Wanting More (9 page)

Her arms squeezed me tighter. "Thank you, Conner, for making me feel safe for the first time in my life."

"Don't mention it. I'm sure I will go back to bein' someone you hate in no time." Not that I wanted that to happen, but it was bound to. I wasn't relationship material and if she thought this was going in that direction, well she was wrong. I wasn't wired that way. Sure, being with her made me feel like I could change my mind, but her marital status kept me from thinking it could ever be more.

I patted her on the back and kept my hold on her. "Why don't you get some sleep. I know you have to work tomorrow."

She slid her hands around and grabbed my cock. "You were right, you know."

I looked down at her. "About what?"

"I can't get enough of it, of you." She started stroking me. "I need more."

I let out a laugh that involved choking. "I think it needs time to recuperate, darlin'."

She disappeared under the covers. "I can keep it company until its ready."

I felt her mouth kissing it and moved away the covers to watch. Seeing her tongue slide up and down the base of my shaft sent tingles down both my legs. Her red hair fell down in her face and I reached down and tucked it behind her ear.

She looked up at me as she licked the tip. "Tell me if I do something wrong. I'm not really good at this."

I cocked my eyebrow. "I find it hard to believe you'd ever be bad at anything." I watched her take as much of my length as she could handle into her mouth. Her head bobbed a couple times and it was such a tight fit that I couldn't take how good it felt. I threw my head back against the pillow and grabbed her head. Just holding my hand there, feeling her moving up and down. She worked so hard, stroking me with one hand and using her mouth to take me over the edge. When I felt myself nearing release I pulled her off. "You may want to stop now."

She shook my hand off her head. "I want it in my mouth. I want to taste you."

Amy took me back in her mouth and started bobbing up and down. I wasn't sure how much I had left in me, but it was enough to fill her little mouth. I could feel it coming out and her moaning as it hit her throat. She held her mouth there for a few seconds then finally released me. I waited for her to gag or run to the bathroom, but that little red head smiled and licked her lips. "Did I do good?"

She climbed up beside me. I began to laugh. "Don't ask me shit like that. You're damn near perfect. Now, get over here and teach me how to do this cuddle thing."

She may not have belonged to me, but she was mine in this room and I wasn't sure I wanted to check out.

Chapter 10

Amy

I didn’t want to go to sleep, because that meant that tomorrow would be here and I would have to say goodbye to this man that held me in his arms and made me feel so many wonderful things. I wanted to savor every single second and lose myself in him over and over again.

They say that all good things must come to an end. The thought gave me a stomach ache.

Conner had made it clear that he didn’t get tied down and he wasn’t relationship material. I think that’s what was making me so crazy. How could we have connected like we just had and it not continue? He’d awakened me and given me the most pleasure that a woman could experience.

My eyes started stinging and I knew I couldn’t hold back the tears. I don’t know why I was crying. I knew what this was and that we shouldn’t have done it.

Conner looked down and pulled my face up toward him. Even through my blurred vision, his green eyes gave me butterflies. I didn’t care if he was cocky, all I cared about was being able to feel this way again.

“Don’t do this, Blaze.”

I wiped my eyes and buried my face in his chest. “I’m sorry.”

“I knew you were going to regret this. I just figured it wouldn’t be till you got home and had to face him.”

I looked up at Conner, feeling utterly confused. “What? I’m not upset about that and I don’t regret what just happened between us.”

“Then what is it?”

I shrugged. “I’ve just…never felt so good before. It’s stupid, I know.”

He brushed the hair away from my face. “Darlin’, all I wanted was for you to enjoy yourself. You’re so damn sexy. It ain’t stupid.”

“Conner, can I ask you a question?”

I sat up in the bed, letting the covers fall off of my naked body. I caught him looking at my breasts before looking back up at my face. The corner of his mouth formed a smile when he knew I’d caught him. “Ask away.”

I traced the skin across his abdomen as I spoke. “If I wasn’t married, would you want to see me again?”

He chuckled and put his arm behind his head. His other hand grabbed one of my breasts and played with the nipple. “I reckon’ the married thing went out the door a few hours back when I took what I wanted anyway. Listen here, I don’t like bein’ involved with a married woman, but I enjoy bein’ with you.”

I started to blush as I smiled. “You do? I mean, I’m not very experienced. I bet you have a whole book of girls that can do way more than me.”

He laughed again and shook his head. “You women are so worried about everyone else. I’m goin’ to be honest with you. You’re right. I do have a handful of women that would go above and beyond for another night with me, but not one of them has ever gotten this.” He wrapped his arms tightly around me and kissed my head. “This is somethin’ I never did, until now.”

I rolled my eyes. “Another night with you. Do I even want to know what that assumes?”

He laughed and played with my hair. “Probably not. Look, I never said I was a saint. I enjoy sex and the company of a woman. It’s always been somethin’ I’m good at.”

I put my hands over my face and rolled over on my back. “Oh my God! They say that you sleep with as many people as your partners have slept with. Does that mean I’ve been with hundreds of people?”

Conner laughed at me. He sat up in bed and leaned over my body. “First off, I ain’t been with a hundred women and second, I always use protection.”

“Not always.” I corrected.

He rubbed his face. “Yeah, well there’s a first time for everything.” Without letting me get a word in, he stood up and walked to the bathroom. I have to admit, I really enjoyed watching him do it.

Of course, after pissing Conner off, I sat up in bed and tried to straighten my hair or do anything remotely helpful to make him forget I even mentioned his past partners. I don’t know what made me even say anything in the first place.

When he came back out of the bathroom, I was afraid to look his way, but when he didn’t climb right in bed, I looked in his direction. Conner was leaning against the wall to the bathroom, completely naked, with a big smile on his face. “Amy, I get that this is scary for you and although I ain’t scared, it’s new for me too. Hell, I really like you and if I gotta sneak around to be in your company, until you can get things figured out, well I reckon that’s what I’m goin’ to do. After bein’ inside of you, I don’t think I’m alright just lettin’ you go.” He looked down and started shaking his head. When he looked up at me, he was serious. “Now, are you goin’ to invite me back in that bed or do I need to sleep somewhere else? The choice is yours, darlin’.”

My heart was beating out of my chest. Conner wanting me didn’t solve any of my problems, in fact, it made them ten times worse. Still, I couldn’t help but feel giddy as he waited for my response. The whole world was against this relationship, but after fighting my attraction to him for many months, he was all I could think about. “The only place you’re going to be sleeping is right next to me, if I let you sleep at all.”

He climbed on the bed and came after me, burying his face between my bosom and shaking it around. I was laughing uncontrollably, grabbing at his head to make him stop. When he finally came up for air, he started kissing me tenderly on my neck. “Your skin tastes like heaven and you really are beautiful, Blaze.”

I ran my hand through his hair. “I’m going to dye it tomorrow if you don’t stop calling me that.”

He laughed and looked up at me, grabbing a strand of it and combing it through his fingers. “You can change the color, but I’ll always call you Blaze. You’re like a little firecracker, making me chase you around until I can put out the fire.”

When Conner kissed me, it was slow and passionate, not like a kiss that was just about sex. His tongue held a slow tempo as his hands explored other parts of my body. He pulled away from my face and looked deep into my eyes. “What are ya thinkin’ about?”

I shrugged and touched his perfect lips. “I don’t know. I guess I’m wondering what happens tomorrow. I’m not trying to spoil this, but there is a big picture that doesn’t revolve around this room.”

He stayed close to me. “Do you love your husband? Do you want to be married and work things out with the man?”

I shook my head. “Of course not! How could you ask me that. You know more than anyone how afraid I am of him. If I had a place to go, I would have left already.”

He leaned down and kissed me. “And what about me? You sayin’ you want this to happen again?”

I nodded my head and looked him dead in the eye. “You know I do. I can’t even lie about it anymore. I don’t care if it’s wrong. The problem is, I’m not free. He watches my every move. He checks my phone calls and roots through my purse. He probably has people watching me too.”

Rick scared me. I wanted nothing more than to be divorced from that son of a bitch, but the timing had to be right for it to happen, or else I could be putting my life in real danger.

Conner set his chin on my abdomen and looked up at me. He traced the skin around my breast as he spoke. “Darlin’, I will find a way to see you, I promise.”

“Kiss me.”

Conner cocked his eyebrow. “Where?”

“Everywhere.”

He started on my stomach and worked his way down between my legs, placing small soft kisses as he moved around. When he got to my pussy, he continued placing the tiny kisses over it and all around my inner thighs. I wanted to feel his hot tongue, but he just teased me with his lips some more.  “You goin’ to beg me?”

I sat up and looked down at him coming so close to licking my hot sex. He kept teasing it with his tongue, making me want to jerk my hips up just to feel it on me. “Please don’t make me beg you.”

He kissed it again, this time holding his lips there longer. “How long did I have to wait for this night? I want to hear you say it.”

I began to laugh, thinking of all the times he taunted me and all the times I shut him down. Sure his stolen kisses got me all hot and bothered, but at the time I found them inappropriate. Now, I wanted to feel Conner’s hands on me; his mouth on me.  While he waited for my reply, he placed more kisses all around my sex. “Conner, please use your tongue, before I go insane. I want you to lick me and never stop!” I let out a whimper, just remembering how he made me feel before.

“I knew you’d beg.”

Before he could dive in, I tossed a pillow at him. “Shut up and get to work, cowboy.”

I felt his tongue sliding between the folds and the room began to spin again. His tongue was a tool, designed for this very task. I screamed his name, I shuddered, I trembled and when it was all over, I was ready to do whatever he asked me.

Chapter 11

Conner

We stayed up as long as we could before our tired bodies gave out on us. When I woke up the next morning, with Amy still in my arms, I actually felt happy about it. This little game had taken me by surprise and turned into something I wanted more of. Now, the problem was going to be finding a way to make it happen.

Amy’s overbearing husband already didn’t trust her, and her staying out all night wasn’t going to play to our favor. Sure, she would say she stayed with my sister, or someone else, but he wasn’t going to believe that every single time. Amy opened her eyes and sat up. "Oh my God! Conner what time is it?"

"Just six. The sun is just risin'."

She ran into the bathroom and shut the door behind her. I put my arms behind my head and waited for her to come back out. "We have to go! You have to take me back to my car."

I tried to grab her, to pull her back in bed, but she thrashed her arm around and forced me to let go. "Please, Conner."

Since she was apparently in some kind of freak out mode, I climbed out of bed and went into the bathroom. When I came out, she was dressed back in her regular clothes and had everything that was mine packed back in my bag. "Guess you're ready to roll?"

"I just need to get home before he wakes up."

I grabbed the door and held it open for her. I handed her the keys as she passed me and tried to get a smile from her, but her face was cold and determined. I had to admit, it felt like she was blowing me off and I wasn't used to that. After tossing my key card in the night drop box, I climbed in my truck and found her sitting there waiting for me with her hands folded. The ride back to town was uneventful. She sat there looking out the window, refusing to look my way. I wasn't really sure what to say to her. I knew she was worried about that deadbeat husband catching her, but she wouldn't speak to me; the one person that kept her safe. My stomach started to hurt when I pulled up to the parking lot across from her car. I didn't want to make it obvious and pull up next to it in case someone was watching. She grabbed her keys off my dash and opened the truck door, but I reached over and got ahold of her arm before she could jump out. "Amy, wait."

She still wouldn't look at me. "Conner, please don't make this awkward."

Damn, the roles were reversing on me and I suddenly felt like one of the girls I dropped off and never called again. "When can I see you again?"

She looked down and shook her head. "I don't know right now."

"Do I get a kiss goodbye?"

She finally turned to look at me with tears in her eyes. "I'm sorry, Conner. I can't. I have to go."

I watched her walk all the way to her car before pulling away and heading back to the farm. I had to admit, I didn't like the cold side of Amy. After having such an intense night with her, the last thing I wanted to do was say goodbye.