The Gift of Pets: Stories Only a Vet Could Tell (2 page)

Evan’s face turned resolute and hopeful at my question, perhaps even a bit indignant. Who was I to question his commitment to his pet on the sole basis of monetary considerations? “I have some money in the bank I’ve been saving for a new bicycle. I could use it for Gabby’s surgery instead. She’s my responsibility, you know, and I love her.”

“That’s very kind of you, Evan. I’ll be glad to prepare an estimate for the surgery. Give me just a few minutes.”

I left Gabby with Evan and his mother and went into Susan’s office, knowing that the discussion between them would continue in my absence. Susan and I put together an estimate for the surgery that kept the costs to as low a figure as we possibly could. It included the materials and the supplies but did not include any profit from the procedure. I’d already appreciated a healthy return on the transaction in seeing Evan’s fierce determination to help his untraditional pet.

I felt certain that the process of developing a cost estimate was an exercise in futility. When the costs of a procedure like this are weighed against the costs of replacing a rat, the rational thing to do is to replace the rat. That’s obvious. I had seen these cases before, but seldom had a client elected to invest money in the surgery. I can’t honestly say that I blame these clients. After all, finances are a real and valid consideration. I am not so naïve as to think otherwise. The question I am tempted to ask the client in these cases is, “Do you want
a
rat or do you want
this
rat? Though it may seem an insensitive question, when it came right down to it, practically every client I had dealt with in this same situation had chosen reason over emotion. I suspected the same would be true for Evan and Danielle.

“It looks like the costs for this surgery will be a little over a hundred and fifty dollars, Evan,” I said after returning to the room. “But depending on how things go and how long it takes, it could be as much as a couple hundred dollars.” Danielle’s head snapped up and she looked me in the eyes, her face perplexed. She knew my estimate was ridiculously low for the degree of effort involved. Slowly, a look of deep appreciation settled on her face as she turned again to Evan.

“That’s less than we had anticipated,” she said. “Evan, I know you have seventy-five dollars saved up that you want to spend on Gabby. I’m willing to help out some, too. But this will mean that you’ll have to use your allowance for a while to pay for this. Are you sure you want to do that?”

Evan nodded emphatically. There was no hesitation in his response, no reluctance to commit his own money to the care of his friend, even knowing it was unlikely to effect a cure. It was a level of commitment and responsibility that I wish all my clients displayed.

That afternoon, I anesthetized Gabby and performed the first and only rat mastectomy of my twenty-three-year veterinary career. With extreme care, I dissected away the invading mass from Gabby’s side. It was a technically demanding procedure because the size of my patient, though large for a rat, was much smaller than the typical animal that went under my knife. It was difficult, too, because the tumor had woven itself around Gabby’s normal anatomical features. But mostly, it was demanding because throughout the hour-long procedure I was constantly cognizant of the close communion between this animal and the little boy sitting, worried and impatient, by the phone. And I was reminded again that even the relationships that I didn’t necessarily understand had inestimable value to those whose hearts were hopelessly enmeshed within them.

Later that evening, I sent Gabby home to one very excited little boy. I fashioned a collar from used X-ray film, similar to the collars placed on dogs and cats to prevent the licking of wounds. Rats are notorious for their obsessive attention to suture lines. I did not want Gabby to chew out the neat row of stitches I had placed. She looked more than funny with a miniature inverted lamp shade over her head. I teased Evan, saying that she should come back in two weeks to have her stitches removed and her lightbulb changed.

Gabby healed beautifully. She left her stitches alone during the two weeks the collar was in place, and the surgical wound healed; only the slightest of scars remained, bearing witness to the surgery she had undergone. Though she did later succumb to the breast cancer, the end was forestalled for many months and Evan enjoyed his additional time with her. When she did pass away, I sent my customary letter of condolence to him and included this touching poem by Ruby King Phillips.

Today

I said goodbye to a friend

Though there can be no end

To all he was to me.

With one last sigh

He drifted into sleep

And I was left to keep

Intact the gifts he gave.…

Eyes, warm and grave

That almost speak,

Small furry paw

Against my cheek,

Faithful presence

Always there beside my chair.…

Loyalty and utmost trust

Perish not nor turn to dust.

Beyond the cosmic reach of earth

Where only Love can be

Where Time cannot be measured

I know he’s running free.

Relationships between people and their pets are intensely personal ones and greatly enhance the emotional richness of both the people and their devoted animals. These human-animal bonds can be some of the most profound interactions we humans engage in. Something about the unfounded trust our pets place in us, the singleness of their devotion, their unrestrained joy in simply being with us, and the indifference with which they regard our flaws makes their companionship incomparable. We become better people because of the way they see us.

The interface between people and pets is one of the few interactions where we can comprehend what it means to be emotionally involved and readily available to another being; to be dependent upon, yet strengthened by, something outside ourselves. Paradoxically, loving a pet teaches us to be fully human.

Unfortunately, not everyone experiences the ennobling effects of animals. Not every heart is tugged by the intensity of love in the eyes of a noble graying canine or feline face. This is completely inexplicable to me. I have come to understand that it is a Gift to be blessed with this passion for animals; a Gift that all who share it understand innately, and that those without it can never comprehend.

It is at the intersection between animals and those people who possess the Gift that we veterinarians spend our professional lives. Exploring the intimacies of the human-animal bond is what brings meaning and value to what we do. It is a rare privilege indeed to invest our lives so completely in the Gift. For we are privy to some of the most touching stories of love and devotion that exist—stories that evoke the most noble of human emotions, that plumb the deepest of human motives; stories that inspire us, amuse us, challenge us, or cause tears to spring unbidden to our eyes.

Evan has grown up quite a bit since then. He remains the bright and engaging young man I first met many years ago and continues to enjoy his relationship with the more traditional of the family pets that I still see routinely. He has not since fallen in love with another rat, as far as I know. But one thing I do know. He will never look back on his time with Gabby and have regrets. He will not have to think with remorse about the time his mother and his vet minimized the value of a relationship they did not share or understand. Perhaps someday, that memory will stimulate a similar response to the whimsical passions of his own children—and the circle will have been completed.

I may have seen the Harveys for the last time a couple of weeks back. Since I first started seeing their menagerie some years ago, the fortunes of the Harveys have dramatically changed. A series of unfortunate events has left them reeling. Danielle is planning on moving her children to a new community to start over. As of yet, they have not selected where that place will be. But it most likely will not be near enough to our practice to allow them to continue bringing their dwindling animal crew to see me. I will miss them.

But I will carry much of value from my association with them. I will always treasure the interactions I am blessed to have with families as a whole, and with the children of those families in particular. I will be reminded to validate every precious human-animal relationship, even if I don’t share the passion. And I will bring my best to every patient because such a love demands my best.

Though they have faced difficult circumstances, the Harvey children will emerge from Danielle’s home with at least one wonderful legacy. They will have learned that to love animals is a blessing to be cherished; that having pets is a responsibility one must take seriously and for which one is rewarded with loyalty and trust. They have experienced the wonder of bonding with an individual of a different order, with whom communication occurs on levels far deeper than mere words, where the ties are stronger than time, and where the rewards are not measured by how much can be reciprocated by an animal but by how much we are willing to invest. These valuable life lessons are best learned under the tutelage of animals, for they are not contaminated by the same innate self-interest that corrupts many human relationships.

The Harvey kids have grown up with the Gift: the Gift of valuing animals; of loving a pet so wholly that the ache at parting is indelibly insinuated into their futures; of receiving devotion untainted by duplicity; of experiencing unequaled loyalty and unveiled adoration. This Gift is a birthright that I share with the Harvey children.

It is the Gift that for my whole life has guided my education, informed my decisions, and determined my career path. It is the Gift that has surrounded me with orphaned blue jays and squirrels, with parakeets, hamsters, dogs, cats, and cockatiels. It is the Gift that has tasked me with not only a profession but a passion—a mission. Obeying the directives of the Gift has at times been demanding and emotionally excruciating. But it has also afforded a life of unequaled satisfaction and amazing fulfillment. The rewards that come with seeing the face of one like Evan fill with joy and relief at the reunion with a recovered pet cannot be understood without firsthand experience. But as a veterinarian, those undeserved rewards accrue to me daily.

The Gift of Pets is, for me, a defining reality. I’m not sure who I would be in its absence. I could not survive without it, nor would I want to. I suspect you know of what I speak. The fact that you are reading this probably means you, too, share it. Countless people are born with the Gift, as I was. Many have nurtured and developed this genetic bequest, allowing it to blossom into wonderful fruition. But few have been raised within it like the Harveys. It is for this blessing that I envy them.

Mountain of Love

I watched with interest as Mr. Johnston escorted his bullmastiff into the waiting room. This would have been an effort at any time because of the sheer bulk of the patient. But progress was made all the more difficult by the massive growth encasing the beast’s upper thigh, rendering the right hind leg nearly useless. As the dog made her way through the door and down the hall, awkwardly swinging her leg wide and hunching her back in order to lift the leg and advance the foot just a few inches forward, the knee remained fixed and rigid, forcing the toes to scrape the ground as slow progress was made. Traversing the length of the twenty-foot hallway consumed nearly two minutes. Finally, with the help of the technician and the encouragement of the owner, she made her way onto the scale. The digits on the digital display danced for a bit before settling at 165 pounds.

In the examination room, I surveyed both the patient and her owner. Mr. Johnston was unique. Only about five feet six inches or so, he must have weighed more than three hundred pounds. In order to fit all that mass into such a small frame, his contour sported bulges around his center, making him seem almost as round as he was tall. His strawlike yellow hair was long, billowing, and wild, as if the trip over the pass from Fort Valley had been made with his head out the open window. He kept sweeping this hair up and back over his head with his hand as clutches of the stuff broke free and fell like coils of baling twine across his forehead, obscuring his eyes. His cheeks and nose were puffy and red and streaked like a city map with a network of prominent veins. His lower eyelids drooped sadly, Basset-like, a puff of pillowed and pale skin hanging loosely like dusty drapes below each of them. His upper lids seemed a bit too heavy to keep fully open, forcing him to tilt his head back slightly to turn his eyes up to my face.

He was dressed in dark sweatpants, the waist of which was cinched tightly around his middle, the drawstring dimpling his tummy at that spot, with adipose tissue bulging several inches above and below the knot. I hoped the drawstring was strong. I was sure that if it broke free, the pants would soon be around his ankles. I did not indulge the mental image. At the end of his legs, the pants failed to reach the white high-topped tennis shoes he wore, this probably owing to the degree to which he’d had to hitch the front of the pants up to cover his girth. Above his waistline, he wore a buttoned-up dress shirt, the bottom of which just swept the top of the sweatpants. It accommodated his girth only by his having left the last buttons undone. The effect was to make both the shirt and the pants seem ridiculously incongruous.

“Hello, Mr. Johnston. How are you this morning?”

“I’m fine. It’s Dahmun I’m worried about.” He got right to the point.

“What’s her name?” I had never encountered one quite like it.

“It’s Dahmun!” He offered no further explanation, but after a short pause, he spelled it as if for a dim-witted schoolboy. “D-A-H-M-U-N.” He shook his head and clucked his tongue in annoyance.

“Where did you get that name?”

Mr. Johnston exhaled an impatient sigh, as if my question was delaying some more important engagement.

“Well, among other things, I’m a linguist.” He paused in order to let the significance of that sink in. “The name is a patented syllylogy.”