“You won’t find anything,” Fegan said, opening his eyes.
The stocky man looked up from his search. “Shut up.” When he was satisfied he said, “Open the boot.”
They walked to the rear of the car. Fegan opened the boot and the hatch rose with a hydraulic whine. The stocky man shone the torch into the far corners. He pointed to the canvas bag.
“Lift that out.”
Fegan reached in and lifted the bag. He rested it on the sill and unzipped it. The stocky man kept his distance as he peered inside. His brow creased and he leaned forward. He lowered his hand down into it, pushing clothes aside to see the greasy paper.
“Fuck me,” he said. “How much is it?”
Fegan shrugged. “I don’t know.”
The man with the shotgun came forward. “What is it?”
“Look,” the stocky man said, pointing.
“Jesus.”
The two men looked at each other. A dozen possibilities passed between them, but finally they shook their heads.
“Come on,” the stocky man said, taking the bag. “The Bull’s waiting.”
Fegan drove the last few hundred yards with the shotgun’s twin muzzles at the back of his head and the stocky man beside him, cradling the bag of money in his lap. The Clio’s headlights caught the narrowing of the lane as it rose to meet an old farmyard. A barn stood open, bright light flowing out. Eddie Coyle stood just inside, tying a blood-drenched bandage around his head. He glared back at Fegan.
The car shuddered around them as its engine died. Fegan heard dogs bark and scratch at the stable doors over the sound of a generator. This place smelled of death: painful, frightened death. Its stink crept in through the open window. Shadows moved across the yard, turning, searching.
Bull O’Kane and Paul McGinty stepped out into the rain. The Bull crossed to the car and leaned down so he could see inside.
“Come into the house, Gerry.”
Fegan opened his door and climbed out. The other men got out too. O’Kane waved a hand at them.
“You know these boys?”
“No,” Fegan said.
“Tommy Downey and Kevin Malloy. They’ll rip you to pieces if you so much as look like you’re going to make a wrong move. If you fuck about with me, I’ll let these boys loose on that woman of yours. You understand?”
“I understand,” Fegan said.
O’Kane smiled. “Good. It’s been a long time, Gerry.”
“Twenty-seven years.”
“Jesus, is it?” O’Kane laughed. “I wish I could say it was good to see you. But you’ve let me down. Me and Paul. Ah, well. Come on inside, now.”
“Where’s Marie?”
“Don’t worry, you’ll see her soon enough. Come on.”
O’Kane turned and walked towards the house. Fegan felt a shove at the small of his back. McGinty stared at him hard as he walked to the door, but said nothing.
A damp chill filled the derelict farmhouse. Fegan let it soak into him as he followed O’Kane through the kitchen. Downey came behind, the shotgun pressed between Fegan’s shoulder blades, followed by McGinty and Coyle.
They entered the next room where Campbell’s unconscious body lay on an ancient couch. A sweet chemical odor pushed aside the smell of damp and mildew.
A younger man, as tall as O’Kane, but heavier, placed a wooden chair at the center of the room. Fegan guessed him to be Pádraig, the Bull’s son.
“Sit down,” O’Kane said.
Fegan obeyed as McGinty and Downey made their way into the room. McGinty’s face was impassive as he lit a cigarette. The others waited in the kitchen.
“I want to see Marie and Ellen,” Fegan said. His hands didn’t shake, but his mouth was dry.
“All right,” O’Kane said. He looked at Pádraig and tilted his head towards another doorway. His son disappeared through it without a word.
O’Kane stared at Fegan for what seemed like hours before he spoke again. “So, what happens now, Gerry?”
“You let Marie and Ellen go,” Fegan said. “Then you kill me.”
O’Kane smiled. “Not so fast. There’s something I want to get straight first.”
“What?”
“I want to know why, Gerry.”
Fegan looked to the doorway as Marie entered, cradling Ellen, escorted by Quigley. Pádraig followed and closed the door behind him. He guided Marie to the corner. Ellen wriggled in her mother’s arms.
“It’s Gerry,” she said.
“I know,” Marie said, her voice calm and even. “Be still, sweetheart.”
Ellen kept squirming until she slipped from her mother’s grip and dropped lightly to the floor. She ran to Fegan. “Have you come for us?” she asked as she climbed into his lap. She weighed nothing at all.
“Yeah,” Fegan said.
“Mummy’s scared.”
“I know. But she shouldn’t be. Neither should you. It’s going to be all right. I promise.”
“When can we go home?”
Fegan cupped her face in his hands. “Soon. Go back to your Mummy.”
Ellen dismounted from Fegan’s knee and went to her mother. Marie crouched down and wrapped her arms around her daughter. Fegan smiled at her and she nodded in return before lowering her eyes.
O’Kane moved between them, blocking Fegan’s view. “You didn’t answer me, Gerry. I want to know why you did all this. Tell me.”
Fegan looked up at his red face. “Because I had to.”
“You had to. What does that mean?”
“I had to do it. It was the only way.”
“The only way to what?”
“To get them to leave me alone.”
“Who?”
Fegan looked to the floor.
“To get who to leave you alone?” O’Kane crouched down and placed his finger under Fegan’s chin. He turned his head so their eyes met. “Who made you do it, Gerry? The Brits? Someone else? Maybe someone we know? It’s all right. It’s all over now. You can tell me.”
“No,” Fegan said as the chill reached his center. The shadows drew in from the periphery of his vision, and moved between McGinty and Campbell. Their shapes came into focus, solidified. Fegan tried to push them back, but he couldn’t. Their eyes burned into him.
“Tell me,” O’Kane said. He gripped Fegan’s face in one massive hand. “Tell me.”
“Them.” Fegan pointed to the woman, her baby, and the butcher as they executed McGinty over and over. He pointed to the UFF boys standing over Campbell. “And them.”
McGinty’s eyes darted from O’Kane to Fegan, his cigarette held two inches from his mouth.
O’Kane stared back at McGinty. “You mean Paul? Did Paul make you do it?”
McGinty dropped the cigarette. “Jesus, Bull, he’s mad. He doesn’t know what he’s saying.”
O’Kane turned back to Fegan. “Did Paul McGinty and Davy Campbell make you do this?”
“No, not them,” Fegan said.
“Then who the fuck were you pointing at?”
“Them.” Fegan aimed his finger at each of the followers in turn. “The people I killed.”
48
Campbell floated above them, watching from the ceiling, seeing them as shadows and light, hearing their voices as echoes and memories. He could see his own body down there. That was where the pain lay. It had almost broken him, almost eaten him up, but now it was away from him, bound up in that body on the couch.
A strange, cold sweetness flooded him, like he had drowned in sugary water. He tried to find order in his mind, but it was so hard to hold onto his consciousness when it drifted free like this. There had been the pain, thunderous and boiling hot. Then there had been a great tidal wave of joy, euphoria sweeping through him as someone poured the sweet, cool liquid into his nose and mouth.
And then there was this.
But there had been something else. Some thought that had pierced his mind just before it was cut adrift from his body. He tried hard to sort through the misted fragments of himself. What had it been?
A voice rose up from below in anger. The sound of one man striking another, the wailing of a child.
Oh, yes.
Now he remembered: a secret thing, only for him to know. It was cold and hard and jagged. It clung to his ankle, waiting.
49
O’Kane rubbed his stinging palm, and turned to the wailing child and her mother. “You shut that kid up or I will.”
Marie pulled the girl close and rocked her as she stroked her hair. The child squealed into her mother’s bosom and O’Kane grimaced at her piercing cries. He liked children well enough, but he couldn’t be doing with their tears. If any of his seven sons and daughters had ever wailed like that, they’d have got a slap to shut them up. He looked down at Fegan, sprawled on the floor.
“Pick yourself up.”
Fegan climbed back into the chair.
“Are you saying you did all this because the people in your head told you to?”
Fegan kept his gaze on the floor. O’Kane reached out and grabbed his hair. He pulled Fegan’s head up so he could see the madman’s eyes. Anger churned in his belly, anger at the stupidity and the waste of it. He looked to Marie and her child, and then back to Fegan.
“Answer me or I’ll cut their throats.”
“Yes,” Fegan said.
“Jesus fucking Christ.” O’Kane released his hair and took two steps away. He turned it over in his mind, trying to find some kind of reason in it. Of course, there was none. He regarded Fegan’s blank face. “And why now, after all these years? What set you off?”
“His mother,” Fegan said.
“Whose mother?”
“The boy’s. The boy I killed for McKenna. She came up to me in the graveyard. She knew who I was, what I’d done. She asked me where he was buried.”
O’Kane shared a glance with McGinty. “And you told her?”
Fegan nodded.
“That’s why there’s cops digging up the bogs round Dungannon,” O’Kane said. “What good did you think that would do?”
“I thought he’d leave me alone,” Fegan said. “He didn’t. He wanted more. He wanted Michael.”
“Christ.” O’Kane struggled to grasp the madness of it.
“His mother told me something else,” Fegan said.
“What?”
Fegan looked up at O’Kane, and a sudden fear brightened his eyes. Not fear of the Bull, or of anyone here. The fear was of something else, something far away.
“Everybody pays,” Fegan said. “She said sooner or later, everybody pays.”
O’Kane shook his head. “So you did all this, caused all this damage, because some woman tackled you in a graveyard?” He turned to Marie. “And you helped him.”
She looked up from her daughter. “What?”
“You helped him after he killed my cousin.”
Marie shook her head. “He said he didn’t do it.”
“He killed your uncle, for Christ’s sake.”
She stared at Fegan. “He swore he didn’t. He swore on my daughter’s life.”
O’Kane looked from her to Fegan, seeing something break between them.
“Gerry, you swore on my daughter’s soul.”
Fegan closed his eyes. “I’m sorry.”
She buried her face in the child’s hair and began to weep. O’Kane felt a smirk creep across his lips. He went back to Fegan and leaned over, his hands on his knees.
“I don’t think either of you has been honest with each other. I bet she didn’t tell you the whole story, did she?” He gave Marie a sideways glance. “Eh? Did she tell you about her and our friend, the politician?”
“Don’t,” Marie said.
O’Kane ignored her. He watched Fegan’s lined face as he spoke. “Not many know about it. You see, your friend Marie McKenna used to be very close to Paul McGinty. Very close. If it hadn’t been for him being married already, they wouldn’t have had to keep it a secret.”
He turned to Marie. “How long was it?”
“Stop it,” she said.
“Two or three years, wasn’t it? But she got fed up waiting for him to leave his wife for her, so she finished it. And then she goes and takes up with a cop, just to rub it in. What do you think of that, Gerry?”
Fegan’s face gave nothing away, save for the faintest twitch in his right cheek. “She’s got nothing to do with this. Let her go.”
O’Kane straightened, wincing at the ache in his lower back. “Well, that depends on you, doesn’t it? Do as you’re told, don’t give us any trouble, and she can take her wee girl home. Fair enough?”
