Further Adventures (19 page)

She turned around to leave me alone but before her feet hit the floor I said her name & stopped her going farther. “What’s going on?”

“What is?” she asked me too with her head cocked back. “Where you go all day?”

“Looking for a doctor. I need my regular treatment before Mexico.”

So this made her relax somewhat & she gave out with a flash of
news. “I wait for you here in the afternoon but you didn’t come for a long time. I looked for you.”

“It’s hard to find a doctor who’ll do it. I got lost on the way back.”

“You didn’t go in your car. The Raymobile here but no Ray,” she fretted at me. “Not a good part of town here.”

“Did you get your business done at the bank?”

“Sí sí. Sure. He have things ready for me tomorrow.” Amelia rocked herself off the bed she stood up almost bent over a weight on her back pressed her. “Thirsty,” her parting word.

And back in a few Minutes with 2 glasses of pink lemonade (canned i.e. the Concentrate) and she handed me a glass at the same time she drank hers all down. “Not so good like yours.” She frowned at it.

I sipped a few sips then I Agreed with her. “You can always tell the canned.”

She bent down & hugged me. “You give me a ride to the bank in the morning first. Then Ojinaga.”

“My doctor appointment’s at 9 A.M.”

“I can go with you O.K.?”

“You don’t want to do that,” I said very concerned. “You go to the bank when I go to the doctor’s. I’ll meet you after.”

Amelia let her hands drop on top of mine. I did not notice before how round & plump or how they looked like they belonged on a little girl. Maybe she knew what I was thinking because she squeezed my index finger & held on to it. I believe this is a Reflex Action for a small baby for it arouses the Desire to Protect in the heart of the adult on the receiving end.

Nor I did not Resist it I squeezed in return. From sitting next to me on the side of the bed she got the Confidence to hug me once again to lay her head on my chest. “You know the big supermarket we passed? A few blocks from here?” I felt her head nod yes. “How about you wait
in back of it. Where they pick up the trash.” She nodded yes again. “Around 10:30 all right?”

My plan was a Safety Net. No matter how tough things turned out after my High Colonic—if Amelia was a Innocent Victim of a dishonest G-Man then I could save her because I knew where she was but John Newberry did not—or if She was the Guilty party then likewise but I had the power to lead the G-Men straight to her gate.

“When I came home I see you esleep in bed,” she told me. “I try an’ go esleep in my room but…” Amelia brushed the loose hair out of her face she kept her hand over her eyes. “I got scared by myself.”

“You should’ve woke me up.”

“I scared you hm?” Some mischief in her Voice this time.

“When did you come in here?”

“I stay away all day. I think maybe John Newberry watches Tio’s house.”

Her face outside was strong then a tremble went across it underneath. “You can stay here if you’re nervous in the other room.”

She pressed very close she snuggled up to me nor she did not hold still. Her leg moved over my legs so I did not hold still either I gave her a pat-pat on her back.

“Ray?” she said only then I held my Breath I did not move a muscle in any direction. Not even when she stretched over to kiss me on my chin & she held the side of my face in her hand.

“Amelia?”

She lowered herself then I felt her Bosoms press down flat on my chest and her legs spread open like a Bow & my stiff legs for her Arrow. “Mm,” she went rocking with her hips but I did not know did I bring this on her or did she do this by herself?

Her mouth traveled around to my ear lobe and small kisses she planted over my face across my mouth still I did not pucker up for her
but this did not Discourage her. She went lower with her Kisses down my neck down my chest she unbuttoned my p.j.’s with her lips & teeth a button at a time lower & lower she shimmied down me. Then she Nibbled around the waistband of my p.j. bottoms.

I choked on my words I could not force my Question out of my throat. “Ooh-hoo,” I only said.

“Mm…mm…”

Amelia’s bare Bosoms I felt on my bare stomach drawing circles there out of the bottom of her T-shirt they fell & with one of her hands she pulled her T-shirt off & with her other hand she untied my p.j.’s. I will say this scared me stiff for I was almost in her Power. Her fingers on the waistband she pulled my pants down & then my Desire was I wanted to Fold Up under the blanket under the bed under the floor under the ground but I did not yell Stop. I did something else when she slinked her hand between my legs.

“Where are you?” she breathed these words.

I was there & there I was waiting for her to find me! Not a weakling not a softling either a little soldier! STAND TALL LITTLE SOLDIER! But he was not standing Tall he was standing Short hiding behind Amelia’s pinky finger.

She did not say a embarrassing word she kissed me there. I saw the copper desert of her back roll side & side I locked my eyes on that & my thoughts on Baseball but also I had to watch her lips close around me so now I know how Amelia looks when she puts on her lipstick I know how the lipstick feels.

“Please don’t do that,” I begged her. “No por favor.” I pushed very firm on her shoulders which encouraged her going “mm-mm” until I pushed one more time & her face came up like the full moon over a desert valley.

“No more,” I winced at her.

She knew why I did not want this Attention. “He’s cute.” She wanted to tease me & ease me & lowered down to kiss me again.

“Don’t.”

“Why you say don’t?”

“It’s obvious.” I did not have to hide it anymore my Dingle ducked under my hairy hide the way a turtle ducks in its shell.

Amelia sobbed out a pretty laugh. “I like him,” she coo-cooed & tickled me a little bit down there.

“No more. Show’s over.” I yanked back my p.j.’s & pulled them shut.

But Amelia did not give up before she saw an Encore. “Come out poquitito!” Big joke she cupped her hands around her mouth to help her call down to my fly, “Little chili pepper! Yoo-hoo!”

Sick to my stomach this comedy made me feel with the ball in Amelia’s hands—Is she going to turn this into a Laff Riot or put in a Newspaper ad if I do not do what she calls for? She is going to use this Secret Knowledge against me then I am in her Power because I can not be manly with her. My stomach churned over from the contemplation.

For a second her next move was a Mystery to me. Her face went forward & her rear end went upward until I heard the snap on the Bermudas pop open. She wiggled out of them & when she pulled them all the way off & sat up on her knees I was on eye level in front of her Mossy Nest. When she spread out on top of me she pulled the sheet back & it blew a whiff of Peat Moss to me under the salty smell of her arms.

Her body did not remind me of any of the girls they print in
Playboy
Magazine she reminded me of a plump red grape. Tight skin but soft wet fruit inside it. On this idea I did not have time to Linger because Amelia pulled my hands around her sides & she led me to her hips. She bent she swayed with her hair tossing she could be a palm tree in the Wild Wind and the next thing I know my p.j.’s are all open with her sitting on me still bending & swaying.

My little chili pepper did not stay where she guided it I did not fill her up I was not a Big Man for her but she went pushing down on top of
my hips with her legs wide apart her skin stretched so tight I thought something was pulling on it from the inside attached to her soft bone—so she grabbed my fingers she led them up & led them in she showed me where I should touch her how soft & how hard there—“Mm-mm,” she made this beautiful Sound when I touched her she was humming from the Touch of my fingers.

“Sí sí,” she crooned, “
that
way,” then her eyes shut.

I kept my eyes open the whole time I did not want to miss these Rare Sights—every private place on her Amelia showed me so I could be as close as her Skin and no Mystery between us anymore—she was going to hold me there until she convinced me until I
gave
. She made her legs like a belt around me & her hips for the buckle Amelia buckled me down tight—

I did not move only Amelia was shaking her hips on top of me so hard it wore me to the Bone but she could not help it anymore she did not have the power to stop in her—I will not say I Attracted her down like a magnet I will say the heavy weight of something else pushed her down on my chest—then it came out of her—the cry I heard her make when I saw her the first time running in the street—the Voice of Innocence crying in terror—

And my name. “Rayo…Rayo…O Ray…Ah…Ay…Rayo!”

For a minute I lay Calm & I felt the world hold still and furthermore nothing else was going to happen. Nothing was outside nor nothing was Before or After nothing led up to this nor it did not point in any Direction this Episode was a bubble floating in the Air. In that minute my feeling about it was
Nothing is going to change from now on
but this Feeling was the first thing that went.

It is the Truth you can not deny i.e. the Physical is what has all the power only the Physical will change the world around. The Feelings are just the Consequences. They announce the Deed and send a person
onward to the next thing but it is always the Deed that counts. It can be a gun or my little chili pepper Poquitito it is the same thing. It is the Deed I do with it that changes what is what.

Also with Amelia. The Physical it changes right in front of my eyes. I felt her oil on my fingers from between her legs I noticed it dripped out during. What do you call it Dr. Godfrey? Her grease from there or whatever. I rolled it around my fingers I admit I never knew this part of a woman. I am interested in the Chemicals of it for instance is it the same as Tears only thicker or is it some kind of sweat down there? I am not a Expert on Romance or Anatomy but I deduce it is the glue that glues us down & the gum that gums us up.

Before this minute if you asked me the question
What is Love about?
I could not answer unless I could say
The Feeling that goes from a mother to her baby
. If this Reply satisfied my Asker I would feel sorry for now I know better. Ask me
What is Love about?
the way they ask it in Love Songs and now I will give you a sane Reply. Between a man & a woman it is this:

CURIOSITY + SYMPATHY

It is a sad joy it is a monster of Emotions. And this monster stood up under my Skin. Amelia maybe saw the hairs on the back of my neck stand up or the hairs on my arms because she leaned close to me then she put her arms around my middle. My monster made me pull her closer.

“Mi vida,” she called me. “Querido. I show you everythings in Mexico.” Then this pretty girl buried her head under my chin I felt her familiar kisses on my throat.

Between John Newberry’s picture of Amelia and the Version I got by the Evidence from my own Senses I will say the Truth about her was somewhat between the Opposite Extremes. So hence out of FAIRNESS I force my Mind to stay open to both persuasions.

Nurse Jane Dubovey in this very minute I am thinking of YOU! In case you forgot about me already let me make with the Intro once again—

“Green,” I said. “Ray. I’m here for the—”

“You’re here for something special aren’t you…”

You greeted me like I was a V.I.P. in your eyes and this Treatment dangled with special privileges. Did you notice how I could hardly take my eyes off your Figure? I observed right off the smooth way your Bosoms stretched the top of your tunic. Satin it should be! Silk the F.B.I. doctors should give you!

“Should I sit down and read first or do you do the other first?” I was talking to your hands then I was following the freckles sprinkled on your arms while you filled out my visitor card. Do they go up to your shoulders too those freckles of yours Nurse Dubovey? I believe a good set of freckles is required for a redheaded girl. Your shoulders are the colors of leaves turning in the Fall. I am just guessing here.

“We’re ready for you.” You smiled up & buzzed the door open. I did not stop at your Freckles nor not your dove gray eyes. When you took me down the hall to my private examination room and you said, “You can get undressed in here,” I stood & watched you through the crack in the door now I can reveal. How I admired the round part of your thighs when you bent downward over the bottom drawer of your desk to dig out Amelia’s File. I entertained myself by the daydream of you saying the same words to me in your Apartment some night then I could be in
the position to hear all of the Sounds you make when you kiss a man & the smell of your hair from the back of your neck. My Cookie I would call you by that affectionate Name if I was in that situation. This is what I was thinking when you handed me that book of bad news.

“Dr. Epps will be in right away. If you need anything just shout.”

Oh Nurse Dubovey! I need something all right! What I need is I want you should know I am not the Dumb Schlemiel who let Certain Persons lead him around by his nose & who got royally Deceived so easy by these parties! Nor I am not the Constipated alter cocker who you met by brief acquaintance i.e. who has to depend on a regular High Colonic to keep his bowels juicy so they do not turn into concrete vermicelli.

My Cookie I am The Green Ray and I was on Earth until my 73rd Year to lift up Good and face down Evil then lo & behold I did the Opposite. While I was bent over in that position they kicked me from behind for I did not expect Good & Evil both coming in disguise.

Dr. Epps knocked very polite & Entered then all round belly & pink cheeks he appeared. “Our special referral.”

On the chair next to the big scale in my underpants I had Amelia’s secret File on my lap but I did not hide anything. “I’m here for the high colonic.”

“Any serious blockage?” Dr. Epps snapped a Rubber Glove on his hand.

“Enough.”

He pat-patted the table which I climbed on. When he wheeled the hose over he tapped me on my rear end so I obliged & lifted up. “O.K. Mr. Green. Here he comes.” This medical man did not have a Gentle Touch he was more wam-bam I will say. He slipped the hose inside with a slow move so all ideas about You & the Night & the Music disappeared from my daydream I had to concentrate on the warm water dribbling in. “How does that feel? Nice and comfortable?”

“If it did I’d need my head examined.” Which remark handed him a chuckle. What felt nice & comfortable finally was the Relief when he let the first round of water out & left me alone to pursue my Purpose.

I do not quote word by word but I remember a few choice Examples. To wit:

REPORTS about Amelia Vasquez from 1970 etc. they name her Subject A—Subject A confirmed crossing from Ojinaga…Escorted 9 (nine) Mexican nationals across the U.S. border…In the company of
and
received small Package which Subject carried onto bus for several blocks. Disembarked at the Greyhound bus terminal in Gonzales and proceeded on foot to Crocker’s Bank on Henry Blvd. Entered approx. 11 a.m. Individuals
and
(foreign nationals) and
a deputy in the
so must be considered