The Pool of St. Branok (32 page)

It all sounded very remote. So I told them about our journey and the ports we had visited. Then I said: “Morwenna … Mrs. Cartwright … would love to visit you. She would have been with me this morning but in fact she was not feeling very well. She is going to have a baby.”

Lizzie’s eyes sparkled. “Oh, I love little babies.”

“Well,” I said. “You will be able to see Morwenna’s.”

Mrs. Wilder said: “Not very many babies are born out here. Has Mrs. Cartwright seen Mrs. Bowles yet?”

“No … not yet.”

“I think she should. I know a little about nursing … not very much. But I did look after my husband for several years. Babies are not my line. It’s more general nursing.”

“I’ll tell Morwenna. You will like her.”

“Morwenna …” repeated Lizzie.

“Yes. Isn’t it a pretty name, Lizzie? Is it Cornish?” asked Mrs. Wilder.

“Yes. Morwenna is Cornish. So am I partly. My grandfather was Cornish. We have a house there.”

“A wonderful place,” said Ben. “It has stood there for hundreds of years. You must tell Lizzie all about it.”

“Oh yes, please,” said Lizzie clasping her hands and smiling.

I noticed how pleased her father looked and when we rose to go he took my hand and pressed it warmly.

“Come again,” he said. “There will be a welcome for you at Morley House.”

“Thank you,” I replied. “I am so pleased we called in.”

Mrs. Wilder and Lizzie walked with us to the stables to get our horses. They stood waving as we rode away.

Ben said: “You see how it is with Lizzie.”

“They seemed to treat her like a child.”

“She is a child in a way. She is not dull. It is just that she has never really grown up.”

“Who is Mrs. Wilder?”

“She is the indispensable one. She came to the place when her husband died. Another casualty of the mines. He was half suffocated down there and after they brought him up he was never the same again. When James’s wife died he was always looking round for someone to look after the servants and to be a surrogate mother to Lizzie. Mrs. Wilder came … She’s been there ever since.”

“She seems very efficient.”

“Morley is lucky. So is Mrs. Wilder. It is a good post for her and she fills it admirably. She gets on wonderfully well with Lizzie.”

“I could see that Lizzie is fond of her.”

“My dear Angelet, Lizzie loves the whole world. She thinks everyone is as good and kind as herself. Sometimes I think people like Lizzie are the lucky ones. They think the world is a beautiful place. They are happy.” He looked at me steadily. “It is because they never reach out for the impossible.”

I felt there was some deep meaning behind his words and they made me uneasy.

After the first two or three weeks at Golden Creek time began to fly past. The days were so full. We had to clean the shacks and try to bring a little homely comfort to them, which was not easy. Neither Morwenna nor I was accustomed to housework; moreover we had to cook. We took this in turns—sometimes the four of us eating in their shack, at others in ours.

Both Gervaise and Justin—perhaps even less accustomed to the sort of work they were doing than we were—were exhausted at the end of the day. I used to wonder how long they would stay here. I could sense a growing disillusionment. I mentioned this to Gervaise when we lay in our narrow uncomfortable bed, too tired almost even to talk and just doing so in sleepy sentences.

“Gervaise,” I said, “why don’t we go home?”

“To all those debts?”

“We’d do something. How can you go on digging … endlessly tipping those cradles into the stream … looking in vain.”

“It won’t always be in vain. If I left … and the very next day they found gold I should never forgive myself.”

I understand what kept all these men going. Not yesterday … not today … but tomorrow.

There was a similarity between Gervaise, Justin and all these men around us. It was the lust for gold. Ben had it, too. It was only a few like Arthur Bowles and James Morley who had turned their backs on what I thought of as the Golden Goddess and when I considered those two I sensed a certain serenity about them which the others lacked.

When I became used to this way of life, I found I could do what I had to do in the house and enjoy a little leisure. I began to know the people. Ben had been right when he said there were all sorts and conditions. There was Peter Callender, of whom it was whispered that he sported a title back in the Old Country. He never used it here; that would have been frowned on; but his manners and speech betrayed him as what they called “one of the nobs.” He was always gallant to the women and displayed an easygoing nonchalance, but he worked on his patch as fervently as the rest.

In contrast there was David Skelling, a weasel-like cockney, who, it was said, had worked his term and settled. What crime he had committed no one knew. There were several like him. Backgrounds were never inquired into. There were certain conventions in the township and that was one of them.

There was the Higgins family—father, mother and two sons; they worked like maniacs and I heard that a year ago they struck quite a little haul. They ought to have left when they did, but they wanted more.

And of course I made the acquaintance of Bruin. I liked him. As with Lizzie, there was something child-like and trusting about him. He had the gold fever too. I was surprised really because I should never have thought he was an ambitious man.

He was not a great talker. Almost everything I learned about him had to be squeezed out of him by relentless questioning.

“Do you never miss England, Bruin?” I asked.

His battered face creased into an almost tender smile. “Well, Missus, I wouldn’t say yes and I wouldn’t say no.”

“Well, what would you say, Bruin?”

Then he laughed and said: “You are a caution.”

It was a favorite saying of his. I believe he had quickly summed me up as being that, whatever it was, and he was going to stick to his deduction. I hoped it was meant to be some sort of compliment.

“When did you discover you were a fighter, Bruin?” I asked.

“Oh … er … a long time ago.”

“When you were eight … ten?”

“Aye,” he said. “Aye.”

“And did someone find out and make you start?”

“Reckon.”

“You had to learn, of course.”

He grinned, looking down at his fist, clenching it and taking a punch at an imaginary opponent.

“I believe it is a sport enjoyed by royalty. The Prince Regent, I have heard, was very enthusiastic about it in his day.”

He was silent. I was sure he was looking back in the past. Then suddenly his face puckered and I guessed he was thinking of the man he had killed in the ring. It was easy to sense his emotions because he was too guileless to hide them.

“Tell me how you came out to Australia, Bruin,” I asked, changing the subject and I hoped diverting his thoughts.

“On a ship.”

“Of course. But why?”

“Gold,” he said. “Mr. Ben … he was good to me.” His face expressed a kind of adoration. He looked upon Ben as above ordinary mortals.

Ben came into our conversation quite frequently. I realized that was one of the reasons why I liked talking to Bruin.

Gradually I drew from him how Ben had sorted out his papers. He could not make head nor tail of them. He had thought he would have to go back home because he could never understand the papers.

“Then just like that,” he said snapping his fingers, “Mr. Ben … he said ‘You put a cross here, Bruin,’ he said, and I staked me claim … just like that.”

I liked to see his face light up with appreciation for Ben. In fact Ben was hardly ever out of my thoughts. That was understandable. He stood out in the community. He was different from the rest; and oddly enough, although they insisted on a certain conformity and Peter Callender with his title was supposed to mean no more to them than David Skelling with his questionable background, they did realize that Ben was different.

Ben had acted unconventionally. He had had a good strike. It was not a major one but it had made him comparatively rich; it had been enough for him to build a grand house in Melbourne and live like the gentleman he obviously was … or go Home. But what did he do? He built a house here … near the township; he had his own mine with men to work for him. Moreover he had set himself up as a sort of guardian of the township. Yes, there was something different about Ben.

They respected him. Moreover they felt he was necessary to the smooth running of the township. He kept a certain order and with such a motley crowd that was no small matter.

Morwenna’s time was getting near. Mrs. Bowles had seen her and had told her that she seemed to be in good health and she was sure that every thing would go as it should.

“Mind you,” she said to me, “she’s a lady and having children’s not so easy with them sort.”

“Why ever not?” I demanded.

“Don’t ask me. I’m not the Almighty. I reckon it’s because they’ve been too well looked after all their lives.”

“You do think she’ll be all right?”

“Right as a trivet. I’ll see to that.”

I was growing anxious and I spoke to Ben about it. He said: “When the time arrives she must stay at Golden Hall.”

“Oh thanks, Ben. I’ll tell her.”

“I shall insist. At least she will be comfortable there. And, Angel, you’d better come with her. She’ll want you nearby, I daresay.”

I felt excited at the prospect. Naturally I wanted to be with Morwenna, and at the same time I should enjoy being in Ben’s house.

It was summer and the days were very hot, although the temperature could change abruptly—and even though it would be what we called warm in England, it seemed cool after the excessive heat. The flies were a pest. They seemed to take a malicious delight in tormenting us and the more one brushed them away the more persistently they came back. I thought longingly of home. It would be winter there now. I remembered evenings at Uncle Peter’s, those dinner parties with Matthew and his political acquaintances, talking interestedly of affairs round the dinner table. I pictured my parents at Cador and an almost unbearable nostalgia beset me.

I think at that time I was beginning to fall out of love with Gervaise. He had changed, and although he was easygoing and never lost his temper, I could no longer see the elegant young man whom I had married; he was often unkempt—he who had always been so elegantly attired; this arduous labor was something he had never done before. I believe he had fancied he could come out, dig up a little soil and then … Eureka! … there was the precious shining fortune in his panning cradle.

It was not like that.

But I still saw the gleam in his eyes … that feverish desire to gamble which had already cost us our comfortable and civilized existence.

And there was Ben. He worked as hard as any of them. He was at his mine most of the day … supervising, watching, organizing, giving orders. But he retained the calm reassurance which I had noticed when he first came to Cador. He did not change.

When I saw the conditions in which most of them lived, I realized what he had done for us. We had thought our shacks very humble dwellings, but they were a great improvement on most of the others. He had put rugs on the wooden floors; he had had adequate bed linen sent for us. We owed a great deal to him.

He called in frequently at the shack. He would look at me anxiously and ask if I was all right. We were lucky to have him as our friend.

Gervaise and Justin were working hard, spurred on by the thought that one day they were going to find what was called in the township a “jeweler’s shop.” They did have one or two small finds which made them hilariously merry, because it was an indication that there was a possibility of finding more in that spot. Some diggers had found not a sign of the precious metal in their land, which must have been very depressing.

There had been great rejoicing the first night they had found their ounce of gold. There were a few men in the township who played cards, sometimes in one of the shacks, but mostly in the saloon. Gervaise, of course, had joined them; and I felt that he had learned nothing from all that had happened. He quickly lost all that little find had brought him. Not so Justin; he played and won a little. I began to think that Justin was as confirmed a gambler as Gervaise, but a luckier one.

I did not understand Justin very much. Morwenna was devoted to him and she talked frequently of his virtues. She was so lucky that he had chosen her, she said. She often marveled at it. But then she had been one of the most self-effacing people I had ever known. She had come to believe that she was not attractive and her coming out had seemed to confirm this. I had always tried to tell her that if she cast off that feeling of inferiority and behaved as though she were not so concerned as to whether people liked her or not, they would certainly realize that she was a very charming girl indeed. However Justin had apparently seen her worth and she was eternally grateful to him for that.

I did get the impression sometimes that there was a certain secretiveness about his past. All we knew of him was that he had been in America and had come to England to “see what he would do”; he had a small private income which enabled him to “look around.” Well, he had cast his eyes on the goldfields of Australia. I wondered whether he was already regretting that.

One day when I was alone in our shack I was surprised to see him for usually he was working at the mine at this time.

He said: “I’m on my way to the Bowleses’ to get some stores. But I wanted to have a word with you, Angelet. Are you busy?”

“Of course not. What did you want to say to me? Do sit down.”

He sat on one of the stout wooden chairs which had come to us through Ben’s generosity.

“I’m worried about Morwenna,” he said.

“You mean having the baby … here?”

He nodded. “I don’t think she is very strong.”

“She’s stronger than she appears to be,” I soothed him. “And Mrs. Bowles who is supposed to know about these things says everything is all right.”

“Angelet, you will be with her.”

“Of course. It is good of Ben Lansdon to have offered us rooms in his house. It will be much more comfortable there.”