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Authors: Therese Walsh

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The Moon Sisters

BOOK: The Moon Sisters
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ALSO BY THERESE WALSH
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This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents either are the product of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, events, or locales is entirely coincidental.

Copyright © 2014 by Therese Walsh

All rights reserved.
Published in the United States by Crown Publishers, an imprint of the Crown Publishing Group, a division of Random House LLC, a Penguin Random House Company, New York.
www.crownpublishing.com

CROWN and the Crown colophon are registered trademarks of Random House LLC.

Library of Congress Cataloging-in-Publication Data
Walsh, Therese.
   The moon sisters : a novel / Therese Walsh.—First Edition.
            pages cm
     1. Sisters—Fiction. 2. Mothers and daughters. 3. Forgiveness—Fiction. 4. Families—Fiction. I. Title.
 PS3623.A36617M66 2013
 813.′.6—dc23                                  2013018032

ISBN 978-0-307-46160-5
eBook ISBN 978-0-307-46162-9

Jacket design by Kimberly Glyder Design
Jacket photograph by Stephen Carroll/
arcangel-images.com

v3.1

This book is dedicated to Riley, for one hundred read-throughs and one-hundred-and-one sage comments; and to Liam, for one thousand rounds of laughter.
And to my sisters, who are as different as the moon and the sun.
What one commonly takes as “the reality” … by no means signifies something fixed, but rather something that is ambiguous.… There are many realities.
—Albert Hofmann
Action is the antidote to despair.
—Joan Baez

Contents

Cover

Other Books by This Author

Title Page

Copyright

Dedication

Epigraph

Ground Zero: The End of the Beginning

First Stage: Denial

Chapter One: The Foolish Fire of Olivia Moon
Chapter Two: Blue and Chocolate
Chapter Three: Square Pegs
Chapter Four: Hope and Mirrors

Second Stage: Anger

Chapter Five: Boiled Poet
Chapter Six: On Fate. Or Luck.
Chapter Seven: Good Daughter
Chapter Eight: A Fortunate Thing

Third Stage: Bargaining

Chapter Nine: A Fascination with Death
Chapter Ten: Another Way to Look at Things
Chapter Eleven: A History of Oran
Chapter Twelve: Crossroads
Chapter Thirteen: Outlanders
Chapter Fourteen: The Edge of the Periphery
Chapter Fifteen: The Long Memory of Old Dreams
Chapter Sixteen: A Hollow Heart
Chapter Seventeen: Scars

Fourth Stage: Depression

Chapter Eighteen: Wishes
Chapter Nineteen: The Plague
Chapter Twenty: Cranberry Glades
Chapter Twenty-one: Regrets
Chapter Twenty-two: Right Tree, Wrong Dream
Chapter Twenty-three: Mushroom Soup

Fifth Stage: Acceptance

Chapter Twenty-four: Hope Chest
Chapter Twenty-five: The Undying

Acknowledgments

About the Author

F
EBRUARY

GROUND ZERO

The End of the Beginning

   OLIVIA   

T
he night before the worst day of my life, I dreamed the sun went dark and ice cracked every mirror in the house, but I didn’t take it for a warning.

The day itself seemed like any other Tuesday at the start. Papa made pancakes, then went to the bakery to prepare for deliveries with Babka. My sister, Jazz, followed behind him shortly after that. Even though it was one of the coldest stretches we’d had that February, I chose a button-down shirt from the pile of clothes on the floor of my room instead of my wool pullover, because I planned to see Stan.

When I went to say goodbye to Mama, I found the door to the kitchen closed from the living room. She’d have the oven on to battle back the chill in our house. The kitchen, at least, could be warmed quickly this way, a small room shaped like a stubby number 7 that doubled as Mama’s office in the wintertime.

“What’s out there?” I asked when I stepped inside to find her staring out the room’s lone window. She wore her frayed blue robe, thick socks, and a ponytail that was just to the right of center. It was still cold in there; the oven had yet to warm the room.

“Nothing,” she said. “A gray sky.”

I was hardly aware. Even though it was the middle of winter, my nose filled with the scent of clothes right off the line on a summer day, like sunshine itself. That’s what seeing Mama always did to me; it was my favorite part of having synesthesia.

“If you live your whole life hoping and dreaming the wrong things,” she said, “what does that mean about your whole life?”

Her voice sank low, looked like roots descending in a slow and seeking way into the earth, which told me she was in what she called one of her “up-and-downs.”

I sat at the table, littered with manuscript pages, a plateful of cold pancakes, and a typewriter older than my mother. She’d been working on a fairy tale called
A Foolish Fire
nearly my entire life but had yet to finish it. I knew this was what she was talking about.

“There’s nothing wrong with your dreams, Mama,” I told her. “Believe, believe.”

“Not everyone has your courage, Olivia.”

I might’ve suggested she take the trip she dreamed of taking, go to the setting of her story—a bog in our state of West Virginia called Cranberry Glades. But I knew a mention of the ghost lights she hoped to see there could send my mother’s mood up or further down, and that maybe this wasn’t the time to risk it.

“Maybe you’ll feel better after you take a nap,” I said, because Mama called
sleep
her personal tonic.

She said, “I take too many naps as it is,” which is when I pulled off a boot.

“I’ll stay home with you today. If you’re up for it, we can dream together for a while. We haven’t done that in a long time.”

When I was younger, we called it “the dream game.” Sometimes I’d describe life through my eyes—like the way thunder filled the air with a mustard-gold fog—because she enjoyed hearing about it. Sometimes we’d both poke our heads through the clouds, especially after math, when we were worn out from too much thinking. She’d lie on the couch with her eyes locked shut, and I’d fling myself
over a chair with my eyes wide open, and we’d unloose our wildest imaginings. Trees rained soft white buds the size of platters onto our shoulders and into our hair, covered us until we looked like exotic birds. We’d fly to Iceland or France or Russia or Brazil. Visit creamy blue pools and limestone cliffs and waterfalls that went on for miles.

Sometimes we’d visit the bog and see the ghost lights, which Mama said were like a vision of hope itself, and she’d have a revelation about the end of her story.

But it was all just dreaming.

She told me she wasn’t in the mood for that and urged me to go on with my plans. I took it as a positive sign that she sounded calmer when she said it, that the downward trek of her voice had stilled. I half expected her to say something about Stan—
Don’t let that boy into your knickers
—even though I was nearly eighteen and we lived in the middle of nowhere.

“Will you write today?” I asked, when she stayed quiet.

She nodded but never turned around. I pulled my boot back on. I told her to stay warm. I told her I loved her. And then I left.

I was the one who found her later—not moving, not breathing, dead with her head on the kitchen table. The gas on and the pilot light out, the windows and doors closed, sealing the room as tight as the envelope sitting beside her.

I have a hard time recalling what I did in those next minutes. Screamed. Felt for a pulse that wasn’t there. Called 911. Pulled her to the floor. Held my mother, and rocked us both, the way she’d rocked me over endless hours when I was a child.

“You’re not dead, you’re not dead,” I chanted, rocked harder, hoped harder, as cold air from a window I must’ve opened poured over us both. “Mama! Mama, please, wake up!”

She did not wake up. The ambulance came and took her away, and I saw no colors or shapes from the siren—the beginning of a landslide of change.

I hid the letter in the torn lining of my coat, where it dug at my heart like a spade, and I told no one. It was not a letter meant for
us—me and my father and sister. It was not
Goodbye, life wasn’t what I thought it would be. I’ve lived and dreamed the wrong things, and I no longer believe, so I am gone
. Mama had turned on the oven, and the pilot light flickered out because it was an old stove in an old house, and she’d fallen asleep with the door closed, because that’s what she did all the time.

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