Temptation (27 page)

His words make my breath catch in my throat. It takes me a few seconds before I can form the words he’s waiting for me to say. I gaze into his eyes knowing he’s telling me the truth. There’s no way he could be lying to me or telling me what I want to hear. I smile at him and he smiles back at me. He rubs his thumbs on my cheeks, and I finally let go of the breath I’m holding.

“Okay, Vik. I’ll try to trust you.” I know I should say more to him, but these words are the only ones that come out. He seems pleased with it. Viktor leans down and places his soft lips on mine. He kisses me gently, and slowly pulls away from me. The way he’s staring at me now, makes me believe he might love me. I know I’ve been falling hard for him since the moment I met him, and even though I know neither one of us is ready for that yet, just knowing he cares for me this way makes it easier to finally accept him. To finally let go of all the pain from my past. I know it might not be easy for either one of us, but as long as we try, I can live with that.

Viktor lets go of my face and holds out his hand. I take it, letting him help me up. He pulls me into his arms and holds me close. I can hear the thump, thump, thump of his heart. The sound is like music to my ears. I feel Gabbie tapping my butt, and I look down to see what she’s doing.

“What is it, baby?”

Gabbie drops the bubble blower and says, “Mommy, me want hugs too.”

Viktor lets me go and picks her up. He hugs her tightly and he holds out his arm for me to join in. I wrap my arms around both of them, loving the feel of them in my arms.

Viktor and I lay on the couch facing each other, talking and laughing. Our legs are tangled together and Viktor’s arm is wrapped around my waist holding me close. Gabbie sits in the floor close by us while playing with her blocks. The Little Mermaid plays softly on the TV and I can hear Gabbie singing along with the characters. I never thought Viktor and I would be where we are at right now, in this moment. I knew from the first time I met him, he was different, but laying with him, talking with him, it seems surreal to me.

I move my arm under my neck, making it easier to be comfortable and talk to Viktor some more. I like that he’s telling me more about himself. It feels right, and natural with him talking to me about normal things.

“So, now will you tell me when your birthday is? Or at least tell me how old you are.” I say playfully. I grin and giggle when he rolls his eyes at me.

“You really want to know?”

“Yes, I do. I’ve been trying to find out for a year now. Come on, Vik.”

He sighs giving into what I want. “Fine. I just turned thirty-two. My birthday was two months ago. Satisfied now?”

I blink a few times trying to hide the shock that I’m sure is showing on my face. I had no idea Viktor was in his thirties. I knew he was older, but he’s thirteen years older than I am. He starts to laugh at me, and lightly punch him on his shoulder.

“Why are you laughing?”

Viktor’s eyes shine with humor as he says, “I wish you could’ve seen the look on your face. Priceless. Didn’t expect me to be so old did you?”

“I … I, no. I mean I knew you were older, but I didn’t realize I’d be dating a dirty old man,” I snap back sarcastically. “Is that why you didn’t want to tell me? You thought the age difference would bother me?”

“Ava, you know I’m a private person. I keep a lot of things to myself, and I’m only telling you now, because like you said, we’re dating.” Viktor wiggles his eyebrows as he says this. I like this side of him. “Also, I do not want anyone else knowing. They would try to throw me a party or something.”

“What would be so wrong with that? Vik, the girls you work with, they respect you. And they think of you more than just their boss.”

“I know. But,” he pulls my leg over his waist and turns so he’s on his back. He slowly brings me over him so I’m lying on top of him, and he brushes my hair out of my face. “I still want only you to know. Can you keep my birthday a secret?”

I lean down and give him a peck on the lips. “Yes, I’ll keep your secret. Speaking of secrets, are we telling anyone about … you know … us? I don’t want the girls thinking I’m getting special treatment or anything.”

“Well, you sort of are.”

“Vik, I’m serious.”

“Let’s just see how it goes then. We’ll continue to do as we did before you finally let me have you.”

“Technically, you haven’t had me yet. We’re just dating. There’s a big difference.”

Viktor gazes at me as he licks his lips. I’ve grown very fond of this lustful look he has for me. “Do you want me to have you, Ava?”

My face turns a bright shade of red. I hate I can’t hide my blush better, he makes it damn near impossible. I have to turn away from his intense gaze as I sit up. I don’t know if I’m ready for that yet. I want to be. I know it’ll be amazing, and I really would like him to make me come again.

“Ava, look at me.”

I face him, as I say, “I don’t know if I’m ready for that.”

“I’m not going to pressure you to do anything you don’t want to. You know that. And you also know, you want me to make you come again.” Viktor rubs his hands up my arms and back, slowly bringing me down closer to him. “You know you want me to be the one to make you come undone and feel nothing but pleasure.” His hands tangle in my hair as he bring me inches from his lips. I rest my hands on his chest, and I can feel his heart beating hard against my hands. I can feel his breath on mine as he says, “You know exactly what you want. All you have to do is take it.”

Viktor’s lips crash onto mine. He takes my mouth with force and kisses me with passion. His teeth nip my lips and he sucks away the sting. His hand moves to the back of my neck pulling me closer as his other hand slowly moves down to grasp my ass. My heart flutters and I lose my breath as he kisses me with such demand. I feel as though I need him to breath. I kiss him back trying to show how much I do want him. Even if I have doubts about being ready or not, I do want him. All of him. I can feel his growing erection on my now aching pussy. I can’t stop my hips when they start to move against him. He groans in my mouth and the sound makes my stomach clench with want.

“Icky, you kissing my mommy?”

I snap my head away from Viktor’s tempting mouth and look to see Gabbie staring at the both of us. Viktor chuckles as he moves his hand off my ass. How could I forget about my baby girl? I blush feeling embarrassed that I was making out right in front of her.

“I was. Is it okay with you if I kiss your mommy?” Viktor asks her. She really seems to think it over for a few moments. Her little eyebrows furrow, and she looks up to me.

“Mommy, you wike Icky?”

I move off Viktor and I place her in my lap. Viktor sits beside me and he watches me carefully, putting his hands in his lap to hide his hard on. I grin and shake my head turning back to Gabbie. “I do, baby. You like Viktor too, don’t you?” I sneak a glance at him and he’s gazing at the both of us with something I’ve never seen before. I quickly turn away, feeling my heart starting to race.

“Hers plays with me.” She turns in my lap and looks right at Viktor as she says, “Icky, you wike my mommy?”

“I like your mommy very much.” There goes that damn look again.

“Okay. Hers play with me now?”

Viktor nods his head and smiles at me. He moves off the couch and takes her out of my arms. They both start to play with her blocks on the floor and I tuck my legs under my butt, watching them. It still amazes me how good he is with her. I could watch them play all day if I could. I catch Viktor staring at me while Gabbie talks away about nothing. I can’t help the grin and the blush when he looks at me like that.

I get off the couch and Viktor watches my every move. I bend down and kiss Gabbie on the forehead. “I’m going to take a bath. Can you put her to bed soon?”

Viktor nods and I turn to leave. He grabs my wrist and pulls me down to him. “Where’s my kiss?”

“You want a kiss?” I sweetly ask.

“I always want to kiss you,
moy soblaznitel'nitsa
.” I roll my eyes wondering what he just said to me. I have a feeling it’s a compliment. I lean down and I hover over his lips, making him want it more.

“You sure you want it?” I tease.

Viktor growls and pulls my wrist down making me almost fall as my lips cover his. He quickly kisses me and then lets me go. “
Derzhite menya iskushayet. YA ispravit' eto ochen' skoro
,” he says softly.

I laugh as I say, “English, Vik.”

He slaps my ass playfully and I quickly move away from him before he does something else to me. I start to walk up the stairs and I look back to my baby girl and Viktor. Gabbie’s giggling at something Viktor says, and I think Viktor just might be the best thing to ever happen to me. And as I walk up the stairs, I can’t help to smile and touch my fingers to my lips thinking about Viktor’s lips on mine. Or that smoldering look he gave me.

I place my hair up in a bun on top of my head. I let my silk robe fall into a pile on the tile floor and I walk over to the claw foot tub. I shut off the water and I step into the hot and much needed bath. I sink lower into the tub and I close my eyes trying to get my muscles to relax. Viktor has my entire body aching for him to touch me. I think about what he said to me earlier about taking what I want. I want to do just that, but I still don’t know if I’m ready. Sex with Viktor will be amazing. I know it would be. Just thinking about it, makes my whole body want it.

But am I ready to give into the temptation?

Maybe if I just get it over with I won’t have to worry so much about it anymore. Once it’s done, I can stop second guessing and talking myself out of it. I should just do it. Just let Viktor fuck me and take over my mind and body. Why am I so nervous about it? It’s just sex. I mean it’s not like I haven’t done it before. Granted sex with Malcolm was … not what I expected and pretty much a letdown. But, Viktor’s different. Thinking of how he made me come undone a few days ago, makes deciding what to do a little easier. I need him to make me come again. I want him to make me feel nothing but the pleasure he promises with that hot smoldering look.

With my mind made up, I quickly wash myself. I get out of the tub and drain the water, and reach to grab a towel. I try to push away the bundle of nerves I suddenly feel in the pit of my stomach. I don’t want to be nervous. I walk over to the mirror as I pick up my robe and put it on. I take down my hair, and my reflection catches my eyes. I turn and I open my robe more. I want to think Viktor likes my body the way it is now, but I’ve changed a lot since having Gabbie. My breasts are fuller, my stomach isn’t as flat, and my thighs are thicker. I also have a few stretch marks and my ass jiggles. I turn away from the mirror, because if I don’t, my body will change my mind about letting Viktor having his way with me. I smirk and shake my head. I still think this is all too good to be true. I tie my robe in a tight knot as I walk over to the sink.

I quickly brush my teeth and after I finish I push my hair out of my face. It’s sad that I have to literally give myself a pep talk about having sex. I know it’s mainly because I’m not experienced. My first time, I got pregnant. Malcolm and I had sex while I lived with him, but just knowing how Viktor makes me feel without even touching me, is nerve racking. I want to be the woman Viktor thinks I am. The one who is sure of herself and takes what she wants. Funny thing is, that’s exactly how I am while I dance. Is it possible I have a split personality?

As I open the bathroom door, I breathe in my nose and slowly let it out of my mouth. I don’t want to lose my bravado, so I jerk the door open with a little more force than necessary. My bedroom light is off, and I wonder for a second if Viktor put Gabbie to bed already.

I startle when my beside light clicks on, and I see Viktor laying down on the bed. He’s on his back, with one arm behind his head, and the other moves onto his chest after turning on the light. “Dammit Vik, you scared me.”

“Why are you so jumpy?” he teases.

I roll my eyes and walk over to the bed. I stand in front of him and my damn nerves crank up even more. My palms are sweating and I switch back and forth on my feet.