Authors: Piper Vaughn
least something very similar. And I knew she was
right. In my head, I knew. But she hadn’t been
there; she hadn’t felt that draw between us, that
crazy, magnetic pull. Knowing I should say no was
one thing. Actually being able to do it if he ever
did call… well, that was something else entirely.
IT TURNED out I didn’t have to wait very long to
have my answer. Two days later my phone rang,
and it was Archer’s number. I answered with a
wary “hello” and was instantly angry with myself
for how my stomach jumped at the very sound of
his voice.
“Hey, sexy. What you been up to? I’ve had a
crazy couple of weeks, but I’ve been thinking
about you.”
I tried not to let myself react to that. How
much could he have been thinking about me if it’d
taken him almost three weeks to call?
“How about we go out again?” Archer went
on before I could say anything. “I’ve got Friday
night free.”
Michelle’s words echoed in my head. I knew
I should tell him to permanently lose my number,
but even that knowledge couldn’t temper my
excitement. That feeling I’d had at The Banana
Leaf? Maybe it made me a fool, but I wanted to
experience it again. I needed to see if it was real
or just all in my stupid head, and I couldn’t do that
unless I saw him at least one more time. Still….
“What about the other day?” I asked. “I saw
you at The Banana Leaf with that girl.”
Archer was quiet for a moment. “What do you
mean? What girl?”
“The blonde?” I reminded him. “Nice chest.
Looked kinda like a Barbie?”
“I don’t know what you’re talking about. I
didn’t see you anywhere, and I don’t hang out with
any blondes of the female persuasion.”
I blinked, my mouth twisting in confusion.
Either Archer was telling the truth, or he was a
damn good liar because he sounded totally baffled.
“So you’re not bi?” I asked. “You don’t have a
girlfriend?”
“Hell no,” Archer replied with a laugh. “I am
110 percent gold-star gay. Trust me. I’ve never
even touched a boob. Don’t want to.”
I couldn’t think of a response for that. I’d seen
him at that café, I knew I had, and he’d seen me.
But he was talking like that entire incident had
never happened. Maybe he really was just that
good a liar. We were in California, after all, the
state with the highest concentration of actors
anywhere. How was I to know he wasn’t one of
them playing a game with me?
Archer’s voice cut into my thoughts. “So do
you want to go out on Friday or not? I know this
awesome little Indian place. And maybe after we
can go dancing.”
Say no
, I told myself sternly.
Say no.
“Sure,”
I said instead, and just barely resisted the urge to
slap myself in the forehead, even as my mouth kept
running. “Sounds great.”
Asher
“HELLO?” I picked up my phone. I knew the
number. Why Archer’s boss had my number was a
different story. A story called my brother, who
didn’t answer his phone when he didn’t feel like it.
“Hey, Ash. I’m sorry to bug you. Can you go
get your brother out of bed? He’s late again.”
“Ryan, I was up really late last night working.
You owe me.” Archer’s manager and I had this
sort of half friendship thing going, mostly because
we talked so often. He sent me gift cards to the
store all the time. I had a big enough collection that
I could’ve walked out with most of the fall line. If
I ever got around to it.
“Please just go wake him up. I need his ass in
here. I’m doing inventory tonight, and I can’t cover
his shift.”
“Fine,” I grumbled and hung up. I tossed some
sweats on and stomped over to Archer’s room,
annoyed that I was missing sleep to—
What the
hell?
The shit wasn’t even in there. His bed was in
its usual unmade state, there were clothes flung
haphazardly over every available surface, but
there was no Archer. My phone was still in my
hand, so I tried to call him, but it went straight to
voice mail.
Son of a bitch.
There was no way I was going to spend my
day chasing after my errant brother when he
couldn’t be bothered to go to work. I was just
going to have to step up my game or… God, I
didn’t even know what.
I was about to turn and walk out of the room
when I noticed a pile of envelopes squished under
a pair of shoes on his dresser. Yeah, I knew it was
bad to snoop. I really wasn’t planning on snooping.
But why did Arch have all those envelopes? I
didn’t see that much mail for him usually, unless he
just never threw it away.
Against my better judgment, I reached out to
move the shoes so I could look at the pile. The top
envelope was a bill, for a credit card at a store. So
was the second, and the third…
oh my God
. I slid
the papers out of one of them. The card was maxed
out. Same with the next one. I couldn’t stand to
look at any more.
Archer was twenty-six years old, and I
wasn’t his parent. I could barely take care of
myself, let alone him as well. I had no idea where
to go from there other than out. And out was
somewhere I wasn’t quite ready for.
I made the call to Archer’s manager, telling
him that once again we’d managed to lose one
stubborn, flighty person who had the knack of
screwing things up for both of us. After the call, I
flopped back into my bed, ready to pull my covers
over my head and disappear. I hated that I felt so
responsible for Archer. He’d always been the fun
to my serious, the social to my quiet. It’s what
made people still love him even when he was
being pissy and difficult. I just wished he could
temper that fun with a little growing up.
I did manage to sleep for another hour or two.
I wasn’t
worried
about Arch per se. He’d taken off
for fun times with a friend enough that I wasn’t
going to freak out if he didn’t show up. I wasn’t
happy about the bills, though, or the fact that he
was probably going to get fired from yet another
job. But it wasn’t enough to keep me from sleep.
Not when I’d been up all night editing photo shoot
proofs that I needed to get to the client as soon as
possible.
Must’ve been fate that, when I did wake, it
was to my phone ringing incessantly. And it was
Mom calling. I hadn’t been so happy to see her
name on my caller ID since we’d first moved away
and I’d been feeling homesick.
“Hey, Ma.” My voice was gravelly from
sleep.
“Hi, sweetie. I didn’t wake you, did I?” She
still knew me so well. I’d spent a lot of time with
my parents, growing up. Other kids had always
seemed like the wrong fit.
“It’s okay. I need to get up anyway. I didn’t
mean to sleep this long, but I was up late working
on a photo set.”
“Oh, what for?”
I’d never admitted to my mom what I did. The
woman taught kindergarten, for Christ’s sake. I
was pretty sure her son shooting pictures of
women’s naked tits didn’t fit into the world view
of someone who wore puffy-paint sweatshirts and
baked pies on the weekends.
“Just a magazine, Ma. Nothing big.”
“I wish you’d send me some of the pictures
you take, honey. I never have anything to show my
friends, and you’re so talented.”
“I will, Mom.”
When I have something I can
show.
“Hey, listen, I have to talk to you about
something.” I felt like I was cheating somehow,
asking Mom for help with Archer. I just didn’t
know how to get through to him.
“What’s up, hon?”
“It’s Arch. I found a bunch of bills
accidentally today. He’s maxed out a bunch of
credit cards.”
My mom huffed into the phone. I knew that
sound. She loved Archer just as much as the rest of
us, but he’d been difficult at times when we were
kids. My mom had her frustrations with him.
“Have you said anything to your brother?”
“No.” I didn’t want to. “I can’t really say
anything without him knowing I was looking in his
room. I mean, I was just in there because his boss
called, looking for him.”
“He’s skipping work again?”
“Yeah.” I hated the idea of being a tattletale. I
just knew Archer needed help. “I want to help him,
Ma. I always feel like such a nag, though. We’re
supposed to be brothers. I’m not his warden.”
“Then don’t be, baby. You need to live your
own life. You can’t be in charge of your brother
anymore.”
“I wish he’d move home.”
Then I could move
on and not worry about him constantly.
“We both know that will never happen.”
“Yeah. It won’t.” I sighed into the phone,
feeling every one of my twenty-six years weighing
down on me like they were a hundred.
“No more Archer. What’s happening with
you? Have you seen anyone since you and Charles
broke up?”
“I ran into this guy—” I realized it would
sound crazy.
I’ve seen him twice, but both times I
froze, and I’ve still not managed to talk to him.
Because I’m an idiot.
“And?”
“And nothing yet. I didn’t get his number. But
I think he lives around here. I’ve seen him twice.”
“And do you think he’s… you know?
Interested?”
I laughed. That was mom’s way of checking
my gaydar. “Yeah, Mom. Pretty sure.”
“Well, go out and find this boy! Have fun.
Make love under the moon or something.”
“M-Mom!” I sputtered. Sometimes the things
that came out of her mouth shocked the hell out of
me.
She chuckled. “Sometimes I worry more
about you than Archer, love. Just have fun. I don’t
want you to waste your youth being so serious.”
“Me neither.”
I hung up the phone in an odd mood. My mom
had given me permission to ignore Archer’s
problems and try to find my own happiness. I
supposed I didn’t need her permission, but it felt
good to have it all the same.
Now I just had to follow through.
Chapter Five
Dusty
“HEY, Dusty, did you want me to—oh… are you
going out somewhere?”
I paused in the middle of slicking on some lip
gloss and glanced at Rue in the mirror mounted
above my dresser. He stood in the doorway of my
bedroom dressed in a black cami and a pair of
black shorts smattered with rainbow-colored
hearts, his dark hair tucked under a purple
kerchief, green eyes a bit wide with surprise.
“We were about to fire up the grill,” he went
on after a moment. “Will you be around for
dinner?”
I shook my head and recapped the lip gloss,
tossing it into my makeup drawer. “No, I’m
meeting up with Archer, actually. We’re having
Indian food.”
“Oh.” Rue’s eyes got a little wider. “I thought
you hadn’t heard from him since that first time….”
I shrugged lightly. “He called earlier this
week. I’m gonna give it another shot, see how
things go.”
Rue was silent for a few seconds. “That’s
cool,” he said eventually. “You look good, by the
way. Is that a new shirt?”
I grinned and turned to face him. “Yeah.”