Lie to Me (A Touched Trilogy) (13 page)

She stopped abruptly and turned to face me.

“So, what? I don’t have any privacy anymore? Great. Chloe
was always running around telling me what I was going to do and now that she’s
finally stopped you’re going to need to know everything I do or think?”

“That’s not what this is about, Tonya. I don’t need to know
everything, but give me some credit and don’t lie to my face about things
anymore. Tell me to mind my own business, whatever, but don’t lie. I apparently
get enough of that without my best friend doing it, too.”

I stomped away, letting my feet pound the frustration from
me. Part of me had thought - okay hoped - that she would think me having a gift
was cool. I totally hadn’t expected her to turn on me again. Well, screw her. I
had enough crap in my life without her dumping on me.

The door to Mr. Arnold’s class swung open as I walked
through. I found my seat in front of Nathan’s empty one and slumped into the
chair, tossing my binder on top. I started to stew, thinking about what a
crappy assed gift I had. I laid my arms on my desk and then rested my head on
them. The darkness in that small space was nice, tempting me into a little
catnap.

My ear twitched as a tingling sensation passed through it. I
rubbed at it, only for it to happen again and again. Swatting my hand at the
fly I figured it must be, I jerked my head up and twisted around, coming face
to face with Nathan’s grinning face. His pencil stuck out toward me.

“Stop it,” I snapped.

“Whoa, who pissed in your cornflakes?” The pencil lowered.

“No one. I just...never mind.” I sighed and turned around.
No way did I want to get into a discussion about Tonya, especially since she’d
be walking through the door any minute. Gossiping about your best friend, even
with your boyfriend, was never allowed.

“Is this a test?” he asked.

I glanced over my shoulder, lifting my eyebrows. “A test?”

“Yeah, one of those ‘if he really cares he’ll keep asking’
tests that I’m bound to fail, because if I do keep asking it’ll turn into a
‘can’t he tell I don’t want to talk about it’ test.”

I cracked a smile. “No, it’s not a test. I just had a crappy
morning and I really don’t want to talk about it.”

“’kay.” He sat back a little, before a sly smile curled his
lips and he leaned closer to me. “Hey, you want to go make out at lunch?”

“What?” I glanced around to see if anyone had heard, but
everyone was engaged in their own conversations. Well, except Chloe, who was
giving me a knowing smile.

“Just kidding.” He smiled and I felt my grin grow to match.
“Unless you want to.”

I snorted and looked back at the front of the class. Mr.
Arnold got his things ready to start and Tonya was finally making her way to
her desk. I wasn’t going to get a chance to talk to her before class. I hoped
she’d be a bit... I didn’t even know what I hoped, just not angry.

An hour later, I caught up with her in the hall. I grabbed her
arm lightly and she flinched away, but she paused and acknowledged me with a
scathing look.

“Tonya, I’m sorry. I didn’t try to use my gift, it just
happened. I have no control over it, and it’s actually turning out to be a pain
in the ass.” I thought of all the useless little lies I’d been picking up on.
Bianca liking Karin’s new haircut. Karin going to another study group. Chloe
needing money from Dad for a new bra. Well, that last one wasn’t completely
useless, because Dad had immediately turned red and pulled out his wallet.

“Whatever,” she said and we started walking again. “Try not
to use it on me. Seriously girl, I need some kind of privacy.”

“I promise I’ll try. Just...If you don’t want me to know
something, tell me to butt out, ‘kay?” I said, and she gave me a half smile.

I so wanted to ask her where she’d been, but there was
something different between us. Best friends didn’t have to tell each other
everything, God knew there was a crap load of stuff I hadn’t told her, but I’d
never known that she was deliberately hiding things from me before. It was a
bit unnerving.

“I was with Trevor,” she said, answering the question I’d
been dying to ask again.

“What? You ditched school for your boyfriend?” We reached my
locker and I jammed my trig notebook inside and pulled out my English one.

“As if you wouldn’t have done it if Nathan had asked.”

“Besides the point. Nathan is, well, Nathan.” I swear I
tried not to sigh.

“Yeah, well I happen to think Trevor is a lot more worthy of
school skipping than Nathan.”

“So, what did you guys do?”

“He took me back to his place.” Her cheeks darkened and she
gave me that kind of ‘you know’ look.

“You had sex with him?” I whispered. Not exactly a deadly
sin, but not something I thought Tonya would want advertised.

“Yeah.” The blush deepened.

“And?” I asked after I was able to pull myself out of my
shell shock.

“It was, I don’t know, good I guess. I mean it hurt a bit
and then it was just kind of over. The second time was better though.”

“Over as in...”

“Two minutes? Maybe three.” We both laughed. Not exactly the
wonderful romance novel stuff we’d read about.

“Wow. Wow.” I kept repeating it, unable to believe what
Tonya was telling me.

“I know,” she said and, when our giggles drew a few eyes, we
tried to control ourselves.

“Please tell me you used a condom,” I said, practicality
finally winning out over lurid curiosity, although maybe it was part of it.

“Duh. Trust me, growing up as an accident, I’m not going to
repeat my mother’s mistakes.”

Okay, I was a tad jealous. Out of the two of us, I’d always
thought I’d be first. Of course, those daydreams had always involved Nathan
and, until a few weeks ago, he’d pretty much made those dreams more of a
fantasy than a possibility. But after hearing how Tonya had described the
experience, I wondered if she regretted doing it. Tonya wasn’t known for her
long-term relationships.

“Ready?” Nathan asked just as his arm seemed to drop out of
nowhere and over my shoulder.

“What? Oh, yeah.”

Tonya and I looked at each other and burst out laughing.

“What’d I miss?” He cocked an eyebrow at us.

“Nothing,” I answered with another giggle.

“Come on, you can tell me.”

“Trust me, you don’t want to know. I’ll catch you later,” I
said, then waved bye to Tonya.

Luckily, Nathan managed to distract me through my boring
classes, and those he wasn’t in were interesting enough to let me make it
through the rest of the day. That night, as I sat at my computer desk, was
entirely different.

I wished I’d had the guts to ask Tonya more. Dad had given
my sisters and me the speech when we were twelve, so I knew about sex, although
it was more than he probably knew thanks to playground talk. But this was
different. Until a few weeks ago, sex hadn’t been a top priority for me. Now
though, Nathan was a good enough kisser to make me think of jumping his bones
every time our lips touched.

Part of me wanted to do it. To have the experience and that
thrill, but at the same time Nanna’s ancient lesson of why buy the cow when the
milk is free was engrained in my brain. Tonya had found it pretty easy to give
in. Would I be the same? It was stupid to even worry about it. Nathan and I
hadn’t even been out on a real date yet, but I wondered how I would know if I
was ready.

I shut down my computer and decided to go to the one person
who might be able to help me.

I gave a light courtesy knock on Lily’s door before walking
in.

“Hey,” I said flopping onto her bed. I grabbed a book off
her nightstand and fanned the pages a few times before throwing it on the
floor.

She sat in her computer chair, her short legs crossed on the
seat, and when she spun around to face me, I was suddenly filled with
embarrassment.

“What’s up?” she asked.

“Can’t I just come and spend some time with my favorite
sister?”

“You? Without an ulterior motive?” She leaned down from her
chair and picked up the book, putting it back on the nightstand in the exact
position it had been in before I’d touched it.

“Whatever. You’ve been spending too much time with Chloe.
You’re starting to get her snarky attitude.”

“Hmm, I could have sworn she just told me the same thing,
only it was you I was around too much. So, why are you here?”

I loved that Lily said it with love and humor. From Chloe
those words would have sliced through me.

“When did you know you were ready to have sex with Dylan?” I
blurted it out in a mad rush.

“What?” Her entire face flushed a bright red and I wished I
could have asked Chloe. Lily was one of those extra sweet people, the next
Mother Teresa, which made talking sex with her even weirder.

“How did you know you were ready?”

“I didn’t. I mean- we’re not...” Every freckle on her face
seemed to be glowing.

“You’re not having sex?” My eyebrows shot up in surprise.
“Why not? I mean, you guys have been dating, like, forever.”

“I’m not ready.”

“How do you know?”

“I don’t know. We’ve talked about it and I know he wants to,
but...” Spinning back to her computer, she shrugged a shoulder and let her
voice trail off.

“But?”

“It’s not something I really want to talk about, okay?” Her
voice trembled.

“Is everything okay with you?” I asked. Guilt filled me as I
realized that was one question I’d probably never bothered asking her before.
Lily was the solid one, the one who was constantly calm and there for me when I
needed to feel better.

“Yeah, I’m fine,” she answered.

“Are you sure? You sound kind of sad.”

“I’m really fine. I just need to get this paper done.”

Wow. A brush off from Lily. Well, there’s a first time for
everything.

“Sure. I’ll leave you to it.”

I left her room and ran into Chloe just outside the door.
She had a huge grin on her face.

“Shut up,” I said before a word even passed through her lips
and shoved past her into my room.

“Did you really believe Lily would be having sex? She’s
probably never even had a dirty thought cross her mind in her entire life.”

“So, I guess I should have asked you?”

“I could have at least told you it’s gonna be a long while
before you need to worry about that.”

I slammed the door on her smug face. God, I hated having a
sister who knew more about my future sex life than I did.

Chapter 7

The only thing better than a Friday was a Saturday, and this
time it wasn’t just because there was no school. Nathan and I were going to
have our first real date. He worked at the gas station until six, so we’d
decided to skip dinner and just catch a movie.

The doorbell rang at just after seven and I raced to answer
it.

“Wow, you look hot,” he said when I opened the door wearing
my new skinny jeans and a black top.

He looked gorgeous as usual, his hair still damp and
smelling absolutely delicious. I couldn’t decide if I wanted to sniff him or
run my hands through his hair. Instead, I practically shoved him out the door
before my dad could do some crazy interrogation.

The theater was packed when we arrived. There wasn’t a whole
lot of entertainment for anyone under twenty-one in Beachgrove on a Saturday
night. I talked to a couple of girls from school standing behind us in line
while Nathan used the automated ticket booth.

“Ready?” he said, turning from the machine. I nodded and
said bye to the girls. He slid his hand around mine. “I still can’t believe you
want to see this movie.”

“Why? Because I’m a girl?”

“Maybe.”

“Well, maybe I just realize the benefits of a scary movie.”

“And what would that be?”

“I can scream and snuggle up to you.” I gave a sassy smile
and, tugging his hand, pulled him toward the concession. “Come on, I’m dying
for some popcorn.”

“How do you do that?” he asked when we’d gotten in the long
line.

“What?”

“Flirt like crazy and then just walk away.”

“Well, you said you wanted to do the chasing, so I can’t
make it too easy for you.” I stood up on tiptoes and leaned in, but stopped an
inch away from him. I waited, hoping he’d close the distance.

“You’re right, I did say that.” He smiled and stepped around
me. “The line’s moving.”

My face scrunched in an angry-but-trying-not-to-laugh way.
He was playing with me, and I liked it. Much better than my vain pursuit of him
the past couple of years.

We ended up getting seats in the middle of the theater.
Nathan tried for the back row, but it was already filled with some other people
from school. The movie was as scary as I expected. Halfway through, I had my
knees pulled up to my chest with one hand covering my eyes.

“Stupid bitch! Get out of the house!” I whispered
frantically.

I leaned closer to Nathan and closed my eyes. No longer
providing a shield, my hands moved to cover my ears. Why I always wanted to go
to those movies was beyond me. It was like I was asking to get the crap scared
out of me, then angry when it did.

“Sure you want to watch the rest?” Nathan asked, a huge grin
on his face.

“Yes. Shh...” I shifted a bit closer to him and let myself
relax as the tension in the movie lessened. My hands dropped to the armrests
and I brushed one against Nathan's hand. My fingers itched to prolong the contact,
but I refused to give in to temptation, knowing if I did, I would start losing
our game.

About five minutes passed before I felt his hand again. He
trailed his fingers along my arm so lightly that I would have missed it if I
hadn’t seen him move. Once I knew what he was doing, though, it set off a race
of shivers across my entire body. I kept still, knowing he was playing, maybe
testing me to see if I would wait for him to make his move.