The Lost Explorer (2 page)

What seemed remarkable, though, was that despite the twin tragedies of her life, Clare had not only tolerated her sons’ embrace of this most dangerous sport—she had taught them to climb and heartily encouraged their alpine play. On visits to Berkeley, where Rick had grown up, I got to know Clare, who seemed a classic Edwardian eccentric—a Quaker fiercely devoted to the cause of world peace, a blunt-speaking liberal with no patience for humbug, a true bohemian even in the bohemia of late-1960s Berkeley.

On my first Alaskan expedition, to the Wickersham Wall on Mount McKinley in 1963, Rick and I, with five teammates, were reported missing and feared dead (our bush pilot, poking through storm clouds, had seen our tracks disappear into a chaos of avalanche debris). During the four days we were unaccounted for (we were safely camped far above the avalanche zone), the newspapers interviewed our parents, who gave voice to heartsick fears and hopes against hope. Only Clare was resolutely skeptical, telling the media, in effect, “Nonsense. Those boys know what they’re doing.”

Three years later, one September afternoon in the Kichatna
Spires, southwest of McKinley, as Rick and I got within forty feet of the summit of an unclimbed, unnamed peak, a big wind slab broke beneath our feet. Helpless to slow our fall, we slid and cartwheeled with the avalanche toward a fatal cliff that loomed below. We had time to anticipate the plunge that lurks, like some dark atavistic memory, in the vulnerable core of the blithest mountaineer’s unconscious, before the slide, having carried us 350 feet, miraculously churned to a halt a short distance above the precipice.

I am not sure whether, or how, Rick told his mother about our close call, but the very next summer, he was back with me in Alaska, probing an unexplored range we named the Revelation Mountains. This time Rick’s older brother, George, whom I had not climbed with before, came along. (George was even more absentminded than Rick, once in grad school inadvertently locking his professor inside a walk-in bird cage.)

For fifty-two days, we endured the worst weather the Alaska Range could fling at us. Only in recent months have I learned that that summer, for the first time, Clare gave in to the fears that every parent knows. She lost sleep counting the days until we emerged at the end of August, and she extracted a promise from George and Rick that in the Revelations they would never rope up together (better, if it came to that, to lose one son than two).

Of course the brothers Millikan, once on the glacier and out of reach of Mom, promptly disobeyed her. One day George and Rick stormed toward the summit of a beautiful peak we called the Angel, climbing fast along an arête strung with rock towers and ice cliffs. They settled in for the night in a tiny bivouac tent pitched on an airy ledge some 1,000 feet below the top, only to have rain turn to sleet turn to snow whipped by a ferocious wind. Sleepless and hypothermic, they staggered off the mountain the next day, required, in the atrocious conditions—rime ice over slick granite—to rappel almost horizontal pitches. The same storm, 150 miles to the northeast, was in the process of snuffing out the lives of seven trapped climbers among the Wilcox party high on McKinley.

Last May, as the electrifying news that Mallory’s body had been discovered on Everest circled the globe, I got in touch with Rick and George and Clare, after a lapse of some years. More
than ever, as the details emerged, Rick clung to the belief that before his fatal fall, Mallory had reached the highest point on earth. Clare, now eighty-three, had another sort of interest. “I didn’t feel anything much at first,” she told me. “I felt that my father’s body was far away from his spirit. But I’ve thought about it more and more in the weeks since. I was anxious to know how he had died. Was it peacefully, as he meditated, or contorted, in pain? I found myself wishing I could be there and comfort him in his pain.

“But all in all, I wish they hadn’t found him. I wish they’d left him in peace.”

After all these decades, I had felt that in a certain sense I “knew” Mallory myself. But as I researched an article for
National Geographic Adventure
about the discovery, I became acquainted with a man and an explorer even more charismatic, elusive, and remarkable than the mythic figure that had lodged in my head. And as I met and talked to the members of the expedition that had deliberately set out last spring to unravel the mystery of Mallory and Irvine—before the trip, I would have given them about one chance in 10,000 of finding
anything
from the 1924 expedition, let alone Mallory’s body—I found a crew of strong, competent, mutually loyal climbers, the kind who do our perilous pastime proud.

Among that crew, however, Conrad Anker stood out. One of the best mountaineers in the world, with an astonishingly varied record of first ascents, Conrad has somehow escaped the megalomania endemic in the world of climbing superstars. He seems instead, at thirty-six, a man firmly grounded in a personal humility; he listens to the cares and needs of others as keenly as to the siren songs of his own ambition; and the Buddhist outlook that draws him toward his Himalayan wanderings has seeped into his spirit, giving him an inner calm. That bedrock stability, that sense of who he is, emerges in the sotto voce notes Conrad occasionally publishes in the
American Alpine Journal
, his only record of some of the boldest climbs ever ventured. His prose in these well-crafted but understated chronicles is like that of a scholar writing judiciously for an audience of his peers.

In the course of our collaboration on this book, I began to realize that, in a certain sense, Conrad Anker was cut from the
same cloth as George Mallory. And it became clear that Conrad had an utterly enthralling tale to tell of Everest ’99, his own story of Mallory and the mountain.

In this book, then, Conrad and I hope to give voice to the quest of a mountaineer, using all the skills and instincts that half a lifetime of cutting-edge ascents has ingrained in his very fingertips, who last May almost singlehandedly brought back from Everest more insight into the puzzle of Mallory and Irvine than the efforts of seventy-five years of searchers and theorists put together. As we narrate that quest, we also seek, so far as retrospect and judgment allow, to rediscover Mallory himself, the visionary lost explorer whose body Conrad Anker found, and whose fate we may at last begin to divine.

I
N THE PAGES THAT FOLLOW
, the passages in the first person, dealing primarily with the 1999 expedition, are those of Conrad Anker. The third-person passages, chiefly historical, are by David Roberts.

CA

I
HAD JUST SAT DOWN
to take off my crampons, because the traverse across the rock band ahead would be easier without them. I drank some fluid—a carbohydrate drink I keep in my water bottle—and sucked a cough drop. At that altitude, it’s essential to keep your throat lubricated.

I looked out over this vast expanse. To the south and west, I could see into Nepal, with jagged peaks ranging toward the horizon. In front of me on the north stretched the great Tibetan plateau, brown and corrugated as it dwindled into the distance. The wind was picking up, and small clouds were forming below, on the lee side of some of the smaller peaks.

All of a sudden, a strong feeling came over me that something was going to happen. Something good. I usually feel content when the climb I’m on is going well, but this was different. I felt positive, happy. I was in a good place.

It was 11:45
A.M.
on May 1. We were just below 27,000 feet on the north face of Mount Everest. The other four guys were fanned out above me and to the east. They were in sight, but too far away to holler to. We had to use our radios to communicate.

I attached my crampons to my pack, stood up, put the pack on, and started hiking up a small corner. Then, to my left, out of the corner of my eye, I caught a glimpse of a piece of blue and yellow fabric flapping in the wind, tucked behind a boulder. I

thought, I’d better go look at this. Anything that wasn’t part of the natural landscape was worth looking at.

When I got to the site, I could see that the fabric was probably a piece of tent that had been ripped loose by the wind and blown down here, where it came to rest in the hollow behind the boulder. It was modern stuff, nylon. I wasn’t surprised—there are a lot of abandoned tents on Everest, and the wind just shreds them.

But as I stood there, I carefully scanned the mountain right and left. I was wearing my prescription dark glasses, so I could see really well. As I scanned right, I saw a patch of white, about a hundred feet away. I knew at once there was something unusual about it, because of the color. It wasn’t the gleaming white of snow reflecting the sun. It wasn’t the white of the chunks of quartzite and calcite that crop up here and there on the north side of Everest. It had a kind of matte look—a light-absorbing quality, like marble.

I walked closer. I immediately saw a bare foot, sticking into the air, heel up, toes pointed downward. At that moment, I knew I had found a human body.

Then, when I got even closer, I could see from the tattered clothing that this wasn’t the body of a modern climber. This was somebody very old.

It didn’t really sink in at first. It was as if everything was in slow motion.
Is this a dream?
I wondered.
Am I really here?
But I also thought, This is what we came here to do.
This is whowe’re looking for. This is Sandy Irvine
.

W
E’D AGREED BEFOREHAND
on a series of coded messages for the search. Everybody on the mountain could listen in on our radio conversations. If we found something, we didn’t want some other expedition breaking the news to the world.

“Boulder” was the code word for “body.” So I sat down on my pack, got out my radio, and broadcast a message: “Last time I went bouldering in my hobnails, I fell off.” It was the first thing that came to mind. I just threw in “hobnails,” because an old hobnailed boot—the kind that went out of style way back in the 1940s—was still laced onto the man’s right foot. That was another reason I knew he was very old.

We all had our radios stuffed inside our down suits, so it
wasn’t easy to hear them. Of the other four guys out searching, only Jake Norton caught any part of my message, and all he heard was “hobnails.” I could see him, some fifty yards above me and a ways to the east. Jake sat down, ripped out his radio, and broadcast back, “What was that, Conrad?”

“Come on down,” I answered. He was looking at me now, so I started waving the ski stick I always carry at altitude. “Let’s get together for Snickers and tea.”

Jake knew I’d found something important, but the other three were still oblivious. He tried to wave and yell and get their attention, but it wasn’t working. At 27,000 feet, because of oxygen deprivation, you retreat into a kind of personal shell; the rest of the world doesn’t seem quite real. So I got back on the radio and put some urgency into my third message: “I’m calling a mandatory group meeting right now!”

Where we were searching was fairly tricky terrain, downsloping shale slabs, some of them covered with a dusting of snow. If you fell in the wrong place, you’d go all the way, 7,000 feet to the Rongbuk Glacier. So it took the other guys a little while to work their way down and over to me.

I rooted through my pack to get out my camera. That morning, at Camp V, I thought I’d stuck it in my pack, but I had two nearly identical stuff sacks, and it turns out I’d grabbed my radio batteries instead. I realized I’d forgotten my camera. I thought, Oh, well, if I had had the camera, I might not have found the body. That’s just the way things work.

When I told a friend about this, he asked if I’d read Faulkner’s novella
The Bear
. I hadn’t. On reading that story, I saw the analogy. The best hunters in the deep Mississippi woods can’t even catch a glimpse of Old Ben, the huge, half-mythic bear that has ravaged their livestock for years. It’s only when Ike McCaslin gives up everything he’s relied on—lays down not only his rifle, but his compass and watch—that, lost in the forest, he’s graced with the sudden presence of Old Ben in a clearing: “It did not emerge, appear: it was just there, immobile, fixed in the green and windless noon’s hot dappling.”

As I sat on my pack waiting for the others, a feeling of awe and respect for the dead man sprawled in front of me started to fill me. He lay face down, head uphill, frozen into the slope. A tuft of hair stuck out from the leather pilot’s cap he had on his
head. His arms were raised, and his fingers were planted in the scree, as if he’d tried to self-arrest with them. It seemed likely that he was still alive when he had come to rest in this position. There were no gloves on his hands; later I’d think long and hard about the implications of that fact. I took off my own gloves to compare my hands to his. I’ve got short, thick fingers; his were long and thin, and deeply tanned, probably from the weeks of having walked the track all the way from Darjeeling over the crest of the Himalaya to the north face of Everest.

The winds of the decades had torn most of the clothing away from his back and lower torso. He was naturally mummified—that patch of alabaster I’d spotted from a hundred feet away was the bare, perfectly preserved skin of his back. What was incredible was that I could still see the powerful, well-defined muscles in his shoulders and back, and the blue discoloration of bruises.