Never Enough (14 page)

Marcus looked between the two of us and then back to Halley. “Is this true? Macy put you up to this?”

“Yes, Marcus I put her up to this,” I replied. Halley didn’t get to answer. She just nodded her head.

“Well then you two,” he pointed at me and Trevor, “need to talk. I don’t like getting in arguments with Halley because of you two. So whatever it is figure it out.” Halley mouthed she was sorry to me and he put his arm around her waist and they walked off.

I stood in front of Trevor too ashamed to look at him. Never did the consequences of my actions cross my mind. My hand reached for his and he moved his hand away from mine. Tears began forming and I blinked them back.

“Trevor, I uh..”

He was angry. “You what Macy? You screwed up? You embarrassed me? You’re drunk. You smell like you’ve bathed in it tonight. What is wrong with you?” He was practically yelling at me. No one yelled at me. No matter how much I screwed up, no one ever yelled. The tears I fought to hold in were now falling down my cheeks uncontrollably. I couldn’t speak, but I prayed my feet could move because right now I wanted nothing more than to run far away from here.

I spun on my heel to walk away but he grabbed my arm, trying to get me to stay. “Mace, talk to me. You’re not walking away from this conversation.”

“What do you want me to say Trevor? I screwed up ok. Shit happens. You weren’t exactly looking away from her tits. Go take her home since you enjoyed the show so much. I’m done.” I practically screamed at him to show him he’s not the only one who can yell.

“You’re done? You nearly cause a fight in the bar
that your uncle owns and you’re done? Why did Halley and that girl fight? Answer me.”

I didn’t want him to know the truth but I
spit it out, “Because she walked up to me at the bar like she owned the damn place and told me she was going to steal you away and I’d be yesterday’s news. I didn’t trust her then and I asked Halley to watch her for me. Then she flashed you and I watched you stare at her.”

“You think I want her? Just because she flashed me?” His tone sounded hurt but I didn’t care.

“Look my head is spinning because yes, as you put it I am drunk and I have been bathing in it because I couldn’t handle tonight.” My words were beginning to slur more than normal and I felt my legs almost turn to jello but I held my own.

“Why didn’t you just talk to me?”

“You were busy Trevor. Playing your songs.” I mocked an air guitar and he shot me a look. “I can’t just waltz onto the stage and pull you down when I have a problem. You can’t be there all the time. Look can we leave. I don’t want my uncle hearing everything and frankly I’m ready to go home.”

He grabbed my hand and we began walking. I stopped at the bar for one more shot on the way home. I needed it to finish numbing myself for the fight it seemed we were in for. He shot me an unhappy look but didn’t say anything.
I’m pretty sure he knew better than to say anything to me at this point.

We rode home in absolute silence. Just as we were about to pull into the apartment he grabbed my hand and
broke the silence, “You should have said something Macy. I can’t believe you’d even think I would want her.”

My brain kept going fuzzy. The shots were going to my head. Trevor just said something but I had no idea what he had said. All I know is we were still sitting in the car and I loved the way he looked in the dark car.
If only I could really find which face was his, they all were looking alike right now. I climbed onto his lap and opened his mouth with my tongue. He hesitated then kissed me back. I nibbled his ear lobe and whispered, “Take me upstairs and make love to me.”

Like nothing, he opened the door still holding me. My legs wrapped around his waist, my lips kissing his neck and lips. He opened the door and laid me on the bed. He looked at me and said, “I hate fighting with you. I love you so much.”

“Oh yeah, show me.” I felt like a daredevil. I was burning with desire for him. I had to have him right now.

He fumbled around with the button of my skirt but I grabbed his hand and slid it underneath. He grinned and slid my black lace panties off then the skirt. I removed my shirt with ease. He took in my body with his eyes then let his mouth explore. I moaned in pleasure begging him to take me now but he took his time. My head continued to spin but I was swimming in so much pleasure I didn’t care. His breathing was ragged. He wouldn’t let me touch him. I wanted to touch him so bad. He slid his fingers inside me and I almost screamed. I moved with the rhythm trying to reach his jeans. Finally I got ahold of the button and I undid the zipper. I reached inside his jeans for his length and ran my hand up and down. He moaned and tried to kick his jeans off.

“Please Trevor, I want you.”

With ease he slid into me and I moaned in delight. He took his time with me savoring every inch of me. He felt so amazing inside me. We moaned in release together and he rolled on the side of me and kissed my forehead.

“Don’t ever doubt how much I love you.”

I kept telling myself I trusted him. More than anything. I just didn't trust her. She'd never been in The Lounge before and she waltzed in like she owned the place.

This was our first test and I about got Halley in trouble.

"I'm so sorry Trevor. Can you forgive me? I jumped to conclusions. I was just crazy jealous and scared I'd lose you. I can't lose you." Tears filled my eyes and I let them fall.

"Baby you won't lose me. Ever."

"Promise?"

"Cross my heart." He actually crossed his heard with his finger then held me.

I lay there content taking the whole moment in. He was everything to me.
I couldn’t imagine what my life would be like without Trevor there. This was all surreal with him and there wasn’t a single moment that passed where I wasn’t absolutely thankful for him. His arms were my safe place. Within a few minutes I was sound asleep.

Chapter 11

The next morning felt like a giant blur. My head felt like a million bombs exploded during my sleep. A hangover great. I didn't want to hear any noise. The bird chirping outside my window made me want to scream. Trevor was still sleeping thank god but his snoring was enough to make me want to smother him with the pillow.

The breeze felt cool. I never get cold when I'm sleeping. I'm always comfortable. Great Macy, your naked. Does this mean Trevor forgave me for the episode with that bitch at The
Lounge? That was one thing I could scratch off my list. I slowly began to get up so I could get dressed and attempt to cure this horrible hangover.

His hand reached around my waist and pulled me back down onto the bed. My head just started to feel normal. Ugh. It was spinning again.

"Good morning Mace." His words were soft and his smile was welcoming. Maybe I had been forgiven.

"Morning. Thank you for whispering."

"Serves you right. You wouldn't be hung over if you didn't pull your little jealous rant last night. Don't think I've forgotten."

Crap. Well so much for that. "I told you I'm sorry."

"I know and I'm not trying to rehash all of that I'm just saying I remember."

"Trust me I do too." I held my head hoping all this spinning would stop.

"Lie down I'll go get you an aspirin and some water." He threw on his clothes as soon as he found them.

He went into the kitchen and I grabbed my phone. Halley had sent a text asking if everything were ok. No lie I had responded saying we were trying to have sex leave me alone. I was mortified. Hal
ley would never let me live this down. Ever. I texted her to tell her how sorry I was and that I was awake waiting on aspirin. A few minutes later she sent a smiley face and informed me she and Marcus had gone out for the day.

Trevor came back in with toast, coffee, and aspirin. Silently I thanked him then took the aspirin. After eating the toast I laid
back down. Trevor lay beside me with one arm around my stomach.

"I love you Mace."

I mumbled, “love you too." My eyes closed and I was asleep once more.

******

Halley stood beside me shaking me violently. I jumped out of my skin, holding the comforter against myself. We were best friends but she surely didn't want to see me naked.

"Christ Halley! What the hell?!" My heart was pounding in my chest. "Where's Trevor? I thought you and Marcus had gone out for the day?"

She tapped her foot impatiently. "He's out with Marcus. I sent them out ok. Don't worry about it. And obviously we came back early." Her eyes moved over my situation and she let out a long exasperated sigh.

"Excuse me? Don't come in here with attitude.
This is my room. You woke me up what do you want?" My tone came out a little more harshly than I intended it to but I mean really. She knows I'm not a morning person at all so she brought this upon herself. "Well get to talking."

Her lip pouted out and she glared at me for a moment. She'd rarely known me to get angry with her. "Look I'm sorry Mace. I just I'm freaking out."

This could be amusing. I'd never seen her this upset over anything since I’d known her. It must be serious.

"Do you want to talk here with me wrapped in a, uh, blanket or what?”

“This is fine Macy I promise. I just really need to talk. I’m glad everything is funny to you!”

My comforter about fell off my chest I was laughing so hard. I had to hold it up. She glared and replied, “Just get dressed. This isn’t funny.”

She turned her head long enough for me to throw on my bra, shirt, and shorts. She meant business. I tried my best to focus for her. So far the aspirin Trevor gave me was working. My best friend obviously needed me. I mean why else would you wake someone up scaring the hell out of them like this.

“Sit down Hales.”

“No I can’t.” Nervously she began pacing the room. Her hands kept sliding through her hair.

My hand reached out to hers and she stopped and looked at me with tears. She was always so strong. I could count on my hand the
amount of times I’d seen her cry. She could probably count on her hands and feet all the times she’d seen me.

“Talk to me, what is wrong?”

“I, uh, I haven’t had my period yet.”

My eyes grew wide as my brain processed this information. Halley may be pregnant? What would Marcus say? Oh God.

“How late are you?” I grabbed her hand for comfort. I would help her in any way possible. Neither of us knew much about kids except that we were once one but I would be there.

“A few days. Not quite a week but I just, I’m freaking out. What if Marcus doesn’t want kids or doesn’t want to be with me. Ohmigod do we have to get married?! Shit Macy.”

Her babbling was making my head spin. I hugged her tight and she stopped talking and took a deep breath and let it out.

“It’s only been a few days. Are you stressed from work or anything? Just calm down and say nothing to Marcus ok? Do not say anything until you know for sure. Can you do that?”

She blinked the tears back and replied, “Yeah I can. I’ve just never been so worried in my life. I don’t know what to think. I mean work’s been crazy busy and you know I’m up for that promotion. I’m just basically waiting to hear if I got it or not.”

“I start in about two weeks. If you haven’t started by then, then you can freak out and we’ll buy a test.”

“Ok, I can do this.” She put on her best smile ready to face whatever came her way. I know if she were to be pregnant she would make a wonderful mother. Marcus would stand by her I know he would. He was an amazing guy. He wouldn’t leave her like that.

The doorknob turned and in came Marcus and Trevor. Halley had sent them out for donuts. The sweet aroma hit my nose and I ran into the kitchen to grab one. Trevor stopped my arm and held it.

“Hey baby. You feeling better now?” Was that a stupid question? There were donuts and I wanted one. He kissed my lips and whispered in my ear, “I forgive you for last night. I swear I didn’t mean to look at her. I only want to look at you forever.”

Forever? Oh my. That was a long time. “Well that sounds good to me. Now
get outta my way baby.” I playfully pushed him aside and grabbed the first chocolate covered one I saw. It tasted like heaven.

Trevor kissed my cheek and nibbled my lip. “You had some chocolate sorry.” He so wasn’t sorry. His sly grin gave that away. My oh my I loved this man. “What do you want to do today?”

“Lie in bed and be lazy.”

Halley stood by Marcus nibbling on a donut. I could tell she was still worked up over our talk just a few minutes ago. Marcus placed his arm around her and kissed her cheek. Instantly it seemed all her worries vanished. She grinned and looked at me. I winked and gave her a big smile. No matter what were to happen she would definitely be ok.

The band wasn’t playing tonight and Gary had given me the night off. I was thankful for that. After the events of last night, I needed a break from the bar. I felt sore. It had to be from my fall trying to get to that bitch. Oh well, I won. He was with me. Not her. He would never be with her.

Trevor leaned over and whispered again, “Get dressed I want to take you somewhere.”