The Road To Forgiveness (19 page)

“Sebastian… umm, my water just broke. I’m in
labor.”

I hear nothing on the other end of the phone
for a split second, and then chaos ensues.

“You’re in labor? Okay…. Okay, call Dr. Patel
and let her know you are on your way to the hospital. Have Walter,
my head of security, drive you to the hospital. He is the only
person I trust and your mother can sit with you in back. I’m
leaving now and heading to the airport. I’ll be there as soon as I
can.”

“Okay,” I say quietly. I’m all of a sudden
scared that my husband won’t make it in time to see our little girl
be born.

“Mia?”

“”Yes…”

“Wait for me, I'll be there soon. I
promise.”

“Okay.”

“I love you,” he says softly into the
phone.

“I love you, too.”

With those words I hear the click of the call
ending. My mother is standing before me when I lower the phone from
my ear.

“Okay, darling, let’s go.”

I follow my mother out the bedroom door and
down the long hallway. Once we get to the foyer I see Walter
waiting by the front doors.

“Are you ready to go to the hospital, Mrs.
Price?”

Was I ready? Yes, I was. I couldn’t wait to
meet our little girl. I just hoped Sebastian was there to meet her,
too.

*****

We walk in to the hospital just as it starts
pouring rain outside. The radio station we were listening to on the
ride over here reported that Miami was going to get some heavy
storms. This is because of the tropical storm that is hovering
about fifty miles out in the sea.

We make our way up to the labor and delivery
wing. There is one nurse behind the nurse’s station.

“Hi, my name is Mia Price and my water broke
a little less than an hour ago. I called Dr. Patel and she was
going to meet us here.”

The nurse types a few things into the
computer and then stands to walk over to us.

“I see you are already registered in the
computer. Come follow me. Dr. Patel has you in a private room
towards the back. This way we can hopefully help you keep
anonymity.”

It was so easy for me to forget that people
might actually be interested in Sebastian’s child. I was glad the
hospital was looking out for us.

Once I’m in my private room, the nurse has me
change and get ready for an internal exam. I’m starting to feel the
contractions and I know I won’t be able to ask for an epidural
until the internal exam has taken place.

I’m lying down on the bed when I hear a knock
on the door. Dr. Patel walks in and greets us.

“Where is your husband?”

“He’ll be here. He is flying home from New
York.”

Dr. Patel looks at me skeptically but doesn’t
say anything. “Let’s find out how far along you are.”

She pulls my legs in to the stir-ups, puts on
some gloves, and checks my dilation.

“You’re a little over five centimeters
dilated, Mia. It shouldn’t be too long until you’re at ten and
ready to push. Is there anything I can get you to help with the
discomfort?” Dr. Patel looks over at the machine that is monitoring
my contractions just as I feel a big one coming on.

“Yes, an epidural. Please.”

She smiles knowingly to me. “I’ll have the
anesthesiologist in here right away.

Two hours later, I’m drugged up, I can’t feel
any of my contractions, and I’m ten centimeters dilated. Hope is
ready to grace us with her presence.

“It’s time to move you, Mia. You’re ready to
start pushing,” Dr. Patel says as she finishes giving me my final
internal exam.

“I’m not ready yet. Give me a few more
minutes. I know Sebastian will be upset if he misses this.”

“We can’t wait any longer, Mia. Keeping your
daughter inside will only cause you and her unnecessary stress. We
want you both to be as healthy as possible. That means I need to
bring you into the other room and deliver her. Whether your husband
is here or not.”

I want to fight her on this but I have no
choice.

I’m being pushed in to a cream colored room
with one window. The storm outside is defining and I worry about
the safety of one person. The person I need here with me the most.
The person who is traveling to be here, with me.

I’m not nervous or anxious for what is about
to happen to my body. I’m calm and relaxed. I know the only reason
is because I’m happy.

Truly, sickeningly happy.

The kind of happy you only dream about. The
kind of happy I never thought I’d have again.

My mother walks into the room just as I hear
a crash of thunder vibrate through the building. We both look out
the window to see the rain and hail beating on the pavement. It’s
coming down harder than it was earlier.

“You’re going to have to prepare for the
worst, Mia.”

My mother was always the pessimist.

“He’ll be here, Momma,” I say calmly, while
letting out another deep breath.

“Honey, I just don’t think you are being
realistic. It’s raining cats and dogs out there. The winds are
blowing around fifty miles per hour. It’s just not going to
happen.”

My frustration is growing. I love my Momma
but I need her to be on my side for once. I need her to think
positively for me. If she doesn’t believe it… who cares. All I need
is a false sense of hope then.

“He said he would be here, so he’ll be here.
I need to believe he’ll be here. Why don’t you get that?”

Just then, I hear commotion outside the door
while a man’s voice drifts into the room. I would recognize that
voice anywhere. I’m right… He is here.

Sebastian burst through the doors and our
eyes meet.

“Did I miss it,” He asks while looking around
the room, to see what, I wasn’t sure.

“No, I’m just about to start pushing. You
have the most perfect timing.”

He walks over and gives me a gentle kiss on
the lips.

“I love you,” he says against my mouth.

“I love you, too.”

“Now that we’ve all said I love you, I have a
baby to deliver.” Dr. Patel hands Sebastian some scrubs, or
actually just the top half of one to put on.

My mother comes over to the other side of me
to squeeze my hand as Sebastian grabs my other hand.

“Are you ready to push, Mia?” Dr. Patel says
from between my legs.

I look over at Sebastian and smile, “I’m
ready. I’m ready for whatever life throws my way.”

Hope is asleep in my arms as I carry her into
her room and place her gently in her crib. It’s been a long day for
all of us. We celebrated Hope’s first birthday today. It was a
smaller get together. A few of our friends from Miami were there
along with my mother, Charlie, Jonathon, and Cameron.

Sebastian’s mother sent a gift from Paris. I
send her updated pictures of Hope every few months but she has yet
to see her in person. Sebastian doesn’t seem to mind but I know it
must bother him a little.

The day started off with a trip to the zoo
followed by dinner at the restaurant Rachel now owns. It is one of
the hottest spots in Miami and Rachel deserves the success. After
dinner, we came back to the estate for cake and presents.

I sometimes can’t believe it’s already been a
year. You forget how fast life goes by until you see your child
life speeding past you. Hope is the most amazing gift to me. I
still have a hard time believing that I might have missed the
chance of knowing this perfect creature. I talk to my therapist
about this sometimes. Thankfully, she doesn’t make me feel like I’m
a horrible person. She tells me my feelings are completely
normal.

I still see Dr. Montgomery but my sessions
are fewer and farther between. I see her twice a month now instead
of twice a week. I know there may come a time when I don’t need her
anymore but I still deal with insecurities. There are still days I
grieve for Miles harder than others. There are still days I’m
depressed and don’t want to get out of bed. There are still days I
have a hard time coping with what Kyle did to me. There are still
days I have a hard time understanding why Sebastian loves me.

These days are rare but luckily Dr.
Montgomery is there to help pick up the pieces. She teaches me how
to cope and I will be forever grateful to her. If it wasn’t for
therapy, I don’t know if Sebastian and I would be together.

My mother and Charlie moved down to Miami a
little over three months ago. After Hope was born, my mother and
Charlie had a hard time leaving their granddaughter. Each visit
became a little longer and the time between each visit became a
little shorter, until one time neither of them left. I was glad to
have them here. My mother needed the joy a child brought in to her
life and Charlie loved to feel needed. He got that from Hope and
me. We still went down to Riceboro for a couple days a month, to
visit Miles.

Dr. Montgomery thinks I don’t need to go that
often, but I’m not ready to shorten my visits yet. I like my time
with Miles. I know it’s just his body. His soul is in heaven but I
feel closer to him there.

Jonathon and Cameron go back to Seattle
tomorrow. It’s nice to see them again but the visits are always so
short. As reluctant as Jonathon was to move to Seattle, I can tell
it’s the best choice he ever made. He is the happiest I have ever
seen him.

I look over at Hope’s crib and watch our
beautiful baby girl. Her brown hair is still wet from the bath she
just had and her full lips are sucking on her pacifier. Her eyelids
are closed, covering the beautiful blue eyes she has from her
father. She is going to be a heartbreaker one day.

I turn off the light in her nursery before I
walk out of the room and softly shut the door, trying not to wake
her.

Everyone left for the evening so I head down
to Sebastian’s office where I know he will be working. He took this
week off to spend with the family. Unfortunately, that means
returning important business calls late at night.

The hallway is dark leading to Sebastian’s
office. As I get closer, I can see the light from his office come
through the crack in the door.

I open the door fully and see Sebastian, my
husband, sitting at his desk on the phone. He looks tense. His
shoulders are stiff and his eyebrows are pressed together in
frustration. He looks up and sees me. His face instantly softens as
he motions for me to come over to him.

I walk over to Sebastian and step behind his
desk. His desk has already been cleared off for the day so I decide
to sit on top of his desk and face him.

“I see, well we can talk about that in our
meeting Monday morning. I’ll look over the numbers this weekend and
have the final decision for you then.”

He sounds so official on the phone. I guess
that’s why he is so good at what he does.

“I’ll talk to you Monday. Have a good
evening,” Sebastian moves the phone from his ear and places it on
the receiver.

“Why hello, Mr. Price. I didn’t know you were
still conducting business at this hour.”

I’m sitting with one leg crossed over the
other. My dress from Hope’s party is revealing a lot of my legs.
I’m leaning back with my palms down on his desk. Sebastian moves
his hands to my thighs and separates my legs so his body can go in
between them.

“Is Hope asleep?” He asks as his eyes become
hooded with lust.

“Yes,” I whisper back as I separate my legs a
little further. Helping him to reach his goal.

The cocktail dress I’m wearing is green and
I’ve learned this is a color Sebastian loves on me.

Sebastian’s hands move up my thighs and under
the material of my dress. I moaned as he reached my pussy and he
notices I’m not wearing any panties.

“Fuck, “ he grunts as his fingers part my wet
folds. “Where are your panties?”

“I didn’t wear any. Don’t you approve, Mr.
Price?”

I was role-playing with him but I wasn’t
quite sure if he would like it. I know he is embarrassed about the
way he used to treat women.

“Oh, I definitely approve,” he whispers as he
slips one of his fingers inside me. I moan in sexual frustration. I
don’t want his fingers inside me; I want his cock inside me.
Always.

“Tell, me… why all of a sudden am I Mr.
Price?” His thumb moves to stroke my clit and I instantly feel my
release approaching. “While it turns me on to have you talk to me
like that, nothing turns me on more then when you ask me, your
husband, to fuck you. That’s the biggest turn on of all.

His body leans into mine as his mouth brings
mine in for an intense kiss. His tongue moves to my lips, asking
for entrance and I let him in. Our tongues tangling together.
Stroking and sucking.

“Sebastian…” I moaned as his thumb becomes
more urgent. I can feel my pussy get impossibly wetter as I’m about
to come hard. He sucks my bottom lip into his mouth before biting
down gently and I come instantly. All of the sensations overpower
me as I come hard.

Sebastian picks me up swiftly and walks me
over to the couch in the corner of his office.

“He places me on all fours as I lift my ass
to greet him. I can hear him unbuckling his belt. The next thing I
know, he drops his pants and his erection is teasing my ass.

“You like that,” he says from behind me. His
cock gently stroking my ass crack.

“Yes, “ I pant, pushing my ass into him so
that he understands my need. I need him inside me, now. It’s been
too long.

Sebastian’s fingers go inside me briefly
before he pulls them back out. I turn my head to look behind me and
I see Sebastian sucking me off his fingers.

“You taste even better, every time," he says
huskily and I almost come from the sight of him licking my
juices.

He brings his hands over his cock and starts
to stroke himself up and down.

“I’m going to fuck you so hard, Honey. Lift
your ass so I can see your pussy better.”