Read Under the Spanish Stars Online
Authors: Alli Sinclair
âMm?' Her grandmother pried one eye open then the other. Wide-eyed, she clasped Charlotte's hands in hers. âOh, my dear girl. It is so nice to see your beautiful face.'
âAnd yours as well, Abuela.'
âTell me, did you have success?' She moved to hoist herself further up the pillow, but didn't have the energy. Charlotte helped her grandmother get comfy, then sat down again.
âDon't you want to go back to sleep?'
âMy girl, the amount of sleep I've had in this hospital is more than I've had in the last ten years. Tell me all and do not spare any details.'
Charlotte launched into how she met with the university professor that led to Mateo and their search for the story behind the painting. She deliberately left out her foray into flamenco dancing, picking up the brushes again and her romantic liaison with Mateo. Charlotte wanted to keep these experiences to herself until she had a chance to process them now that she was back on home turf. Abuela kept silent and nodded as Charlotte spoke of the discovery that the artist behind the painting belonged to the Giménez clan.
She studied Abuela's big blue eyes, her perfectly coiffed hairâdespite being bedriddenâand the deep lines on Abuela's face, evidence of a life
well lived, secrets and all. Was telling her about the question behind her parentage the right thing? What if it brought on another heart attack and this one was fatal?
âWhat's worrying you, dear? You look like you have the weight of your world on your shoulders.' Abuela patted Charlotte's hand and guilt swept through her.
Charlotte bit her lip, wishing she could wave a magic wand and make everything okay. All the crankiness her grandmother had shown since the heart attack appeared to have disappeared and she seemed her usual self. The last thing Charlotte wanted was to be the cause of yet another setback to Abuela's healthâmental and physical.
âI have lived a life full of ups and downs, my dear child. Nothing surprises me these days. Just say what you need to and we will deal with whatever it is that is troubling you.'
âIt's not me, Abuela. It's something I learnt about you. Well, your father and ⦠the painting.' Maybe she could twist the story away from what she'd learnt. Maybeâ
âI sent you to find the truth, but it appears you got more than either of us bargained for. Tell me, please.' Her large eyes pleaded with Charlotte.
She caved.
âI met Señora Blanco Alvesâ'
âValery? She's still alive?' A flicker of happiness flashed in her eyes. âTell me, how is she?'
âShe's lovely and appeared healthy and happy.' Charlotte paused, wishing she could back-pedal.
âHow on earth did you find her and why?'
âMateo knows her and ⦠it all ties up with what I have to tell you.'
âAh,' Abuela said. âIt sounds like you two are a very good detective team.'
âI guess ⦠Valery gave me the keys to your house.'
âWhose house?'
âThe Sanchez family house. The one you grew up in.'
âWhat?' Abuela scratched her head, then confusion flashed in her eyes, sending a shudder of concern through Charlotte. âWhy did she have them?'
As Charlotte explained how it came about, her grandmother nodded. âMy mother was never one to leave things to chance and she was the real
business person in the family. So I'm not surprised she had the foresight to put a plan in place with the house. She loved Granada so I'm sure she had every intention of returning. Obviously that never happened.' Abuela stared into the corner. âI'm not shocked to find out Valery's family were the chosen guardians.'
âWhy?'
âBecause they always stood their ground and had faith they could wait out whatever political turmoil our country was in.' A small smile appeared on her cracked lips. âMy mother was very close to them, especially Valery's father.' She raised an eyebrow.
âDid they â¦'
Abuela shrugged. âI don't know for sure but the relationship seemed unnaturally close, especially after my father died.'
âThat's ⦠interesting.' What more could she say? Did everyone have affairs back then? It certainly appeared that way. But why would Abuela's mother hand over control of the house and money so easily? Maybe Valery's father had something over her. Or perhaps they really did love each other but couldn't be together, so the next best thing was to take care of the house and money and wait for her return in safer times. This new development made Charlotte hesitate about what she needed to say because broaching the subject of Abuela's father's affair with Syeria seemed more difficult than ever. Steering the conversation back to the subject she'd started on, Charlotte said, âMateo and I went inside the house.'
She delved her hand into the bag to find her notebook. Pulling it out, she extracted the photo she'd carried with great care. Taking a deep breath, she quietly said, âWe found this.'
Her grandmother took the photo and held it gently in her hands. âThat's the artwork my father gave me. Who is the woman?'
âWe believe she's Syeria Mesa Flores Giménez, the artist of the painting.'
Squinting, Abuela held the photo closer then further away, studying it from different angles. âIt's incredible. And to think, after all these years we now know. Did you discover her story?'
Charlotte had prepared for this question yet now, faced with the reality of the situation, words escaped her.
âWhat is it?' Abuela peered at her from under her long, pale lashes. âDo
not hold back, Charlotte Mae.'
This was so much harder than she'd expected. âThere was talk that your father had an affair with this artist.'
Abuela held her hand over her heart and Charlotte lurched forward.
âWhat is it? Should I call a doctor?' She had her hand on the buzzer, ready to press it but Abuela placed a hand over Charlotte's.
âYou don't need to worry, sweetheart. I am fine.' Taking a deep breath, she closed her eyes for a moment. âI am not as shocked as I probably should be. The relationship between my parents was always strained. I had a hard time figuring out why they were together but that's the way it was done back thanâpeople married within their economic circles and the pairings were often influenced by families. They weren't arranged marriages as such, but not far from it.' Abuela closed her eyes for a moment before focussing on Charlotte. âI'm not saying having an affair was right, but the way my mother berated him over the smallest thing, I'm not surprised he strayed.' Looking at the photo again, she asked, âAnd I'm guessing my mother's affair with Valery's father happened earlier than I suspected.' She puffed out her cheeks. âI wonder if my father knew.'
âI don't know.'
âI guess we never will.' Turning her attention to the photo again, she said, âPerhaps my father knew her when this photo was taken. Maybe he took the image. Maybe â¦' She furrowed her brows. âWhy would he give me this painting by a woman he supposedly had an affair with?'
Charlotte bit her lip, tears welling in her eyes.
âCharlotte Mae Kavanagh.' Abuela stared her down. âWhat do you know?'
âYour friend Valery said that after your father died and you'd left the family she overheard your mother crying â¦' Charlotte hesitated, not knowing if that was the term she should be using. âThe Giménez clan had been in contact with Señora Sanchez, asking for money. Valery's father told her she shouldn't have tried to â¦' Charlotte couldn't finish.
âYou have to tell me everything. You're the only one I trust to tell me like it is.' A small smile graced her grandmother's lips. âYou always have.'
Abuela was right. Charlotte was the only person for the job and she couldn't let her grandmother down by lying or omitting the truth. Pushing out the words before she chickened out, Charlotte said, âValery's father told your mother that she should never have tried to pass off the
half-
gitana
child, Katarina, as her own. He said â¦'
Finish it, Kavanagh.
âHe said your father was lucky he was already dead, because otherwise Valery's father would have killed him for having an affair with the no-good
gitana
artist.'
Charlotte didn't meet her grandmother's eyes, scared about what she'd see. She listened intently for a change in breathing but Abuela's breath remained calm. Hanging her head, she said, âI'm sorry, Abuela.'
âDear child.' She placed her finger under Charlotte's chin and tilted her head up so they looked directly in each other's eyes, âI suspected something wasn't right years ago. After my brothers were born, my mother changed the way she acted with me. It was as if she didn't know how to mother me any more. Some days she struggled being in the same room as me. It wasn't always like that, mind you, she showered me with love when I was very young.' She sighed, as if grappling with memories. âIt wasn't maltreatment as such, but when the boys were born I felt like the love she'd had for me transferred to them and there was nothing left for me. I thought it was because she only wanted boys, but if what you say is true, then I can see why she did what she did. I don't like it, but I am beginning to understand it.'
âSo why would she take you in the first place? Wouldn't you be a constant reminder of her husband's affair?'
âI imagine I would have been.'
âMaybe Señora Sanchez couldn't conceive and she was so desperate to have a baby she took you in after she found out about the affair. Or â¦' Charlotte's mind spun. âWhat if Syeria was the surrogate? Did that happen back then?' It felt weird to be discussing these things with Abuela, but after everything she'd found out, generational barriers had come crashing down.
âI have no idea,' Abuela said slowly. âRemember, these were traditional times. Women back then had no rights. We had little power and had to accept the way things were. Surrogates happened. Affairs, and mistresses having their lovers babies, happened. It's just that no one talked about it.' She closed her eyes briefly. âNo matter how I came into the world, my mother ⦠Señora Sanchez did love me at one stage. And if Syeria is my birth mother then me dancing flamenco would have been like I was rubbing my origins in Señora Sanchez's face. It would have been a vivid reminder of my father's history.'
âAnd that's probably why your father asked you to keep the painting a secret.'
Abuela nodded, her eyes filling with tears. âI wish he'd had the chance to tell me the truth behind it.'
Wrapping her fingers around Abuela's, Charlotte said, âI think we've discovered it, anyway.'
âYou could be right, dear girl.' Abuela picked up the photo and looked at it again. âIf I have
gitana
blood running through my veins there's no wonder I was drawn to flamenco.'
âIt explains a lot, huh?' Pointing to the photo, Charlotte said, âThere's something written on the back. It's in
caló
and a friend of Mateo's translated it.'
Abuela turned the photo over, her lips moving as she read the inscription a few times, then she wiped away a stream of tears. Breathing deeply a few times, she said, âMy father travelled a lot for work and he would be away for months at a time. On the eve of every departure he would sit on the edge of my bed and say this little poem in
caló
. I could never work out why. I just thought it was one of his idiosyncrasiesâhe had so many and I loved him for them. No one else understood his ways which is probably why we had that special bond.' She paused, then said, âI'd forgotten about it until now. Where did you find this?'
âIn the Sanchez house in a large walk-in robe that had your mother's clothes.'
âI need a drink,' Abuela rasped. Charlotte handed her a glass of water with a straw. After a few sips, her grandmother said, âI used to play in there for hours on end, pretending the small room was my castle. I had so much fun in there, and when my brothers came along and demanded my mother's attention, my father would find me in that closet, crawl in with me and we'd read books and make up stories about the greatest adventures.' She gave a sad shrug.
âYou seem to be taking this well, Abuela.' All the stress Charlotte had endured thinking about this moment seemed to have been for nothing. How could she read her grandmother so badly? Weren't they the proverbial peas in a pod? And if she'd gotten this wrong, what else had she misread?
âWhat can I do? I've lived a full, interesting life. When you get to my age, dear Charlotte, you will find almost nothing will surprise you.' She
tilted her head to the side. âThe relationship with my mother ⦠Señora Sanchez ⦠disintegrated when I was young. I've lived most of my adult life without a mother figure, so really, it doesn't upset me as much as you probably think it would. The only thing that saddens me is that I may have a whole other family out there who I will never know. Please, tell me what you know of the Giménez clan.'
Casting her mind back to the visits, Charlotte smiled, a feeling of warmth enveloping her. âThey're very close knit and there's a strong sense of community.' Visions of Cristina flashed before her. âThey are protective of their own and they cling to their traditions, ensuring they're passed on through the generations. They also don't speak about the past, which made it difficult to garner a lot of information. Mateo was the one who introduced me to them. He isn't a relative, but they treat him like family.'
âThis Mateo has featured heavily in our conversation.'
Charlotte knew exactly where her grandmother was headed and she wasn't too keen to travel down that road. âHe's just a very helpful friend I made.'
âBah!' She waved her hand in the air as if swatting a fly. âYou like him, don't you?' Despite her ill health, Abuela managed a wicked wink that made heat rush up Charlotte's neck and cheeks.