Flaming Dove (32 page)

She lay on her bed, Volkfair's fur warming her, but could not sleep. She kept seeing Zarel's flaming figure in the darkness, claws outstretched, maw drooling. It was past midnight, and Laila still lay awake, when a small voice whispered behind her door.

"Laila, are you awake? It's me, Kayleigh."

Laila opened the door, revealing Kayleigh in her night tunic, hair mussed. "I couldn't sleep," the girl said. "I'm scared."

The girls climbed into Laila's great canopy bed and lay together, Volkfair by their feet. Thus they could finally sleep, comforted by each other's presence, until horns blew outside, signaling a new day.

"It's time we go," Laila said softly, touching Kayleigh's arm. The girl moaned and opened her eyes, which filled with fear.

Laila dressed with care that morning.
The world will see me for the first time as Queen of Limbo, future queen of all Hell. I must look the part.
She wore leather boots sporting stylized steel claws, leather pants, and a black iron breastplate shaped as her body. Around each forearm she strapped a steel vambrace, spiked and glittering, and pinned her velvet black cape with its ruby clasp. Her bat wings gleamed, and when she snarled, her halo burst into flame. At her waist she wore Haloflame, forged in Heaven to kill demons, and Volkfair growled at her side.

All of Hell will be mine,
she swore, standing in front of her mirror.
I will take your throne, Beelzebub. I am done running.

Her entourage waited outside her fort upon the plains of Limbo, three archdemons and five thousand shades. They carried their new shields, emblazoned with the black wolf's head, her sigil.
I will arise to the world in splendor that poets will sing of.
Standing before her army, Laila drew her sword. The blade hissed, and she gave it a whistling swing, then held it aloft.

"Let's go."

They flew down tunnels, moving through darkness toward the surface of the world. Two shades carried Volkfair. Two others carried Kayleigh. Soon they emerged into the desert, ash and sand veiling the sky.

Here was a mountainous land south of Jerusalem, beige and golden and dead, a rolling landscape of dunes, mountains, canyons. Biblical prophets would wander this dry land, and upon a mountain rose one of the humans' ancient forts. Masada was its name, built thousands of years ago. Here did the Jews fight the Romans in the last battle of their tragic rebellion. Here, in the court of this crumbled fort atop the mountain, would Laila make her own last stand.

The armies of Heaven and Hell were already there, sandy in the desert landscape. Heaven's troops lined up north of Masada's cruel, towering mount. The forces of Hell stood to the south, scales glinting, breath burning. They came to watch the duel, Laila knew. Flying over the mountain, Laila could descry Michael standing at the head of his troops, Bat El by his side. Beelzebub stood among his own camp, but Zarel was nowhere to be seen.
Not yet. But she'll emerge soon.

Laila and her troops bivouacked to the east of the mountain. They raised tents to protect them should the clouds release the sun. Heaven, Hell, Limbo. The three armies stood still under the ashy desert sky, strangely silent. Sand blew in the wind, tangy against Laila's lips, filling her hair.

"Prepare my tent," she told one of her sergeants, hand on the pommel of her sword, her cape flapping in the sandy wind. "We set camp." Soon she and Zarel would fight. First she must rest, meditate, pray to whoever might listen.

The shades raised her tent, its walls thick leather. Laila sat inside, cross-legged, her drawn blade on the ground before her. In the shadows, she lowered her head, letting her hair fall over her eyes. She licked her dry lips, suddenly hesitant, then spoke in a soft voice.

"God," she said, paused, and licked her lips again. "It's me, Laila. I haven't prayed to you often. I know that I am an outcast to you, demon spawn, forever banished from your kingdom, forever cast aside from your family, your love." She stared at the gleam of her heavenly blade, then raised her eyes. "Half a demon I am, evil and monstrous. I've killed and I've sinned, but I've done goodness too. Angel blood flows through these veins, forever burning against my demon blood. If that counts for anything, even for you to listen to my words today, please, God, lend me strength. Lend me strength to kill the Demon Queen. Lend me strength to usurp Beelzebub. I'm not one of your flock, God, and I never will be. In time, if I rule Hell, I might even become an enemy to you, maybe even your greatest enemy. But for now, please God... fight with me today."

No one answered. No booming voice from heaven, no sparkling godlight.
A good thing, I suppose,
Laila thought with a sigh.
Godlight would only burn me. I've always been alone, I've always counted on myself, nobody else. I don't need God. I don't need anyone to help me. I have Volkfair, that's enough.
She reached over and ruffled the wolf's black fur.

"We've always been alone, you and I," she said to her companion. "Two lone wolves. But not for much longer. If I can do this today, Volkfair, we'll have our home in Limbo. We'll make it a good home, for both of us." Tears stung at her eyes. The wolf licked her fingers, and she kissed him. "I promise you that, Volkfair. I'll build you a park in Limbo, full of trees and game, and you will be king there."

She rose to her feet, blade in hand, and stepped out of her tent. Belial stood there, her burly archdemon, his white scales glinting in the desert, his horns long and sharp. "I want to speak to my sister," she said to him. "I must see Bat El before I go to this duel. Please, Belial. Talk to Michael. See if Bat El will meet me here, in my tent, before the fight." She put a hand on Belial's shoulder. Her hand seemed so small against him, delicate, fingers short. "Belial, do not bring her with violence. See if she will see me in peace."

Belial nodded his scaly head. "I will speak with them, Laila, my queen." He took flight, insect wings fluttering.

Laila returned to her tent and waited in the shadows, sword drawn, trying to push away her fear, her doubt, her pain. She hated the chill that ran through her.
I finally found a reason to live, and I will face death again.

Soon she heard a voice outside. "Laila. I'm here."

Laila opened the tent flaps. Bat El stood there in the sand, dressed in white, a cowl drawn over her head. A golden broach, shaped as a flower, was pinned to her breast. She had always loved flowers, Laila remembered.

Bat El seemed timid, eyes lowered. The last few times Laila had seen her sister, she had seemed overbearing, brimming with idealism, love, pious self-righteousness. Today Bat El wore diffidence like her cloak, her hands clasped, her eyes peeking from her cowl.
What happened to her in captivity?
Laila wondered, deciding not to ask. It no longer mattered. Her captivity had ended. Perhaps this whole war would end today.

"Come in, Bat El," Laila said softly, putting her arm around Bat El, guiding her into the tent. The sisters sat on the ground. Bat El—white in her woolen tunic and hood, her hair blond and glowing, eyes blue, swan wings pure, a creature of light. Laila—dark, scarred, clad in black, her eyes aflame.
Yet which one of us is truly more aligned with Hell?
Laila wondered, remembering the stories she had heard of Bat El's love for Beelzebub.

Bat El raised her eyes. "Laila. How are you? Are you okay?"

She nodded. "Doin' great. You?"

Suddenly smiling, Bat El lowered her head. "Small talk, huh?"

"Yeah," Laila said, licked her lips, and shifted. "Bat El, I... I guess you're wondering why I wanted to see you. I'm not really sure what to say now. I guess, well... you know, I might die today. Wait, don't... don't try to contradict me, don't try to comfort me. Today is something I must do, something I can't run from. But Bat El... in case I die today, I wanted to see you first."

Bat El shifted close to Laila, leaned against her, and embraced her. She smelled of honey and flowers. She kissed Laila's cheek, like she would when they were girls. "I love you, sis."

Laila leaned her head against Bat El, her older sister's arms warm around her. The godlight that glowed from Bat El's hair and skin didn't even burn her today, and Laila closed her eyes, feeling safe. "I love you too, Bat El," she whispered, and was surprised to find that tears filled her eyes, flowing down to her lips. Made of blood were her tears; the tears of fallen angels, cursed, banished from heaven. "I'm so sorry, Bat El," she said, voice trembling, shocked that she should be crying so. She never wept like this. "I'm sorry."

Bat El caressed her hair. "Sorry for what, Laila?"

Laila held her sister. "I'm sorry that I'm like this. That I'm... deformed, to you at least. That I'm half demon, and evil, with these tears of blood that stain your clothes, with these bat wings that don't glow. I'm sorry I could never love you properly, like a real angel would. I'm so sorry."

"Laila!" Bat El said, still embracing Laila. "Don't say that. How could you say that? I couldn't love you any more, even if your wings were those of goslings and your halo of glowing good light. You know that."

Laila wiped her eyes, trembling. It felt good to cry like this. She had not cried this well in many days, not since her days in exile, running through the forests with Volkfair. She looked into her sister's eyes. "You were always good to me, even when I was monstrous. When I was little, and living with the angels on Earth, you brought me toys when you visited from Heaven. I remember. I always looked forward to your visits, and when I ran from the angels, ran into the wilderness, my only regret was that I wouldn't see you again." She held Bat El's hand. "You've been a good sister. I'm sorry I was always such a little devil, in more ways than one. I'm sorry I never got the chance to spend more time with you, to get to know you better. You're the only family I have. I'm scared, Bat El. If I die today, I want you to know that I love you. You and Volkfair are the only ones I love."

Bat El seemed ready to reply, when a demon scream came from outside, ruffling the walls of the tent. "Where is she? Bring her out."

Zarel.

Bat El paled, and Laila tightened her lips and took a deep breath through her nostrils. She took the hilt of her sword. "It's time," she whispered.

* * * * *

Bat El flew from the tent, the desert sprawling below, a land of endless dunes and canyons and mountains, lifeless but for the armies of angels and demons. The fortress of Masada rose upon the mount, beaten and crumbled. Bat El landed by the courtyard of the fortress ruins. Not much remained of Masada these days, two thousand years after the Romans destroyed it. Crumbled walls, chipped staircases, vestiges of columns and doorways, a dusty courtyard. Not much more. The bricks and cellars seemed like living things to Bat El, almost as ancient as fallen angels. Sand blew in the wind, and ash swirled in the sky. From here upon the mountain, Bat El could see the dunes and stones undulating for miles, as far as she could see. A dead, beaten fort in a dead, beaten land.

With the thud of swan wings, Michael landed beside her. Twenty seraphs soon joined them, followed by countless angel soldiers in iron breastplates. They stood on the outskirts of the ruins, looking in upon the barren, dusty courtyard. The duel would be fought there.

Demons too were fluttering down, landing across the other side of the fort. When she saw Beelzebub, Bat El's heart missed a beat. He stood among scaly shades, arms crossed over his breastplate, his cape fluttering in the wind. The flying sand seemed to touch neither his garb nor hair; they remained black as night. She sought his eyes, but he did not look in her direction.
It's better this way,
Bat El knew, turning her own gaze away. The sight of him hurt too much.

A crackle like fire rose, and Bat El saw sparks ahead, as from a bonfire. Tail swishing behind her, Zarel walked into the courtyard, moving with a haughty sway. Tongues of fire ran along her scaly body and haloed her brow. In her hand, she held a sword whose blade seemed made of fire. She snarled at the crowd of angels watching, smoke rising from her nostrils.

Bat El winced and looked away. The Demon Queen was powerful, she knew, and terrible to behold. Michael had needed twenty seraphs and an army of angels to encage her. Now it would be just Laila facing the archdemon. Bat El could still feel Laila's embrace and smell her hair, and a tear ran down her cheek.

"How is she?" Michael asked softly.

"She's scared," Bat El said. "And she's angelic today, on the day she needs to be most demonic. But she's determined. And she's tough. Will that be enough, Michael?" She looked up at the archangel, her tear still on her cheek. "You've trained her. Can she do this?"

Michael folded his wings against his back. He stared at the courtyard, eyes emotionless. Zarel saw him, gave him a wink, and snarled. The Demon Queen swung her sword; it raised sparks and left trails of flame in its wake. The tendrils of fire danced like demons, hissing.

"There is a certain chance," Michael finally said, sighing.

Zarel growled from the dusty courtyard. Drool ran down her fangs. "Well, Michael. Where is your little half-breed? Is she cowering in her tent? Let the pup come here, and we'll see how long she lasts."

Run away,
Bat El found herself thinking, clenching her fists.
Run from here, Laila. Run and live in the forests, in the deserts, just leave this place.

Her mental pleading bore no fruit. A hush fell over the crowd as Laila, daughter of Lucifer, Princess of Hell, stepped toward the courtyard.

Laila walked between the demons of Limbo, who moved aside to let her pass. At her sides walked two towering archdemons, their scales and horns brilliant white, their eyes like saucers, glistening. Behind her walked a train of demon troops, clad in breastplates bearing a black wolf's head. Volkfair, the black wolf himself, walked there too, fangs bared, growling. Laila wore a cloak of black velvet, clasped with a ruby fibula, and her halo of flame crackled. Her breastplate was black iron, filigreed, shaped to mimic the curve of her body. The angels and demons stared, silent, as she stepped into the courtyard.