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“You know I shouldn’t, I have told you all this before. It’s not the right thing.”

“Does that mental babble really work on anyone?” I smile weakly.

“Probably not.” He grins, sitting beside me.

I reach over and stroke his fingers; he doesn’t move his hand away, which surprises me.

“I shouldn’t have done what I did last night Blade, but it’s so hard for me, I really do love you and it hurts a lot.”

“I know you do. Believe me it’s on my mind a lot.”

“I don’t mean to get in the way, I just wish things were different.”

“So do I, every day.”

“Do you think there will ever be a chance?”

“I don’t know.” He sighs.

“Are you happy Blade?”

“Yes.” His answer is too quick.

“Is that the truth?”

“I don’t know…”

“Okay, I won’t push. Please stay with me a while, I won’t do anything.”

“Alright, just for half an hour.”

He leans back into the couch with me.

“Blade?”

“Yeah?”

“Can I hold your hand?”

“Sure.” He takes my hand into his and starts to trace small circles on my palm.

“You are beautiful.” I whisper.

“So are you…”

“Really?” I smile.

“You’re the most beautiful girl I know, it’s hard not to look at you.”

“You think I am prettier than Cassie?”

“I do, there has always been something about you
angel
. You’re amazing.”

“I wish you said that and meant it.” I whisper, meeting his eyes.

“I do mean it.”

“Not in the way I want.”

“I do love you Em, and I wish things could be different.
I just…have to try. I know that I can walk away from Cass at any moment, or that I can even see other people, but I told you once, you are the one girl that would force me away from at least trying. Things aren’t great for us, and we have been trying to go steady but it is really hard. She has other men that she is dating on and off, and I know I can do the same, but…I just have to try.
”

“
She is dating?”

“We are trying not to commit entirely yet, we are trying to keep it just casual and let each other get to know one another without the commitment. If it goes well, then we will get serious.”

“So she doesn’t care if you see other people?”

“Em, she cares if I see you. She knows as well as I do, that you could pull me away from her. Other girls, no, it is part of the rule. We aren’t committing entirely, we are just seeing how it goes.”

“Have you been on dates?”

“Two, they bored the crap out of me. Even Cassie is more interesting than they were.”

“Then why won’t you let me try Blade? I can be good for you.”

He strokes my cheek. “You are young, and beautiful. You shouldn’t be tied up in a serious relationship. I am not right for you, and I have to at least try with Cassie.”

I look up at him and he strokes my cheeks, running his fingers down around my eyes and across my lips. I want so badly to kiss him, I think he is thinking that same thing.

“I wish I could kiss you right now.”

“I do too…”

“Can’t I? Just once…”

“
Angel
please…”

“Just once Blade.”

He doesn’t answer me; he just pulls me in towards him. He kisses my neck and my cheeks; I expect him to stop, but he doesn’t. He pushes me down onto the couch, and I relish in the feeling of his body on mine, his arms bulge out of his singlet as he moves. I
keep thinking it will end, I wait for it. I reach down and unbutton his pants. He moans a little as he slips out of them. I manage to slide my panties off, is this really happening?

He slides his hands down my body and then presses his fingers into my flesh. I moan and he hisses. He slides one finger inside me, then two and I squirm beneath him. He begins to stroke, in and out, in and out until I am screaming a release. Before my mind clears, he is inside me, deep and full. I moan at the wondrous pressure that comes with Blade making love.

I moan and struggle to catch my breath. He grabs my hands and holds them above my head. I growl furiously as he slams into me with desperate need; I want to touch him. I bite his lip when he leans down to kiss me. He growls and slams harder, he is almost feral as he drives my body further and further into the couch.

“
God
Blade.” I cry.

“You, feel, so, fucking, good.” He bites off each word.

I wail as my orgasm rips through me, and I tighten around him. He grips my hands so harshly above my head, that his fingers cause painful marks on my skin. He groans, and his pace becomes desperate. His phone rings loudly beside us and he swears but doesn’t stop. It rings again, and again. He doesn’t find his release, because he leaps off me and picks it up. I feel crushed.

“Hello.” He puffs.

I am guessing it is Cassie by the way his face tightens.

“No she is fine now, I just dropped her home and was about to come back.”

Silence.

He rolls his eyes and clenches his fist. My view right now is stunning. His chest and stomach is glistening with sweat, and he is panting. He looks like a
God
. His hair is damp and falling over his face, giving him that dangerous look.

“Alright Cassie, I am coming now.” He snarls
.

Silence.

“Don’t scream at me, you know that we aren’t serious…you were on a date just the other night!”

Silence.

“I know I said I wouldn’t touch her. Look, can we talk when we get home?”

Silence.

“Fine, bye.”

He turns and stares at me, then leans down and reefs his pants up over his extremely hard erection, growling as he does.

“Sorry.” I whisper.

“I tell you over and over just to leave me alone and not to do that, but you don’t listen.”

“It wasn’t just me Blade, I didn’t force myself on you!”

“When are you going to
get it? I don’t love you
. I don’t want to be with you and I don’t want to have sex with you.”

“So that meant nothing?”

“NO, it was
a mistake.”

“Thanks a lot.”

“I am sorry to have to do this, but it’s the only way. Stay the hell away from me and keep out of my life.” He growls harshly.

I look up at him, and my heart begins to beat furiously.

“Y-you don’t mean that.”

“Yes I do, don’t come around and see my family, don’t even speak to them anymore, it’s over. It has been for a long time, BACK OFF.”

“You have no right to tell me I can’t see your family. Without me your mother would be dead, you had nothing until you met me. You couldn’t have fixed anything, you are pathetic.” I scream.

He turns and glares at me, then
his hand connects with my face in a harsh slap. I take two steps back.

“GET OUT.”

“No problem!” He snarls and storms out the door.

I lay on the ground all afternoon; I think my heart is numb. It feels like someone is scratching the inside of my stomach; I feel physically ill. I am so angry that I do something I will regret a lot later, I get in my car and drive over to Nessie and Bill’s house. I get out of the car, and Blade is sitting on the balcony arguing with Cassie, when he sees me his eyes widen.

“You,” I hiss, watching as Nessie and Bill walk out. “I want my money back.”

“What are you talking about?” Blade asks confused.

“I want every
God
damn cent back, not the money I gave to your parents but the money I gave to you. I want it back, the money that fixed your shack, that brought you a car. I want it all back; I am not setting up your life with her.”

“You know I don’t have it.” He growls.

“WELL GET IT.”

“What is going on here?” Nessie asks me gently.

“He told me I am no longer welcome here and that I am not a part of this family. He told me I am nothing and then he slapped me. I want my money back.” I tremble, my lips shaking.

“YOU WHAT?” Bill roars
,
turning towards him.

“I didn’t mean to pa. She stirred me up; it was an accident.”

“You never hit a woman. I brought you up better than that, what right do you have to hit somebody? Especially someone so small, you coward.”

“I didn’t mean to hurt her, this has all gone bad…”

“Damn right it has. I am sick of your games Blade; you have dragged me through hell and I saved your ass. I went to prison for you so you could be with your family, and for you to come in and tell me I am nothing and I am not welcome here. Do you have any idea what you did to me?” I scream.

“I said I was sorry…”

“You’re not sorry. You’re just selfish, cruel and heartless.”

“Hey don’t speak to him like that!” Cassie growls, standing and glaring at me.

“GET OUT OF MY FACE CASSIE.”

“I won’t have you putting him down in front of everyone.”

“You have no idea do you?”

“About wh
at? I know he slept with you
, and I know you want him, but you need to get over it.”

“You know NOTHING!” I scream.

“I do know. What I know is you’re a spoilt little rich girl holding this family under your grasps.”

“Is that what you told her?” I whisper, tears thunder down my cheeks.

“No! I didn’t tell her that.” Blade yells.

“Yes he did. He told me you were just a young girl who did a good deed, and now you won’t let them live it down. He told me you are in love with him, and he can’t get rid of you.”

“He told you that did he?
Did he tell you that he kidnapped me from my home and kept me in a tiny windowless room? Did he tell you that I went to prison to save his ass, DID HE TELL YOU THAT?” I scream and her face falls.

“It’s not true.” She stammers.

“
It’s
true love.” Nessie sighs.

She turns to Blade, and his eyes were wild.

“Who are you to come in here and ruin what I have! How dare you.” He snarls, glaring at me.

“She needs to know the truth. You ruined my life, now the
favor
is returned.”

“You are nothing but a brat, who when you don’t get your own way ruins everyone e
lse’s lives. You’re
nothing to me, get out.” He screams.

“Son stop!” Bill yells, taking his arms.

“I hate you,” I scream back “I hate you more t
han anything in this world. You’re
nothing to me either so get out of my life, and I want all my money back.”

“You can’t do that!”

“I WILL DO WHATEVER I WANT.”

“Come on, that’s enough.” Nessie cries standing between us.

“You are right, it is enough. I am sorry, but I won’t be coming here when he is around, I will meet up with you other times
. Nessie,
I’m sorry.”

I turn and run down the stairs towards my car.

“Oh no you don’t,” Blade growls, chasing after me and gripping my arm. “You don’t come in here and ruin everything and then leave, you face it.”

“LET GO OF ME!” I hiss.

“Face what you have just done, look into the eyes of those you have just fucked over!”

“No Blade, you look into their eyes because you are the one who ruined everything. Because this my friend, is your fault. You’re lucky I don’t report you!” I snarl reefing my hand out of his and getting in my car. He hits the window with his open hand before I speed off.

I drive home in tears; I know I have made a mistake. Why didn’t I just leave it? Now I have ruined everything for myself and for Blade. When I get home I cra
wl into bed, all I want to do i
s lay and not move. I am hurt and ashamed. I fall into a restless sleep, stirring constantly.

It takes a while for me to wake; I can hear sirens. They are loud and shrilling; it must be someone committing a crime down the road, which is quite common. I flick on the television to see what it is; no one gets away with anything in L.A. It is usually on the news
within
minutes. The house seems hazy and smells
smoky
. Maybe a pub is on fire?

I sit on the couch and flick through the channels; it is about five am. What I see takes the breath clean out of my lungs, I stand up shaking and run out the door, and there it is, my home of eighteen years lit up with flames. Smoke fills the air, and I can see nothing but the orange flames eating my house and the dark smoke rising into the sky.  I run as fast as I can towards the burning mess, when I get there I look around for my family, please
God
don’t let them be inside. I run to the nearest officer.