Authors: Nevea Lane
Private Dancer (5 page)
Marise walked into her bedroom and heard noises. When her eyes adjusted to the red light, Marise saw figures moving around in her bed. Where was Darryl?
“Damn Darryl dude, get off my knee,” came a deep and gruff voice.
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“Sorry Ray, but this girl keeps on moving,” There was some heavy panting and then a squeal.
“Fuck you muther fuckers, I’m coming…”
“Yeah that’s it, come for us baby,” Then Marise heard Darryl’s rough voice as he came. She knew that sound better than her social security number, and at the end, the world became silent.
Marise could hear the whirling of the ceiling fan, the heavy panting of the party under the cover.
But she couldn’t move, she couldn’t breathe. She couldn’t even think. She flicked on the light switch and when three surprised faces emerged from under her expensive Egyptian cotton sheets, Marise stopped thinking. There they were; Darryl, Ray, his best friend, and some chick with an orange mane and blue eye shadow.
Marise blew out a breath, and before Darryl could even analyze what was going on, Marise turned around and threw one last comment over her shoulder.
“Happy fucking anniversary Darryl.” And she walked out. She left without packing her bags; she just took her purse and drove to her mother’s house.
Her mother was no more receptive than she ever had been.
“What are you doing here?”
“Thanks Mom, nice to see you too.” Marise said, sliding past her mother into the doorway.
“Not that I’m not happy to see you, but you could’ve called.” Marise’s mother looked fidgety.
Marise stopped half way to the stairs and looked at her mom. Her mom was too busy looking into the living room.
“You are right Mom, I could’ve called. What is going on in there? Do you have company?” Marise tried to peek around her mother, but the living room was dark.
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“Yes, I do, as a matter of fact. Why aren’t you with Darryl, isn’t it your anniversary?” Mother looked agitated.
“Yes it is, and why I’m not with Darryl, well, long story.”
“Cheryl! get your ass in here now, this is hard to keep up without you.”
“Cheryl baby, come in here.” That was a woman’s voice, and she sounded in a state of lust.
Marise watched the color drain from her mother’s face and Marise almost fainted. Was everyone she knew embroiled in a threesome? Frustrated Marise pushed past her mother and went back to her car.
She didn’t have any place she could go. She would honestly feel bad if she showed up to work wearing the same thing that she’d on today. Marise decided to go shopping. There had to be a mall open somewhere.
As she shopped, Marise became more and more helpless. She sunk all of her extra money into paying off this debt, so she could not get a hotel room. Her mother was an undercover freak and there was no way she was going to stay there. Her best friend lived in New York and there was no way she would go there. She was a Midwest girl at heart.
As Marise sat in the parking lot of the strip mall after buying the few amenities that she could afford. Her phone was buzzing like crazy. Darryl had called several times, but each time he refused to leave a message. If he was really concerned, Darryl would’ve left a message. The funny thing was, Marise could not feel her heart breaking. It was the stuff that songs were made of right? You should feel your heart breaking when you just find out you husband is cheating on you with a man and a woman.
No, Marise was just numb. She didn’t feel anything but the gentle sputtering of her car. She’d to go somewhere. Marise thought of the only place she could go. Before she could analyze the rationale of her thinking, her fingers were dialing.
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“Hello?” said the soothing voice on the other end of the phone.
“Hello, Kasen?”
Marise found herself again parking at Kasen’s loft. He stood waiting for her as soon as she ended the call. He wasn’t going to let her be by herself, even though it was against his better judgment. Without saying a word, he grabbed her bags and followed her inside.
“Thanks again Kasen, I know I do not possibly deserve…” Kasen held up a free hand and silenced her. He’d known something was wrong when he picked up the phone and heard her broken voice on the phone.
For the first time in two years, he heard his name roll off her tongue and it was ambrosia to his ego. He’d been a little short with her earlier, and when she called, he was already in the process of ordering flowers to make it up to her. Now that she was here, Kasen wanted to apologize in person.
“Marise, I’m sorry for being so short with you earlier. I just know this was our last two weeks to practice, and I think overdid it.” Marise smiled a small smile and shook her head no.
“Kasen, don’t worry about it, I know that I was not being all that attentive when we were dancing anyway.”
An awkward silence fell in between them. There was no more to say.
“Here, I will show you to my room where you can sleep. I will take the couch.” Kasen walked briskly to his room and Marise followed. Although he didn’t ask the question, he wondered how long she would stay.
Forever, if I had my way.
Kasen knew his thoughts were nothing but trouble so he merely backed out of the room to the safety of the living room couch. There was no way he could’ve her that close, so near his bed, and be able to contain himself.
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***
This time, Marise would make her own choices, and follow her head and not her heart. She’d to. She was beginning to see that she was the only one she’d in this world.
Unfortunately, Marise spent most of the night lying awake trying to count sheep and not feel sorry for herself.
So, I lost my baby and my husband. My mom is a freak, which was ok, as long
as mom’s kept her escapades to herself
. She couldn’t sleep.
What would be the chances that
Kasen would drink tea?
She needed something to calm her, and staring at the walls didn’t help. And she sure as hell didn’t want to start snooping through Kasen’s drawers.
Tiptoeing out of the room and into the kitchen, Marise was stumped. Every cabinet was clean and tidy, stainless steel and way too neat. Everything was put away. Marise honestly wondered if anyone was this tidy. She didn’t realize that she was drumming her nails against the granite counter top until light flooded the kitchen.
Marise gasped, reacting to a shirtless Kasen, rubbing his eyes and looking quite delectable. She was caught going through his cabinets and all she was wearing was a t-shirt and nothing else.
Could the night possibly get any worse?
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“Marise, what are you doing up at this hour?” Kasen said when he finally stopped rubbing his eyes. Kasen always had been a light sleeper and he’d known as soon as he heard the bedroom door open that Marise was prowling. His baser nature wanted her to come to him on the couch where he could comfort her in his own intimate way, but he knew that was not what she needed.
“Sorry if I woke you. I just needed something to put me to bed, but I couldn’t find anything.” Marise stammered.
“It is ok, I’m a light sleeper. I just wanted to make sure that you are ok.”
“Yeah, I’m fine.” Just then, her stomach growled and its low gurgle seemed to echo in both of their ears. Kasen’s lip tucked up in the corner into a knowing smirk. He winked at her and started to move towards the refrigerator.
“Your stomach doesn’t sound fine. Let me make you something that always helped me when I was little.” Kasen moved quickly around the kitchen, pulling out a cutting board a knife and various things.
Marise was stuck staring at his back as he cut up some slices of cheese and an apple.
Good,
Kasen thought,
she won’t be able to see how turned on I’m with her walking around in my t-shirt.
On the stove, Kasen had begun to warm milk with honey. In a few moments, Kasen had made her a small plate of apple wedges and brie, with honey drizzled on them. Next to the plate, he put a mug of the warmed milk in front of her. It smelled sweet. She smiled at him and Kasen felt his cock stir. He backed away from Marise and stayed at the far end of the center island.
As she reached for a slice of apple, Marise looked at Kasen up and down. He felt like she was studying him.
“So tell me about you. Where did you grow up?” Marise said around a mouthful of apple.
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Marise quirked her eyebrow at him.
“Sorry, miles, I still tend to think European sometimes.” Marise laughed and Kasen’s breath caught in his throat. It was a melodious sound, rich and full of personality. He wished that he could get her to open up more. Maybe he could at least get her to tell him what made her call him.
“When did you move state-side?” Marise reached for another slice, and she watched his eyes as he watched her hand.
“About ten years ago. I just finished my studies and this city reminded me of the city I grew up in. Tell me about you Marise, where did you grow up?” Kasen said, quickly changing the subject. He knew about himself, he was aching to know more about her.
“Here, this is my home. Although I did go to Paris for a few weeks before I started college.” Marise said with a shrug of a shoulder. That seemed as though all she was going to share.
“Why then and why Paris?” Kasen was curious about everything about her.
“I needed an adventure before college I think. I wanted to see something new. Since I took French for years, it seemed like the most reasonable solutions.”
“I see. Any brothers or sisters?” Kasen loved his large family. They were loud, rambunctious but still full of hugs and kisses and smiles. Everyone except his father. His father was the exception to the rule, but Kasen realized in his twenties that is what probably brought his brothers and sisters the closest together. Their mutual disdain for the Captain.
“No,” sighing Marise picked up her mug. “I was an only child and sometimes it felt more like an orphan child. My father was hardly ever around and my mother treated me like a nuisance.”
“Only child blues?” Kasen wanted more than anything to hear her laugh again. She was beautiful when the light reached her eyes.
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“I have the only child blues, as you call it, but only sometimes. After all, I had a husband to keep me occupied.” Marise smiled a little and stared at him.
Kasen didn’t miss the past tense way she referred to her husband. She’d never even mentioned her husband’s name. There was trouble brewing and he could feel it surrounding her like a cloak.
“Had?” Kasen needed to keep on pressing her, if he didn’t; she’d keep it all in like she did when she was stripping. He didn’t want that. Correction, he couldn’t
live
with that.
“Today was my anniversary. But now it is my divorce date. I caught Darryl with someone else.
Well two other people. In my bed, in my room, on my anniversary.” Kasen waited for the tears to start, the uncontrollable crying and the hysterics that usually follow an announcement like that. Nothing. Marise grabbed another apple slice and bit into it.
As she looked at the honey dribbling down her Kasen wondered where the emotion was. She just stared at her fingers.
“Marise?” Marise looked up at him and cocked her head to the side. She regarded him with sleepy lids and a slight smile.
Is she about to go hysterical
, Kasen thought, as he watched a lazy grin form on her face.
“Kasen, have you ever had your heart broken?” Marise said, calmly, as if she was trying to figure out the speed of light.
Maybe she was in hysterics, but she didn’t know what to compare
the feeling to.
“Only once. A broken engagement, years ago. Why?” Kasen didn’t like where this was going.
“What does it feel like? I’ve never had to experience anything like this, but I don’t think that my heart is breaking. I’m waiting for the bottom to fall out, for something to crack, and nothing. Is that normal?”
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“I think you are in shock. That is all it could be. Do you want to talk about it?” Kasen didn’t want to be dragged into the middle of this, but at the same time, if Darryl had laid a hand on her then Kasen would personally lay him out.
“There is nothing to talk about really, it is over. He was in my bed with another man and a woman. How can you possibly cheat twice in the same moment?” Marise laughed as she picked up the empty mug and took it to the sink.
She was washing the mug with a vigor that Kasen could tell she was welling up with something.
Yet, he couldn’t tell what she was thinking.
Kasen could feel tell Marise was on the edge of anger. Anger, he was well acquainted with.
“Marise, it is normal to be angry.” Kasen had walked to the side of the center island where she’d stood. Now he was a mere foot away from her. Now he could see her eyes clearly. There was a fire in them and she put her arms to her side and clinched her fists.
“Kasen, I’m more than angry. I’m furious. I spent eight months sliding up and down that damn pole trying to pay of his gambling debts. I have gone without seeing him for years… I even had the miscarriage by myself. No, this goes beyond angry.” Marise said with more passion than he’d ever seen from her.