Motown Takedown (Motown Down Book 3) (37 page)

“Convince him Monarch is unstable, that his den is crumbling. Use your tie to me as leverage, understand? Offer me up however you need to, that’s all I need you to do.”

“Monarch is unstable,
”
Dopey offers with a grin. “At least we won’t be lying.”

“We get inside,
”
Sam says coming to my side. “Then what?”

“Stay out of my way.”

Sitting in the
punishment circle
while Monarch prowled around the group had me staring at my hands. The boys never had his anger trained on them and if unleashed, it the fault would be mine. Their orders were to follow me and I had no right putting them in danger like I did. Honestly, I was so single-minded I realized I hadn’t been thinking at all. These boys were my responsibility and I fucked up. Even if I had enjoyed the end result, I could see how Monarch may dislike my tactics. Yes, my boys were skilled but my plan I’ll admit wasn’t very thought out. At any time, Casper could have called my bluff and killed any one of them. Fuck, he was known for it. Bottom line, I knew better.

“Your orders,
”
he says to Dopey first. “What were they?”

“Follow Cinn.”

“Sam, were yours the same?
”
he asks standing behind him. When he stayed silent, he asked again. “Answer me.”

“Yeah.”

“Pillbox, did you hear those orders?”

“Yeah,
”
he says solemnly.

“Jones what about you?”

“Orders were to follow Cinn.”

I was about to speak up when he made it clear to shut up, so I did. “Your orders were to follow her. Tell me how you ended up in the enemy’s living room weaponless?”

“She’s Cinn,
”
Jones shrugs. “Wasn’t gonna let her go in alone. Plus, she had a plan and shit. That plan didn’t include weapons.”

“Did it ever occur to you she shouldn’t go in at all?
”
he asks low.

It was Sam who surprised me the most. “We follow Cinn, period. If she wants to do dumb shit we do dumb shit keeping her alive while she does it. She had it under control.”

“Wasn’t letting her go alone,
”
Pillbox says meeting his stare.

“You said follow, we followed,
”
Dopey explains.

“You did this just because she asked?
”
he addresses the group and each gave a nod. But I couldn’t take it anymore. God, if anything didn’t look good on me it was guilt.

“It was my fault,
”
I confess. “I put each of you in danger and I was wrong.”

“Cinn,
”
Sam starts but I hold up my hand.

“No, Sam. What I did was wrong and I need to apologize. I used your loyalty to my advantage and it was stupid and reckless. If something happened to you because of me, I’d never forgive myself…”

“Boys,
”
his voice booms. “Take off.”

Giving them a small smile of encouragement they did. Extending his hand to me, I take it and curl into his side. “I fucked up, Eros. I’m sorry if I worried you.”

“Those boys would die for you,
”
he says softly.

“Yeah.”

“Those are the kind of men I want protecting my queen when I can’t be there.
”
Then taking my chin he tips it up and when I see his worry, my guilt tripled. “I wasn’t there, Cinn.”

“I know, Eros.”

“You put yourself in danger,
”
he reminds me. “Scared me.”

“I can’t promise it won’t happen again.”

“Calling me a bitch set you off? Or was there more?”

“There was more,
”
I admit. That fucker said some shit that I could not let slide.

“He’s dead,
”
he says pulling me close. “It’s over, Mo chuisle.”

“Okay.”

“Helluva shot to the hand, Cinn,
”
he says smiling and his teeth all but sparkled. “Got me hard.”

“Oh yeah?”

“Yeah,
”
he says hauling me forward to kiss me. “Go see your mutt then you get your punishment.”

My smile could not be contained. I handled Ares and decided I needed to act out more often. Being bad felt really good.

“Unreal,
”
I groan watching her slide a finger inside. “Fucking unreal.”

She was supposed to be the one receiving punishment but right now, she was punishing me in the best fucking way possible. “Add another,
”
I order her. When she does my eyes almost rolled back. “Again.”

“Eros,
”
she moans in ecstasy with three fingers deep. “I need to be punished now.”

“It’s coming,
”
I promise her warming my hands up. “Right after you do.
”

“Do you like it when I’m bad?
”
she purrs.

“No one does bad like my queen,
”
I say yanking her to me by her ankles. Wrapping her legs around my waist, she rolls up to take my mouth but keeps those fingers deep in her pussy. “Prepare yourself, Mo chuisle,
”
I warn. “You’re about to be punished by your king.”

“Monarch?
”
she asks softly then offers me the sweetest smile. “Thank you.”

“For what, Cinn?”

“Loving me.”

The sincerity in her voice and the vulnerability on her face un-fucking-did-me. In that moment I was broken down and rebuilt into a man who could look in the mirror and finally be proud of himself. “Fuck,
”
I choke out. “What you do to me, Cinn.”

“I just love you, Monarch,
”
she whispers. “I’m only doing what I was born to do.”

Because of the emotion running through me I delivered a punishment so fucking special, we both came from it.

With Cinn snoring on my chest and Ares pushed deep into my side, I take her hand threading our fingers together. Now that Casper was gone, it was time to put a fat rock on her finger. She belonged to me, I knew that but I wanted the world to know it. Any man that looked at her would know she was claimed. Call it what you want but I wanted that. Earlier while she was riding my cock, I spanked her ass hard delivering another punishment but we both knew that wasn’t what it was. It was another way to show her I loved her. When it came to her, I would always find another way to show her, I’d never let her wonder because she fucking knew.

An hour ago, my phone stopped buzzing. The boys wanted to make sure their queen wasn’t in trouble or upset. I let them know she wasn’t and to report in the morning. Pookie took off to see his woman and Ransom shot me a message asking if Cinn killed Casper. Him I have not answered. Him I have nothing for.

I gave that guy my trust and at the first opportunity he wanted what did not belong to him. Odds were good he fed our enemy information too. I’d deal with him eventually but it wasn’t tonight. Kissing her temple, I decided to let go of the bullshit and enjoy my time with Cinn. Christ, seeing her earlier did something to me. It brought out all the emotions. Fear, pride, anger, and humor. My queen got her girls together to exact retribution on an enemy for calling her man a bitch.

Meant for me…

“You’re thinking about me,
”
she says rubbing her eyes.

“Always thinking about you.”

“It’s the same for me, Eros,
”
she sighs while getting repositioned. “I worry for you too.”

“You’ll wear a big ring?”

“Well,
”
she says smiling into my chest. “I certainly won’t wear a small one.”

Laughing wakes Ares and he spins to get in on the action. The three of us could get no closer but fuck, I wanted too. “This tattoo,
”
she says tracing my rib. “Obviously it’s about me but what does it mean?”

“That one says,
I am not led; I lead
.”

“And this one?”

“
Always towards better things.
”

“Can we get our nicknames done?”

“Cinn,
”
I groan pulling her up higher. Tracing her chest, I tap just over her heart. “Mine will go here.”

Running her finger up my throat to the open space there, she smiles, “And mine will go here.”

“Sleep,
”
I order her otherwise I was fucking her again.

“Bossy,
”
she mumbles.

“Is my queen happy?”

“Is my Eros happy?
”
she counters on a yawn.

Then squeezing me and the dog together, she passes right back out before I could answer.

“Greek Mythology, crime stories, and romance,
”
he smirks. “The first two I get, but why romance, Cinn?”

“Because real life can suck, Monarch,
”
I smile. “It’s nice to get lost sometimes.”

“I can be romantic,
”
he mumbles.

“You can also suck too,
”
I offer up.

“I’ll show you romance, Cinn,
”
he says kneeling between my legs. “You can suck my cock while I tell you how pretty you are. That’s fucking romance, someone needs to write that shit down.”

When the laughter started it couldn’t be contained. It took me over making my stomach hurt and my eyes water. I’d have kept laughing too if Monarch hadn’t shoved his cock in my mouth and told me how pretty I was.

He wasn’t in bed when I woke up.

Checking the kitchen, Pookie said Monarch took the boys to work with him and asked to take Ares out to pee. I said yes because I wanted some alone time with my coffee. Savoring the taste, my phone lights up and I swipe it to read the message.

Gage says I’m more beautiful than you so eat a dick!

My response to her was;
He has to say that honey, he’s your husband. But we both know the truth. PS, I ate dick twice last night. I win.

I hate you Cinnamon xoxo

I hate you too Pepper xoxo

Taking my cup and my phone, I head to the library planning to read until and fill the time until he came back. One of the traits I loved about him was how perceptive he was. He saw I struggled with being alone but assured me time to myself was a good thing, a normal thing, and that I needed to slowly adjust to it. Time alone was one thing, boredom quite another. I literally had zero to do outside of reading. Forcing myself to focus, I wasn’t two chapters in when Demo called. He kept it brief by asking how I was, if I’d heard from Ransom and when I told him to relax it was over, he disagreed. When I asked why he felt that way, he said it was just a feeling he’d be looking into and hung up.

No longer in the mood to read, I grab Ares from Pookie and head to my room to put my suit on. Ten minutes later I was doing laps with Ares keeping pace. Towards the end of our session, I sent Monarch titty pics which of course he loved. He also reminded me, Pookie was in the garage and would check in periodically. To me this translated to me being free to read all day. Funny, because not too long ago that’s how I spent all my days and I swore when I broke free I’d be too busy taking on the world to read. But I was a reader and a part of me will always get lost in the written word.

It’s who I was.

It’s just not who I felt like being today.
Drying off, I went back in and nabbed a fresh cup on the way to change. That done, I waited for Ares to climb up before grabbing my laptop. I researched home decor for a while, at least an hour but it was too quiet without Monarch or the boys. I also liked shopping in stores, with my girls, not online. Wanting a distraction, I dial him up and he answered on the first ring.

“Mo chuisle,
”
he says with love.

“Turns out I’m lonely
and
needy,
”
I throw out there. “I miss you, Eros. When are you coming home?”

“If we wrap this up quick, no later than seven.”

“Seven? Where are you?”

“Down in Monroe trying to work out a deal. I’m letting the boys handle it, see how they do. Promised them we’d hit the fucking outlet mall on the way back.”

“You’re going to the outlet mall?
”
I burst out laughing. “On purpose?”

“You want another spanking?”

“Now that you mention it,
”
I say breathlessly. “Yes.”

“Then be naked when I get there.”

“Be safe, Eros.”

“Love you, Cinn.”

“I love you too.”

Then he hung up and I didn’t bother with the laptop. Because I was lonely and slightly pathetic, I called Ares to me determined to find Pookie. He’d love spending time with me, he’d be crazy not to. Well, and he sort of swore fealty to me which meant he had to. Heading out to the first garage, I saw him putting air in my tires and smiled big.

Ares, the little doll, tackled him and I smiled even bigger.

If having your tires filled with air by one of your men wasn’t in a fairy tale, it really should be.