Irresistible Desire (A Savannah Novel) (19 page)

“Okay! Geesh don’t get all
physical on me, but come on, you gotta see that this is something
to be proud of!”

“Oh, yeah really something
to be bragging about…Guess what everyone? I just became another
notch on Kayden Knox’s bedpost. I think NOT!” I roll my eyes at her
as she glares at me.

“I would be a notch on his
bedpost any day, along with any other hot blooded woman on this
planet. You won the jackpot last night, and if you play your cards
right, I bet you a hundred dollars that you could be doing it all
over again tonight.”

I set my glass down on a
napkin, trying not to feed into Rebecca’s insanity. Kayden will
more than likely leave here tonight with a beautiful model, who is
far more deserving of his affection. I was shocked I hadn’t seen
him yet; he was probably avoiding me…just wonderful!

I glance around the night
club which looked totally different to last night, the decoration
was beautiful and anyone who’s anyone is here.

“Looking for someone
Savannah?” Rebecca says sarcastically, startling me and making me
jump,

“What? No,” I feel the heat
rising to my face, “I'm just looking around, this place looks so
different compared to last night. I didn’t think there would be so
many people here.”

“Oh cut the crap,” Rebecca
playfully pushes on my arm, “I know you’re trying to spot Kayden.”
She could see right through my lame lie. “You’ve got it bad girl, I
don‘t believe a word you say when you try to play it off as
nothing.”

Was last night a one-time
thing? Is he pissed at me for sneaking out during the night without
so much as a goodbye? To top it off, my love life has peaked the
media’s interest; when today is supposed to be all about him and
Envy.

“I really don’t know.” I
gulp down the rest of my drink and slam the empty glass on the bar.
My life is one gigantic disaster.

*****

Chapter 14

*****

Reagan finally decides to
join the conversation, “Well I think that if Knox is as intelligent
as he makes himself out to be, he will be begging for more. Only an
idiot would pass up a chance to be with you.” Reagan’s flavor of
the hour starts to whine because his attention isn’t focused on
her. Why are so many women so pathetic? “Believe me if you were not
such a hard ass and shooting my every advance down, just like
Brooklyn, I would be fucking you into oblivion every chance I got,”
God I wanted to smack that smart ass smirk right off his
face.

“Reagan, don’t push your
luck, I am not in the mood,” I say, giving him a stare down,
letting him know I’m not in the mood for his bullshit. I flash a
small smile so he knows I’m okay, just to drop the subject of
Kayden.

Reagan quickly moved onto
to the next topic, “I’m assuming you got the TMZ text alert? The
paparazzi looked like vultures out there waiting for your guys’
limo to arrive. I bet Paisley and Maverick are beyond pissed off
right now.”

“Yeah, Rebecca came to the
rescue, saving me from total embarrassment. That’s all I needed was
to step out looking like a train wreck from crying my mascara off.
I would have had to see
that
plastered all over the news stands. My parents
will most likely have their publicist make a statement tomorrow. He
does this just as interest finally started to die down!”

“I am not shocked at all
that he did this, I’ve never liked him,” Rebecca says with anger
radiating through her voice. She rests her hand on mine for a
moment, giving me a sympathetic smile. I’m extremely grateful to
have her and Reagan here with me. With Brooklyn in Vancouver and my
parents on tour, I’ve felt very alone in all of this.

“It felt like all the
reporters cared about was if I saw the breaking news…it’s like it
completely slipped their minds they were here to cover the Envy
party,” I need to drop the topic before I get myself all worked up
again, “I’m done talking about this…I want to enjoy tonight and not
worry about what will come tomorrow.”

“Good! We’re here to
celebrate and celebrate we will,” Reagan says, tossing back a shot!
“Focus on having fun tonight.” He pats my knee and heads off to the
dance floor with the blonde he’s sitting with.

“I think staying here this
week will be good for you Savannah. Everyone is assuming you’re
returning to Los Angeles tomorrow with the rest of us,they’ll be
scoping out LAX and your house for you, no one will think to find
you still in Texas,” Rebecca said reaching for my hand and pulling
me towards the dance floor.

We spend the next hour
dancing and mingling; I had not seen Kayden anywhere and mention it
to Eloise when we find her. She explains that he’s in his office on
a business call. It’s no sooner than she indicates this, that I’m
being dragged away by Rebecca. “What are you doing?” I ask
dumbfounded,

“You’re going to Kayden’s
office. You’ve spent the entire night searching this place for him,
for God’s sake, if you want to see him…so go see him!”

The idea of walking into
that office…after what we did in there last night, “I…can’t,” I
stammer out, trying my best to stand my ground and not let her
persuade me into barging in there. I’m being pathetic, I know
better than to think that he would have been waiting for me to
arrive, Kayden is well known for being a serial dater, he was
probably thrilled when he woke up and I was gone.

“You can and you will,
you’re being such a drama queen right now, you need to march your
ass up to that door and walk through it. Go see Kayden, it’s the
perfect place to talk about this with him. It’s away from the
crowd, you don’t want to have this conversation in public, someone
could tell the press about what they over hear, making your life
even more complicated.”

“Okay, okay, you’re right.
I’m just nervous, what if he gets irritated with me for bothering
him? He could be busy with a very important phone call.”

Kayden opens his office
door at the same moment Rebecca pushes me into it, causing me to
slam into his rock solid chest. Someone please kill me
now.

“I am so sorry," I squeak
out as I back up a step and lock eyes with Kayden. He has his hands
on me to prevent me from falling and the heat radiates through my
skin, making me weak in the knees. The affect he has over me in
such a short amount of time is terrifying to say the
least.

“Ladies,” was all he says
as he looked from me to Rebecca.

“Hello Kayden, I was
just…leaving. Savannah has come to see you.” So much for not
leaving my side tonight.

I was so nervous, I
contemplate turning around and bolting out the door, “This was a
mistake; it was Rebecca’s bright idea to come and find you, I don’t
want to bother you. There are a ton of people out there waiting to
see you.”

Kayden quickly snaps me
back to reality, pulling me into his office and slamming the door
behind me, “Savannah what is going on?”

“I felt bad for slipping
out of your room, I wanted to see you and explain.”

“Okay, then explain away,”
he says as he sits down on an oversized chocolate colored couch,
the couch we had passionate sex on…just last night.

Why does he have to look so
damn good? Sitting there in his dark slacks, white button up dress
shirt and mint green tie. I slowly sit down a little way away from
him, trying to keep my distance. Just smelling him was turning my
brain to mush, I don’t think I could hold myself together if he
touches me again.

I clear my throat and
smooth my dress out as I turn slightly to face him, “When we fell
asleep I felt amazing, everything that had been stressing me out
had vanished. The only thing on my mind was you, me and everything
I had experienced with you last night.”

He shifts on the sofa,
turning towards me and places his hands on top of mine. I instantly
suck in a sharp breath of air; every time he touches me it sends
shockwaves throughout my body. “I felt the same way and believe me
it kind of freaked me out, too. I’m used to meaningless sex. I have
been with a lot of women over the last few years and none of them
have affected me the way you do.” He’s looking at me so intensely,
I can feel every word he was saying and I know he’s being honest
with me.

“
I hooked up with someone on
Halloween, a few weeks after I broke off the engagement with Logan.
I was petrified to put myself out there again,”

At mention of me sleeping
with someone Kayden instantly tenses upI close my eyes for a second
to try and keep the tears from falling. I hate how he’s making me
feel, I tell myself not to fall for anyone ever again and I fall
for a womanizer!

“When I slept with this
guy, I was sexually attracted to him…but that was it. There were no
other feelings there; I was able to walk away without any desire to
see him again. With you I knew it was dangerous, I felt something
for you the day I met you, I told myself to stay away from you but
last night with all the shots and flirting I lost my will to resist
you. I gave in and it was amazing, beyond amazing.” I say, smiling
up at him.

“Savannah last night was
amazing for me too. Every time I move, a muscle in my body aches
and it reminds me of you. I swear I have been hard most of the day
because I can’t get you out of my head.

“Hmmm,” he moans as he runs
his finger along my flushed cheek, “Did I make you blush,
Savannah?” Every time he says my name my panties instantly become
wet.

I cross my legs trying to
stop the throbbing. He’s making all my walls come down with a smile
and a swipe of a finger over my face. What the hell is wrong with
me? “The problem is after I fell asleep though.”

“
I woke up next to you and
panic washed over me. I never planned on staying the night; I
didn’t want things to get complicated in the morning. I didn’t want
to set myself up to get hurt, I was afraid we would wake up, part
ways and then you would want to pretend nothing happened.
Especially
with having the
Envy party today, knowing I would have to see you again so
soon…after last night,”

“So…you thought sneaking
off in the middle of night was the best option? If you didn’t want
to spend the night you should have just said so. I would have
walked you down to your suite,” His voice drips with
disappointment, “I feel awful that you were upset, that was the
last thing I wanted. He grabs my hands and holds them firmly in
his, his eyes going from fire hot to serious in a split
second.

“I’ve had my fair share of
heart break Savannah. I never used to be this womanizing player
that I am today. Like you I’m this way to protect myself, I loved
someone once before and I got hurt in the end. Now, I never know
who likes me for me. I never know if people want to be with me
because they actually like being around me or if it’s just because
of my name, my money… Most of the women I hook up with want to
sleep with the guy they see on magazines and not with me because
they have spent time with me and had a chance to get to know the
real me.”

“I get it believe me I do,
I’ve had enough guys ask me out because of who my parents
are.”

The sadness in his eyes
takes my breath away.

It never crossed my mind
that he had sealed his heart off as a way to protect it. That was
why he never hooked up with the same woman twice. It was then I
realized Kayden went outside is comfort zone too last
night.

“So last night…was it the
first time you had been with the same woman more than one time
since you had your heart broken?”

I’m afraid of his answer,
was it wrong for me to enjoy the idea of him doing something with
me that he normally wouldn’t do with other women?

“
I think you already know
the answer to that question Savannah.”

Before I can speak his lips
are on mine, I’m so taken aback I that it takes me a second to
react. I feel his lips form a smile and I slowly lose the strength
to resist him, “Savannah, for tonight please stop over thinking
everything and just let go,” he murmurs into my ear, “Let’s not try
to dissect whatever the hell this is and just give into it and
enjoy it for what it is…
amazing fucking
sex.”

With those words any ounce
of strength to keep resisting his advances disintegrates instantly.
I will probably regret this decision tomorrow because I know I’m
playing with fire and when you play with fire, you know you’re
going to get burned. Right now I just don’t care.

*****