Five Days Grace (31 page)

It was both thrilling and terrifying.

She'd said she wasn't scared, that she wouldn't run. In truth, it all seemed too good to be true, nothing he felt like he deserved and nothing he thought the universe would simply deliver to his doorstep. He certainly didn't think he was any kind of prize the world brought to her.

But she made him wish he were.

God, she made him wish.

Now he needed to call his other doctor and hear him say one more time that sooner or later, in all likelihood, he'd be able to have an erection again, maybe even that it would be as simple as taking a little pill to make it happen.

* * *

Aidan hoped to get back to the cabin while she was still in bed. He had plans for her, but didn't make it in time. The bed was empty, and he could hear the shower running.

Grace in the shower, all wet and naked.

Okay, that worked.

He toed off his boots, peeled off his socks and his jacket and went to the bathroom door, getting there just as the water was shut off. He knocked and asked if he could come in. A moment later, he heard the click of the lock. He pushed the door open, and there she was, dripping wet, naked save for a towel clutched to her front, her eyes so big and blue.

"Hi," she said tentatively, eyes on his for a split second and then dropping to the center of his chest.

And wasn't that interesting? Unless he was completely misreading her, she was nervous. After all the things she'd done to him the night before?

He walked over to her, going slowly, not wanting to make her any more uneasy than she already was, and bent down to kiss her softly, briefly, not nearly the kiss he wanted. A fog of warm, fragrant air—smelling of her—wafted toward him, enveloping him in a kind of spell where his head was filled completely with the wonder that was Grace.

"Good morning," he said, grinning like crazy.

"Morning," she said, still so tentative and skittish.

Her hair was dripping all over her and her towel, and she looked at him like she expected him to pounce on her at any moment and just devour her, which—granted—he really wanted to do. But more even than that, he needed to know why she was nervous with him now. She'd all but begged him to take her to bed yesterday afternoon, after all.

"Please tell me I didn't really fall asleep on you in the middle of everything?" he asked.

"No, I think I fell asleep on you. I'm so sorry—"

"Baby, I don't want you to be sorry about anything. Not about last night. Last night was incredible."

She smiled sweetly, her cheeks filling with color, looking so innocent and pretty, dripping wet and so sexy in that good-girl way. He blinked—in his mind he had a flash of her, kneeling over him, her hair spread out across his hip and thigh, her staring up at him with those big, blue eyes as she took one slow, delicious swipe of her tongue up the length of his cock and dared him to tell her that didn't feel good.

He shuddered just thinking about it. None of his good girl had been evident in that moment.

And she was feeling shy and maybe a little embarrassed this morning?

He glanced toward the shower. "All done in there?"

She nodded.

"Then let's get you dry, Grace." He grabbed another towel from the closet behind him, carefully dried off her face, taking the time to nuzzle her cheek, kiss her temple and nibble just a bit on her earlobe.

She smiled and made a faint sound like, "Mmm."

He wanted to devour her even more, but drying her off had possibilities, too, and would provide time to get her to talk to him about what was going on with her this beautiful morning.

Aidan quickly figured out that he'd never get her dry with her hair dripping all over her, getting her wet again. Had to start there. "Turn around, honey, so I can get to your hair."

She did, despite the fact that the towel she had was merely clutched to her front, not wrapped all the way around her. Which meant that when she turned, he could see every bit of her back, the pretty curve of her hips, those long legs.

He did the best he could not to make a sound, not to get too distracted too fast. He wanted to take care of her, the way she'd taken care of him last night, so he needed her to talk first.

He took the dry towel and wrapped it around her long hair. He'd seen women do this before, this hair wrapped up in the towel thing. Cover it, squeeze to get the worst of the water out, massage the scalp a little as he went. She relaxed a bit, made some little appreciative noises that hit him deep in the gut. His body was humming along with desire now, that little kick of heat, the heart rate accelerating, his breathing. Everything except the heavy feeling in his groin of blood rushing there.

But he wasn't going to think about that.

He was going to think about Grace, naked and wet and his.

He kept working on her hair, smaller and smaller sections of it, getting drunk on the smell of her and the sight of all that pretty, wet skin. He pressed a few light kisses to the sweet curve of her neck and shoulder, then dried her off. Because he remembered the way her fingertips had felt dragging so lightly down his chest the night before, he gave her back the same treatment, a barely there touch.

She shivered when he did it, something he found highly satisfying.

Once her back was dry, he eased down to his knees on the floor and took his good, sweet time with her legs, starting at her ankles and working his way up. It put him just about eye-level with her hips, and he decided Grace's were the closest thing to perfect he'd ever seen. Touching her through the towel was a kind of sweet torture all its own, too.

He couldn't help it. He dropped the towel, held onto her with hands at either side of her hipbones, and then pressed his mouth to the indention at the base of her spine, kissing that delicate spot, licking it. Good thing he was holding her when he did it because she sagged against him for a moment, gasping, whimpering. And he hadn't even finished drying her off yet.

He also hadn't gotten her to talk, he reminded himself.

Getting to his feet, he put a hand on her shoulder to ask her to turn back around. She did, that towel still clutched to her front. He used his towel and started drying her skin, starting with one of her hands and working up the arm.

"Want to tell me what's got you so skittish this morning, Grace?"

She gave him a tight, lightning-fast smile that disappeared almost the second it appeared. A bit of color rose in her cheeks. "It's silly, I know—"

"Grace, if something's worrying you, I want to know."

"It's just that... Last night... The thing is... I'm not usually like that."

"Okay," he said, studying her more closely. She had surprised him, taking charge, giving orders. Maybe that was the problem. Her turn first, now his. Was she worried about what he was going to ask her to do? Or want to do to her? "Honey, you don't have to do anything you don't want to do. Not for me. Nothing... weird or even anything that makes you uncomfortable—"

"Did you think what we did last night was weird?"

"No." He laughed. "It was amazing. I've never let a woman order me around in bed before. I'm perfectly happy to take direction, requests, little tips about exactly what you like, but orders? No. Not till you."

"I've never ordered a man around in bed before," she told him.

"Did you like it?" Because that was really all that mattered between them. She'd established that criteria the night before, and it had served them well.

"Yes."

"Then I'm happy to have been your first." And then, he thought he knew exactly why she'd done it. "You wanted to distract me? You wanted me focused on not moving, not being able to touch you, instead of on whether I was going to be able to get it up?"

She blushed prettily and gave him a little smile, a real one.

Oh, yeah.
That was why.

And she'd done it despite feeling a little uncomfortable with it, done it for him. How very sweet. And insanely sexy. Especially when she'd started running her hands over her own body. God, he'd wanted so badly for those hands to be his, and today, right now, they were going to be, his hands on her beautiful body. If he could talk her down from this case of nerves she'd developed.

"Grace, I mean it. Forget that little deal we made about taking turns."

"No. I just wanted to say... That really wasn't like me. I thought, now, you might expect... that or something like that, and I don't want you to be... disappointed."

Was she kidding? He was a guy who couldn't even get hard, and she was worried about disappointing him? After what she'd done to him last night? But she seemed absolutely sincere.

"I just want you to be happy," she said finally.

"Honey, I'm probably the happiest man in the world this morning. Do you really doubt that?" He took her chin in his hand and tilted her head up until she looked him in the eye. "Because last night, you showed me we can have a great time with or without me getting hard. Thank you for that, Grace. You were amazing, so beautiful and so sexy."

"I want to be all those things for you."

"You are. Never doubt that." But she was still uneasy about something, and he just couldn't make sense of it. Did she think he was going to break out the whips and chains? Because he didn't have any. And then he remembered...

The husband.

The dirty, rotten, stupid, cheating husband.

Grace feeling like she needed to be more adventurous, pushing past some of her own inhibitions to be that with Aidan, who was so glad that man was dead, because Aidan could have happily strangled him right then.

"Baby, I'm not even going to say his name, because he doesn't matter anymore. But I don't want you to give anything he ever said to you about sex a moment in your head. A lot of men lie about sex, Grace. Usually when they've either done something they shouldn't have or are getting ready to. And instead of owning up to being the bastards that they are, they want to blame the woman they're with for it. It's just what some men do."

"Okay."

He nodded. "And I want you to know I will never do that to you. I promise."

She smiled then, looking a little less uneasy.

"You're with me now, Grace. It's me. And I'm the man who thinks you are the greatest thing that ever happened to him in his life, and even that's probably not stating the case strongly enough, considering how I feel about you. And you said you wanted me. You wanted to be with me. Well, I want you, just you. I would not be here right now with any other woman but you. Okay?"

She nodded.

"Now, do you trust me?"

"Yes," she whispered.

"Then there's nothing to worry about, baby. I am going to take such good care of you." He cupped her face in his hands and kissed her slowly, lingeringly, the touch making him want much, much more. "Now, tell me what you want, Grace. You liked being in the shower with me. You want to get back in there? You can wear your T-shirt and those pretty little good-girl panties."

"Good-girl panties?"

"Uh hmm. All pretty and white, with just a little bit of lace and a tiny bow. Sexy as hell, the kind good girls wear. The kind a guy has to work really hard to get you out of. I bet a guy really has to work for it with you, Grace, and I'm happy to work for it. I can't wait. Just tell me what you want. Right now. Anything. It's yours. The shower? Want to go back to that spot in the leaves? You liked it there. Want to cuddle up in the recliner, and I can try to act innocent while I slip my hands under your shirt? Wait, I just had an idea. You liked ordering me around. Do that. Except this time, I'll be the one touching you. Whatever you say, whatever you want, I'll do it."

"No, it's your turn. We agreed."

"Fine." Anything was fine with him right now. "What I want is for you to tell me exactly what you want me to do to you."

"That's not fair. To you."

"Grace, if you and I are together, and I get to touch you and kiss you and make you come about a dozen different ways, I'll be happy."

"A dozen?" She looked worried. "I don't think I'm capable of that. I don't know if any woman is."

He grinned. "Half a dozen?"

"So you're planning on showing off?"

"As well as I can, given my obvious limitations. Really, honey, if anybody should be nervous about this, it's me. I want to make you forget what I can't do and be happy, be satisfied, with what I can do."

"I'm not worried about that," she insisted, looking absolutely sincere. "Not at all."

"And I have the seemingly impossible task of trying to show you how much I want you, how incredibly sexy and beautiful I think you are," he said, leaning in close, kissing her slowly, softly. "How amazing it is that you're here with me now, and how happy you've made me in such a short time. You made me happy to be alive, Grace. How does a man show a woman what she means to him, when she's done something like that?"

* * *

Grace sighed, thinking that had to be the most romantic thing a man had ever said to a woman. Certainly the best thing any man had ever said to her, made so by that fact that she believed every word. She was being foolish this morning, had just a little too much time to think. She was letting her nerves get the best of her and giving old doubts and fears about her and Luc time in her head. Why would she do that, when Aidan was here?