Desired (Restless Nights) (3 page)

Did I just say that? Crap did I just admit that I still love him? I mean it’s true. I do, I never stopped but that was my secret. One I vowed to always keep. It was why the few attempts I’d made at having relationships were laughable. Every man was compared to my Lucca and they all fell so short. I stood there, my face paling and my stomach threatening to give back the coffee I’d drank earlier. Wait he was saying something.

“Fuck, Kenz.”

I stood, there not moving. Lucca closed the few steps between us with one long stride. His rough hands capturing my face as he crushed his lips to mine.

If I was dreaming, I would kill someone if they woke me.

His tongue swept over my lips and they parted welcoming him in, allowing him to deepen the kiss. His tongue was deliciously talented, powerful and aggressive, just the way I remembered and loved. Lucca’s one arm wrapped around my waist and lifted me up to press against his chest as his lips moved to kiss along my jaw. I wrapped my legs around him and groaned as he pushed me against the wall. I vaguely heard something crash to the floor before he captured my mouth once more. I was lost in his scent. Clean and intoxicating. My door burst open, eliciting a small squeak from me. Looking past Lucca I could see John standing there with a Glock at the ready. He arched a brow and shook his head.

“Damn it, Luc, I was fucking sleeping. Take it outside or at least quit breaking shit.”

Lucca chuckled, releasing me to slide down his body. Hidden by his massive frame, I was blocked and unable to see his friend. I assumed he’d at least lowered the gun.

“You’re an ass when you’re tired, go back to bed, John.”

John laughed and I heard my door shut behind him.

Lucca sighed and took a step back.

“What’s wrong?” I asked using the wall to steady myself.

“We still need to talk.”

I sighed. “I thought we had moved past talking.”

“I wasn’t saying we need to talk about the past, Kenz. That conversation isn’t over, but we need to talk about what the plan for you is.”

I sighed again and pushed off the wall. “I want to go ride Meeka, if you’re any good on a horse we can talk while we ride.”

“Mackenzie, this is not a riding conversation.”

I arched a brow at him. “Then we’ll talk when we get the beach.”

“The beach?”

I smiled and headed for the door. “Yep, the beach. We have private access.”

****

Not surprisingly, he was good on a horse. Tritan took to him as if Lucca had been his rider all of his life. The ocean was calm the waves crashing softly against the rocks. We rode a couple miles before coming to a spot where we dismounted the horses and tied them to a post near the path to the sandy shore. I took off my boots and smiled as my toes curled into the warm sand.

“You should lose the boots, Lucca. Enjoy the warm day and hot sand”

Lucca arched a brow at me, but took his boots off. He cringed slightly as his bare feet hit the hot sand. I laughed as he grabbed my hand and darted towards the cooler wet ground.

I took a seat in the warm sand and patted the spot next to me. It was time to let him tell me the plan. I was sure I wasn’t going to like what he had to say but I wasn’t going to fight what he and Cam had come up with. It might have seemed silly to just blindly let these two men decide what I would and wouldn’t do, but sometimes it’s safer and smarter to let those more knowledgeable in a given situation make the decisions.

“I am all ears, what has Cam been hiding?”

Lucca smiled ruefully as he sat in the soft sand next to me. “What makes you think he’s hiding something?”

I arched a brow. “Because he wouldn’t have called you here if this was just about one asshole shoving me. He wouldn’t hurt you, or me, that way.”

Lucca nodded. “You know about the letters?”

“Sure… there’s been more?” I guessed.

“Yeah, well over a dozen of them.”

My brows rose in surprise. “That many? Wow.” I absent mindedly played with the sand, letting my fingers dig deep into the tiny rock particles. “How bad are they?”

“They’re pretty bad,” he admitted.

I nodded. “How worried should I be?”

Lucca grabbed my hand, spilling the golden sand from my fingers. “Nothing’s going to happen to you. We just need to be careful.”

I smiled. “Okay, how careful?”

“John sent the letters off to a forensic lab this morning. We’ll see if we can find anything on them. In the meantime you don’t go anywhere without one of us.” He grinned at me. “Preferably me.”

“I’ve missed that smile,” I said as I ran my fingers over his full lips.

He chuckled. “You mean you’ve missed my leering grin that says I find you edible?”

I flushed slightly. “Exactly,” I said as I moved to straddle his lap. “I am sorry Lucca.”

“I know baby, it’s not your fault. It doesn’t mean I am not upset about you taking the decision of our future solely into your hands. You should have called me, instead of running. It’s been five years Kenz, you had five years to contact me.”

I cupped his face. “I wanted to call you. I wanted to tell you. But I wanted you to finish college. I was a coward, and I was afraid of how you would look at me. I waited too long, and the next thing I knew you were in the Marines and headed off to war.”

“Turns out college wasn’t for me. I wish I had known what my father had done, but the past is the past and let’s be honest I know my father is a bastard but there is no way my mom would have let him cut me out of her life. Plus she will kick his ass when she finds out what he did, she always adored you. These are things you should have known.”

I nodded. “I was scared, I was always scared of what I felt for you. I fucked up, Lucca. I am so sorry. I am going to make it up to you and I will stand up for us, if you’re willing to be us again. No matter what your dad pulls I won’t let him push us apart.”

He pulled me to his chest and stroked my back. “It doesn’t matter now. He has nothing to hold over us anymore. We can make this work.”

“You want too?” I whispered. I was afraid to believe he really still wanted me.

“I want nothing more. I want no one else.”

I lifted my face and slanted my mouth over his. My body responded with a need I felt little desire to control. My hips rocked against his hardening flesh. My fingers slipped to the hem of his shirt. He stilled my hands as I started to lift his shirt.

“Kenz, not here,” he said huskily.

I frowned. “Why not?”

“We’re in public, Kenz.”

I looked to my left then to my right. The beach was deserted in both directions. If someone wanted onto this part of the Pacific oceanfront they would either have to trespass on my property or they’d have to climb over some seriously scary rocks. “We’re alone,” I whispered. “It’s not easy for someone to get to this part of the beach.”

“Kenz, it’s not just people. Remember last night when I mentioned the long lens cameras, and what about boats?”

I smiled. “Of course I remember.” I nipped at his earlobe. “Do you see any boats? Because that’s the only way any camera can see us.”

His fingers released my hands with a small groan. I smiled as I pulled the tight, gray cotton over his head. I stopped and stared at his chest, my finger drawn to the colorful ink that ran just below the neckline of where his shirt had laid and then danced over his pectorals.

“When did you get it?” I asked softly, my fingers grazing the large spread wings of a red tail hawk, the back drop was a sky burning from the setting sun and wisps of clouds. I knew the symbolism behind the magnificent bird. Luc took his Native American heritage seriously even if he did carry only a quarter of the bloodline.

Luc took my finger from his chest. “I needed direction.” He smiled before pressing a kiss to my palm and holding it against his heart.

The bird represented wisdom and guidance in his family, it was a fitting and beautiful piece of art. “It’s beautiful, Lucca.”

He nodded. “I am glad you like it.”

I smiled. “Are you hiding any other secrets?”

He grinned. “Maybe.”

“Gives me a good reason to strip you down,” my voice was a sexy whisper as I reached down and went to work on his belt.

I watched her as she gently pulled down my zipper. Her delicate hand disappeared beneath my boxers. I hissed as her small fingers wrapped around my cock. I lifted my gaze to lock with hers, I knew that look well. Her lids were heavy
, only allowing me to see half of those gorgeous jade eyes I love so much.

“
Lucca?
” There was need laced in her voice, the sound causing my cock to twitch in her grasp.

“What baby?” I asked.

“Do you have protection? Because I am ready to ride you into tomorrow.”  Her lips twisted in a sultry lift.

America’s Sweetheart wasn’t as innocent as so many wanted to believe. I could remember the way her body used to work me. The feel of her soft skin as she used to ride me hard, the way she would whimper and writhe beneath me as I moved deep inside of her. How we fit, the way we molded into each other, the way she used to tease me with her plump, silky breasts. All those thought made me groan as it registered that I had no protection.

As if reading the regret in my face she leaned in and kissed me hard. “I’m clean. I was tested a few months back and I am on the pill. Tell me you’re clean, Lucca.”

I grinned against her lips. “I am clean, baby. I was tested not that long ago.”

She nipped at my lip, before standing up and slowly sliding out of her jeans. My eyes dropped to the tiny bikini bottoms she was wearing. The white strings at her sides begged me to release them from their ties.

“A swimsuit?” I asked roughly.

She smiled that sexy twist that made me even harder. She pulled her tank top off to reveal her barely covered breast in the strapless bikini top. “We are at the beach.”

I grunted. “You wouldn’t get in that water,
it’s freezing.”

She arched a brow as she grabbed one of the ties at her hip. “You don’t like my choice of attire?”

I struck out, grabbing her hand and pulling her back to my lap. She laughed as I crushed my lips against her. Pushing the swath of material to the side I slid my finger along her wet slit. A growl slipped past my lips. “You’re so wet.”

“You’ve always had that effect on me, Lucca.”

I groaned. “It’s because you’re my girl, Kenz, you always have been.”

I dipped two fingers deep inside of her, her walls clenched at my fingers. Sliding them back out, they were covered in her silk. Thrusting back inside of her I crooked my fingers to hit that soft spot deep inside that made her moan against my lips.

“
More, Lucca, please, I want more of you.”

“You can have all of me baby,” I told her, stroking her walls softly while using my thumb to tease her pearl of swollen nerves. Reaching my other hand between us I freed myself of my boxers. Holding my cock against her I removed my fingers and stroked her silky folds with
my hard flesh.

“
Lucca, more.
” She moaned, pushing at my chest to flatten me against the warm soft sand.

Rocking her hips, she took me deep in one fast thrust, impaling herself on my length. Her chest heaved as she stilled above me, grasping the back of my neck she kissed me gently, tasting every inch of my lips and mouth. Her hips started a slow languid rocking. She moaned softly and started kissing me harder as her rhythm began to speed up. She reached behind herself arching her back slightly as she took my balls in her hand and began massaging them softly.

“Fucking flawless.” I breathed, reaching up to pull her top down and take her one breast firmly in my mouth, teasing her nipple and taking as much of her perfect flesh as would fit in my mouth. I suckled and nibbled at her skin.

“Mmm… Lucca… I… I need more of you.”

I lifted my head and smiled. I knew what my Kenz needed. Grabbing her knees gently I pulled them around my waist. “Hold on to me, baby,” I told her and she wrapped her arms around my neck.

I palmed her ass as she continued to sway against me. Sliding a hand lower I found the wet silk from her pleasure. Wetting my finger I slid it up her ass, moistening her crease on my way back up. Gently I played with her, teasing her hole.

“Lucca,” she all but begged me, her voice needy as her lips pressed against my ear.

“I know what you need.” I assured her as I gently slid my finger into her, pressing towards her vagina.

“Yes Lucca,” she cried out as her body jerked in response. Her movements became faster as her hips ground against my own. Her silky, wet walls clenched, pulsating around me as I continued to thrust into her gently.

I groaned.
“So fucking perfect, Kenz. You are my perfect girl.” I slammed my lips to hers.

Her movements were frantic as pleasure rushed through her body, her
tight sheath milking my cock. My release came while her body shuddered with pleasure. Fire rocketed through me. My warm seed finding home in her flawless body.

She pulled her lips from mine. Breathing heavily she pressed her forehead to mine and let a satisfied breath past her swollen, lush lips. “God, Lucca,” she murmured.

I smiled, but said nothing. She dropped her head to my shoulder. I pulled her top back over her breast. Lifting her, I pulled her bottoms back into place and tucked myself back in my pants. Keeping her tucked firmly against me I laid back.

She let out another one of those satisfied sighs as I stroked her hair. The sun was bright above us causing the sheen of sweat from our excursion to grow. As much as her weight upon me felt like heaven, I had let my guard down long enough. Kissing her forehead, I pushed off the sandy ground. Keeping her enveloped in my arms and pressed to my chest, she wrapped her legs around my waist and I headed down the beach towards the horses.

“I don’t know if I can ride, my legs are shaky.” She laughed softly.

“Well, it’s a good thing I am carrying you. Give your legs a rest.”

“Why, are we heading back already?”

I shook my head. “I can’t risk you again. No more sex in public.” I had seriously let may guard down and I couldn’t let it happen again.

She nibbled at my neck. “It was good though.”

I chuckled. “It was better than good. It was fucking amazing, better then I remember. But your safety comes first, and I just did a crap job of making sure you were safe.”

She purred against my skin, “But you made me happy. Happier then I have been since before your father came to see me.”

My arms squeezed her a little tighter and I kissed her one last time on the forehead then adjusted her to take her mouth once more before setting her down next to Meeka.

I grinned and wagged my brows at her. “Can you ride now?”

She ran a finger down my bare chest. “Depends on what you want me to ride, Lucca,” she said before tossing my shirt at me.