The Creed of Violence (13 page)

And now Rawbone drove the top of his head into that spur of a
chin as he worked his hand down to the trigger. And John Lourdes got
an arm around that bear of a head to wrench it back. And Rawbone
snaked and squeezed his other arm across his body and finally he steadied up the weapon. McManus watched the barrel clock out inches till it
was no longer if, but when.

Rawbone, near wasted with exhaustion, said, "Let it go."

McManus would not have it.

"Just give up and we'll be done with this."

McManus opened his mouth and hissed.

"To what end?"

Rawbone confronted a harpoon stare.

"Mr. Lourdes, force your head back."

John Lourdes bent away as best he could.

"Friend," said Rawbone, "let it go or you'll be this moment
forever."

The face above the gun barrel filled with floodwaters of defiance
and contempt and a reverie to fearlessness and in the smoke and sweep
of images flickering on the screen the moment saw Rawbone pull the
trigger.

HE FACE WAS there one moment, and the next it was a denuded
mass of bone and blood. That great hull of muscle and will
dropped like a boulder to the floor. Rawbone stood with smoke and
strips of burning cloth floating in the air about him, looking down at
what was his friend. "All he had to do was let it go."

John Lourdes knelt exhausted and choking from the smoke. He
rolled the body over and tugged his automatic from the dead man's
belt. He stood. Rawbone was still staring down at the brutal evidence
of what just had happened.

"Put the fire out," said John Lourdes.

"Leave it-"

The last of the film kite tailed with the endless turning of the reel as
John Lourdes looked over the projector.

"What are you doing?"

"Put the fire out."

JOHN LOURDES WALKED out of the funeraria and into a star-filled
night with the reel of film under his arm. It was quiet, save for the lone
wail of a distant train. Rawbone stood looking across the river and
smoking when he joined him. The father took a bandana from his back
pocket and handed it to the son. "You're still leaking oil."

Rawbone went back to looking across the river. His past loomed
out there in the dark. He was heir to the brazen hand of his own making, and he knew it. John Lourdes watched. Rawbone seemed distant
and troubled, and caught up in a strained uncertainty. It was a picture
of the man the son did not remember as a boy. Of course, it could well
have been the part a boy could not recognize.

"He flat out perished himself," said Rawbone. "Why?"

The son was not sure the father expected him to answer. He had a
sense of why, but his was an emotional verdict he meant to use at the
appropriate time, with a vengeance.

Rawbone pointed to the reel of film. "What's so important about
that?"

John Lourdes explained about the film and how he thought it might
prove to be evidence connecting certain people and events. Rawbone
offered a clipped and sarcastic laugh. "I guess the future will come in all
shapes and surprises." Then he took from his pocket a slip of notepad
paper and pencil the son had given him.

"Like I said before, Mr. Lourdes. You had some good luck tonight." He passed the notepaper and pencil to the son. "And your good
luck tonight is my good fortune tomorrow."

The father was animated now and near grinning. "Tomorrow you'll
be justice Knox's sainted poker hand of an agent and I'll be pleasantly off for parts unknown." To that he added, "With a clear conscience
and a clean record."

Rawbone was able to cast aside what had just happened with absolute impunity and refocus on himself. It was a trait, though not noble,
John Lourdes thought he'd better acquire.

He looked at the father's chicken-scratch handwriting. He saw
names-the word railroad, underlined a number of times-and the
Panuco River.

Rawbone described how the scam to get him into Hecht's good
graces had played out even better than he could have imagined. And the
note John Lourdes had written—

As they walked to the warehouse behind the funeraria Rawbone
near mocked a reading of it: "Mr. Hecht, I've arrived with the makings of your icehouse-Will arrange for financial settlement tomorrow
morning."

Each took a shed door to open. The hinges groaning as they went.
Rawbone kept on, "It was a priceless way to word it, Mr. Lourdes. That
note was delivered all the way up to the headwaters of his asshole."

Rawbone used his cigarette to wick up a lantern. Light filled that
belly of a space and there was the truck, parked beside a hearse that
was comely and elegant and covered with dust. The light rivered across
its glass casement.

The father went on about the meeting with Hecht as John Lourdes,
exhausted and still bleeding, put the reel of film on the cab seat then sat
down on the runner.

Rawbone told how Hecht lived in a row house up from Customs.
He'd invited the father along, believing him to be a friend of Merrill's.
He'd been taken to the kitchen where the cook, an old Mexican
woman, was told to offer him food and coffee. Then Hecht excused
himself.

Men kept arriving, one and two at a time. There were what sounded
like discussions in a far room. The voices were gray and controlled.
What he wrote down was all he could pick up under the watchful eye of
the cook. He carefully plied her with a few questions, but she was immune to either friendliness or flattery.

When the men left and all was quiet, Hecht returned to the kitchen
and excused the cook. The two men had sat like old friends at an ornate
table, drinking coffee spiked with gentleman's whiskey.

"He was all polite and full of shit," said Rawbone. "Poking me
with questions to size me up. He's a wily bastard." The father looked
at himself in the dusty glass paneling of the hearse. His image imprinted there on a glowy lantern dusk. He spoke to himself as if he
were Hecht.

"I've to set an arrangement tomorrow to pick up a truck with
the makings of an icehouse that is to be delivered south of the city. I
was to entrust Merrill the job, but since he is not here and you are a
friend ... and I say to him while I'm filling my cup with more of his
gentleman's whiskey . . . `When Mr. Merrill comes back he'll tell you
how I can be trusted, for no one knows me better than he.' Of course,
Mr. Hecht has no idea the last I seen Merrill he was leaking oil out
of his skull."

Rawbone turned to John Lourdes. "And then he baits me out even
better. He says if I do right there'll be a job for me with the men who
work with Merrill. Now, Mr. Lourdes, do you see the whole play from
his side?"

The father drew down on his cigarette and waited as the son made
a silent catwalk through the dark corners of human motive. He'd been
holding the bandana to the wound along his eye but now he stood. He
looked into the hearse glass to see if the blood had stanched. Rawbone
was beside him now. He noted the son beginning to smile and then
outright laugh.

"He's throwing you to the wolves."

"There you go. I get the truck, I come back, alright. But if
there's chicanery I'm the perfect ignorant fool who ends up in a ditch
somewhere."

He put his hand on John Lourdes's shoulder and leaned in to talk
as if they were lifers conjoined in criminal plans. "Now, let me tell you
how I think we play this out and finish it."

"I can see what you're thinking as far away as forever."

"Is that so?"

"You bring the truck back," said John Lourdes, "and you keep the
money. In return you'll deliver it for Hecht but I find out through you
where and to whom. Then I go home and you, maybe you take Hecht
up on that job. As you say, with a smile and good cheer. You know,
you may have accidentally stumbled on a future down here."

"Ah, Mr. Lourdes, you can be a racehorse son-of-a-bitch."

"A pure thoroughbred."

But the son wasn't done yet. He took the cigarette from the father. His mood locked down as he considered a more daggered attack.
"You're going to deliver the truck," he said. "But what if you brought
a body back with it. To show you had to kill for the truck."

The father drew in closer and eyed the son through the dusty paneling of glass from where he stared back.

"Even the money should have blood on it," said John Lourdes.
"Think how much trust you'd have earned. How indebted Hecht would
be to you."

In the half shadows of the warehouse the father raised an eyebrow.
"A man who can breathe a thought like that has to have a black mark
in his life somewhere."

"You have no idea."

Reflection to reflection. The father now cocky and self-possessed.
"There's a notion that a hearse should never be cleaned or repaired unless it has a firm booking. Otherwise, if it is readied, it will find itself
work. Are you superstitious?"

"No."

"Well, I am. So keep your damn hands clear of it."

RAWBONE WAS SITTING at the kitchen table just as he had the night
before, when the phone rang down a hallway. Mr. Hecht entered the
room a few minutes later and excused the cook. He had written down
the appointed place, the appointed time. He was carrying a leather
packet which he set on the table before Rawbone.

West of Calle de la Paz was a ravine that ran all the way to the Rio
Bravo. It was also where garbage was dumped. Hours later Rawbone
left an urgent message by phone for Hecht to meet him there.

Gulls drifted on the thermals or picked away at the trash. Rawbone
smoked and waited alone as a single vehicle struggled its way down
that worthless stretch of road.

Mr. Hecht was alone. He looked Rawbone over as he got out of
the car. He looked the truck over. "I don't understand," he said. "Why
are we here?"

"I'll show you why."

Hecht was led to the rear of the truck, where a tarp was pulled back
just enough for him to view what remained of McManus. The old man
kept his head at the sight. The leather packet was positioned beside the
body. Rawbone held it for Hecht to take. It was blood-stained.

"This one had a different idea about the transaction than you
did."

Mr. Hecht waved away the packet.

"THERE'S NOTHING LIKE a finely worked `fuck you,"' said Rawbone.
He removed a thin band of hundreds from the packet, then tossed it
aside and pocketed the money.

John Lourdes had watched everything from a stand of trees, joining the father only after the dust trailing Hecht's vehicle had passed
away. He was looking over a note Hecht had written on his personal
stationery. Addressed to a Doctor Stallings, it was about a job and was
to be brought to a railroad siding at the junction of the road to Casas
Grandes.

"You know who the doctor is, don't you?" asked Rawbone.

"I do. He's in that film."

The father put out a hand to shake, but the son was preoccupied
with that letter. "Mr. Lourdes, you have fulfilled your obligation and I,
mine. It is time we part ways."

The son looked up. He did not take the father's hand. "I'm sure
you feel we're both the richer for our time together ... but we're not
near done yet."

AWBONE STOOD IN the wind with gulls sweeping overhead and
stared at the son as if a mountain had dropped down on him
from heaven.

"You better just enlighten me to what you meant."

"You speak the same language I do. We are done only when I say
we are done."

"Are you trying to roll me into a ditch?"

He grabbed the letter and started to walk away.

"Where are you going?" said John Lourdes. "Not back."

The father held up the letter. "I'm gonna go get introduced to my
future."

By the time Rawbone reached the truck John Lourdes had drawn
up behind him with his weapon pressed against the back of the father's neck. With that he stretched his arm and took the automatic Rawbone
carried.

John Lourdes stood back. He pointed to the rear of the truck.
"McManus ... you killed him. I know and Mr. Hecht ... he knows.
You might even say he's your accomplice in this. Now if justice Knox
went to Mexican intelligence, well-?"