Maverick Jetpants in the City of Quality (8 page)

“But Wicked College John was playing ‘Light My Fire' on guitar, and was complaining about how ‘Light My Fire' is a keyboard-heavy song, and he suddenly screamed at Necro: ‘I need a keyboardist with
fingers
!'”

“There was blood in the snow afterwards,” Toby says.

I find myself running a steak knife down my forearm to scratch it. “I'm just mad, is all.”

“I don't think you're mad, Nate. I think you're onto something,” Toby says, dragging his voice out a little, like he may or may not be in Cockdrama Mode. “You've been defending that kid all your life. All he did was stare right back at you. He's not right, that kid.”

We eat for a few minutes, me pressing my finger into the fry basket's wax paper lining to get the leftover powder-grains of salt, Toby shaking the salt from his own fry basket into his hand and licking his palm. The timed street lamps and plaza store signs turn on outside (I don't think I've ever actually caught them turning on before), and headlights turn into little dots in the rain on the restaurant windows.

Very briefly, I think: Every pebble in Rochester is a piece of Nate-itory and Necrography. And I think: But Necro's my friend. Then I naturally think: Well fuck you, Necro. Maybe you should respect the friendship before you think about going off somewhere to draw all day.

Still though, Toby: You should talk about not acting right. Because we shouldn't forget when Toby came into Applebee's, and his hands shook, and his coffee vibrated every time he picked up the cup. He'd had a dream the previous night, he said. In the dream, his father was in a public bathroom, naked, looking at himself in the mirror, playing a violin. Blood covered his father's stomach and legs; his penis was cut off, curled in the sink. But when Toby told me this, it was 2:30 p.m., the least scary time in the universe. The sky was Windex blue. And Toby was massaging his temples and cheeks.

“Is that messed up, Nate?” Toby said then. “Do other people dream this stuff?”

I should tell you he was also offered a lacrosse scholarship to Syracuse. But then I'd have to tell you he spent all semester lying in bed, spitting tobacco into a Bills game cup that he propped against his chin. Toby: home in one semester, 0.9 GPA. Tried to become a cop, but kept failing the civil service exam's five-minute memory portion.

But before all that there was that dream, that violin. And as much as everyone sometimes hates Toby, there are still subjects that are in the Realm of Pain Beyond Uncomebackability.

Because Toby's right. I'm right to be annoyed. Necro needs to learn—he needs to be fucked with at the very least—and
he needs to know you can't just get up one day and decide to do certain things.

Before I get in to bed and spend the rest of the night talking to myself, I check NecronicA. I can't tell if the new illustration up there now was done in Photoshop or airbrushed or painted or both, but there's something genuinely evil in it. In the foreground is a sixteen-windowed building, real as a photograph. In each window is a different apartment unit, some with stereo speakers mounted to the walls; others with rust holes in the sinks. Every room, in some way, is on fire. In one, a woman scrambles around, her
I LOVE NY
nightshirt burning off her body.

And I don't feel the hurt in my ribs until I notice the room burning at the top right corner of the building. In that room, some kid with hair gel and thick eyebrows, in a shiny button-down date-rape shirt, is tucked under the covers in a bed. Wicked College John. But the room's furnishings—the stereo with the empty soda cans on top of the subwoofer, the way the dresser has four drawers and is positioned in the corner by the window—is that my room?!

Later that night, in my living room, the news shows roughed-up surveillance in which an explosion blows out the storefront windows of a building. It's hard to tell how recent the footage is, either from yesterday or the 1970s. The blast expands jerkily, in frame-by-frame slo-mo, glass drifting across the street like a weather pattern.

Roasted Face of Satan: Part II, The Proto-Stachening: One night, two new airbrush jobs appear on NecronicA—one that shows a fire reflecting in a Terminator-like chrome skull; another of Fearjaw Spangleveins, this character I drew one time at some sleepover and haven't thought of since. His hands have molten off and his arms are burning, and you can tell it's Fearjaw because of his long banana-shaped jaw and hat-and-feather and stubby Mario Bros. legs.

I can't even tell which is worse, because the day after, on TV, two fires occur at two of the city's larger homeless shelters. Police find part of a pink Swatch watch and some burnt wire casing at a small explosion that happened near the rear, smoking-break entrance of the Frederick Douglass Shelter. At Roads Home, police find a broken window, and on the pile of clothing directly below it, traces of what they call accelerants.

So the homeless go back to the Cadillac Hotel, or under Broad Street to the old subway. Or they go to Midtown Plaza, where there's Applebee's Baghdad, where me and Lip Cheese,
tonight, go too. Because the soda at this Applebee's, he says, is the most carbonated in all of Rochester.

We're sitting at one of the round high tables. At least three overhead table lamps are broken. Lip Cheese stares out at the Plaza's center court, where there's this Spirit-Bunny-type girl, standing by the court's fountain, which the managers shut off because people were washing their clothes in it.

She's wearing one of those maternal apron-y hippie dresses and corduroys with duct tape over one knee. She's standing under a tree that's completely bare except for a pair of underwear hanging from a branch.

“She smiled at me from out there earlier,” Lip Cheese says. “But now, she's baking my time! What is she out there, having her pyramid?”

Watch his eyes move like squirrels. Watch him look down at his hands like they've played a trick on him by moving.

Even sadder than Lip Cheese staring at Spirit Bunny is the Plaza concourse around her: a large lane of white tile through the middle and lanes of brown tile closer to the storefronts, shiny as an evacuated banquet. The monorail track, which I rode during Christmases years ago, circles the Plaza's upper level, where all the stores are empty.

Still, Lip Cheese is the only one around tonight. And I have some things I need to learn from him.

“What is He's Got a Home, He's Got a Cash, Lip Cheese?”

“A Home? A What?” His lizard eyes widen and his lips quiver. “Oh. It was just a thing me and Necro said, for a day. It's not a thing anymore.”

Lip Cheese plucks a napkin from the dispenser, runs it
through his hair, and stuffs it down his shirt and into his armpit.

“Has Necro told you anything weird lately?” I say. “About NecronicA, about Weapons of Mankind?”

“I'm so happy for him! He's really making it with Weapons of Mankind!”

So Alas, You Leave Me No Choice, said the chancellor. “Well on one of his pictures, on NecronicA?” I say. “It shows, like, this burning building with all these people on fire? And I'm worried. Because one of the people on fire is sort of short, sort of scringy, with black greasy hair parted off to the side, sort of like you?”

Which is a little messed up, maybe—that any given lie can make its way out of me so easily.

“I just hope Necro's not out there, you know, committing arson or anything,” I say.

But how can you not lean back, twist your mustache and swirl your wine when you watch Lip Cheese's face, sliding downward like an egg thrown against a window.

“But I just ate Dinosaur with him and Weapons of Mankind the other day,” he says.

Spirit Bunny has now wandered into the restaurant, standing near our table and staring upward, mouth open, at the TVs showing a music video of what I guess is Annie Lennox. Spirit Bunny's hair is dark and she's much tanner up close—a rough, beat-up tan. Her version of eye contact, I guess, is staring three inches above us.

“I feel so lost when I come in here!” Spirit Bunny says, apparently, to us.

“People always tell me I look lost! People called me Rain Man in high school!” Lip Cheese says, laughing where he should be breathing, unable to leave his hair alone.

“I know!” she says. “I was at the post office, where I'll go downtown, and people will hand me things, like ‘Here, hold this,' because they need me to hold on to their belongings for them—like cabbage, or CD players, or just bags of things.” She rubs her right eye, where capillaries have exploded into a small, red tree. “Earlier this afternoon, these guys who looked like lacrosse players pulled up to me in their van. They're like: ‘You want to come to Irondequoit Bay?' Because I'm thinking I can share my things if nobody comes back to pick them up.”

She runs her left index finger and thumb over a long strand of hair. “But these guys, in this van, they dropped me off outside Midtown, and they're like, ‘Just wait here.' I gave one of them a back rub for the entire ride, and they never came back!”

“I don't think I've ever had a back rub,” Lip Cheese says.

So I tune out at this point because Lip Cheese proceeds to tell any one of his stories about his brother: the ticket scalping; the single six-hour-long VCR tape his brother gave him that contained snippets from the green-line stir-fry of the scrambled Playboy channel. Because the only way Lip Cheese will do anything at all in life is through his brother's stories.

“And when my brother was stationed in Guam, he stopped cars at checkpoints, even if they had a headlight out, and he'd take their marijuana or, if they had it, their snacks!”

Which he says way too excitedly. And after Lip Cheese
pays for our food, Spirit Bunny says: “So, you gentlemen don't by any chance have a car to drive a lady home in?”

Lip Cheese's face scatters. He looks at me like: Life or Death: “Sure we do!”

Of course, the second I think: Oh, I'll only have to make a ten-minute drive, this girl tells us she lives seven million light-years away: in Buffalo! I can't even tell if the fog on my windows is from Lip Cheese's sweat or from outside.

The street where Spirit Bunny lives manages to hoist a loaf of frumped-up storefronts before crumbling into the rest of the city. Her apartment building has two floors, with a goopy coat of white paint on the cinder blocks. Cars are parked along the parking lot curb, engines idling, headlights on. A woman in curlers and a poofy overcoat yells something into one of their windows. We walk up a metal staircase to the second floor's concrete balcony. Fluorescent lights flinch above the doors, and immediately Spirit Bunny takes off her day voice.

“You guys are troopers, man. Troopers!” she gravels, talking a little faster, a chain-smoking and used-needle tone. She works the key into her door, whose lock and doorknob are mounted on a metal panel. “You guys like to party?”

A deadbolt thunks heavily. “They found a head in that river over there,” she says, pointing somewhere to where, apparently, there is a river.

In her living room, the walls are white-out white with Sharpie drawings of tiny schools of fish. An algae'd over aquarium is positioned like it's the TV. In a birdcage, two white parakeets make Pterodactyl in a Trashcan for noise. Beer cans on the floor have holes poked in their sides, and
I smack my lips and chew on a cloud of thin, salty-tasting smoke.

Spirit Bunny brings us a few cans of Stroh's from the mini fridge next to the aquarium and sits on the floor, hugging her shins, duct tape over her right knee peeling. Lip Cheese sits on the floor too, leaning forward, plucking hair from the carpet, and begins drinking like Death's Not Wearing a Condom. He's sweating beer mist: single-tilt drinkdown, pivoting to the mini fridge. Later, he asks Spirit Bunny if she has a boyfriend.

“My last boyfriend was an irrigation tuber in California,” she says.

“For what?” Lip Cheese says.

She leans forward. “Tomatoes?” Then she sputters laughter. “I gotta lie down.”

And when she stands up to go to her bedroom, the whole scene slows down, and everyone's voice drags like mummies and balls and chains. Because Lip Cheese, right then, stands up too, and sets his hands on her waist, and presses his crotch against her, but in this four-year-old way, like he doesn't totally understand why he likes the feeling. His breath stutters, and his cheek twitches, and then, he shapes his lips like he's about to whistle, and he kisses Spirit Bunny. As in, on the lips.

“Um, okay,” Spirit Bunny says, in the over-adult way girls do after you've kissed them on the lips and they don't want you to.

“What's wrong,” Lip Cheese says, in this way that's innocent-sounding, like a child possessed by Satan. My stomach folds, grows a thumb like a boxing glove.

“You're welcome to crash on the couch if you can't drive,”
Spirit Bunny glazes, now back to her Spirit Bunny voice. “I'll leave the hall light on. I still can't believe those guys in that van today. Those Wasp, freaking Reagan-humping jocks!—that's a bit touched, man!”

Her door closes. Lip Cheese chews on his thumb and paces in front of the aquarium, whispering entire paragraphs to himself, the occasional held breath squeaking out of him.