Love To Luv (12 page)

             
To answer your question about a two-hour session.
That’s not long enough for me.
Especially for a person like that have been locked up so long.
I’m thinking about making out all night type shit. So can you handle that? Me, myself, I have too much loving to give. That’s good Baby that you are taking your finals. I pray that you do well on them.

             
So you telling me everything you do think about me. You want to know what life fulltime would be with me. It would be everything you ever wanted in a relationship. So whatever you wanted in a man, that’s me. I am the type to put my soul mate first and foremost. Because what is a relationship that is based on sex. I am looking forward to waking up to you telling you every morning how much I love you and how much you mean to me. You say you want to lay in bed and talk. Well you can talk to me whenever you write. Tell me about your day. I will tell you about my day – I worked out on my chest and arms today, trying to stay fit for when I see you. You will be able to feel the body that is hard for you to rub on. I am going to be looking forward to that picture of you and the kids.

             
And for you info, I still have those pictures of you. I will never let them go. You ask me do I really want a relationship with a guy. Does it matter who a person is with if you have feeling for someone it don’t matter what their sexuality is. If you worry about that, love will always pass you by.

             
With the Dalton thing, that was my homeboy. I was doing some
hole
time for cursing one of the guard out and he wrote me and told me to write you if I was interested. So I took it upon myself to take a chance. That is how that came about.

             
You must really like that picture I sent you. I told you I was going to send another one whenever I took another one so you can look at it to. I could never get enough of hearing you say that.

             
Yes, I am moving back home when I am released from here. I’m the type of
nigga
that love having fun. Going different places, doing shit normal people don’t do.
Like making out in the movies and in a restaurant.
Wherever I feel like fucking my mate that is what type I am. I would love for them to be open as me.

             
See your ex was something like a thug but I am one. I like a person that can handle their own with a person or without. My dislikes is someone that is dirty.
Someone that don’t want anything out of life.
My turn-on’s are pretty eyes and smile, my turn-off’s are sack chasers and free loaders and bad breath. I like to smoke weed, fuck, and watch movies.

             
The first time I know I was attracted to guys was when I was about 15 and this dude name Jerry asked me could he
suck
my dick. My shit got hard. I knew something was strange with that.

             
For one if I commit to anyone that is who I want to be with and that how they will know. Why play games with someone. I was always taught don’t do to others for others will do to you.

             
Your daddy was a rolling stone wasn’t he. But if you are spoiled, I want to spoil you more with my love.

             
That time that I said we wouldn’t have to go through a friendship thing cause at that time I needed more than a friend. I needed a mate so that’s why I said that. 

             
At first I thought you were afraid to open up but I guess you feel a little more comfortable with me now.

             
The reason for me calling your ass a pussy is because that what you have to me – a boy pussy (that I bet is good as hell)

             
I think you teaching night school is a good move but I don’t want you to over work yourself because you have to much going right now. If you do don’t get caught up with one of them college dude and forget about me. If that is going to take place I don’t think I’m sure now.

             
Baby you don’t have to wait too much longer before I’m home with you. Just wait on me. It is going to be worth your wait I promise you that. I care for you enough to tell you if you need to make out with someone, do you. That’s life. Just know that I am here and always will be but that is normal for all human. We have a need so if you can’t wait any longer, go get you some but make sure you leave your feelings wherever y’all make out at. You don’t have to worry about me keeping my dick to myself. Off top, the only pleasure I am going to get is if I’m playing with it. Well that’s all for now.

Your
soon to be man,

Joe

P.S. Whenever you decide to send me something. I’m here. Other than that you don’t have to keep on telling me that I believe you Boo. But about that number I do need an answer on that.

             
What’s up with you
Babyboy
? For me happy to receive you letter. How many times do you expect me to be on the back burner? I know you have your life to live but you say you are willing to live that with me. So why you continue to play these games with me feelings. Either you are going to fuck with me or you
ain’t
. But that’s a decision you have to make.

             
First and foremost I send my prayer out to your friend and his family.

             
Why do you love trying to get under my skin? If you only knew how many times I thought about picking up my pen. To be on some real shit, I thought something had happened to you. You don’t care about me feeling towards you.

             
I can say that I am very proud of you on your scores but that C. Shit you and I know that you can do better. Even doe it’s a passing grade but we only accept the best.

             
So you have been getting your flirt on which it’s nothing wrong with that as long as you don’t give away my good and yes I said my goods.

             
So who has been sticking screws in your tires? You must really be getting your flirt on.

             
I understand that you stay horny but that make two of us. I want you just as bad as you want me. That day is going to come and to answer your question; I don’t want to stick my dick in anyone but you when I get out. You think I’m going through all of these with to come home and give this loving I have for you to someone else.
N’all
that’s not going to happen because you are going to feel me for all the shit you trying to take me though.
You have a good fucking coming, believe that.

             
They do open my letters but they don’t go through it. Why did you ask me that?

             
You just are going to keep on playing with me about giving me your number. If you don’t want me to have it just keep it real with me. If we don’t have trust in this relationship we have nothing, you feel me.

             
Not to be a burden on you but boo I need you in the worst way. I need a couple of dollars
cause
I’m fucked up in here. So if you could do me that favor that would be alright.
             
Baby you didn’t tell me you wrote a book. That’s real lovely of you.

             
So old dude asked you to be in a porn movie.
So did you want to be in it? I know that a fantasy of mine. You do have a big point about catching something.

             
I am going to send you another picture probably next year.

             
Well, that is it for now. I pray you don’t take forever to write me back.

             
What up with you
Babyboy
? I hope you receive my letter in the best of health and spirit.

             
I must say you really know how to get under my skin but that’s all good. Me, myself, I should have known a
nigga
in my shoes couldn’t hold you down before you explored your chooses. Life must go on. I just have to stop thinking that I can keep it on pause.

             
This is my question to you – the next time you find a friend, which you probably will, I’m going to have to wait another month and a half before I receive another letter from you. Like I told you on the phone man, I’m trying to become more than your friend. I want to be you man. I can understand if you are not trying to commit to anyone right now. By the way you have been treated in your past relationship are whatever but don’t look at me like the rest of them. Opening up your heart – I promise I’m not going to stab you in it. If you hurt that only makes me hurt. Why hurt you when I’m going to get injured too.

             
Other than that, why are you getting tired of school? Don’t give up something you will regret later. You really surprised me when you accept my call last night. I’m kind of mad I couldn’t talk to you longer but they were telling us time to lock down.

             
I will call you next week to see what good with you. Baby, you know that I am from Mississippi and I don’t have any family in Kentucky. My people down there don’t do shit for a
nigga
. You are about the closest person to family I have. Man it is real rough on me. I had to borrow a stamp to mail you this letter and the
nigga
wants two stamps back for this one. Like I told you before, I do work in here but I only make $7 a month, so if you could do anything to help me out I’ll appreciate it. If not, I understand. I don’t want to be an extra baggage on you and I don’t want you to look at me any different than what you already see me for.

             
Well that is all for now – Until next time,

Joe

P.S. Before I end my letter, you look real lovely in your picture and I have it hanging beside my bed so you are the first person I see when  I wake up and the last one I see before I go to sleep.

             
What’s up
Babyboy
? As for me, hoping my letter find you in the best health and spirit. I received your letter last night and I must say I am very surprised that you hit me back so soon.

             
You are something else I must say. If you got me feeling you on paper, I can’t wait until we meet in person. I bet you are a site to see. Matter of fact, right before you letter slid under my door I was just holding you picture imaging me fucking you to death. But I guess all that will play out one day.

             
Baby you say that you are tired when you get off of work. I wish I could be there to give you a rub down so your muscles could relax. See that is what type of shit I am on. Don’t get it wrong, I’m still that thug
nigga
but that other side comes out of me when I’m with someone I love. Yes I said it. I love you. I don’t know what you have done to me but I just feel good inside when you write me. Even though we have never met, it seem like I have known you forever.

             
To answer your question, my aunt lived in Lexington. She wanted me to come down here to stay with her. Since I have been locked up, she passed and the bad thing about all of it, the prison wouldn’t let me go to her wake or funeral. That is why I say that you are the only family I have.

             
Happy belated Valentine’s Day.
I’m sorry that I didn’t give you a call but it is just another day in here. Also I wasn’t sure if you would be my Valentine’s.

             
So by me being your guy turns you on. If I was your man, damn what type of feeling would you have then?

             
You mentioned that you are about to start working out to get your pussy muscle tighter for me. Well first you have to stop giving my pussy away. If you are dealing with another person I hope that you are using protection. I pray you have only one person that you make out with.

             
There you go with that dude shit.

             
You want to know what I would bring to the table. I have a lot to bring. I would bring what every man and the world should bring. First, I have to take care of my family. Making sure my house is taken care of and food on the table for us and that mean doing whatever I have to for my love ones.

             
I think you like good as hell without your clothes on. Man I can’t wait to find out.

             
Baby, I really appreciate whatever you send me. You are the biggest blessing any man could ask for.

             
I hope you like my picture. I thought I would upgrade you with this one. Hoping as you are looking at you only want me more. They say the more you wait the better it will be and that’s a promise from me to you that I am going to keep. What I am planning on putting on you, you will never get enough or want to be with anybody else.