Few Things Left Unsaid (21 page)

I went home. I was very upset by whatever had happened. I messaged her again.

Jaan where are you. I am tensed up. Please reply. What has happened to you? I am sorry if I did something wrong. However, please reply
.

I got her reply finally…

I am with my boyfriend. Ha ha…

I knew this was a joke. She was laughing at the end of message. Even I replied.

 So how is your new boyfriend? Is he hot like me?

I message received. It was Riya.

Ya he is hot. He is an expert kisser. I kissed him.

I replied.

Oh seriously. Superb. So you must be happy now. You got someone better than me. Congrats. Where are you?

1 message recived.it was Riya again

I am in Grant Lane with him. Yes, I got someone better than you. He is sweet and does not give reasons like you.

I replied.

Stop joking jaan. Now it’s hurting. I want to meet you. Where are you? I am coming to Aerol.

1 message recived.It was Riya.

I told you I am in Grant Lane with him. Meet you tomorrow morning. I will give you a big surprise.

I replied.

Wow. I knew this. Thanks a lot. Even I will give you a small surprise. Miss you. I will come to Aerol tomorrow morning at 10am.then we will decide whether to attend college or not. Good night. Miss you. Love you. Muaah….

I slept. I was waiting for next morning. . I was eager to meet my sweetheart after a week almost. It had never happened before. I always saw her. At least saw her smile everyday. It happened for the first time in last 1 year….I decided to take chocolates for her and a greeting card saying Miss You. I took the best card available in the shop. It said…

I want to be in your arms where you hold me tight and never let you go….

I may be away but...

Even when we are far apart…

Distance can never change,

The love between us…

The love I have for you in my heart….

Love you always….

I reached Aerol and met her. I hugged her immediately as I saw her. I was about to kiss her when she stopped me and pushed me away. I was surprised to see her behavior. She had never pushed me whenever or wherever I kissed her or hugged her. I asked her what had happened to her.

“I have a boyfriend now. Please don’t do all these things”
...

I was shocked. What was she saying? Was she still joking?

I asked her “Who
is he? Are you serious?”

“Yes
I am serious. I called you here for telling this only
.”

I could not handle this. I started crying instantly I took my cell phone out and called Swapnil. He did not pick up the call. He might be in a lecture. I called Sameer. He picked up the call. I told him what Riya was saying.

“Aadi, don’t cry. Please stop crying. Please. First listen to her and then call me. Just see at least what she is saying.” Sameer said and kept the phone down. I could not stop crying. I thought she had done it purposely. Still I asked her the name of her new boyfriend. she said.

“You
want to know the name of my new boyfriend. He is better than you are. He cares for me better than you do. Moreover, the most important thing is he loves me more than you do. He never gave me reasons in last 5 days. I like him
.”

I asked her “Was he the reason you were not picking my call and replying me when I was away? I thought you missed me.?”

“I did not miss you at all. He was with me always. I tried calling you so many times.But you didn’t bother.

You want to know his name
?” Riya said and had a wicked smile. Maybe to show me I was not worth of her.

“
His name is Amit. I like him.Maybe love him. He proposed to me a few days back. I accepted it 2 days back. We both like each other. Sorry Aadi… you hurt me a lot. Good bye
.”

She left. I was standing there alone with a greeting card in my hand and chocolates. I called Amit and asked him what the truth was.

“
Yes we are in relationship. I don’t think I need to tell you anything more. Good bye
.”

              Riya’s confession in her own words

                                          A
ditya- The name that came to my life and all happiness followed along with you. The day I met you I had decided it could be just you. I had never experienced what true love was. There were a few occassions when I had liked a few people, but I had never loved anyone. You were my first love. I realized why people go mad in love after I met you. 14
^th
November  when you proposed to me , 16
^th
November when we went together for the first time, our first kiss, your first touch on my body, all the sweet moments in the central garden , each moment which we spent in Grant Lane , our engagement, our marriage , everything , every day , every minute ,every second it was you all over my mind , it was just you in my heart. It was a dream come true.

However, as days passed I observed some sudden changes in you. They were so hard to believe that I could not ignore them. You started drinking beer suddenly; suddenly studies became more important to you. You avoided me. I never thought my dream man Aditya would behave like this. I never thought my Mr Perfect would ignore me. I never felt that I would lose my romantic Aadi who used to sing songs for me, who went on his knees to propose to me. Every single moment faded. I never made good friends in college, as I loved your company. Suddenly you went away from me. I was all alone in college. I did not have any one to share my feelings with. I could have told Swapnil and Anup but I did not as I never wanted to hurt your friendship with them. This made me more alone. I went deeper in my own skill. You never realized all this. Earlier you used to understand every small need of mine but how could you ignore my heart? How?

It started from the day you ignored my calls. Remember?  More than 20 calls I think. Right? I was awake for the whole night. I wanted to talk to you. I wanted to tell you a few things that I could not.  I called Amit to ask what was wrong with you. His call was busy. He was talking with Neha. He called me after an hour or so.  I told him about you. I told him about our problems so that he could make you understand.

She could have talked about the problems to Neha. She could have expressed her feeling in front of Swapnil. I didn’t understand how it would have hurt our friendship. Maybe she just wanted excuses. I said sorry for whatever I did that night. I said I was tired. Even I am human. She could have understood. I love you jaan. I love you. Why did you do this?

As Amit came to know about the problems in our relationship, he said…

“What are you saying; I never thought Aditya can behave like this. He seemed perfect. What happened to him? He loves you so much. Every time we talk, we talk about you. He is a darling. I can’t believe he is behaving like this.”

Bloody rascal. If he thought I was perfect why is he dating my jaan. My jaan was also so foolish. People had always taken advantage of her sweetness. Now it was Amit.

“Amit, just think what might be running through my mind. I never gave him any chance to complain. I gave him whatever he wanted. I gave him all the best moments on his birthday. Still he is behaving as if I am no one in his life. I called him so many times. Please can you call him and ask?” I requested him.

This is the reason he called you that day. Even Neha called you that day. But you still didn’t bother. You wanted your sleep. Amit called me again that night.

“Aditya is not picking up the call. He might be sleeping. He might be tired today. Don’t think much. This is new to you. I am used to all these things. Neha always does this to me. I wait outside the college for hours and she never bunks lectures. I want to meet her but she never meets me. I am used to this type of behavior”

I cried. I was crying a lot. He consoled me saying he would talk to you. He did talk to you. Still you never heard him. You were changed Aadi... I had lost my old Aditya. He died. He died the day our exams ended.

I knew this bastard would tell Riya about his problems with Neha. There was no need to tell her that he was used to it. What the hell did he mean? Why did he want to persuade Riya to get used to it, I never did anything purposely. Every time even I am thinking of you. Its not that I had stopped loving you. I wanted to give you all happiness in the future. I wanted to study for you. So that my mom would accept you from her heart. You didn’t understand this much? Why bachha? Why?

Your behavior became worse day by day. I thought you had stopped loving me. I thought you never loved me. Did you? Why did you change suddenly?  The day you said you wanted ta a break  I almost lost my senses. I never wanted to hear this. I never thought I would hear it. We loved each other so much that I never thought you would betray me. I still don’t understand your reason to say that. I was really upset. I was broken completely. I was in pain, I was frustrated, and all I could think about was you and your love.

What could I do? How could I save a broken relationship? Breaking up is a terrible, painful experience, no doubt, especially if you feet that you have lost the love of your life. Amit was with me in these days. He supported me when I needed some one whom I could rely on, whom I could tell what I was feeling. I tried contacting you. I tried messaging you. You never responded to any of my calls.

When she knew how it felt after a break up, why did she do the same thing to me? Was she taking a revenge? When she knew how much it pained why did she do the same to me? She felt that love of her life is lost. However, I felt like I had lost my life to itself, please come back jaan. Please come back. I need you. I am still your Aditya.

In those days, Amit asked me for a ride. A long ride. A long ride on his bike. I didn’t accept it, as I didn’t want to hurt you. When he asked me for ride, I tried calling you. You messaged me not to disturb you. You wanted your studies. I was really upset that day. The next day Amit again asked me for a ride. I didn’t get any reply from you. I accepted his offer to go with him for a ride. I wanted someone to share my feelings. I thought spending some time with him would change my mood and help me smile at least. I met him at the depot. He was waiting for me with his bike. He had brought chocolate for me.  It brought a smile on my face. I sat on his bike and we headed towards Palm Beach Road.

If anyone wanted to know how to take advantage of the sweetest girl in town, if any one wanted to know how to use the emotions of a girl he should contact Amit. He never thought once about Neha before asking her for a ride. What about her love? Was she nothing? What was happening? Why was Amit doing this? I wanted to hit him straight on his dick. How could one do this?

He was driving too fast. I avoided holding him but I had to as he was driving fast. I got hold of him by his waist. It brought tears in my eyes. It was the first time I touched someone after you had come in my life. I was feeling awkward. I told him to slow down. He did. I removed my hand from his waist. He made me smile, he made me laugh. After an hour or so, we left sea woods.