His Reverie (32 page)

I didn’t answer him. How could I? His words both filled my heart with joy and made it shrivel up in pain. I hate that he gave up so easily. I hate that he lets Krista control him that much. Why can’t he stand up to her? What sort of control does she hold over him? What does she know that I don’t know?

He has a secret. There’s really no other reason for him to act like this. I need to find out what his secret is.

I must.

Foreboding: to foretell or predict; be an omen of

August 5
th
(longest day ever)

I
t started to rain around seven and it still hasn’t let up two hours later. Which is fine really. The late summer rain fits my mood. Angry and relentless, it rages on with a violent wind, the air steamy. I throw open my living room window and listen to the rain fall outside. The occasional crack of thunder, the flash of lightning, I’m taking it all as a sign that everything is going to shit.

Because it is. Everything good in my life is slipping right out of my hands. I let Reverie walk away from me like she was nothing. I let Krista control me like I’m nothing. I agree to do whatever she wants because I’m scared that if my girl finds out the truth of what I’ve done, what kind of man I really am, she’ll run. And I’d rather give in to Krista than face Reverie’s parents. My employers.

I’m a coward.

Her words keep coming back to me. That she never judged me, she only fell in love with me. And she’s right. She never passed judgment. From the moment we locked eyes she’s shown interest. She’s been friendly and sweet. It didn’t matter that I worked for her parents. It didn’t matter that I’m broke and have nothing and have no plans on going to college and can’t take her out in style. Hell, I couldn’t even muster up a birthday present for her that was of any value.

But she didn’t care. She accepted me openly. So why wouldn’t she accept what happened to me openly too?

I don’t know. I’ll never know because I ruined everything.

Irritated, I go into the kitchen and grab the last beer out of my fridge. Michael brought over a twelve pack a few afternoons ago after we got off work and left the remainders there. I’ve been slowly drinking them ever since. I wish I had more. I’m desperate to drown my sorrows in this stupid cheap beer. I could probably drink an entire twelve pack and still not be drunk enough to forget what I did.

Cracking open the can, I chug the beer, forgetting my original plan to savor it. I grimace when I swallow, hating the pissy taste of the cheap brand that Michael loves. I glance at the clock on the microwave and see it’s only a little after nine. I still have three hours before Krista shows up so she can supposedly seduce me and fuck me silly all night long.

The very last thing I want. I feel sick to my stomach just thinking about it. I don’t know how I’m going to make it through this night. And once the night is over, then what? What happens next? Does she blackmail me again? And again and again and again until there’s no point to it and we’re back together? Co-existing in some warped relationship where she fucks around on the side, I fuck around on the side, but we’re never truly free of each other?

Is that what I want for the rest of my life? Hell, I’m almost eighteen. Just imagining being with Krista like that indefinitely feels like some sort of life sentence, worse than jail.

And I have the right to say that since I’ve done time in one.

I finish the beer way too fast and decide I’m gonna hop in the shower when there’s a knock on my door. I’m instantly wary of who it could be. Most likely it’s Krista come to give me my torture extra early. Just what I need.

Not.

Without looking through the peephole, I undo the lock with a violent twist of my wrist and throw open the door, a snarl on my face as I prepare to yell at Krista for being too damn early.

But it’s not Krista standing on my doorstep.

It’s a shivering, soaked-with-rain Reverie.

“What…” I gape at her, hope making my heart light, my head dizzy. “What are you doing here?”

She tilts her head back, the expression on her face nothing short of triumphant. “I know your secret.”

I blink at her. She looks crazy. Her hair is dark with rain and her clothes stick to her body, her T-shirt see-through and offering me a glimpse of her lacy, kill-me-now bra. She has on a pair of cotton shorts that cling to her thighs and all I want to do is strip her out of her too-wet clothes and take her into the shower with me. Where I can warm her up.

And show her how much I love her.

“How did you get here?”

“I had Evan drop me off about a mile away. I told him I was going to a friend’s house. I didn’t tell him who or where.” She swipes wet strands of hair away from her face, but a few still stick to her cheeks. “Did you hear me? I know your secret, Nick. I know everything. About your time in jail. About your best friend saying you two killed that guy. How he lied. How you got out of jail and within two months your mom died.”

“You walked a mile in the rain in this neighborhood?” Okay, I’m pissed. “You could’ve got jumped.” Or worse. Way worse.

She shrugs. “I w-wanted to s-see you. And tell you that I know what happened to you and I don’t care. Well, not that I don’t care, because I can’t believe you were put in jail for months for a crime you didn’t commit. I-I c-can’t imagine what your m-mom was th-thinking. How s-scared she m-must’ve b-been.” Her teeth are chattering, she’s so cold despite the humidity in the air.

I take her hand and drag her inside the apartment, shutting and locking the door behind her. Her scent fills my head, the dampness and heat from her skin making it even stronger, and without thought I touch her face. Skim my fingers across her cheek, down her nose, tracing her lips. “Why are you here?” I whisper. Despite her drowned appearance she’s still the most beautiful girl I’ve ever seen. My heart feels lighter just having her stand in front of me.

“I already told you.” She shoves at my chest but without much force. More like she’s clinging to me. And I’m clinging to her. Because I can’t believe this is real. That she’s in my living room and that my arms are around her and her wet clothes are making me wet too, we’re holding each other so close. “I knew you had a secret. Why else would you give Krista so much power? I started doing a few searches on the Internet and found out everything.”

Everything. She knows
everything?
I start to register what she said before I yanked her inside…

“Yes. I know.” She touches my face, just like I’m touching hers. “Did you really think I would hate you for what happened? You didn’t
do
anything. These horrible things were done
to
you. There’s a difference. A huge difference.”

“I spent months in jail,” I whisper. “No one would listen to me when I said I didn’t do it. They all laughed at me. I had to defend myself from assholes every single day I was in there. I got into fights more than once.” It was the scariest time of my life.

But being here now, knowing there’s a chance Reverie could still walk away from me for good, is scarier.

“I don’t care. It wasn’t your fault, what happened to you. If I can see that, why can’t you?” She shakes her head. “I love you, Nick. And I’m willing to fight for you. No matter what.”

“Reverie.” I bend my head and kiss her because I flat out cannot resist her. It’s been hours since I touched her lips but it feels like days. Weeks. Years. “I gotta get you home. You can’t be here with me alone.”

“No,” she says vehemently, shaking her head. “I don’t want to go home. I want to stay here with you.”

I take her in. The wet clothes, the way her teeth still occasionally chatter. “You should take a shower,” I murmur, pushing her wet hair away from her forehead, noticing how chilled her skin is. I want to take care of her. Make sure she’s warm and safe and in my arms. “So you can warm up.”

“Will you take one with me?” she asks hopefully.

Closing my eyes, I lean into her, pressing my forehead against hers. “What are we doing?” I’m confused. She was so mad at me earlier and I can’t blame her. But now she’s here. Telling me she knows all about my past and it doesn’t matter. I should’ve trusted her more. I should’ve had faith that she’d believe in me no matter what. I almost let her get away all because I was too blind to see that she loved me enough to stand by me even though my life is a mess.

I’m an idiot. A lucky-as-hell idiot whose been given another chance.

“We’re making up after our second—and much bigger—fight,” she murmurs as she nuzzles my cheek with her nose. I close my eyes and pull her in closer, holding her almost desperately. Like I never want to let her go.

Because I don’t.

“Do your parents know where you are? That you’re even gone?” I ask.

“Like they care. They’re too wrapped up in their own problems,” she says, making a little noise of disgust. “They know Evan and I left the house. He told them. And I told Evan I would text him when I got to my friend’s house. Which I need to do now…”

I let go of her and she pulls her cell out of her shorts’ pocket. She types a quick text and then sets her phone on my kitchen counter before she turns to look at me. “Can I take that shower now?”

“Yeah.” I swallow hard as I drink her in. She’s so pretty. So sweet and accepting and so goddamn perfect for me. Even though she’d deny it and get mad at me if I told her, I’m not worthy of her. Not by a long shot.

But that’s fine. I’m not turning her away any longer. She somehow sees the good in me despite my best efforts to convince her otherwise.

“Will you join me?” She flashes me a shy smile.

“You really want me to?”

She rolls her eyes. “Duh. Of course.”

Just like that, I know everything is going to be okay.

It has to be.

“I thought Krista was supposed to come see you tonight.” Reverie tucks her head in the spot between my neck and my shoulder, her breath wafting across my skin as she lightly scratches my bare chest with her fingers. I’m feeling good. We took a shower together, we rolled around naked in my bed together, and then we talked. A lot. About what happened to me. I told her everything I could, answering her questions and filling in the gaps, confessing my sins so to speak, and I felt cleansed. Whole again. Like I’ve got nothing left to hide.

But I immediately tense at first mention of Krista’s name. Crazy, but I completely forgot about her and our midnight meeting. “Yeah, I was.” I glance at the clock. It’s already past one in the morning. “She was supposed to be here at midnight.”