5 Nights (Sinful Delights Romance - Boxed Set) (9 page)

I’m not squeamish, but the thought of me making her bleed wasn’t sitting right with me at all.  Untangling her from my body, I slid out of bed.  “Don’t move.” Shit, what the fuck was I going to do?  Leave her laying in that mess all night?  Hell to the fuck no!

I walked over to the bathroom and turned on the water in the tub.  I could only assume if I made her bleed she was sore as hell.  Plugging it up, I walked back to get her.  She was resting up on her side, glancing at me in confusion.

“What’s wrong?”

“Not a damn thing.” Grinning, I walked over to the bed and lifted her into my arms.  “You’re not sleeping in that shit.”

I watched her face flush as she noticed the blood stains on the sheet. “I’m sorry.”

Why the fuck was she sorry?  I was the one who busted her cherry. “Stop that crap.  I just want to get you cleaned up.”  Silly ass girl.  Like I was pissed about some stupid goddamn sheets.

I lowered her into the warm water, and hated it when she tensed.  We wouldn’t be fucking again tonight.  That was a demand I stuck in my brain to remember.  I didn’t know how long it took to heal, but we weren’t doing shit until she was better. 

“My hair takes forever to dry.”

I nodded and walked over to the double sink. Opening up a drawer I found an elastic band.  Walking back to her, I pulled her hair up and piled it high.  I grabbed a rag off the towel rack and soaped it up.  I didn’t have much experience with bathing a woman, but I went on instinct.  Her perfect tits felt so damn good in my hands. 
Those little pink nipples puckered from my touch and I groaned.

“You better stand up and let me finish now baby.”  My cock was getting hard again.  I lathered her legs quickly, then moved to that fantastic ass.  I was ready to go for round two until I brought that cloth between her legs and she whimpered. Fuck if that didn’t cool down the mood faster than having ice water dumped on my head.

Gently I washed that beautiful pussy. “Sit back down little lily.  Soak while I fix the bed.”  I didn’t give her time to answer, I walked out of the room.  Glancing down at my dick, I reprimanded it. “You keep your shit together.”

I made the bed up with fresh sheets before going back to help her.  Drying her off wasn’t the smartest idea in the world, but hell I had to make her comfortable.  I didn’t let her walk back to the bed.  I carried her. “Let’s get some sleep baby.”

She looked shocked that I was letting her stay over.  That smile that lit up her face made me grin.  It was going to be sheer hell lying next to that gorgeous body and not taking it for another ride.  Somehow I managed to do it.  The sound of her soft breathing was like heaven.  I jerked off quietly before allowing my eyes to close.

chapter thirteen

Morning After

I felt like I’d just finished a gymnastics competition when I woke up.  My body was sore, but I couldn’t help but smile at knowing I was no longer a virgin.  Sin was sleeping peacefully, so I carefully inched out of bed.  I didn’t have spare clothes, so I helped myself to one of his t-shirts.

Coffee was calling my name.  I allowed my eyes to gaze over Sin for a few more seconds before walking to the kitchen.  There were no regrets about what happened between us last night, at least not in my mind.  I’d determined when I pulled up at his place that I wasn’t taking Kera’s advice.  I wanted Sin to be my first.  I felt things for that man that I couldn’t even explain to myself.

Rambling through his cupboards I found the coffee and filters.  I knew it was dangerous to be falling for Sin. 
He’s made clear he wasn’t a happily ever after guy. I just couldn’t help it. The things he made me feel when we touched were nothing short of miraculous.  I quickly made a pot of java and stood there waiting for it to brew.

Closing my eyes, I allowed last night to play through my head again.  He said he couldn’t be tender, but he’d been more than careful with me.  Yeah, that initial part hurt when he came inside me, but I knew that was a natural thing.  Maybe he felt something other than lust for me.  A girl could dream?

“You should have woke me up.” Sin moved behind me, scaring the living crap out of me and I jumped.

“I thought you might need your rest.” His arms wrapping around my waist felt as close to heaven as I ever hoped to be.

He lifted my hair and nuzzled his lips against my neck.  “Sit down and let me cook you breakfast.”

I turned in his arms, food being the last thing on my mind now.  “I’d rather go back to bed with you.” The words were whispered and my face flushed, but it was the truth.  Wrapping my arms around his neck I stood up on my tip toes to give him a kiss. 

He growled softly.  “How sore are you?”

“Not much.” I didn’t want to talk about that.  It was embarrassing to be standing in his kitchen discussing my body.

He chuckled.  “Uh huh.”  Reaching his hand down between us, he moved it between my legs.  I parted them to give him access, and he stroked before allowing a finger to dip knuckle deep inside.  I couldn’t help it, I flinched.

“Like I thought.  Baby I’m not going to hurt you.  So sit that pretty ass down at the table and let me make you some food.”

I didn’t want food, I wanted Sin.  Pouting I rubbed against him.  I was upset when he grabbed my hips and pushed me away. 

“Not happening little lily.” He turned me around and swatted my backside with his hand.  “Sit. Now!”

Rolling my eyes at him, I walked over to the kitchen table and sat down.  He was being infuriating.  A little pain wasn’t going to kill me.  I knew he was capable of bringing me pleasure after.  I pouted.

He threw back his head and laughed deeply.  “Baby I’m trying to be good to you.  Stop acting like a spoiled brat and let me do the right thing here.”

“Fine.” I huffed.  I didn’t want stinking breakfast.  I wanted to be back in his arms.

He chuckled again before making me an omelet and toast.  Sliding those in front of me on a plate, he smiled. “How do you drink your coffee?”

“Full of cream and sweet.” I stuck out my tongue at him.

He roared with laughter.  “You may be the fucking death of me little lily.”  Pouring me a cup of coffee, he
then fixed one for himself and joined me at the table.  “Eat!”

The omelet was really good.  But everything Sin did was perfect.  “This is delicious.”

“Least I could do.” He winked and sat back at the table drinking his coffee.

I really didn’t know what he meant by that statement, but I was ravenous so I continued eating.  When there were nothing but crumbs left, I pushed the plate away and sipped on my drink.

“You want more?”

“Of you?” I grinned and batted my eyelashes at him.  “Absolutely.”

“I’ve created a nympho.” He grinned and shook his head.  “We aren’t fucking until I know you’re not hurting anymore.  I’m not a total asshole baby.”

“But I want more.”  I was pouting and needy.  I should be horrified by the way I was begging.  I didn’t care.  I wanted to experience all those things from last night and whatever else he would teach me.

Shaking his head, a smiled covered his beautiful face.  Without any warning he stood up, grabbed my hand and led me into his living room.  He pushed me down on the couch and came between my thighs, parting them. 

His head lowered between my legs and he gently tongued my core.  There was no pain in this at all and I arched my hips up to meet his mouth.  My hands tangled
in his thick hair as he drove me to the edge and over faster than I could say his name.

He stood up and gazed down at me, and I flushed.  I didn’t shut my legs.  I knew he’d just given me an incredible release and still I wanted more.  “Sin, I want more.”

“You’re dancing tonight.  We do anything more and you won’t be walking much less working the pole.”  His smile was indulgent.

I could see the hardness of his shaft through the shorts.  It didn’t make sense that he wasn’t taking me. Maybe he didn’t want me that way after last night.  The thought speared through my chest like a knife.  “I guess I should go home.” I was about to start bawling like a preschooler if I didn’t let go of the doubts going through my mind. 

“You probably need to get some rest.  We didn’t sleep much last night.” He held out his hand to help me stand and I took it.  He obviously wanted me to leave.  My heart was breaking. 
So stupid Anya
.  He’d told me he wasn’t interested in commitment.

“Thanks for breakfast.”  How I managed to say those words and not break down, I just don’t know.  I walked back to the bedroom and quickly took off his shirt then dressed in my own clothes. I needed to get out of here, and I needed to do it now.

He walked into the bedroom as I was tying my shoes.  “I had a good time last night, little lily.” The smile on his face should have made me feel good, instead it made me want to scratch his eyes out.

I faked a smile and nodded.  “Me too. I’ll see you tonight at the club.”  Walking past him I grabbed my purse from the living room and all but ran out of his house. 

chapter fourteen

Broken

I managed to keep my emotions together long enough to arrive at Kera’s place.  She rubbed the sleep from her eyes as she answered the door.  I pushed my way past her and walked over to plop down on the couch before I completely lost it.  Once the tears started falling, they didn’t want to stop.

Kera held me in a way that only a best friend could until the sobs turned into hiccups.  “Do I want to know?”

Sniffling through the words I explained what happened last night with Sin.  Giving her credit, she just gave me a sympathetic smile and not the ‘I told you so’ I deserved.

“So you slept with him. Definitely not the end of the world.  From what you told me, he at least did you right.” She stood up and walked over to the kitchen to bring me some tissues.

I took the tissue and wiped my splotchy face, then blew my nose and nodded.  “I guess it could have been worse.”  My heart was hurting, but he’d been a compassionate lover.

“Live and learn, that’s what life is all about.” She winked at me.  She went into the kitchen and started a pot of coffee. 

I thought about what she said and felt a little better.  Sin had given me a great initiation into the world of sexual pleasure, I could at least be happy about that.  It was no one’s fault but my own that I’d wanted more from him.  He’d never promised anything.

“Hey I smell coffee!”

Luke walked into the room wearing nothing but a pair of boxer briefs.  “Morning.”  I was shocked to see him there.  Kera seemed to spending a lot of time with him lately.

“Hey blondie.” He winked and traipsed toward the kitchen. 

I raised an eyebrow at Kera, wondering what the story was between them.  She rolled her eyes before Luke pulled her into his arms and kissed her soundly.  That kiss didn’t look like something shared between casual lovers.

Kera brought me a cup of coffee to the living room when she finally untangled herself from Luke.  He followed behind like a puppy dog.  “So you fucking Sin?”

He certainly didn’t waste words I thought.  “I’m not answering that!” 

“You just did.” He winked and drank a large gulp of coffee.

“It was a one-time thing.”  That sounded so lame.  Even I could hear the sadness in my voice.

“Was afraid of that.  He can’t commit.”  With a shrug he nursed his drink.  “Those bitches he dated before really fucked him up.”

I shouldn’t ask, but I couldn’t resist.  “How so?”  I didn’t understand why Sin was the way he was.  A part of me hoped knowing would make it easier to go on with my life.

“I probably shouldn’t say anything.”  He looked at me and shrugged. “They used him like a boy toy when he was a stripper.  One in particular strung him along saying how much she loved him until she found a younger stud to fuck.” 

I’d known he was a stripper, but this was part of his life he’d never divulged.  “Did he love her back?”

“Yeah, he did.  He was head over heels in love with this chick.  After she told him to fuck off he lost it.” Shaking his head, he frowned.  “He beat the fuck out the younger stripper and it cost him his career.  The chick was loaded, and had some big influences.”

Knowing Sin had been in love with another woman gave me a sick feeling in the pit of my stomach.  I also hurt for him in ways that I probably shouldn’t have.  There was no doubt in my mind I was in love with him myself. 

“I’m telling you this shit because I don’t want you to get hurt.  You’re a nice girl.  But Sin,” he shook his head again, “he’s just fucked up and I don’t think he knows how to trust.”

“Just look at last night as one time thing.” Kera smiled at me sadly.  “I love you hon, and you deserve a lot more than some guy with issues like that.”

I knew Kera was trying to protect me.  Maybe she was right, only I wasn’t so sure I could look at what we did as a fling.  It felt like more.  At least it had until the morning sun had reared its ugly head.  “I think I’m in love with him.”  Saying the words out loud really made it real.

“Fuck baby, you’d be better off walking away now if that’s the truth.” Luke’s eyes filled with pity and it made me feel like crying again.

“I need that job.”  It wasn’t just about the job.  True, I needed the money, but I wasn’t ready to give up on Sin yet.

“There are other clubs.” Kera, suggested.  “You’ve only got a few more months in school.”

“Even if last night was all I’ll ever have with him, I want to try the dancing.  Like you said, school is over in a few months. I can live with whatever happens between us for that long.”

“You keep things separated with Sin.  Trust me on this, he’ll use you up if you don’t.” 

I couldn’t believe Luke was saying these things.  Sin didn’t seem like the type of person who would deliberately use someone.  He could be a jerk, yes.  What happened between us had been consensual.  It wasn’t like he’d forced me into his bed.  If anything I’d talked my way in there.

There was no reason to argue about it, I decided.  I dropped the subject.  Kera and Luke seemed to be willing to do the same.  “I guess I should go home and get some rest before I dance tonight.”

“Call me if you need to talk.” Kera stood up with me and hugged me tightly.

“I will.”  Hugging her back I smiled.  “Thanks for the advice Luke.”  Not that I was going to take it, but it was nice of him to offer his wisdom.

“No problem.  Tell him I said anything I’ll deny it though.”  He gave me a stern look before smiling.

I left Kera’s feeling much better about things.  Nothing was solved, but at least I understood Sin a little better.  The drive home gave me time to get my emotions under control. 

Without classes or the store to keep me busy, I was able to grab a few hours of sleep before going to work tonight.  It definitely didn’t help that my dreams were centered on Sin and I making love.  I couldn’t help but wonder what would happen later.