Authors: Lauren Dane
don’t like that you’re feeling off
balance and that maybe he’s hiding
you from his family. I don’t want you
feeling as if you’re not good enough.
That makes me quite cross with your
Levi.”
“The thing is, I know I’m good
enough. And you know, we go out in
public so it’s not like he’s hiding me
really. He actually”—she paused to
find the right words—“he makes me
feel beautiful. Special. I’m just. God.
I’m being irrational. I hate that.”
“Of all the people I know, the last
word I’d use to describe you is
irrational. Sometimes when we love
someone else it makes us see things
differently. Sometimes we second-
guess what we know is true and
sometimes we’re right. I think you
should talk to him about it.”
This is why she came to Gillian
and Daisy said so.
Gillian grinned at her. “Come on.
You’re staying over. Let’s watch
something scary, eat nachos and have
margaritas.”
“Oh, that sounds so good. I don’t
have to be up until after ten.”
Levi walked into his parents’ front
entry and narrowed his gaze when he
heard Gwen’s voice. He hadn’t
spoken with her in person yet about
the scene she’d made two weeks
before at the Met.
Mal saw him first and steered him
out of the drawing room and into the
hall. “I’m sorry for the other week.
She’d had a few drinks.”
Which only made him angrier.
“Yeah, been there, done that. I’m not
really fond of drunks.”
“Hey! That’s my wife. She was out
of line, but she did it because she
cares.”
“Keep her away from me unless
you want me addressing my concerns
to her in person.”
“She’s concerned for our position
in the community.”
“Over what? My having a steak
with a friend in a public place? Or is
it that my friend isn’t white? We
were raised better than this. Don’t
feed me your bullshit, Mal.
You
might
be content to listen to your wife, but
I’m not.”
“It has nothing to do with her
race.”
“Really? Because from where I’m
standing a different story is being
told.”
“What on earth is going on out
here?” Their mother came out,
looking back and forth between her
sons.
“Nothing I can’t handle. When’s
dinner?”
She narrowed her gaze and Jonah
stepped in, saving him. “Time to
eat.” He inserted himself in between
their mother and Levi and led the
way, holding his arm out for their
mother.
He kept himself away from Gwen,
not
trusting
his
tongue.
The
unfairness, the ugliness of her
behavior burned in Levi’s gut. Daisy
was one of the finest people he knew.
Giving to a fault.
A person like Gwen had no
business judging her.
His mother kept giving him the eye
all through dinner until she finally got
around to it. “So guess who I saw
yesterday?”
“Liesl.” His father gave her the
eye, which she ignored, and Levi’s
stomach tightened, just waiting for
whatever was next.
“Jenny Martrek. She says hello of
course. And Dyan, her daughter? The
one your age, Levi, I’m sure you
remember
her.
Anyway,
she’s
moving back here to Seattle. I told
Jenny you’d be happy to reacquaint
her with the area. I gave her your
card and invited them all to dinner
Sunday.”
“I’m busy on Sunday, actually. I’m
sure Dyan has plenty of people to
squire her around town when she
moves back.” He ate and kept his
gaze down, not wanting to tangle with
his mother but he would if she pushed
it.
A man could only be pushed so
far.
He blinked and cocked his head, but
yes, that was indeed Daisy sitting at a
nearby table with another man.
Her face was animated as she
talked with her hands. The man, all
Levi could see was the back of his
head, nodded and leaned toward her.
Levi sat and waited for her to
notice him, but she didn’t. Finally he
got up to go to the bathroom, which
happened to take him past their table.
She looked up at him and then
smiled. “Levi, I wasn’t expecting to
see you.”
He started to say he bet, but then
he turned and realized her lunch date
was Mark Schneider, the owner of a
gallery on the Eastside.
She stood and he kissed both
cheeks and clasped her hands. “I
don’t want to interrupt. I’m meeting
one of my brothers for lunch in just a
few minutes. Good to see you,
Mark.”
He walked off, feeling better and
also a little like a jerk for thinking
she was out at lunch with someone
else for romantic reasons. He
realized he felt greedy for her. He
liked it better when all that animated
beauty was aimed at him.
And all he had was lunch with
Jonah.
When he returned to his table she
was still chatting with Mark and not
looking his way. Of course, he told
himself, she didn’t look at him
because this was business for her. He
saw her portfolio leaning on the table
leg and made a note to ask her all
about the meeting when he saw her
next.
When they both got up to leave
about twenty minutes later, his
brother finally asked, “What the fuck
are you so distracted by?”
She walked past, still engaged in
conversation but she sent Levi a
quick smile and a wave.
“That’s her, right?” Jonah stared.
“Christ, you weren’t kidding. Why
are you acting like you barely know
her?”
“I’m not acting like I barely know
her. She was having some sort of
business lunch with Mark. I told you,
she’s
an
artist.
He
must
be
considering giving her a show.”
“She’s gorgeous.”
Levi smiled. “Yes.”
“What’s the story then? Clearly
your face tells me this is more than a
casual fuck. And the way you nearly
threw down with Gwen underlines
that too.”
“I like her, I told you that. But
she’s too young and too…everything.
We enjoy each other.” He shrugged.
“You’re a moron. Too everything?
What? Pretty?”
“Tattooed. Artsy.”
“So you buy Gwen’s line about her
not being our kind?”
He clenched his jaw. “No. That’s
not it. It’s not her race. It’s not her
class, though Gwen being a racist
bitch wouldn’t imagine that Daisy’s
father and sister are dentists and her
grandmother is a successful painter.”
“So then what? She’s an artist, a
damned good one from what I can
tell. She’s beautiful. Her body is
holy-shit wow. She’s intelligent and
funny you tell me. She clearly enjoys
your company enough to overlook
your horrid sister-in-law. You’re not
going to take it another step because
she’s got ink and makes art? Because
you collect art, Levi. You love art.
Tell me how this is not a perfect
match?”
He wiped his mouth and tossed his
napkin down, his appetite gone. “Shut
up.”
“You’re forty years old. How long
are you going to flit around with
dumb women who you don’t care
about? Is that your lifestyle now?”
“Is that
your
lifestyle?”
“My lifestyle is a private one. I
also have a teenager I’m doing my
best to raise into a real human being.
Don’t you think she deserves to see
her uncles with women who aren’t
Gwen or her own bitch of a mother?”
“Oh, so it’s my job to do that?”
“Yes. Kelsey was a mistake. You
think you’re the first person who had
a shitty marriage? This woman is the
first I’ve seen you show a real
interest in since you brought Kelsey
home.”
“I don’t want to have this
conversation with you.”
“I know you don’t. And you know
why. Because you’re being a punk
and a coward and making excuses
about it.”
“I haven’t punched you in the face
in a while. It might be time.”
“If you think you can do it, go on
ahead.”
“Um…is there anything else I can
bring you?” The server looked back
and forth between them nervously.
“An espresso please. Don’t worry,
I won’t make him bleed all over
these lovely hardwoods.” Jonah
smiled at her charmingly and Levi
rolled his eyes.
When Levi came over she was on her
front lawn building a snowman with
Miles, Adrian and Gillian’s fourteen-
year-old son.
She waved a mittened hand and
ducked the snowball Miles had
lobbed while her attention was
elsewhere.
He smiled at her and her heart
lifted as it always did when she saw
him. “Hello there. I hope you’re not
going to stand out in the snow in
those shoes.”
Miles wrapped a scarf around the
snowman’s neck.
“Hogwarts
snowman?”
Levi
grinned.
“Do you really think a snowman on
my lawn would be Slytherin?
Puhleeze. Levi, this is Miles, Miles,
this is Levi.”
Miles looked to Daisy carefully
before he smiled at Levi. Sweet boy,
that one.
“I would have worn my snowman-
making shoes if I’d known this was
on the day’s menu.” Levi reached out
and pulled her hat lower to cover her
ears.
“Miles is hanging out with me until
his dad gets back.”
“Mum made him because he drives
back and forth between our house
here and his old place in West
Seattle.” Miles did that one shoulder
shrug his father was so good at and it
made Daisy grin.
“I’m going to run home and grab a
pair of boots suitable for snowman
making. I’ll be back shortly.” He
ducked to kiss her and it made her
happy.
“So who is that guy?” Miles
worked on the second snowman as he
spoke.
It
had
dumped
an
uncharacteristic amount of snow two
days before and it was cold enough
to stick around, though thankfully the
roads were clear.
“That’s my boyfriend.”
“He’s all right. Got a nice car.”
“He totally does have a nice car.
You can’t hear anything when you’re
inside it.”
“Dad says the kind of car a dude
drives says something about him. I
say yeah, it says how much money he
has.”
Daisy laughed and kept packing
snow. “He’s a lawyer so I guess he’s
got a few pennies to spare on a nice
car.” She had a Mini Cooper, which
got her where she needed to go and
was totally cute too. But Levi’s big,
dark, luxury-on-wheels BMW was
another league of vehicle.
“I’m saving now. Only two more
years until I get to drive.”
Daisy loved how despite the fact
that Adrian was a rock star, they
were raising Miles to be down-to-
earth and work for what he wanted.
They talked about cars until Levi
returned
dressed
far
more
appropriately for the weather. She
had to pause and look at him a few
times because he looked so gorgeous.
Boots and jeans, a fisherman’s
sweater and a watch cap pulled
down over his ears. She wanted to
lick him from head to toe.
Levi talked to Miles about school
and his studies and Miles’s shyness
began to wear off as he got used to
Levi. It was lovely. And normal. It
made her happy.
When Adrian came back to pick
Miles up he gave Levi a long look.
She figured Gillian had told him at
least a little, though she knew Gillian
wouldn’t have spilled any secrets,
even to Adrian.
“Adrian Brown, Levi Warner.”
Adrian held his hand out and shook
Levi’s as the two men gave each