Lyfe Changing (20 page)

I try to ignore her drunken
rants in order to keep more onlookers from coming near us. “You
heard what I said I have been busy…I’m sorry if you thought my life
revolved around you…I can’t be there every second of the day like
you want me to be.” I stared down at Destiny, her pretty face wore
a mean scowl but most of all she looked pretty hurt. “Derrick I’m
not asking you to be around all the time… but I’m damn sure not
asking you to pop up every blue moon…do you know how long I waited
to hear from you?”

“
Well your ass couldn’t
have been that fucking lonely you here with somebody else.” I
yelled pointing back in old boy’s direction. “He’s not…it’s not
what you think.” She tried to explain. “Well what the hell is it
then?” I asked her sternly. Destiny hung her head down and took sip
of her drink. “He just asked me to go to the event with him that’s
it…” I still kept a stern gaze on her. “And what about you?” She
asked.

“
You didn’t look too lonely
with the chick wearing the dental floss dress.” “Oh please…” I
sighed.

“
That was just to pass time
and you know it.”

“
What’s the damn
difference?”

There was a moment of
silence before either of us spoke. “The difference is I came here
to be with you tonight and it really upset me when I saw you with
someone else.” I told her honestly. Destiny looked at me sadly, as
I looked at her I saw something I had never seen between us
before…vulnerability.

I leaned down and placed a
full kiss on her beautiful lips, something I had wanted to do all
night. We both got so into it Destiny dropped her wine glass which
shattered on the floor. The heat was building up so strong between
us I had to pull away before we exploded. As we both caught our
breathe I leaned my chin against her forehead. “D…Derrick” She
tried to speak but I cut her off. “Shhhh…don’t say anything…don’t
say anything. Let’s just go.” I released her from my grip and
pulled her to the exit. Destiny tried to protest. “Derrick wait we
can’t just leave…” I turned around and looked her, her face full of
uncertainty on whether or not she should leave with me.
“Destiny…lets go.” I repeated. With no more hesitation she grabbed
my hand as we made our exit.

15

Regrets and
Remembrance

Destiny

I slightly moaned as I moved
around in my bed. I didn’t know why but for some reason I felt so
well rested and relaxed. It was like I had spent months at a spa in
Jamaica. I turned over as the sun beamed into my eyes blinding me
for the moment. “Oh God…” I groaned as the headache from all the
champagne I had consumed set in. I felt a sudden chill run across
my bare skin and suddenly felt nervous. I looked down under my
satin red sheets and realized I was naked and completely freaked.
“Oh my God…” I shot up and covered myself as I looked around my
room to see if my lover was still there.

When it appeared that I was
alone I breathed a sigh of relief. Given a few minutes my foggy
memory attempted to come back to me.
I was
at the charity ball with James….I wasn’t having any fun….I saw
Derrick and….Oh no.
I thought as I plopped
back down in bed.
We had sex…we had sex…I
couldn’t believe we actually did it.

I rubbed my sore head
unable to stop the flowing visions of Derrick and I in the car, in
the elevator, on the bed….on the floor. My face felt hot and I was
embarrassed not wanting to believe all the things I had done with
him. “I feel like the biggest whore in the world.” I mumbled
shaking my head. I looked over to the pillow beside me and wondered
if that was were Derrick rested his head if only for a moment. I
turned to my side and held it wishing it was him. I pretended I was
laying on his chest breathing in his scent while his hands ran up
and down my lower back caressing my skin. I smiled at the idea of
it all until my thoughts were interrupted by my cell phone ringing.
I quickly got up, retrieved my silk robe, and dug into my purse
belongings which were scattered all over the floor. “Hello…” I
answered surprised at how hoarse my voice sounded. “Hey what
happened to you last night?” Realizing the familiarity of the voice
on the other line I figured there was no real emergency.

“
Marisol…what’s up? What’s
going on?”

“
What’s going on? What’s
going on is you left the charity ball without publicly thanking all
the guest, or announcing the earnings, and without closing up. What
happened to you?”

She sounded so frantic over
the phone wanting an answer for my disappearing act. I suddenly
remembered what happened when I saw Derrick at the charity ball,
the big fight we had got into, and how we ended up rolling around
in bed together. I didn’t give one thought about the charity event
and all the guest I left unattended. “Oh damn…” I sighed. “I
completely forgot about it. Who gave the announcements? And who…”
“Everything was covered….” Marisol said cutting me off. “Cat gave
the announcement…Meg thanked everyone and the rest of the hired
staff helped me close up.” I breathed a sigh of relief thanking God
I had good friends that had my back. “Oh thank you guys so much you
have no idea how grateful I am. You see, I got a little sick from
too many drinks and ended up making a dash home. I must have passed
out or something.” I easily lied.

There was no way I was
going to admit to my assistant that I skipped out on a charity
event to have sex…good sex but still sex. “But a couple of guest
said that you left with some guy…” Marisol inquired. I felt a sense
of panic but played it off real cool before Marisol noticed. “Yes I
was a little dizzy and somebody helped me into a cab to make sure I
got home safe.” “Oh that’s good…he didn’t try anything did he?” She
slightly joked. In the mist of our conversation I sensed a large
presence behind me. I tensed up a bit in fear already knowing who
it was.

As I turned around my jaw
dropped to the floor as I saw Derrick standing before me with a
towel soaking up the dampness of his long dark hair and nothing
else. I was in shock as my eyes beheld his huge masculine frame. I
saw how his broad shoulders barely fit through the door frame of my
bathroom, how his huge chest resembled a bronze shield of amour,
and don’t get me started on those speed bumps that appeared to be
abs carved into his stomach. As my eyes went lower they became
stuck and focused on the main attraction to his one man show.
“Hello…Destiny…Hello…” I jumped out of my trance and turned back
around when I noticed that Marisol was still on the phone.
“Yes…um…Marisol…um…thank you and the girls for last night that’s
was a big… I mean that was very kind of you guys. I will see you in
a few hours…got to go bye.” I quickly hung up the phone and tried
desperately not to throw Derrick back into the bed and continue
what we started last night. I finally turned around to face him,
his piercing eyes were now focused in on mine and staring me down
leaving me unable to speak…just watch him watching me.

Derrick

Destiny seemed rather quiet
during the morning after, I couldn’t blame her…the after effects of
one night with me could leave you speechless. I continued to stare
into her almond shaped grey eyes as they widened while exploring my
body. I couldn’t help but chuckle as I saw her admiration, it was
so shamelessly obvious. No longer wanting to waste any more
valuable time I quickly walked up to her and placed my hands in her
soft hair bringing her mouth to mine. There was nothing like
kissing some beautiful lips in the morning, they always had such a
sweet taste to them. Destiny couldn’t do anything but moan as she
helplessly endured the passion that was building up between us…just
the same as last night.

As I continued to kiss her
I could still feel the same intense desire we had for each. I
placed my hands under her robe and grabbed her breast firmly while
placing kisses on her neck. “Oh Derrick…Derrick…stop…Derrick stop.”
Destiny yelled pulling away from me. I looked at the panicked look
on her face and was confused. “What the hell is wrong with you?” I
laughed. Destiny covered herself, looked down at my naked body, and
turned away from me. “Oh please...” I scoffed. “You have seen it
all before no need to get shy on me now.” I said wrapping my arms
around her waist.

Destiny tugged and pulled
out of my grasp. “Derrick stop it…and put your towel on.” “For
what?” I chuckled at the fact that she was actually uncomfortable
by me being naked in front of her. Destiny refused to turn around
and face me until I was covered. I groaned and did as she asked.
“It’s on Destiny…” She finally faced me with a very stern look on
her face which kept me in confusion because of the incredible night
we had. “Look Derrick I don’t exactly remember what happened last
night but…”

My facial expression
finally told her to cut the bullshit. “Ok I do remember what
happened last night…but it was a mistake.” I looked at her weirdly.
Destiny sounded more like she was trying to convince herself of
that than me. I shook my head and took a comfortable seat on the
side of her bed.

“
A mistake huh? It didn’t
feel like a mistake to me”

“
Well we were both drunk
and things just got out of hand…”

“
We were not that
drunk…”

I said cutting her off not
understanding why she was saying this. Destiny closed her eyes and
sighed. “Well I was… I behaved in a manner that I normally wouldn’t
have. Listen Derrick let’s just forget it ever happened and move
forward with our lives.” I sighed becoming extremely annoyed by her
behavior. “Move forward huh?” I stood from the bed and paced the
floor trying to quell my frustration. “I don’t get you….I really
don’t fucking get you. You damn near rip my head off for not coming
to see you, we finally do the one thing we have wanted to do since
we had first met, and now you’re standing here today telling me it
was a mistake and you want to move forward.”

Destiny scoffed at me.
“Excuse me…wanting to see you doesn’t entail that I want to have
sex…and as for last night I was drunk and upset and yeah I did
something stupid but…look Derrick I want us to maintain some form
of a relationship with you but nothing like this.” I looked at her
and nodded while she continued to make her point.

“
So you would rather have
relationship with the Uncle Tom I saw you with last night?” Destiny
looked at me with a blank expression and sighed.

“
You don’t know anything
about that…”

“
I think I know
enough.”

I actually laughed at the
situation finding it all ironically humorous. “I don’t even blame
you…a lot of people don’t like to shit where they eat.” She looked
at me offended by my quick judgments of her. “I didn’t say that…”
“Well you know what I wish you would finally grow some got damn
balls and be honest…but hey I got what I came for.” I said
challenging her to be honest with me for the first time. Destiny
looked at me enraged and snapped. “You want the truth…ok here we
go. I don’t trust you. On paper you are a walking nightmare…I can’t
even take you seriously…with your background history…all your
children… you should come with a caution sigh …so yeah maybe I
think the Uncle Tom at the charity event is a better choice…maybe I
actually have a future with him. But what does it matter…you got
what you came for right?”

All I could do was stand
there as her venom spewed out all over me, it felt as if I was
spinning on a wheel with knives being thrown at me but I shrugged
it off. “Well good luck with that.” I began gathering all of my
clothes and getting ready to get the hell up out of there. Destiny
watched me frantically clearly upset as I got ready to leave.
“Derrick I don’t want you to leave like this.” She finally blurted
out. I placed my jacket on and looked at her like she was crazy.
“What…you want me to be happy that you think I’m a fucking
scrub.”

“
I was upset.”

“
Don’t be…” I quickly
grabbed my wallet and keys and made my exit.

16

Fight for what’s
right

Derrick

“Alright y’all be good…” I
called out to the fellows as they made their way off of the church
yard. We had been working all day and were in good progress with
the expansion of the church. It had been a minute since we had
gotten started, but now that we had everything was coming along
nicely. While everyone made their way out I stayed behind and
cleaned up. Not wanting to leave the sanctuary as of yet, I instead
just took a seat at one of the nearby tables and called it a day.
It had been a weeks since I had last seen Destiny and too be honest
I didn’t really care anymore. As much as I didn’t want to believe
she was just another bougie woman looking for a big house in the
suburbs and a Mr. Huxtable waiting for her with the keys, it was
becoming more and more obvious. I knew I wasn’t the dream package
that most women hoped for, but hell it is what it is and I make no
apologies about it. Destiny was just another bird who flew in and
then right back out when her time was done…whether I wanted her too
or not.

There were so many things
on my mind; so much was happening in my life that I just didn’t
understand. It had been almost a year since the accident and my
head had been spinning around ever since. I felt so unsure of
myself. For years I had been robbing, mobbing, and everything else
living off of other peoples riches. I never actually thought it
would catch up to me. “Well the hell am I doing?” I asked myself.
“I don’t have time for this shit. Here I am eating crumbs from the
table when I could have a full coarse meal. Hell I could be getting
paper right now.” I grabbed my things and headed for the door with
every intention of getting back into the game but before my hands
could touch the knob my feet refused to move any
further.