The Full Experience (14 page)

Donnie was talking to Beck. He looked angry, but it seemed as though Donnie was stopping him from leaving the bar.

Kato was in big trouble.

“Here,” Leila said, placing a cold compress on her hand. “Tina from behind the bar said to use this.”

It was a small towel with ice cubes inside. It felt nice against her knuckles.

“I need a drink…or three,” Raven said moving towards the bar.

The girls agreed, and Raven got their next round.

“Hey,” Beck’s voice came from beside her. “Are you ok?”

“I’m just peachy!” she said happily holding up her glass of peach schnapps and sucking from the straw.
 

“Are you ok?” he asked again, his voice lowering in seriousness.

“I’m fabulous,” Raven said, trying to match his masculine tone.

“Raven, I’m asking because I need to know whether he hurt you.”

The look in his eyes warmed her heart, but she wasn’t going to show him that. Ava had said she shouldn’t. He should just ‘do what he’s gotta do.’

“What? No. Did you see the state of
his
face?” Raven made a splat sound as she spread her hands out across her nose.

“I did. What did he say to you?”

“Um…” she looked up and tapped her chin with her finger as though in thought. “Ava…” she turned to talk to her. The girls were gone. “Traitor!” she shouted.

“Can you please answer me?” The urgency in his tone piqued her interest.

“Why? What would you do if I told you he said nasty things to me? Nasty things about you?”

“I don’t give a shit what he says about me.”

“Well
I
do,” she said before she could stop herself. The alcohol had loosened her tongue somewhat.

“You do?” His head cocked to the side.

“Yes. He said that you were coming between us, and getting in his way.”

She conveniently left out the part that her blood had boiled when Kato had spoken badly about him.

“What?” He looked puzzled.

“Yes, didn’t you hear?” Beck shook his head. “Well I did as you ‘suggested’,” she held her fingers up in emphasis.
 
“I told him it was my decision and had nothing to do with you.”

Beck’s mouth tightened.

“Nothing?” he said through his clenched jaw.

“Why would it? Like you said, don’t do anything I don’t want to do. I didn’t want to, so I said no. That was all me.”

Beck nodded but cast his eyes down. “So you’re ok?”

“I’m fine.”

His head was down, but his eyes shot up to meet hers, and her center sparked.

Just one look is all it takes now? Please help me!

“You look
fine
in that dress,” he purred. Quickly peeking down at her body.

The corner of his mouth curled up, and then he was gone. Leaving Raven standing there with her mouth hanging open.

As soon as Beck had left the bar, the girls rushed over.

“This is getting ridiculous now,” Raven chastised them. “You keep leaving me on my own!”

“You’re a grown woman, Ray. You don’t need us to back you up. You’ve been doing pretty fine on your own, and from what the whole bar has seen, you can look after yourself too.”

“This is going from bad to worse,” she whined. “I should’ve stayed in.”

They lasted only a few more minutes before calling the taxi to take them back to their dorms. Students were talking and looking at them, and Raven wanted to get out of there.

Feeling dizzy from the alcohol, Raven got into the cab with the girls and took the shoes off her aching feet.

*****

Getting back to the dorms, the girls showered their night away. Raven dressed in a plain tee and yoga pants, and Ava dressed in her PJ’s.

Kerry and Leila came back to their dorm to hang out.

They were all still pretty tipsy, and their conversations soon turned to guys and their relationship disasters.

Raven wasn’t in the mood, so she just listened to their stories.

She didn’t have anything worth mentioning either. Just Cole, and they already knew about him.

The girls were laughing as they were talking about the guys that they’d dated on campus.

Ava spilled about the time she dated few guys who were friends. She didn’t realize it would come back to bite her in the ass, until she found out that they’d been comparing notes about her. That’s when she decided not to date guys from the same group. It was her own fault, though. She’d had a crush on all three of them and had agreed to date all three. None of them had told the other until one of them confessed that he’d slept with her. Then they’d discussed it at length. She’d learned her lesson the hard way.

Raven snorted a laugh when Kerry told them about the time she’d slept with a guy who had a star wars duvet on his bed. She hadn’t realized he was even a fan until she went into his room. He proudly showed off his collection, and when they’d finally gotten down to it, he said he was going to enter her with his light saber. Not good. She’d had to kiss him to shut him up. She didn’t go out with him again.

“I know we said we wouldn’t, but I heard that Beck is an incredible fuck.” Kerry said with a sigh. “I could do with a serious pounding right now.”

Raven ears picked up…a lot. Her heart kicked up speed, and she felt herself glare at Kerry.

What the fuck? Kerry thought about having sex with Beck? Since when?

Even though that thought hurt more than it should, Raven agreed. She needed an orgasm. A decent one, too but the thought of any of her friends with Beck, even talking about him like that, turned her stomach.

“I know, right? One girl apparently said that he fucked her so hard she had bruises.” Ava said, nodding her head.

Ava what the hell..?

“I heard another one said she couldn’t walk properly for days.” Leila added.

What the fuck? Are they purposely trying to piss me off?

Raven didn’t want the details of Beck’s sexcapades, especially from her friends, but she’d often wondered what that’d be like. Being taken so much it was uncomfortable to walk. Obviously the girls didn’t mind, or they wouldn’t have been telling anybody about it. It made Raven sick just thinking about them.

“He doesn’t mind where he is either. Apparently, a while ago, he was led into a girls’ bedroom and fucked her over her
friends’
bed. He didn’t even care.”

Raven could feel the anger rising inside of her like it had with Kato. Her friends were talking about Beck the way the other girls did. That wasn’t like them. Sure they’d stuck up for her when he’d approached her when they were there, but to hear them talk like that…she didn’t like it one little bit, and she had a feeling that if they didn’t stop, they’d find out just how much she didn’t.

She clamped her mouth shut. If they saw how mad she was getting, they’d jump all over it.

“I know I’ve said this before, but I wonder what he does to them? I mean he won’t let anybody kiss him. What does he do beforehand? Does he just take off their clothes and screw them?” Ava asked. “That wouldn’t feel good. I know I need a little make out warm up to get going.”

“Apparently he doesn’t even bother taking their clothes off,” Kerry winked. “Nobody has seen his body.”

Raven clenched her fists. It was as if she weren't even there. They were usually sensitive with details of Beck around her, knowing what he’d been doing to her for years. She knew about the ‘essentials’ part, but there was no need for them to discuss it right in front of her.

Maybe it was the alcohol in her system making her emotional. She’d be ok once she sobered up…wouldn’t she?

“Well..” Leila said with a grin “He’ll let the girls kiss him in other places,” the girls giggled, “and I’m pretty sure he lets his hands do the kissing for him.”

Even with her inner rage, Raven wondered why the girls kept looking to her every time they mentioned any details. It was as if they were watching for a reaction. What, or who, Beck did was none of her business. Just because it was turning her inside out didn’t make it so.

That didn’t stop them. They continued to tell, check Raven’s expression, then tell some more. She was almost sure they were making half of it up too, just to add fuel to the growing fire.

Her nails were beginning to painfully dig into her palms, and she had to release her hands.

Ava looked her up and down as if assessing her.

Raven couldn’t take it anymore, and she didn’t even realize what had happened until she moved.

The girls all looked up to her when she stood.

“Where are you going?” Ava asked.

“I’m going for the full experience,” she replied, the girl’s mouths popping open.

“Seriously?” Leila whispered as if she couldn’t believe what she’d heard, even though a knowing smile tugged at her lips.

“Yes. May as well take him up on his offer. Besides, I can tell you
exactly
what he does instead of kissing.”

“You’re really going to have sex with Beck?” Ava asked with the same grin.

“Yes. Before this alcohol wears off and I come to my senses.”

Raven left quickly as the girls’ screams hurt her ears.

She had no idea what she was in for, or what the hell she was doing, but she was going to find out on both counts.

*****

Beck opened the door to his dorm after Raven knocked.

His dark hair was mussed, and his gray eyes looked straight into hers.

Raven quickly glanced down his body and took in his white tee, blue jeans and bare feet.

Even his feet are sexy!

“Do you have company?” She asked, snapping her eyes back to his. She felt stupid asking that. He never took girls back to his own dorm.

Yet here you are. Shut up!

“No.” He replied, narrowing his eyes as though wondering what she was doing there.

“Have you had any company today?”

The last thing she wanted to know was if he’d been with somebody else that day. Not that it mattered to him, but she didn’t like the idea of being another notch for the day.

If he said yes, she would turn round and walk away. She had to for her own sanity and self respect.

Beck looked even more confused. “Um…no, why?” He frowned before his eyes widened as she pushed past him into the room. “Why are you here, Raven?”

He genuinely looked perplexed as to why she was standing in his room. He didn’t look troubled by it, just…confused.

She took a deep breath. Her nerves were starting to surface, and she had to go for it before she lost it and fled.

“I’m here for the full experience,” she said quickly; keeping her face neutral so he couldn’t see her getting anxious.

“What?” He blinked, and his eyebrows shot into his hairline.

“Yeah, so get to it. Show me what you got.”

“Are you serious?” Beck asked slowly as if she were crazy.

“As serious as a heart attack.”

“Is this a joke?” He asked, suddenly straightening. His tee strained across his pecs as he did, making her mouth water.

“Look. You’re the one who told me a long time ago to loosen up, to live a little, to have the full college experience. Well, here I am, and I must say I’m disappointed so far.” Raven was shocked as those words left her mouth. She was practically goading him into action. She never thought she’d be the one to initiate anything between them.

Beck relaxed and a slow smile spread across his face. He turned the lock on his door with a ‘click’ and stepped towards her.

“So, you want me to give you the ‘full experience’?” He asked, his voice low and husky.

“Yes.” Raven replied in a tone that sounded so sure, even though she was losing her cool. The alcohol had already started to wear off, but she didn’t want to make a run for it and make a fool of herself in the process. She wanted him to do something, to make a move without her needing to.

She knew that if she stayed any longer, without him actually doing anything, she’d bolt. The knocking in her knees was already crying for her to leave.

Beck continued to walk to her, a smile on his face.

“You’re certain you want that?” He asked in the same tone, sending chills down her spine.

“I’m here, aren’t I?” She hoped he didn’t notice the waver in her voice.

Beck closed the gap between them, his scent all around her making her foggy. Her legs trembled, and her core throbbed as he moved behind her. He lifted his hand and pushed her hair over her shoulder, exposing her neck.

He dipped his head, and he whispered in her ear. “Do you want me to fuck you?”

Raven swallowed the pool of saliva in her mouth and took a steadying breath before she answered.

“Yes.”

She could feel the warmth of his body behind her, through her clothes. Beck’s hand slid around her waist, and he pulled her into him. Her back tight into his front. She could feel the hardness that she’d come for, pressing into her behind.

“Lift up your arms.” He said into her ear.

It sounded more like a demand, but Raven did as she was told. Beck released his arms but found the hem of her tee. He slowly pulled it up and off of her -as if giving her time to change her mind- before throwing it on the desk. He could see over her shoulder, and Raven knew he could get a good view of her breasts from where he was standing.

The twitch from the expanding length behind her told her he liked what he saw.

“You’re so fucking gorgeous.” He whispered, making her blush.

It was the first time he’d said she was gorgeous. It was either ‘sexy’ or ‘hot’.

His hands rested on her shoulders before smoothing down her arms and taking her hands. He lifted them up and placed them round the back of his neck.

“Keep your hands there.”

Another demand.

She liked it.

Beck’s hands held her waist. Raven held her breath as they moved up over her stomach, her ribs, then paused under the edge of her bra. She could hear Beck’s breathing grow heavier as his hands continued up and over her breasts. Cupping them and gently kneading over the lacy fabric.

“These are fucking fantastic.” He breathed into her ear. “I’ve been dying to get my hands on these.” He added, rubbing his thumbs over her hard nipples.

Raven’s back arched at the pleasure she felt from him caressing her. A moan escaped her lips.