She's So Dead to Us (30 page)

“Hey. The music didn’t come to a screeching stop,” Ally said, pretending to be confused.

“Yeah, and no one’s staring at us,” I replied, playing along.

“Wanna dance?” she asked.

“Not even a little bit,” I said.

She wiped her brow. “Good. Let’s get something to drink.”

I squeezed her hand as we walked down the steps and around the dance floor. I really liked this girl. Really a lot.

“Ally! Hey!”

Chloe appeared out of nowhere wearing a pink dress with a long skirt. Hammond was right behind her, wearing a pink tie of course.

“You look amazing! Love the dress.”

Ally smiled. “Thanks. I like yours, too.”

I greeted Hammond with a hand slap. Chloe hooked her arm through Ally’s and tugged her toward the bar. According to the old-school soda-shop signage, they were serving smoothies, milkshakes, and sodas. Unlike Mr. Appleby, Shannen’s mom wasn’t about to be serving us alcohol.

“I’m so happy you’re here,” Chloe said. “This whole rivalry thing was getting exhausting, no?”

Ally’s brow creased. I bet she was wondering how Chloe could just act like it was okay to forget about the pranks and the yearlong cold shoulder. But that was Chloe. She never wanted to talk about anything unpleasant. I’d tried to explain to Ally about the conversation I’d had with Chloe at the prom—about how Chloe had never wanted to keep her out—but I think it came out all wrong. It was hard to tell her without letting her know I’d been talking about how much I liked her. And without making Shannen look bad.

“I mean, it’s not your fault, what your father did,” Chloe said, placing her tiny purse on the bar. “I just want the whole thing to be over so we can all be friends again.”

Ally glanced at Hammond, who looked away. My skin heated and I loosened my tie a bit. No one knew that I knew about the two of them, and for the millionth time, I wished I didn’t.

“What’ll ya have?” James Dean, aka the bartender, asked.

“Two milkshakes. Strawberry,” Chloe ordered. “Still your favorite?” she asked Ally.

“Yeah.” She looked uncomfortable. I was going to have to get her away from Chloe and Hammond soon.

“Don’t worry about us,” Hammond joked. “We’ll take care of ourselves.”

“Like the independent men you are?” Chloe replied with a smile.

“I’ll have a Coke,” I told James Dean as he left the milkshakes under the mixer.

“Sprite,” Hammond put in.

Once we all had our drinks, Chloe lifted hers in a toast.

“So, Ally, what do you think? Friends again?”

Ally glanced at Hammond. He sipped soda through his straw and pretended not to notice.

“Sure,” Ally said. “Friends.”

We all lifted our glasses and clinked. When Chloe came away with a pink milk moustache, Ally smiled, and I knew she was finally relaxing. It made me relax too.

Until I saw Shannen staring us down from across the dance floor, all smoldery in a slate gray dress and major eye makeup. What was she thinking? And why did she look so pissed off?

It was going well. Really, really well. Chloe barely left my side all night, which meant Hammond was there too, but he and I mostly ignored each other. Shannen had invited Jessica and some of the other girls from the basketball team, so whenever Chloe hit the dance floor I still had people other than Jake to talk to. Aside from a few glares from Crestie girls—I wasn’t sure whether the glares were because I was there or because I was there with Jake, but I didn’t care—no one seemed to notice me.

Except Jake. Jake noticed me a lot. His hand was always in mine or on my back. Once he even sort of tickled his fingers across my neck and over my shoulder before giving me a squeeze. Every time he touched me I felt gorgeous and like I was the only girl in the room. Nothing else that had happened for the past ten months mattered at all. Jake and I were together.

But every now and then, I’d look at Chloe and feel a twist of guilt in my stomach. She was being so nice tonight. And acting relieved. As if this was the night she’d been waiting for as much as I had. What was she going to do if she ever found out what I’d done?

I decided to try not to think about it tonight. Tonight was supposed to be fun—a new beginning. There was always tomorrow for worrying obsessively.

Finally, after what seemed like an hour at the table making small talk and munching on appetizers, the DJ flipped on a slow song. Jake leaned back in his chair and eyed me tentatively.

“You wanna?”

I felt a pleasant stirring throughout my chest and all the way down to my toes.

“Sure.”

We got up, and he followed me to the dance floor. Everyone was either pairing off or vacating the area. I saw Shannen dancing with Josh Schwartz over by the DJ, and gave her a quick wave. She smiled back and lifted her hand from behind Josh’s neck. I hadn’t had much of a chance to talk to her tonight, other than to say “happy birthday.” She was so busy greeting all her guests and mingling with everyone.

“I’m probably going to have to dance with Shannen at some point,” Jake said, following my gaze as he slipped his arms around my waist.

I swallowed hard, trying not to blush at his closeness, but my heart was pounding in every pore, reverberating through every tiny hair on my arms and along the back of my neck. “She is the birthday girl,” I agreed.

“So you don’t mind?” he asked.

“Nah,” I said casually.

Jake titled his head. “Huh. I was kind of hoping you were the possessive type.”

I laughed as we turned in a tight circle. “Okay then,” I said, tightening my grip on his neck. “No dancing with anyone else. Tonight you’re all mine.”

Jake smiled but looked me dead in the eye. “No. From now on.”

My heart skipped. “What?”

“Yours,” he said simply, “from now on.”

“All right, everyone, if I can have your attention, please!” the DJ announced. We were all sitting at our table at the top of the dance floor, having just finished our dinners. Everyone quieted down gradually as Shannen and her parents joined the DJ at the front of the room. “Shannen’s mother has put together a little video for the birthday girl’s big day, and she’d like to share it with us!”

A big screen scrolled down from the ceiling as Shannen hung her head, blushing and laughing. I looked at Chloe and grinned as Faith and Hammond rolled their eyes. Shannen’s mother did this every year, splicing together old family photos and videos and embarrassing Shannen. It was a time-honored tradition.

“I hope she still has the naked cowgirl picture in there,” Trevor said excitedly, crunching on some ice cubes.

“And the naked firefighter one,” Todd added.

“Shannen sure liked to play naked dress-up as a kid,” Trevor said with narrowed eyes.

“Is there anything the birthday girl would like to say before we get started?” the DJ teased, holding the microphone out to Shannen.

She took it with a smile and looked over at our table. “Just . . . enjoy the show!”

Everyone applauded, and someone in the back of the room let out a sharp whistle. The lights dimmed and the screen flickered to life. Jake slipped his arm around the back of my chair, and I cuddled into his side. He was all warm and smelled of spicy crisp soap. In that moment I felt entirely safe and was filled with a buoyant sense of possibility.

Yours
, Jake had said.
From now on.
Every time I thought about it, my skin tingled.

The video started with a close-up shot of a white tiled floor and a wet leather boot. Then, suddenly, the camera swung upward and I was looking at a gleaming deli counter, fluorescent lights, and what appeared to be Faith’s back. I glanced at Faith in confusion. She was frozen, staring up at the screen, her eyes wide.

“Mr. Ryan? Oh my God! Is that
you
?” the Faith on the screen said.

My stomach completely dropped out of my body.

“Oh my God,” Jake said, sitting forward, sliding his arm away from my shoulders.

I barely even noticed, though. Because up on the screen, larger than life, was my father. He was standing behind some deli counter in an apron, looking scared. He said something, but I couldn’t make it out. The blood was rushing too loudly in my ears.

“What is this?” I mumbled.

Jake looked back at me. “Ally—”

Behind him, on the screen, my dad looked at the camera. “Are you—is that a camera phone?” he said.

“No,” Shannen’s voice replied. The picture whirled for a moment before refocusing on my dad’s face. “I just can’t seem to get any bars in here.”

“What the fuck is this?” Hammond said from across the table.

People were starting to turn around and stare at me, but I couldn’t tear my eyes away from the screen. My heart was pounding so hard I thought I might actually pass out. Where was this taken? When? Why was my father working at a deli?

I looked over at the parents’ table, trying to find my mom, but she wasn’t there. At least, I couldn’t see her. Then there was a commotion on the dance floor. It was Shannen and her mom. Her mother had a serious grip on Shannen’s arm and was talking through her teeth, gesturing up at the screen. Shannen gave an exaggerated shrug, like she had no idea what was going on, and just like that, I understood. Shannen and Faith had found my father. They’d taken this video without him knowing. And now, they were showing it to me—to everyone—to humiliate me. Shannen hated me so much she’d sabotaged her own mother’s birthday tradition just to mess with me.

“Hi, Mr. Ryan,” Hammond said on the video. He walked into view and shot the camera an annoyed look. “Sorry to surprise you like this. Shannen didn’t tell us where we were going.”

My face burned and tears stung my eyes. I looked at Hammond—the real Hammond—sitting across from me at the table. He turned his back to the screen, made a tent with his hands, and covered his nose and mouth, gazing back at me guiltily. My heart felt like it was melting under a hot iron. He knew where my father was. They all knew. Why hadn’t they told me? Were they all too busy laughing at poor Ally Ryan behind her back?

“What? I didn’t know he worked here,” Shannen said up on the screen. “Do you
actually
work here?”

God, she was so condescending. So awful.

“Well . . . yes. I do. I have . . . for about a year now,” my dad said. “Chloe’s father was kind enough to give me a job while I get back on my feet. I’ve been trying to get my old job back.”

I pushed back from my chair. I was going to throw up. I could feel the bile rising in my throat. On the dance floor, Mrs. Moore was accosting the DJ, trying to get him to stop the video.

“Yeah? And how’s that working out for ya?” Shannen asked my father. “I mean, it’s gotta be tough after you cheated dozens of people out of what, millions of dollars?”

A wave of laughter quickly shot through the room, then petered out. I pushed myself out of my chair.

“I have to get out of here,” I said to Jake.

“Ally, wait—”

“It . . . it wasn’t like that,” my dad said. “It’s complicated. You kids couldn’t understand—”

“Well, why don’t you try explaining it to us?” Faith shot back.

“How could you do this to me?” I said to Faith. “What’s the matter with you?”

Faith opened her mouth. She actually looked remorseful. On the screen behind her, my dad rubbed at his brow. “I . . . I didn’t . . . I never meant to . . .”

I started to turn away, my legs shaking so badly I could hardly even stand. That was when I spotted my mother. She was standing in the doorway with Gray, having just come back from the bathroom or from outside. Her hand was over her mouth, and she looked like she was about to pass out, burst into tears, or worse. I had to get to her.

“All right. That’s enough.”

I froze. The room—the tables, the balloons, the waiters—everything in front of me tilted. That was Jake’s voice. And it was coming through the speakers. Slowly, I turned around to look at the screen. The camera whirled, and there he was, clear as day. Jake reached out, took the camera, and the screen went black.

My whole body started to shake. He had been there. Jake was there. He’d seen my father. He’d seen him doing a minimum-wage job in a dirty apron getting humiliated by a bunch of kids. Everyone in the video had been wearing winter coats, which meant it was taken over the winter. Jake was there. He’d known for weeks and weeks where my father was. And he hadn’t told me.

The lights came up. Every single set of eyes in the room was trained on me. I looked down at Jake. He looked like he wanted to die.

“You knew?” I said, my voice trembling. “You knew?”

“Ally, I—”

“Don’t attack him,” Shannen said, crossing the dance floor. “He was just along for the ride.”

“Shannen!” her mother hissed.

Shannen ignored her and kept coming. She had this evil look on her face. So self-satisfied. So happy.

“How could you do this?” Chloe asked, standing up from the table.

“She deserves it, Chloe, trust me,” Shannen said.