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Authors: John Katzenbach

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He wore glasses, which wasn’t unusual for a man his age, though he took pride in the detail that his prescription still was minimal. He took pride, as well, that although thinned, his hair still rode upright on his scalp like wheat on a prairie. He no longer smoked, and took only a rare glass of wine on an occasional evening to help him sleep. He was a man who had grown accustomed to his solitude, undaunted by eating dinner in a restaurant alone, or attending a Broadway show or current movie by himself. He thought the inventory of his body and mind to be in excellent condition. He felt far younger than his years most days. But he was acutely aware that the year he was entering was the year that his father had failed to live past, and despite that lack of logic in this observation, he had not thought that he would live past fifty-three, either, as if such an act would be unfair, or was somehow inappropriate. And yet, he thought contradictorily to himself, as he stared again at the first words of the letter, I am not yet ready to die. Then he read on, slowly, pausing over each sentence, allowing dread and disquiet to take root within him.
I exist somewhere in your past.
You ruined my life. You may not know how, or why,
or even when, but you did. Brought disaster and sadness to
my every second. You ruined my life. And now I fully intend to ruin yours.
Ricky Starks breathed in hard again. He lived in a world common with false threats and fake promises, but knew immediately that the words in front of him were far different from those meandering rantings he was accustomed to hearing daily.
At first, I thought I should simply kill you to settle the score.
Then I realized that was simply too easy. You
are a pathetically facile target, doctor. You do not lock
your doors during the day. You take the same walk on
the same route Monday through Friday. On weekends, you remain
wondrously predictable, right down to the trip out on
Sunday morning to pick up the
Times
, an onion bagel, and
a hazelnut coffee, two sugars, no milk, at the trendy
coffee bar two blocks to your south.
Far too easy. Stalking and killing you wouldn’t have
been much of a challenge. And, given the ease with which
this murder could be accomplished, I wasn’t certain that
it would deliver the necessary satisfaction.
I’ve decided I would prefer you to kill yourself.
Ricky Starks shifted uncomfortably in his seat. He could feel heat rippling up from the words in front of him, like fire catching in a woodstove, caressing his forehead and cheeks. His lips were dry, and he fruitlessly ran his tongue over them.
Kill yourself, doctor.
Jump from a bridge. Blow your brains out with a handgun.
Step in front of a midtown bus. Leap in front of a subway
train. Turn on the gas stove and blow out the pilot light. Find
a convenient beam and hang yourself. The method you choose
is entirely up to you.
But it is your best chance.
Your suicide will be far more appropriate, given the
precise circumstances of our relationship. And certainly
a far more satisfying method for you to pay off your debt to me.
So, here is the game we are going to play: You have exactly
fifteen days, starting tomorrow morning at six a.m., to discover who
I am. If you succeed, you must purchase one of those tiny
one-column ads that run along the bottom of the daily New York Times front page, and print my name there. That’s all: Just print
my name.
If you do not, then… well, this is the fun part. You will
take note that the second sheet of this letter contains the names
of fifty-two of your relatives. They range in age from a newborn,
barely six months old, the child of your great-grand-niece, to your cousin
the Wall Street investor, and capitalist extraordinaire, who is
as dried-up and dull as you. If you are unable to purchase the ad
as described, then you have this choice: Kill yourself immediately or I
will destroy one of these innocent people.
Destroy.
What an intriguing word. It could mean financial ruin. It could mean
social wreckage. It could mean psychological rape.
It could also mean murder. That’s for you to wonder about. It could
be someone young, or someone old. Male or female. Rich or poor.
All I promise is that it will be the sort of event that they-or their loved
ones-will never recover from, no matter how many years they might spend in psychoanalysis.
And whatever it is, you will live every remaining second of every minute you have left on this earth with the knowledge that you alone caused it.
Unless, of course, you take the more honorable approach and kill yourself
first, saving whichever target I have selected from their fate.
There’s your choice: my name or your obituary. In the same paper,
of course.
As proof of the length of my reach, and the extent of my planning, I have this day contacted one of the names on the list with a most modest little message. I would urge you to spend the remainder of this evening ferreting out who was touched, and how. Then you can begin on the true task before you without delay in the morning.
I do not, of course, truly expect you to be able to guess my identity.
So, to demonstrate that I am a sporting type, I’ve decided that
from time to time over the next fifteen days I will provide you with
a clue or two. Just to make things more interesting, although a clever,
intuitive sort, such as yourself, should assume that this entire letter is
filled with clues. Nevertheless, here is a preview, and it comes for free.
In the past, life was fun and wild,
Mother, father, and young child.
But all the good times went astray,
When my father sailed away.
Poetry is not my strong suit.
Hatred is.
You may ask three questions. Yes or No answers, please.
Use the same method, the front-page ads in the New York Times.
I will reply in my own style within twenty-four hours.
Good luck. You might also try to find time now to make your funeral arrangements. Cremation is probably preferable to an elaborate
burial service. I know how much you dislike churches. I don’t think
it would be a smart idea to contact the police. They would probably
mock you, which I suspect your conceit would have difficulty
handling. And it would likely enrage me more, and, right now, you
must be a little uncertain as to how unstable I actually am. I
might respond erratically, in any number of quite evil ways.
But of one thing of which you can be absolutely certain: My anger
knows no limits.
The letter was signed in all-capital letters:
RUMPLESTILTSKIN

 

Ricky Starks sat back hard in his chair, as if the fury emanating from the words on the page in front of him had been able to strike him in the face like a fist. He pushed himself to his feet, walked over to the window and cracked it open, allowing the city sounds to burst into the quiet of the small room, carried by an unexpected late July breeze that promised an evening thunderstorm might be tracking the city. He breathed in, looking for something in the air to give him a sense of relief from the heat that had overcome him. He could hear the high-pitched caterwaul of a police siren a few blocks distant, and the steady cacophony of car horns that is like white noise in Manhattan. He took two or three deep breaths, then pulled the window closed, shutting away all the outside sounds of normal urban life.
He turned back to the letter.
I am in trouble, he thought. But how much, he was initially unsure.
He realized that he was being deeply threatened, but the parameters of that threat were still unclear. A significant part of him insisted he ignore the document on the desktop. Simply refuse to play what didn’t sound like much of a game. He snorted once, allowing this thought to flourish. All his training and experience suggested that doing nothing was the most reasonable course of action. After all, oftenfinds that maintaining silence and a failure to respond to the most provocative and outrageous behavior by a patient is the cleverest way to get to the psychological truth of those actions. He stood up and walked around the desk twice, like a dog sniffing at an unusual smell.
On the second pass, he stopped and stared down at the page of words again.
He shook his head. That won’t work, he realized. For a moment he had a shot of admiration for the writer’s sophistication. Ricky understood he would probably have greeted the “I’m going to kill you” threat with a detachment closing on boredom. After all, he had lived long, and quite well, he thought, so threatening to kill a man in his middle years didn’t really amount to much. But that wasn’t what he was facing. The threat was more oblique. Someone else was slated to suffer if he did nothing. Someone innocent, and in all likelihood, someone young, because the young are far more vulnerable.
Ricky swallowed hard. I would blame myself and I would live out my remaining time in true agony.
Of that, the writer was absolutely correct.
Or else kill myself. He could taste a sudden bitterness on his tongue. Suicide would be the antithesis of everything he’d stood for, his entire life. He suspected the person who signed his name
Rumplestiltskin
knew that.
He felt abruptly as if he’d been placed on trial.
Again he began to pace around his office, assessing the letter. A great voice within him wanted to be dismissive, to shrug the entire message off, to anoint it an exaggeration and a fantasy without any basis in reality but found that he was unable to. Ricky berated himself:
Just because something makes you uncomfortable, doesn’t mean you should ignore it.
But he didn’t really have a good idea how to respond. He stopped pacing and returned to his seat. Madness, he thought. But madness with a distinctly clever touch, because it will cause me to join in the madness.
“I should call the police,” he said out loud. Then he stopped. And say what? Dial 911 and tell some dull and unimaginative desk sergeant that he’d received a threatening letter? And listen to the man tell him
So what
? As best as he could tell, no law had been broken. Unless suggesting that someone kill themselves was a violation of some sort. Extortion? What sort of homicide could it be? he wondered. The idea crossed his mind to call an attorney, but then he understood that the situation posed by Rumplestiltskin’s letter wasn’t legal. He had been approached on the playing field that he knew. The game suggested was one of intuitiveness, and psychology; it was about emotions and fears. He shook his head and told himself: I can play in that arena.
“What do you know already?” he spoke to himself in the empty room.
Someone knows my routine. Knows how I let patients into my office. Knows when I break for lunch. What I do on the weekends. Was also clever enough to ferret out a list of relatives. That took some ingenuity.
Knows my birthday.
He breathed in sharply, again. I have been studied.
I did not know it, but someone has been watching me. Measuring me. Someone has devoted considerable time and effort to creating this game and not left me much time for countermoves.
His tongue remained dry and his lips parched. He was suddenly very thirsty, but unwilling to leave the sanctity of his office for the kitchen and a glass of water.
“What did I do to make someone hate me so?” he asked.
This question was like a quick punch in the stomach. Ricky knew he enjoyed the arrogance of many caregivers, thinking that he had delivered good to his small corner of the world through understanding and acceptance of one’s existence. The idea that he’d created some monstrous infection of hatred in someone somewhere was extremely unsettling.
“Who are you?” he demanded of the letter. He immediately started to race through the catalog of patients, stretching back over decades, but, just as swiftly, stopped. He understood he might have to do this eventually, but he would need to be systematic, disciplined, dogged, and he wasn’t ready to take that step yet.
Ricky didn’t think of himself as very qualified to be his own policeman. But then he shook his head, realizing that, in a unique way, that was untrue. For years he’d been a sort of detective. The difference was truly the nature of the crimes he’d investigated and the techniques he’d used. Buttressed slightly by this thought, Ricky Starks sat back down at his desk, reached into the top right-hand drawer and removed an old, leather-bound address book so frayed around the edges that it was held together by a rubber band. For starters, he told himself, we can find the relative who has been contacted by this person. It must be some former patient, he told himself, one who cut his analysis short and plunged into depression. One who has harbored a near-psychotic fixation for a number of years. He guessed that with a little bit of luck and perhaps a nudge or two in the right direction from whichever of his relatives had been contacted, he would be able to identify the disgruntled ex-patient. He tried to tell himself, empathetically, that the letter writer-Rumplestiltskin-was really reaching out to him for help. Then, almost as quickly, he discarded this wishy-washy thought. Holding the address book in his hand, Ricky thought about the fairy tale character whose name the letter writer had signed. Cruel, he told himself. A magical gnome with a black heart that isn’t outfoxed, but loses his contest through sheer bad luck. This observation did not make him feel any better.
The letter seemed to glow on the desktop in front of him.

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