Forever & an Engine (13 page)

‘What
difference does that make?’ I sighed.

‘Most girls
won’t even entertain the idea of a finger let alone going the whole way, it’s
considered pretty hard core.’

‘Why won’t they
try?’ I said, groaning again.

‘I don’t
know, it has this stigma attached to it that it’s wrong. Maybe it’s because you
can’t conceive that way.’

‘Well I
couldn’t get pregnant by us doing oral, so why’s that ok and this isn’t?’

‘I’ve no
idea baby, but as long as we’re both happy to do it then there’s nothing wrong is
there?’

‘No, so can
we try now?’ I felt him start to slide his fingers out of me and made the
mistake of clenching and winced.

‘Mia that
was only two fingers, you’re not ready.’

‘I
clenched, I just need to remember to relax and not clench and I’ll be fine.
Please Gabe, try.’

‘You tell
me you quit the minute you’re unhappy Mia, I mean it.’ He put more lube on me
and leaned over me and kissed the back of my neck.

‘I will.’

‘Promise me.’

‘I promise,
Gabe please
, before you put me off and I lose my nerve.’ I took a couple
of deep breaths and gripped the headboard, closed my eyes and focussed on
relaxing. I opened my mouth to steady my breathing as I felt his head nudging
against me and his hands gripping my hips as he slowly started to push. My
nerve endings were firing off a million to the dozen and my eyes went wide as a
Frisbee as I inhaled and exhaled, desperately trying not to clench.

‘
Gabe
,’
I cried out, my senses on overload.

‘Do I need
to stop?’

‘No, until
I say those words you carry on no matter what I say ok?’ My nails dug into the
headboard. I felt stretched to my limit, it was that weird combination of
pleasure and pain, a bit like being spanking, but on a much higher level. He
did as he was told and I started to pant and put my forehead on the headboard
and groaned loudly. ‘O god stop a minute I’m tensing up,’ I panted. He ran his
hand up and down my spine slowly making me shiver. ‘How far in are you?’

‘About two
inches.’

‘Shit, it
feels like all the way.’

‘Mia I’ll
stop. We can try again another time.’

‘What will
be different next time Gabe? No, I just need to relax, carry on.’

‘Mia.’

‘Gabe carry
on please,’ I pleaded. If I could focus on the nice sensation, instead of the
pain side of it, I’d be fine. It was incredibly intense, a constant amazing
feeling as opposed to the ebb and flow of being fucked normally, masturbating
or even Gabe’s tongue. I was determined that if Lexi could do it, so could I.
Surely the worst was him entering me? He was the same width all the way down so
it shouldn’t hurt any more than it already did. I noticed he still hadn’t moved.
‘Gabe does it feel nice for you?’

‘You’re
incredibly tight so even though I’m not thrusting, yes it does.’

‘Tighter
than the other way?’

‘Not quite,
but pretty damn close,’ he sighed. I took another deep breath and made my mind
up, if we kept going a millimetre at a time we’d never make it and he was going
to lose his hard on.

‘Gabe,
please will you play with me? It’ll relax me more.’

‘O course
baby. I need to lean forwards, so you may feel some pressure.’

‘O god,’ I
moaned as he gently leaned over me, his stomach and chest pressed against my
back. He placed his fingers on my clit and started to circle, while kissing my neck
and I felt my body relaxing immediately. ‘Gabe do it, just go all the way.’

‘
What
?’

‘Just do
it, please just do it, or I may chicken out. You’re already in me and we’ll be
here all night trying gently, just don’t slam into me, one smooth movement
please.’

‘Shit Mia.’

‘Possibly
not the best of phrases given our current position,’ I giggled, trying not to
imagine what could happen given where he was wedged. ‘Please Gabe I’m begging
you to. Just do it, I want this, so much.’ He didn’t answer, he kept kissing me
with his one hand caressing me and the other holding my hip and I sighed, he’d obviously
just chickened out. I released my grip on the headboard and went to turn my
head to tell him to forget it, just as he pushed. I felt myself give way and yelped
as he buried himself to the hilt in me and groaned. I felt like I was going to
hyperventilate I was panting so hard, I felt strained, ridiculously strained
and over stretched.

‘
Mia,
’
he sighed.

‘O god Gabe
you … you feel enormous, it feels … it feels just … amazing.’

‘Really
baby? You’re not in pain?’ his voice sounded different, more husky and I could
tell it was the effect of what he was doing to me. I regulated my breathing,
now I knew he was all the way in I felt more relaxed, I’d gotten over the
worst.

‘Sort of,
but it’s bearable pain. The … o god … the pleasure side of it is so much
stronger. Is it ok for you?’

‘It feels
bloody tight Mia, so it’s definitely a nice sensation. Do you want me to move in
you?’

‘Yes, but take
it gently and please keep fingering me, you’ve stopped.’

‘Sorry, it’s
just kind of exciting to know that I’ve had you like this.’

‘Does it
make you feel all manly?’ I giggled.

‘Yes, I
feel like I own you now, all of you,’ he said proudly as he kissed my neck.

‘You’re such
a macho male Gabe. Maybe I ought to try a strap on and do it to you, so I get
to feel the same on the ownership stakes.’

‘Over my
dead bloody body,’ he exclaimed making me laugh again and I felt the small
movement run through me.

‘Are we
doing this or what? I’m on sensation overload here,’ I groaned. He bit the back
of my neck then slowly pulled himself backwards, sliding almost out before
going back in and we both groaned in unison.

‘Again please
Gabe, keep going until I tell you to stop.’ He set up a gentle rhythm and the
more he did it the more I relaxed into it and enjoyed it. The feeling wasn’t as
intense as stimulation on my clit or nipples, or from him fucking me normally,
but it was constant. I tried clenching on each thrust in and we both grunted
and moaned. Now he was in me it felt comfortable, almost natural to feel so
full. My head started to tingle and I felt my cheeks flush. ‘Gabe, it’s
happening,’ I groaned and squeezed him harder. He suddenly he put two fingers
up inside me and I screamed his name as I gripped the headboard. ‘O god it’s
too much … Gabe … it’s too much.’

‘O god
baby, you’re so wet, you feel so good.’ He pushed them in and out as he was
fucking me and I felt myself seeping all over his fingers as my climax approached.
I whimpered as I bit my arm hard and started to tremble, which only added to
the sensation of him filling me from behind. When it hit me full force, I flung
my head back and screamed and felt myself clench so tightly around his dick and
fingers, that he grunted and shouted out my name and I felt him flex inside me
as he came. He lay on my back groaning trying to hold himself up with his
fingers on the bed, while I used all the strength in my arms to stay on all
fours. There was no way I wanted to fall on the bed with his large dick up
there.

‘You
alright baby? You screamed really loudly,’ he asked nuzzling my neck.

‘Yes, but I
don’t know if I can hold myself up much longer, my arms are shaking.’

‘You want
me to come out?’

‘Yes
please, but do it slowly Gabe.’ I felt him pull himself upright which sent a
tingle through me and he gently placed a hand on each butt cheek as I pushed
against the headboard as I felt him very slowly pulling out. I groaned, it sent
shivers up my spine, until the very last second when he actually left me, then
I yelped in pain and slid down the headboard and buried my face in the pillow
and fell on my side. ‘Owwww that hurt,’ I felt tears stinging my eyes. ‘Why
does it hurt now?’

‘Mia you’ve
just had a rather large cock in a very small hole. I’ve really stretched you baby,
are you ok?’

‘I will be,’
I winced and wiped my eyes.

‘Shit it
was too soon for you.’

‘No Gabe,
no. It was so good while you were doing it, it just hurts now.’

‘Just lie
there baby, I won’t be a minute.’ I heard him pad out to the bathroom and he
returned soon after and lay down and spooned behind me and I automatically tensed
as I felt his semi-hard dick graze my buttocks. ‘It’s ok, I’m just coming to
hold you nothing else.’

‘Thank you.’

‘You’re one
amazing girlfriend, do you know that?’ He kissed the side of my neck, which
always made me go all soft and pliable and I sighed.

‘I can see
why woman have threesomes. It must be amazing to be filled in both holes, or
even to have three guys so you can have another in your mouth at the same time.’

‘Holy shit
Mia. You’re not suggesting? ... if you think for one minute that I want another
man even touching you, let alone …’

‘No,’ I
exclaimed in horror. ‘I’d never want anyone but you to touch me, but I’d like
to know what it feels like. Maybe after I’ve got more used to it you could try
with a larger vibrator or something at the same time?’

‘God I so
hit the jackpot when I saw you,’ he squeezed me in a bear hug before letting me
go. ‘Do you think you can stand?’

‘I think so
why?’

‘We need to
get you cleaned up, you’ve got wet thighs, a lubed up rear and a sticky ice
cream body, plus I need to change the sheets.’ He sat up and climbed off the
bed and I slowly rolled over to hold his outstretched hand. I winced as I sat
upright and again as I stood. ‘Bath or shower?’ he asked.

‘Shower
then bath, if you don’t mind.’

We walked
into the shower and turned on the water and let it wash away the stickiness of
the ice cream from us both. He kissed me and stepped out to run the bath while
I carried on cleaning up.

‘I’ll go
and change the bedding, take as long as you need.’ He gave me a lovely smile
and disappeared. I washed my hair again and stood for a moment, my hands
pressed against the wet tiles. I couldn’t believe how far I’d come in a little
over two weeks since first sleeping with him. It was insane, insane but simply
amazing. I turbaned my hair and stepped into the bath, he’d put some kind of
relaxing bubble bath in for me and I could hear the bubbles popping and fizzing
as I inhaled the eucalyptus scent they gave off. I sank down into the water and
gasped as it touched me, I was still sore and hoped it would pass quickly. I
lay back, closed my eyes and enjoyed the warmth of the water surrounding me.

‘Here you
go,’ he came in with his joggers on, with a mug in his hand which he handed to
me and kissed my forehead.

‘You made
me a hot chocolate?’ I asked, surprised.

‘I remember
Lexi saying you liked it with two sugars, so I thought it may help.’

‘You’re so
sweet Gabe,’ I whispered as I smiled up at him.

‘How are
you feeling?’ he asked as he sat on the side of the bath and stroked my stomach
under the water.

‘Good,
better. The water and bubbles are really nice. Are you going to join me?’

‘No, I want
to talk to you.’

‘Talk to me
in the bath.’

‘Mia I’m
already turned on again seeing you lying there all hot and flushed, getting in
with you would totally put me off the conversation I want to have with you.’

‘What’s
wrong?’

‘Nothing. I’ve
been thinking about you …’

‘Gabe
seriously I told you I’m fine, I can hardly feel anything now.’

‘That’s
good to know, but that’s not what I wanted to talk about. It’s about Tuesday I
want ...’

‘O god, what’s
it with the bath and emotionally fraught conversations with you?’ I groaned.

‘Mia will
you let me finish without butting in, it’s bloody infuriating,’ he snapped. I put
my head down and sipped my hot chocolate feeling suitably chastised. ‘Sorry I’m
just worried about you managing when you come out of hospital. You’ll need to
take it easy and I’m not happy you being alone in the day, especially given the
fact that you can’t cook.’

‘I’ll be
fine Gabe, I’ll take it easy. I have my phone for when Lexi’s in lectures and
we’ve lived without cooking quite well for the last few weeks.’

‘Somehow
that doesn’t reassure me,’ he said as he lifted his hand out of the bath and gently
stroked my face.

‘So what
would reassure you?’

‘I want you
to come and live here until at least next Sunday.’

‘Gabe
that’s just ridiculous.’

‘Why?’

‘I’d be
sitting here alone for most of the day too, so why move?’

‘Lexi, Doug
and I all have free periods to look after you and for the odd one where none of
us are available, I can ask Mrs Darby to change her schedule.’