The Bad Boy Wants Me: A Bad Boy Romance (17 page)

Tori

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X9_n8jakvWU

W
e are all at Just Cavalli club. It is extravagant and opulent with purple neon lights and girls dressed in angel wings dancing next to metal pillars. The Alkaline party is spread over a large area, some of it flowing into an outdoor area with a huge dance floor and torches. I stand at a little cove and watch the crowd that surges around Cash everywhere he goes. Everybody wants a little piece of him. He looks at me and waves me over, but I shake my head.

‘Going to the toilet,’ I mouth, and point in the direction of the toilets.

Someone calls and he turns away from me after mouthing the words, ‘I’ll be waiting here for you.’

I turn towards the toilets and walk into Gavin.

‘Sorry,’ I apologize.

‘You’re cool,’ he says with a lazy smile.

‘That was a great performance today,’ I say.

‘Thanks. I’m very good at playing the second fiddle.’

My eyebrows rise. ‘You don’t believe that. You have just as many fans as Cash.’

He grins. ‘I suppose you’re right. I definitely have more than I can get through, anyway.’

Not sure how to react, I smile politely.

‘How are you getting on with the others?’

I scowl. ‘Not good. They seem to hate me even before I open my mouth.’

He laughs. ‘It’s not you, babe. Come on, I’ll buy you a drink and tell you how it all works in this business.’

I glance in the direction of Cash and see that he is occupied and will be for some time to come. Besides, I badly want to know what I am doing wrong and Gavin is the only one who seems to like me at all. I smile gratefully at him. ‘Thanks. I’ll really appreciate any pointers you can give me.’

We go to the bar and Gavin taps the bar.

‘Tequila OK with you?’

I nod and he orders two shots of tequila with lime and salt and two bottles of beer. We do the tequila, lime and salt thing quickly. I notice his eyes linger on my mouth when I put the lime between my lips and suck it. Then he picks up his bottle and so do I. He points to a sofa a couple have just vacated.

‘Let’s be comfortable,’ he says.

I follow him and we sit at the table. A waitress brings two more tequilas and we down them immediately.

‘Hoo,’ I exhale. ‘That’s me done.’

He grins. ‘Lightweight huh?’

‘I haven’t got hollow legs like you,’ I retort.

He laughs.

‘So,’ I say leaning in. ‘Tell me, what am I doing wrong? Why does everyone hate me so passionately?’

‘You’re not doing anything wrong, love. Long, blonde hair, big lips, and seductive, secretive cornflower blue eyes. What’s not to like?’ he asks cheerfully.

I frown at the sexual description, but I have noticed that this is the way all the band members talk. They always seem to be coming on to you even when they’re not. 

‘If Cash had taken Ke$ha or Selina Gomez or any other celebrity as his girl, there would be no problem,’ he explains. ‘But because he took an ordinary girl, it turns everybody into green eyed monsters thinking that you have risen above your station and taken what you don’t deserve. As long as you are with Cash you will have to put up with it. It will never stop. They’ll always hate you.’

I stare at him unhappily. ‘That doesn’t sound very hopeful. Isn’t there anything I can do to make the situation better?’

‘Nope. The nicer you are to them the worse they will be to you. Your best bet is to just ignore them and enjoy your time with Cash. Soon enough it will be all over.’

My eyes widen. He sure didn’t pull his punches. I pick up my beer and take a small sip. It’s one thing for me to tell myself that obviously my relationship won’t last. How can it possibly? We are from different worlds. But it is quite another thing to hear it spelt out so succinctly by someone else. I swallow the beer and the lump in my throat and to my horror my eyes unexpectedly fill with tears. Why I am crying I do not know.

‘Hey,’ he says, his face creasing up, and puts a hand on my shoulder.

‘Oh, God, I feel like such a fool,’ I say, gently pressing my knuckles into the corners of my eyes so I don’t spoil my make-up.

‘Come here,’ he says, and suddenly drags me to him. Before I know it he has pulled me to him and is kissing me. On the mouth! It takes a second for me to get over the shock of the fact that I am in his lap, his hands are around my waist, and his hot mouth is on mine. I turn my face away and placing both my hands on his chest I push away from him. I push away so hard I feel myself falling backwards. I land on the floor humiliated and furious. From my prone position on the floor I see Britney is standing over Gavin. Her face is twisted with anger, or perhaps even hate.

‘Get up,’ she snarls.

‘What the fuck?’ he says.

‘Get up you little worm.’

‘Calm down, Britney,’ he says, looking around him worriedly.

‘If you don’t get up I’m going to tell my brother what you did.’

He flies up from his seat and looks at her with shifty eyes. ‘Listen,’ he starts to explain, but he gets no further.

‘That’s for what you did to me,’ she says, and delivers a vicious karate chop to the side of his neck. He goes white, his body arches, and his mouth opens and closes like a goldfish.

‘This is for Tori,’ she cries ferociously and aims two blows in quick succession into his midriff. He clutches his stomach and bends double. His face is contorted and a hoarse rasp struggles out of his mouth.

‘And this one is for messing with my brother’s girlfriend,’ she says, and executes a sideways kick into Gavin’s nuts just like Rita Ora does to the bad guy’s belly in her Black Widow video.

His eyes bulge with the agony and shock, then he blinks and crashes to the right, knocking down a stool. He curls up on the ground, odd choking sounds crawling out of his open mouth.

‘Oh, and just in case it’s not perfectly clear yet, you are uninvited to my party, tomorrow,’ Britney spits. She turns to me. ‘Come, Tori. Let’s go.’

I am too stunned to do anything so Britney holds her hand out and helps me up from the floor. I take one more look at Gavin writhing on the floor before I turn away. All around us people are staring. As we take our first step we come face to face with Octavia. Her mouth is open in astonishment. She snaps it shut, and throwing a furious glare at us, she dashes forward to help Gavin.

We walk to the toilets without saying a word. I turn to face Britney. ‘What did he do to you?’

She takes a shuddering breath. ‘You know that night at the party in Cash’s house.’

‘Yeah,’ I say.

‘He pushed me up against a wall and forced his fingers inside me. I didn’t expect it so I was too shocked to do anything, but luckily someone else came into the room and he let go of me. I ran away and came to find you.’

‘Oh! My God, no.’ I stare at her in horror. Suddenly it all makes sense. That is why she had been crying and in such a state. What a sick bastard. I wish I had kicked his face in too.

‘Why didn’t you tell anyone?’ I ask her gently.

‘I didn’t want to get him in trouble. I always fancied him and I was afraid that maybe I had encouraged him. I liked it when he first started kissing me, but then he started to get rough.’

‘Oh, Britney. It’s not your fault. I’m so much older than you and he managed to take me by surprise. I thought he was a nice guy trying to help me. It was all just a pretense.’

‘I think he must be very jealous of Cash. That is why he did that to me and you.’

‘Hell, Brit, when did you find out about me and Cash?’

‘I’ve known for ages. The two of you are like two elephants roaming about the house at night.’

‘We didn’t really make that much noise, did we?’ I protest, red faced.

‘You woke dad up,’ she says flatly.

‘What?’ I blurt out in horror.

‘Exactly.’

My jaw drops open. ‘Mr. Hunter knows?’

‘Um … I might have told him,’ she confesses with a sly grin.

My eyes pop open. ‘You did not,’ I cry.

‘I did,’ she admits calmly.

‘He’s not upset, is he?’

‘Why should he be?’

‘Oh my God! I’m freaking out right now. Tell me exactly what he said,’ I demand urgently.

‘Actually he just laughed and said, “Looks like I killed two birds with one stone.”’

I look at her worriedly. ‘What’s that supposed to mean?’

She shrugs. ‘You know how dad is. He’s always talking in riddles. I asked but he refused to explain further.’

I chew at my bottom lip. ‘And you don’t mind?’

‘Mind?’ she asks in a surprised voice. ‘I think it’s wonderful. I wish he would marry you.’

I stare at Britney, all kinds of thoughts and sensations slam into me at her innocent words. Marry? Cash and me? I was thirteen when I bought a little fake gold ring and pretended to be Mrs. Cash Hunter.

‘It’s not that kind of relationship,’ I croak.

‘But wouldn’t you like to marry my brother though? It’ll be such fun. We’ll be real sisters then.’

‘It’s way too early to tell, Brit. We barely know each other.’ I pause for a second and quickly steer the conversation away from this topic. ‘Are you going to tell Cash about what Gavin did to you?’

‘I don’t know,’ she says thoughtfully. ‘It could break Alkaline up.’

‘But you have to tell someone. What he did was wrong. He’ll do it to someone else if there are no consequences. Maybe you should at least tell your dad.’

‘You’re right. I’ll tell dad. He’ll know what to do. He always does.’

I smile at her. ‘You were badass out there. Those self-defense classes sure came in handy.’

‘Look at my hands,’ she says showing her hands.

They are still trembling with reaction and I grab them in mine. ‘I know your dad will be super proud of what you did today. It was very courageous,’ I tell her.

She grins at me. ‘I’m not the same person I was before. Thanks to you.’

‘I’m so proud of you, Brit. You’ve come a long way in a very short time. Thank you for sticking up for me.’

She looks at her fake nails nonchalantly. ‘No problem. I can always fit a little drama into my life.’

I laugh.

‘Cash will be looking for you. You should repair your lipstick quickly,’ she says.

I look at the mirror and see that my lipstick is smudged and smeared on my left cheek. I pull out some toilet paper and wipe my mouth and cheek clean before I apply a new layer of lipstick. Then I turn around and hug her. ‘You do know that I didn’t kiss him willingly, right?’

‘I know you and I know Gavin,’ she says simply.

I smile at her.

‘Come on, let’s go find Cash,’ she says.

We go out. Enrique Iglesias is singing
I Like It
, and Cash is outside looking for us. ‘Where have the two of you been? I’ve been looking all over for you girls.’

We go back to the party and neither Gavin nor Octavia are anywhere to be seen.

Tori

‘
W
ake up, you morsel of sexiness.’

I groan and, turning away from the voice, curl up into a tight ball.

‘Come on. I’ve got something really special to show you,’ Cash says in my ear.

I open one eye. ‘What?’

‘Want to see The Last Supper?’ He licks along the shell.

My aunt told me she came to Milan and though she desperately wanted to see The Last Supper, she couldn’t. She joked tickets to see it were harder to come by than front seat invitations to a Gucci fashion show. I open both eyes. ‘You have tickets?’

‘Three if I’m keeping it real.’

I stretch luxuriously and yawn. How could this guy have so much energy? He lights up a stage for more than an hour, he parties until late at night, has sex until the early morning hours, and wakes up at first light.

He nibbles my lobe. He’s starting something here. ‘Unless you just want to stay in bed and we can have sex all morning.’

I pull back slightly. ‘As delicious as that sounds, I do want to see The Last Supper.’

He grins. Cocky and confident. ‘That’s what I thought.’

‘What’s the time?’ I ask.

‘Nine.’

‘Already?’

‘Get in the shower and I’ll go wake Brit up,’ he says slipping out of the room.

Totally naked I pad over to the shower. Warm water rains down on me, bouncing off my head, face and shoulders. It’s a good way to wake up. I’m already out of the shower and getting into my clothes when Cash comes back in.

‘Is Britney getting ready?’ I ask.

‘She doesn’t want to come.’

‘Why not? I thought she loved art.’

‘Yeah, the modern stuff. Her exact grumpy response was, “Go away. I’m not getting out of bed to stand for half-an-hour in front of a painting that’s been so heavily restored it’s not even Leonardo’s work any more.”’

I giggle. That so sounds like Britney. ‘Did you tell her it’s a mural and not a painting?’

‘Nope. I didn’t think it would make a blind bit of difference.’

‘So what does she want to do?’ I ask picking up the hairdryer.

‘She wants to go to see the Duomo so she’ll meet us before we set off for that. I’ll arrange for the driver to pick her up and bring her to us.’

I point the hairdryer at him. ‘Aren’t you worried you’re going to get recognized and mobbed?’

He walks over to the desk and picks up the beard and the moustache he used that night we went to The Ministry of Sound.

I laugh. ‘Sterling idea.’

We have to pass through a humidity controlling chamber before we enter the refectory where we will only have fifteen minutes before the next lot of people will be let in. We enter, hushed and reverent. There is nothing else in that hall except a painting of Jesus’ crucifixion on the opposite wall.

I stand in front of the partially damaged mural and take a deep breath.

The painting is faded and even flaky, yet it is more majestic than anything I have seen before. I’m not a connoisseur of art, and I’m pretty certain I have seen other paintings and frescos with as much attention to detail, but perhaps it is the subject matter which arrests my complete attention. The painting catches the climactic moment when Jesus says, ‘One of you will betray me.’

Da Vinci has managed to capture the atmosphere of shock, astonishment, and rage among his disciples. The expressions on the faces of the apostles, their hand movements, and the postures of their bodies tell a mesmerizing story of the awakening of distrust in a tightly knit group of people.

I watch Judas. The bad guy. There is spilled salt before him, and he is clutching a bag of silver in his left hand. His right hand and Jesus’ are simultaneously reaching for a loaf of bread.

The guide’s voice comes through the device in my ear to say that the vanishing point for the painting is on Jesus’ right temple. That is where my eye goes and I’m suddenly moved by the look of gentle resignation and peace in a way I’ve never seen by him. Poor Jesus.

I steal a look at Cash and he is looking at me. The beard and the moustache make his eyes look as green as spring grass.

‘Do you like it?’ he asks.

‘It’s absolutely stunning.’

He smiles.

Then our time is over and all of us exit the convent through a gift shop and file out into the street.

‘Are you hungry?’ Cash asks.

In the bright sunshine his disguise looks really fake and stupid, but it occurs to me then, I don’t even care what he looks like any more. I just love him for what he is. For the things he says and does, and the way he touches my soul without even trying.

‘Well …’ he prompts.

I smile up at him. ‘I could eat a horse.’

We walk down the pavement hand in hand until we see Fabio’s car crawling up the road towards us. We get in and twenty minutes later we are in Via Santa Radegonda. There is a long queue that snakes all the way down the street.

‘Must be something pretty special judging from the length of the queue. What is it?’

‘It’s called panzerotti. It’s a pastry triangle stuffed with all kinds of filling. You can have it fried or baked.’

We join the back of the queue with all the other tourists and residents of Milan. It moves pretty fast and soon we are inside a nondescript shop that looks more like a takeaway joint. I have the fried Nutella version and Cash orders two, the classic with tomato and mozzarella and another with salami.

Clutching our beers and greasy paper bags of panzerotti we go to the piazza where we join other people who have the same idea.  We find a sunny spot and sit down to eat our pastries.

Cash takes a chunk of his panzerotti and creamy yellow mozzarella oozes out.

‘Good?’ I ask.

He licks his lips. ‘Delicious.’

I bite into mine and chew slowly. It tastes like a cross between a donut and a pizza. The dough is soft and quite sweet.

‘Do you like it?’ Cash asks.

‘Yes. Very tasty.’ I take my sweater off. The sun beats down on my head and shoulders. It feels good to be eating out in the open sunshine with Cash. 

‘Have you ever been betrayed, I mean in a big way, in like Last Supper fashion?’ I ask, licking a bit of Nutella from my finger.

‘No,’ he says biting into his pastry. ‘Have you?’

I shake my head. ‘I’ve lead a pretty sheltered life. I mean, my mom and dad would not even have let me come to England if my aunt was not living here.  But it’s good that someone who has been all over the world and lives the kind of big and bright life you do has never been betrayed.’

He takes a swig of his beer and looks at me expressionlessly. ‘I’ve been betrayed many times, Tori. Not in The Last Supper category, of course, but ...’

‘I’m sorry to hear that,’ I say sincerely.

‘Don’t be. It comes with the territory. You want fame and fortune, then don’t expect loyal friends as well.’

I stare at him curiously. ‘Don’t you have people that you trust?’

‘I trust my dad,’ he says simply.

‘No one else?’

He looks at me solemnly. ‘I kinda trust you.’

I swallow hard. The lies I’ve told, they are not a betrayal. They are not meant to hurt him or anyone else. I can sincerely say that I will never betray him. No amount of silver or gold can ever tempt me to betray him. I blush and smile at him shyly. ‘Thank you for trusting me. I will never betray your trust.’

The way he looks at me makes me feel as if I have stepped into one of my teenage dreams. My heart quickens as I take a casual bite of my pastry.

He gives a lopsided smile. ‘A guy could fall in love with a girl like you.’

His statement is so shocking that I accidentally swallow the food in my mouth. It slides down my throat and lodges at the top of my trachea, and before I can cough it up, my windpipe closes tightly around it.

I’ve attended life saver class. That death grip is called the drowning reflex. It means if you ever fall into water, the trachea closes in to buy you a few minutes so you can get out of the water. That life-saving reflex has now kicked in and formed the perfect seal. I’ve stopped breathing because oxygen cannot get in or out of my lungs, and because there is no air to vibrate my larynx with, I can’t even make a sound.

For a few crazy seconds my first feeling is not fear but embarrassment. I’m choking. Everybody’s going to turn and look. I actually think I can try to cough it up, or surreptitiously thump my midriff.

‘What’s the matter?’ Cash asks, his eyes narrowed.

I open my mouth. Of course, nothing comes out, but black dots suddenly appear in my vision. That’s when fear and panic sets in.
Someone needs to do the Heimlich maneuver right now, or I’m going to die here.
In a piazza in Italy where no one knows me.

‘Christ. You’re choking,’ he rasps and, standing up, pulls me to my feet.

He wraps his arms around me, forms a fist below my sternum, and makes a series of hard and sharp (and quite frankly violent) compressions, to try and force the obstruction out.

It doesn’t work.

The lump of pastry refuses to budge. The bright day is slowly morphing into a dark narrowing tunnel. So this is what dying feels like. As my knees buckle, Cash roars in my ear, ‘Come on, Tori.’ He gives a great big heave that lifts my feet clean off the ground and makes me think my ribs are cracking.

The trapdoor opens and I gasp a lungful of clean air before it slaps down again.

‘Fuck this,’ Cash curses furiously, and heaves again, even harder. This time I cough, retch, and up it comes into my mouth. I spit it out. A slimy lump.

He turns me around to face him.

Tears run down my face. I look up at his white face. ‘You saved my life,’ I croak.

‘What the fuck, Tori? You scared the shit out of me.’ 

I stare at his eyes, wild with fear and anxiety. ‘I’m sorry.’

He grabs me suddenly and pulls me close to his body and I hear his heart racing in his chest.

‘You turned blue, Tori,’ he says, his voice is almost a sob.

‘I’m sorry,’ I whisper again.

‘It’s OK. It’s fine. It’s all good now,’ he croons.

‘What’s going on here?’

The sudden intrusion jolts us out of our own little world. We turn towards the voice and see Britney looking at us with an enquiring expression.

‘Tori nearly choked to death,’ Cash answers, his voice hoarse.

‘Really? Oh my God. I’ve missed everything then.’

We walk to the Duomo together. Cash never lets go of my hand. Sometimes I catch him looking at me almost anxiously.