Tiffany Street (5 page)

I had agreed with her. Until a half-hour ago. Now my head throbbed.

“No, nothing happened,” I said. “Mr. Schlisselberger proved once again what we’ve known for years. He’s a horse’s patoot. My testimony is not going to change that. But having to give it proved more depressing than I thought it would be, and so maybe I do look as though my hair turned white overnight. Anyway, if there’s nothing urgent, I think I’ll carry these old bones home.”

The phone rang. Miss Bienstock picked it up. “Yes?” she said.

She listened, still scowling, obviously troubled about me. Anyway, that’s what I wanted to believe. I was reminded of Miss Merle S. Marine in my English class. She used to quote Browning quite a lot.

You know we French stormed Ratisbon: a mile or so away, on a little mound. Napoleon stood on our storming day; with legs out-thrust, you fancy how, legs wide, arms locked behind, as if to balance the prone brow, oppressive with its mind.

Napoleon and Miss Bienstock. They knew their jobs. As long as she was around, even black boys on Seventh Avenue couldn’t really damage Benny Kramer.

“Let me take a look,” Miss Bienstock said into the phone. “I just heard the outer door open. Perhaps it’s Mr. Kramer. He said if he got back from Philadelphia early enough he might stop in here at the office. Hold on, please.” She put her hand over the mouthpiece and said to me, “It’s Mr. Roon? He called earlier? He wants to have a drink with you at the club. He says you made a tentative date for after you got back from Philadelphia? Could you manage it? He seems quite anxious?”

I reached for the phone, then withdrew my hand. I didn’t mind a drink. Indeed, I wanted one. But I did not want to talk on the phone. I had forgotten it was Seb who had fixed up my date with Dr. McCarran in Philadelphia. My head, which hurt, was full of Jack, and how was I going to break to him and to Elizabeth Ann what Dr. McCarran had told me? It is easy to be a liar. It is difficult to be a convincing one.

“Tell him I’m signing some letters, so I can’t talk to him on the phone,” I said to Miss Bienstock. “But I’ll meet him at the club in ten minutes.”

“I think you’d better tell him yourself,” she said. “I think it would be better.”

Her thoughts were not always clear to me. But they were always concerned with my welfare.

“All right,” I said. “I’ll talk to him.”

S
OME BOOKS ARE WRITTEN.
Others happen. This book started to happen in 1930.

Curiously, I was not aware of this until today, when Sebastian Roon called me after I got back from Philadelphia. Sebastian and I have much in common. We discovered this on Tiffany Street in the Bronx in 1930.

It was a tough year for the country, but for the Kramer family—my mother, my father, and the author of these notes—it was actually a very good year. In fact, the best we had ever known. I had just graduated from Thomas Jefferson High School. With honors, I cannot refrain from adding with toe-shuffling embarrassment. No, I withdraw that. If you’re going to show off, you might as well do it with at least a hint of nuts-to-tradition forthrightness.

So: I am proud of the fact that I graduated from Thomas Jefferson High School as valedictorian of my class. What makes me proud is the way it made my mother and father feel. I could see them doing something I had never encountered except in Jane Austen novels. They preened. And in the process, I discovered the pleasure of giving pleasure.

At seventeen I had never before been in a position to give my parents a present. In fact, it had never occurred to me to do so. Or even to feel it was necessary to take a crack at it. I was preoccupied with my own life, which I see now was almost doltishly simple, but in those early years seemed hopelessly complicated. Besides, my parents were a couple of illiterate peasants from Central Europe. Immigrants. My father had fled from the Austrian conscription machinery of Emperor Franz Joseph; my mother, from the serfdom of a dairy farm on the slopes of the Carpathian Mountains in Hungary. They had met on East Fourth Street in the slums of New York, married, and spawned me. This was a reason for me to feel indebted to them? Today, in 1971, recalling how Sebastian Roon in 1930 caused this book to start to happen, the answer to that question is yes. In 1930, no. Not because I am a bastard. Or was. At seventeen, as I recall, I was probably indistinguishable from most seventeen-year-olds: not much of anything. A bundle of what I suppose can be described as protoplasm, trying to stay afloat—God, how at fifty-eight the brilliant metaphors assault the tip of a ball-point!—in a turbulent sea of economics and sex.

Economics in 1930 was Maurice Saltzman & Company, where I worked. Sex was Hannah Halpern, where I—well. Well?

Well, why not?

Boy! When I think back—but I’d better not. Let’s stick to the fact that I was the youngest employee of Maurice Saltzman & Company, Certified Public Accountants.

I don’t know why. I mean I don’t know why I was the firm’s youngest employee. I was not hired because of my age. I was hired because I could do a number of things that in 1930 a firm of certified public accountants wanted or had to have done daily in their offices but did not want to pay more than one employee to do. As achievements, these things I could do were hardly noteworthy.

For example, I could arrive in the offices at 224 West 34th Street shortly before eight o’clock every morning. And I mean every. Including Sunday. M.S.&Co., as it was known to intimates, worked a seven-day week. I did it without difficulty.

Got out of my bed at 5:30 in the Kramer family flat on Tiffany Street in the Bronx. Ablutions. Not much shaving as yet. Dressed fast. Helped by my mother. She was fussy about my appearance. She was proud of my job with M.S.&Co. She wanted me to look spic and span. I did. Nobody exported from Asia to the Chinese laundries of the Bronx ever washed and ironed a shirt the way my mother did. Or put on a kitchen table a breakfast so sensible for a young man who could not afford the cost of a downtown lunch.

My mother understood staying power. It was the rubric that had kept her afloat from the Carpathian Mountains to Tiffany Street.

Having been set afloat for the day, I trotted off to the 180th Street-Bronx Park South subway train at 6:30. Not too crowded at that hour. I usually managed to find a seat. I preferred one in the little cab at the rear. By the time the train cut across the Harlem River into upper Manhattan the train was jammed and to the surface of my mind came that uneasy problem: chivalry versus comfort. An awful lot of little old ladies were on their way between 6:30 and 7:00 from the Bronx to the sewing rooms of the garment center. They posed a problem for a nice Jewish boy, raised by a tough-minded lady like my mother.

She had started to teach me about life when I was just barely old enough to listen. Or hear. Three? Four? Five? Not much older than five, anyway. Her basic lesson applied to almost all aspects of daily existence. For going to work in the morning, it went as follows: “A boy must always stand up in the subway and give his seat to a lady. But only if he sees her.”

In the little cab at the back of the subway car you didn’t see her, or anybody else. Your nose was buried in Volume II—
Revocable Trusts, Amortization of Capital Expenditures, and Ancillary Depreciation
—of the La Salle Extention University Course in Higher Accountancy.

I had at that time about as much interest in Revocable Trusts, Amortization of Capital Expenditures, and Ancillary Depreciation as Rin-Tin-Tin had in the sunspot theory of economic cycles. Most of the country, however, was trying to keep its nose above the rising flood of Herbert Hoover’s depression. I had been fortunate enough to land this job with a firm of certified public accountants, and I did not want to be fired.

To put it bluntly, my enrollment in the La Salle Extension University Course in Higher Accountancy was an activity that would have been described a decade later—after the Japs dumped the Sixth Avenue El back on us at Hickam Field and I began to rub elbows with the vocabulary of the U.S. Army—as brown-nosing.

I did not want my boss Ira Bern (the “Co.” of M.S.&.Co.) to think I felt about accountancy the way my mother felt about suckling pig. I wanted him to feel I sat at his feet. It would not be straining accuracy to say I did.

One of my daily tasks as an employee of M.S.&Co. was to take Mr. Bern’s shoes every morning at ten o’clock to the bootblack in the lobby of our office building. It sounds demeaning, of course, and there may be some who think it was. I did not. Mr. Bern was a generous and an expansive man. Every morning when he took off his shoes and handed them to me, he also handed me a dime.

“While you’re waiting,” he used to say, “get yourself a cuppa cawfee and a ruggle.”

A cuppa cawfee was—well, I guess it still is—a cuppa cawfee. A ruggle, however. Now then.

A ruggle in 1930 was and may very well still be a piece of pastry called Danish, probably with good reason, although so far as I knew it was invented by Jews in places like Poland. It was steeped in cinnamon, studded with raisins, chewy as taffy, shaped like a crescent, and pleasurable beyond the erotic vocabulary in the Song of Solomon.

While Mr. Bern’s shoes were being shined, I would sit at Mr. Rothman’s brown marble counter in the section of the office building lobby then known as a coffee pot, and I would dunk.

A nickel ruggle in 1930 had in it eight dunks. Once in a while, as an experiment in the extension of delight, I did manage to stretch this to nine. I am certain others have made the same experiment, but my life has not provided me with opportunities to compare these experiments. Speaking for myself, from my own personal experience, I can say unequivocally the experiment did not pay off.

Shortly after the eighth dunk, Mr. Bern’s shoes always looked like the mirrors in the penny peanut machines on the IRT subway platforms. I do not exaggerate. You could see yourself, you actually could, in the gleaming mirror-like pieces of leather across the toes.

Mr. Bern had been a poor boy. A Fifth Streeter, actually. Born and raised one block up from my own native land: East Fourth Street. He had made it, as Fifth Streeters tended to do, and as a result he had certain peccadilloes. Shoes, for example. He couldn’t stand brown. Black was Ira Bern’s color, and a custom bootmaker on 48th made the shoes for him at $55 a pair—1930, remember—out of sheets of vici kid imported from Spain.

I did not then know what vici kid was. I still don’t know. I am certain it would be easy enough to find out. A phone call to
The New York Times
would do it. Or could do it in the days when the paper sold for two cents, and on that they could afford to maintain a twenty-four-hour-a-day free information telephone service. Even if they still do, I would not make that call.

Vici kid to me is the black leather at which the Italian boy in the bootblack shop at 224 West 34th Street pummeled away every morning from 10:00 to 10:15 while I dunked a Rothman’s ruggle into a cuppa Rothman’s cawfee. I’ll settle for that.

The good moments of life, I have learned, are always memories. I have never known better ones. I will stick with what I’ve got.

What I’ve got next adds up to a somewhat breathless period. Five minutes, perhaps. Somewhere between 10:15 and 10:30 every morning in the offices of M.S.&Co. at 224 West 34th Street in 1930. These were the minutes that started when I came back upstairs into the office with Mr. Bern’s gleaming shoes, and the moment when I learned how Mr. Bern was going to dispose of my day. What made this period breathless was that Mr. Bern did not himself know what he was going to do with me. Until, that is, he faced the problem. Which was always minutes—moments, actually—before the problem had to be solved.

Mr. Bern was not a bad man. He was not even a stupid man. I see now his trouble was that he shared with the rest of the human race what Shakespeare grasped when he set himself the task of explaining the complexities of the heir to Elsinore. Most human beings are as indecisive as one of those tropical storms the National Hurricane Center makes such floundering efforts to track. For a man who was operating a firm of certified public accountants with twenty-two staff members who had to be paid every Saturday at noon, it was clearly hell on wheels.

Mr. Bern was a small, natty, nervous man with the sort of toothbrush mustache that Adolf Hitler was just about to spring on the world. Mr. Bern always seemed cold. I don’t mean cold as in Heathcliff. I mean cold as in Admiral Richard Evelyn Byrd. Physical cold. Thinking back on it now I realize Mr. Bern spent a great deal of his time shivering.

In 1930 Mr. Bern was somewhere around forty. Now that I am fifty-eight I understand, or think I understand, things that did not even pluck at my attention in 1930. Now, today, if I were running a firm of certified public accountants with twenty-two staff members who had to be paid every Saturday at noon, I think I would do as much shivering as Mr. Bern did. Probably more. Friday night I could hear myself, sleepless, asking myself, sleepless: “Where is the damn money going to come from?”

Well, in theory, from clients. Maurice Saltzman & Company had quite a few. Dress manufacturers, hardware merchants, fabricators of leather goods, several cafeterias, shops on Grand Street that sold novelties and on Grand Concourse that sold wedding gowns, a locksmith, and many I remember not by what they sold to the public but by the faded and troubled faces of the men and women who owned them. In short, M.S.&Co. had enough clients to meet the payroll of their twenty-two man staff.

If they hadn’t, the staff would never have grown to twenty-two. Or, having got there, the number would have been reduced as Mr. Bern and his partner lost clients. Ira Bern’s problem was that he and his partner could never tell the precise moment when their firm had lost a client.

Most small businessmen in 1930 tended to think of their accountant’s monthly fee the way Rawdon Crawley and Becky Sharp thought of the bill from their wine merchants. They had every intention of paying it. Really, they had. But they had so many other unpaid bills that the wine merchant tended to be assigned a pretty low niche on their list. While most of Mr. Bern’s clients were prompt in paying their rent and telephone bills, they tended to run behind in paying their monthly fees to Maurice Saltzman & Company.