Renegade Lady (33 page)

Between him hovering over me and his tattoo, all the girls are convinced that he’s the most romantic man in the world.  I swear some of the bitches even sigh when he walks by.  The guys, on the other hand, have given him shit about it.  He made the mistake of taking his shirt off while he and some of the boys were working on a bike, and everyone saw it. Some of the other members have their old lady’s name tattooed on them, but no one except Kidd has it written across their back. 

“You’ll find your Kidd, someday.” I just hope it’s Preach.

Kidd

I look up from my desk just as Timber walks in.  I lift my chin to him. “Hey, man.”

“Talked to Dad.  He said that Brew’s been calling, trying to get the boys in Cali to join them,” he says with chuckle as he sits down. 

I have to chuckle to myself.  Brew is an ignorant motherfucker, if he thinks Digger would cut ties with us to join the same club that’s been fuckin’ him over for years.  I know he’s just grasping at straws, trying to figure out a way to get his club out of this mess, but the Cali’ boys are not the way to go. 

“Dad said that Killer is out of commission completely.  Guess they had to put him in a nursing home, so Brew is now president, and he named that fucker, Tug, VP.”

I shrug. “I don’t give a fuck.  The whole damn club is just running on fumes   As far as I’m concerned, Brew’s just a walking dead man.”

Brew and Digger never showed up in Big Clifty, and have never taken
any more of my calls since.  I sent some boys up there to let them know that their charter had been cut, but when they got there, the Mateland crew wouldn’t even let them in. Hell, they were flying a new flag--The Mayhem Masters.  I still plan on putting a bullet into Brew one day, but I’m not sure when I’ll get the chance.  From what I hear, he never leaves the club house. 

“I guess Dad has been talking to Killer’s wife.  He said that she’s still got Timmons and Krista’s kid, raising her as her own.  Guess, her parents didn’t want shit to do with it.”

I nod.  “I’m glad to hear that she’s keeping her.  She’s a good woman, and she’ll treat her right.  Jenna’s been bitching about making sure the baby had someone watching out for her. She keeps reminding me it ain’t the kid’s fault her dad was a stupid son of a bitch.”

“I saw Jenna heading out a few minutes ago.  I never see her anymore, unless she’s leaving.”

It’s been nearly a month since Timmons took Jenna, and she hasn’t slowed down for a second.  I knew when I gave her the building, she’d want to get it up and running fast, but I didn’t think she would be so fuckin’ busy that she’d forget I even existed. 

I push away from the desk.  “Neither do I, but that’s fixin’ to change.”

Twenty minutes later, I walk into Jenna’s restaurant and find her and Daisy hanging some shit on the walls.  “Hey babe, got a house to look at today. You got time?”

She looks towards me and smiles.  “Sorry, Kidd.  We got to get the rest of this shit done, and then we have the health inspector coming in at one.”

“Daisy can be here to talk to the guy.  She’s supposed to be the manager, let her manage.”

Her eyes narrow.  “She’s only the assistant manager, and I want to be here to talk to the health inspector.”

I know what she’s doing. She’s trying to stall on a getting a house.  When I first mentioned getting us a place, she threw a bitch fit. She claimed that I just wanted her out of the club.  She said that she’d seen how some of the old ladies were treated, and she wasn’t going to be one of them. There was no damn way she was going to let me install her in a house and forget her.  I let her know that I thought she was a fuckin’ idiot.  How could I forget her when I couldn’t stand being away from her more than a few minutes?  We ended up having a huge blow out that led to the best fucking of my life.  By the time it was over, she said we could get a house.  Guess she changed her mind.

“Like I said, let Daisy handle it.”

She starts to argue, but Daisy interrupts her.  “Go ahead. I’ll call you if there’re any problems.”

Jenna grumbles the entire way to my bike.  Even after she crawls on, I can still feel the tension in her body, but that disappears as soon as I pull up to the house down the road from Chipper’s.  I cut off the bike and look back at her.  “What do you think?”

A sweet smile crosses her face. “I think it looks like home.”

“Slide off, baby girl. Let’s go have a look.”

By the time she reaches the front porch, she’s making plans for the house.  “We should paint it a really light yellow.”

I just nod as I open the door.  “I want to get a pool put out back.  There’s not a lot of room, but we could get an above ground with a deck out there.”

“Oh, that would be awesome,” she says, her voice sounding excited.  “We can have cook-outs, and everyone can go swimming after they eat.”

“I’m not sure I want to see Mary in a bathing suit.”

She giggles, something I have never heard her do before.  “I bet she’ll wear a bikini.”

I can’t hold back my smile as I lead her from room to room.  When we finally step into the last bedroom, she grabs my hand.  “This would be perfect for the baby.”

“Are you pregnant?” I ask with both happiness and a little fear in my voice.  Yeah, I want her to be the mother of my kids, but I’d like to have a little time with just me and her first. I sure as hell want her having my last name before we add a kid into the mix. 

She shakes her head.  “No, I just thought…”

I pull her close to me, both relieved and sad.   “You thought that someday we’d have a baby, and you’d be right.”

She smile.  “I love you, Kiddrick Jones.”

I place my lips on hers, whispering against them, “I love you, Jenna Chandler.”

Epilogue

Chipper

I pull into my normal spot and cut the engine off.  I sit here for a few minutes, trying to build up my courage.  I come here every week, every week for more than six years. Still, it kills me every fucking time. Finally, I slide off my bike and start to walk towards her.  Knowing she’s here tears my fucking heart in two.  Why the hell it couldn’t have been me instead of her, I’ll never know. 

I place my hand on the cold stone, feeling the familiar ache of her loss.  “Hey, baby.”

I pull the dried up yellow roses from her vase and replace them with the new ones I brought, just like I do every week.  I then go down to my knees and pull the weeds away from her headstone.  “It’s almost summer now, and it’s a real pretty day.  The sun is shining, but there’s just enough breeze to keep you cool.  If you were here, we’d be at the lake. I’d be fishing, while you pretended to pay attention to your bobber, but we both know you’d be too busy talking about what our girl is doing to give a shit if you got a bite.”  

Finally, I go down on my ass and rest my head against her headstone.  “I gave Kidd your ring last night. He’s gonna ask Jenna to be his wife this weekend.  Can you believe our girl is getting married?  I know you said it would happen, but I was starting to think you were wrong.  Guess I should’ve known better than that.”

I wait a few seconds, hoping some miracle will happen and she answers. Of course, she doesn’t.  But in my head, I can almost hear the sound of her happy laughter. Yeah, my woman would be happy as shit that our girl was finally going to wear her ring. “You’ll never guess what Jenna did.  She’s been taking classes online and getting some sort of degree in business.  Silly ass didn’t even tell me.  She said that she wanted to do it on her own.  Kinda pissed me off that she didn’t want me to know, but then she said she wanted to surprise me when she was done.  She wanted to do something that would make us proud.  Can’t be pissed about that.”

I take a deep breath before going on.  “Kidd bought that old building down on Streets Avenue for her.  She’s going to open a restaurant and some sort of place for the girls to get their hair done.  She’s named the spa something fuckin’ stupid, but she’s call
ing the restaurant Mindy’s Café.   Daisy’s gonna run it, but they’re using those recipes cards that you made up for Jenna.  She says, once everyone gets a taste of your sliced beef sandwiches, they’ll be full of customers every day.”

I run my hand over her name, Mindy Mae Jones.  “She’s doing good.  No, our girl is doing fuckin’ great.  She reminds me more of you every day.  I know she only had you for a little while, but you gave so much of yourself to her in that time that it made her who she is now.  She’s a good woman, a wonderful old lady, and I am so damn proud to call her our daughter.”

I close my eyes and tell her the same thing I do every time I come here.  “God, I miss you so much.  Every fuckin’ time I wake up, I reach for you.  When I realize you’re not there, it’s like losing you all over again.  I need you so bad. I can’t stand living this life without you.”

My words stop when I hear a car pull up and look across the graveyard.  An older couple gets out and starts to walk to one of the graves.  That’s my cue to go.  I don’t share my time with Mindy with anyone, especially not strangers.  I slowly push myself up and place my hand on the top of her headstone.  “I guess I better get going.  I’ll see you next week.  Love you, baby.”

The End

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