Thanks,” said Topsy. She went in Walter’s office and closed the door, a little less quietly than Gladys had. “Hello, Walter,” she said.

Walter nodded. He looked a little stunned.

“They climb out the window?” Topsy asked.

“Who?” asked Walter.

“The folks you were meeting with. Gladys told me you were in a meeting.”

“I wasn’t,” said Walter.

“I guessed not,” said Topsy.

“I’m in a meeting sometimes,” said Walter.

“I’m sure you are,” said Topsy. She sat down. For a moment neither of them said anything. They heard Gladys resume her pencil-sharpening. “Don’t you want to know why I’m here?” Topsy asked.

“I was wondering,” said Walter. “Although it’s nice to see you.”

Topsy snorted. “I’m here on business,” she said. “I want to buy Knox Farm. I’m going to sell my house.”

“Why?” asked Walter.

“Why what?”

“Why are you going to sell your house?”

“It’s too big.”

“Knox Farm isn’t small.”

Topsy smiled, “This is business, Walter,” she said. “I just want to buy a house your bank happens to own.”

“Well, how much are you offering?”

“I’d like to see it,” said Topsy.

“I thought you had.”

“I’d like to see it again. Before I make an offer.”

“Oh,” said Walter. “I guess that seems fair.”

“Maybe you’d drive out there with me? Show it to me?” They looked at each other for a moment. Then Walter stood up and put on his jacket. “Certainly,” he said. “I don’t see why not.”

Walter opened the back door with a key that was hidden in the milk box. They went into the kitchen. The only thing in it was sunlight.

“This is the kitchen,” Walter said. He turned on the faucet; rusty water flowed into the sink. “Running water,” he announced.

“Stop it,” said Topsy.

Walter turned off the water and shrugged. “What do you want?” he asked. “What are we doing here?”

“I just wanted to talk to you,” Topsy said.

“Oh,” said Walter.

“I’m lonely,” said Topsy.

Walter didn’t respond. He didn’t want to look at her so he opened a silverware drawer, looked in at its emptiness.

“I can’t stand … being lonely like this,” he heard her say. “I mean, I was lonely before you, but I never realized. It wasn’t till we were together—well, after, when we stopped—that I realized …”

Inside the drawer an ant walked across a field of green felt. It climbed over a cork and paused at the summit. Walter decided to pretend he hadn’t heard what Topsy had said. Once decided, it was easy.

After a moment, he said, “Did you really want to buy the house?”

“No,” said Topsy. “Well, maybe for a minute. It was just an idea. A dumb idea.”

“It’s not a bad house,” Walter said. He closed the drawer and wiped his hands together. He stood up straighten “Well, then,” he said. “I guess we should be going.” He jiggled his car keys.

Topsy didn’t move. “You go,” she said. “It’s O.K. I want to stay for a while.”

“How will you get home?”

“I’ll walk. Go.”

He looked around the kitchen as if instructions for how to act might be displayed somewhere, like a choking poster. “I’m sorry,” he said. “It’s not that I don’t want to stay …”

“I didn’t expect you to stay. I don’t know what I thought. Please, go.”

“No. I mean, I still feel the—I still feel for you. I do. It’s just that, well, things are better with Virginia. We’ve worked some things out. I mean, we’re trying. And I don’t think I should—”

“It’s all right.” She looked up at him and smiled. “That’s good for you. I’m happy.”

Walter studied his keys as if they were unfamiliar to him. “Are you sure you don’t want a ride?”

“It’s a nice day to walk,” she said.

“O.K., then,” he said. He moved toward her, as if he might embrace her, but then walked around her, out the door. She waited till his car had pulled away, till the sound of it was gone, before she moved. She went upstairs and walked through the rooms, looked out the bedroom window. The same cornstalks were still standing patiently in the field. She didn’t feel particularly sad. She felt numb.

Eventually she went back downstairs. Walter had left the key in the door. She thought about taking it as a souvenir, but then she realized she didn’t want one. She locked the door and tossed the key into the milk box, kicked the lid shut with her foot, and started walking home.

ACKNOWLEDGMENTS

Some of these stories originally appeared, sometimes with different titles, in the following magazines: “Slowly” and “The Winter Bazaar” in
The New Yorker,
“Not the Point” in
The Mississippi Review,
“Just Relax” in
Rolling Stone,
“The Middle of Everything” in
The Paris Review,
“The Near Future” in
Columbia,
“The Secret Dog” in
The Kenyon Review,
“The Cafe Hysteria” in
The Quarterly,
“What?” in
Vox,
“The Half You Don’t Know” in
Bostonia,
and “The Meeting and Greeting Area” in
Antioch Review.

The writing of this book was supported by the National Endowment for the Arts, the MacDowell Colony, and The Corporation of Yaddo. The author wishes to express his gratitude to those organizations and the following individuals: Victoria Kohn, Sheila McCullough, and Jim Harms.

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This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents either are the product of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, businesses, companies, events, or locales is entirely coincidental.

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