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Authors: Antony Sher

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Friday 9 December

A thank-you card from Charlotte Arnold with this PS: `I have started the
ball rolling re Richard III. Should have news in January about homes and
centres for the disabled that we could visit. Did you mean what you said
about crutches? It's just that I've been thinking they might actually be the
safest way of you playing extreme disability. Can't think of anything else
that would take the strain off you in the same way. It's what they're
designed to do. But were you serious?'

FOYLES Finally buy an Arden edition of Richard III, to read in South
Africa. (And leave behind there perhaps?) The cover is very strange -
hollow eye sockets and gaping mouths, all rather vaginal.

BARBICAN CANTEEN Two of the directors, Adrian Noble and Barry
Kyle, have a little light supper at my table before another planning meeting.
Neither say anything about Stratford or the current situation. Instead
Adrian starts talking about aeroplane crashes and the recent case of a
woman suing one of the airlines for shattering her nerves. The plane had
started to plummet and only at the last moment did the pilot regain control
and yank it back up into the air.

`So there are all these people,' Adrian says, munching at his supper,
`who have felt what those last few minutes are like. That fall. Can you
imagine? And who've lived to remember it.' He always discusses matters
like this with a kind of bright-eyed, yet detached, fascination. Perhaps it's
because he's an undertaker's son.

They go off to their planning meeting and I sit viewing Sunday's flight
in a new light.

Saturday io December

In this morning's Guardian a full-page advertisement for the Free Nelson
Mandela Campaign. Hundreds of signatures, mine among them. Bad
timing. Hope the South Africans don't go through this with a fine tooth
comb, which of course they will. Image of being frog-marched out of the
airport lounge and shot against the nearest wall.

Howard Davies [RSC director] rings. He's doing the Nicks Wright play
now and says there's a terrific part in it for me.

`What's it about?'

`Well, it's set in Cairo -'

`Oh God. Another Arab.'

`No, no. British Intelligence, Second World War. An officer with a
Napoleonic complex ...'

The play sounds very exciting. It's now scheduled for Slot Four. The
Peter Barnes play is in Slot Five, with Adrian directing, and apparently it
also contains a terrific part for me. `Adrian's been itching to talk to you
all week,' Howard says.

I tell him that Ron had advised me to have a play out after Richard.

`Yes I know. He relayed that conversation to us and I got rather angry.
I said to them, if we want Tony in the season, and we do, what's the point
in having him do as little as possible','

`Well actually Ron made some rather good points about osteopaths'
couches ...'

But this news is too good to start worrying about minor details like
health. Two new plays are a decent compromise. I ring Bill to tell him,
`It all sounds very promising.' He says that he's definitely going to offer
Buckingham to Malcolm Storrv. It will be a powerful image: the small
deformed Richard with this giant as right hand man. And our rapport as
actors and friends will be a corner-stone for the whole production.

Last minute packing, feeling very excited about everything, not least
that now is the winter and on Monday the summer ...

The thing I keep remembering is Monty seeing me to the door after
our session on Tuesday. He suddenly said, `I envy you. I'd love to see
South Africa again. Christ, I can't watch a programme on 'I'V about that
bloody country without crying.'

 
2. South Africa 1983
Sunday r i December

Sitting next to me on the plane is a ten-year-old boy. He looks up and
says with great excitement, `We're going to live in South Africa!' He's
called Leon and is from Manchester. Points across the aisle to where his
parents sit, restraining lap-fulls of his little brothers and sisters. As the
eldest he has volunteered to sit on his own.

As we are about to take off, I offer him the window seat. He says, `Ooo,
could I?' He has never flown before and the take off is intolerably exciting.
In fact he can hardly bear to watch this miracle and keeps turning back
to me blushing and grinning.

Monday 12 December

Dawn. The round window is a milky blur of pink, orange, blue. Gradually
it focuses into one of these endless fields of clouds.

`Is it ice on the sea?' asks Leon as he wakes and clambers over for a
good peer. He stares in wonderment. `The air must be thin up here, so
close to outer space.'

An hour later the clouds are more mountainous, erupting. They break
dramatically, disappear, and there below is a red land with soft black hills
that look as if they're melting in extreme heat, and one long, white,
perfectly straight road. Africa.

I point it out to Leon who shouts, `It's Africa, it's Africa! Look Dad,
it's Africa!'

The father looks at me wetly and shrugs, apologising for his son. I've
taken a dislike to this man, primarily because he's emigrating to South
Africa.

As we are coming in to land at Jo'burg I say to Leon, `Come on you'd
better move over to the window seat.' He's looking glum and says, `My Dad has said not to bother you anymore.'

`Oh don't be silly.' I turn to the father. `He must see the landing in his
new country. Something for him to remember in years to come,' wondering
if the man perceives any double meaning at all.

Leon presses his face to the window again and remains glued there as
we descend and South Africa turns into reality with a gentle bump from
below.

During the connecting flight to Cape Town I become very emotional.
Different feelings and memories welling up, settling, welling up again. As
the plane begins its descent they start playing schmaltzy music which
makes it all much worse. Bits of me, dormant for years, coming to the
surface. Excitement and fear.

Stepping off the plane, the blast of dry heat, the baking afternoon with
its brilliant blue sky, is all familiar and calming.

Monty and I were both right about the photographers: there aren't any,
yet there is one - my sister Verne clicking away on an Instamatic as I walk
into the airport lounge. Everyone is there, brown and glowing: the men
have taken the afternoon off work. Mum is presiding, looking glamorous
in the simplest of summer frocks and with a film star's instinct for when
the shutter is going to click. My older brother Randall says, `Hi, howzitt?'
as if he saw me yesterday, and hugs me; he's rounder and greyer than I
remember. Dad pops up from behind a group to go `Haah', which is his
shorthand for `Hello and how are you?' Esther, my drama teacher (we
called it `elocution') from way back, flies into my arms, crying. The
nephews and nieces all come up shyly to shake hands and be kissed,
grown into new shapes, new people. Everyone keeps saying, `You look
terrible. Don't they feed you in England? So white, like a ghost.' They
ask about my dreadfully short hair cut (to go under Maydays wigs). I tell
them I'm thinking of catching up with some National Service while I'm
here.

Driving back from the airport, nothing is familiar until Green Point
Common and the Sports Stadium. Memories of walking back with Tony
Fagin from Saturday afternoon bioscope, discussing The Art Of The
Motion Picture. And then more memories as we drive along the beachfront
- certain blocks of flats, the Pavilion, the Aquarium - but distantly,
sensations rather than clear pictures.

The house in Alexander Road is transformed. They've split it down
the middle and sold the other half. It's hardly recognisable, but I find my
way through to the back yard calling, `Katie, Katie.' She comes out of the maid's room. Still wearing those little aprons and linen caps, but older,
shorter, squatter. Her shy smile showing gold among the white teeth. We
hug. `Oh, Master Antony, oh, Master Antony,' she keeps saying.

The house is like it would be in a dream. A familiar place put together
wrongly. A few things have survived the rebuilding. The stair rail. A
cupboard door. I round a corner and there's a piece I recognise, the rest
strange. Even the smell is quite new. A different furniture polish I suppose.

I'm on display everywhere. Every inch of wall space is covered in photos
of me or my paintings or posters of plays. It makes me feel rather
uncomfortable; as if I've died and this is the shrine.

I'm taken on a grand tour. Mum watches my reactions closely, keeps
asking, `Well, what d'you think?' and I keep replying, `I don't know, it's
very strange.'

Their bedroom. Blinds drawn against the strong afternoon sun which
still saturates the room and makes the blinds glow. Little strips and squares
of sunlight have got through and fall across the bed, and across the soft
pale carpet. A radio plays quietly. This feeling of a hot afternoon indoors,
with the radio a tiny, constant comforting sound - that's the closest feeling
to what it was like being a child here.

Tuesday 13 December

Wake to that smell of the sea ... Dad and Katie in the back yard chatting
away in Afrikaans.

Breakfast. Both Mum and Dad have capsules to take with their coffee.
His are thick, black things like slugs. When I ask what they're for, he says,
`Lord alone knows, but if I was ten years younger I'd've had triplets by
now.

Mum's are prettier, little opaque golden baubles. `They are very expensive,' she says, `a natural extract made from the oil of Evening Primrose,
for the skin, for circulation and so much more. Apparently the entire
population of Russia are given these free for one month each year.'

`That's why their Premiers keep dying,' mutters Dad as he heads off
to work.

`Tsk,' goes Mum, and settles down with Katie to plan the day's menus;
there's meat to be taken out of the deep freeze, recipes to be checked
through. That done, she begins her own notes for the day; careful lists
written in her curving elegant handwriting (so familiar from those blue
airmail envelopes that drop through the letter box back in Islington)
concerning shopping and appointments.

Katie starts washing up the breakfast things. She is rather proud of the
batch of bagels she baked for my homecoming.

`Were they all right, Madam?'

`Haven't tasted one yet,' says Mum concentrating on her list.

`But do they look all right?'

`Look fine.'

`I burnt a few for Madam, Madam mos' likes them burnt.'

`Mmm.'

Katie smiles secretly to me, almost winks, as if to say `I keep her happy
and she stays out of my hair'.

Their relationship seems to have mellowed over the years. In my
childhood I remember stormy rows; Katie was always packing and leaving,
often did. One or the other would eventually apologise sulkily, all would
be well again until the next time.

I wonder if either have ever realised the deep affection they have for
one another. They're both in their early sixties now, having spent forty
long years together. They see more of one another than they do of their
husbands, and yet all the time leading very different lives.

Mum's day is made up of her shopping, her beauty treatments, massages,
manicures and pedicures, her classes in keep fit and philosophy, her
spiritualist meetings, her visits to theatre, cinema, ballet, variety shows,
anything to fill the long hours of leisure.

Katie's day begins at five o'clock in the coloured township Bonteheuwel;
she cooks breakfast for her husband, catches the six o'clock bus to Sea
Point, works here from seven till five, back home to make supper and do
the housework there, then to bed at midnight. She says to me, `I thank
God that I've still got my health so I can work hard for Madam and
myself.'

S A U N D E R S BEACH Astonishing to see the beach mixed. Black men in
the briefest swimsuits sunbathing next to Jewish princesses, who lie face
down with bikini-tops discreetly untied. And yet the Immorality Act still
officially exists. So they lie there inches away from one another, very
nearly naked, watching with interest and wariness, sensing, smelling,
stirring one another, but not permitted to touch.

The sea is choppy, the wind strong and cold. As soon as you are
protected from it, baking heat. Clouds tumble over the Seven Apostles. I
notice how magnificent Lion's Head is, as if for the first time. This
ex-volcano dominates Sea Point; our school anthem was called `Beneath the Lion Bold'. The mountain was so familiar that I stopped noticing it,
but seeing it now, it has tremendous power. Richard III is in there
somewhere. But which bit is the head, which the hump?

`Haah.' Dad back from work. He goes into the kitchen to nibble at the
supper Katie is preparing, and to chat in Afrikaans. I think they both look
forward to these moments of their day.

`How was work?' I ask.

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