Authors: Cathy Kelly
pitying look, and drawled: ‘Well, I do, sunshine. And as we
say in Ireland, you can rev up and fuck off. Goodbye.’
Feeling ten feet tall, she turned on her heel and strode
majestically into the club, shoving her shirt back into her
trousers and flicking back her hair in triumph. Talk about
girl power and respect! Yes!
Why hadn’t she done that years ago? Bloody Owen
Theal would have benefited from some of that treatment and
perhaps a good left hook to the jaw into the bargain,
she thought with satisfaction. Suddenly she was filled with
longing for Ewan, for his arms around her and his mouth
crushed against hers. What had she been playing at with
Tim? What had she been playing at with Ewan, come to
that? She’d completely screwed up their relationship
thanks to her neuroses. It was about time she got to grips
with her problems and started living.
Cara felt her head filling with plans and ideas. She’d
phone Ewan the moment they got home, tell him she was
crazy about him and announce to the entire office they
were in love. And she’d find a counsellor in the phone
book, someone to open all the locked doors in her mind,
doors behind which demons lurked; ones that looked like
Owen Theal.
She moved to the pulsating Euro disco beat and joined
Rosie and Gwynnie on the swarming dance floor. ‘Hey,
girls, where are we going next?’
Evie dragged her suitcase downstairs and left it by the
door. As if by magic, Max appeared.
‘Evie, why didn’t you tell me you wanted to leave early
last night? I’d have driven you home.’
‘There was no need,’ she said evenly. After spending
much of the night rehearsing exactly what she’d say to
Max, she couldn’t let herself down by screaming that she
was as jealous as sin and he was a dirty double crosser to
have her and Mia going at the same time. ‘I was tired and
needed a rest.’
Max looked as if he needed a rest himself. His face was
drained and, despite his healthy bronze colour, there were
shadows under the normally blazing cobalt blue eyes that
today looked dimmed somehow.
‘We need to talk,’ he said urgently, ‘about last night.’
‘Why?’ she asked briskly. ‘I’m not your keeper.’
‘I don’t want you to get the wrong idea, Evie.’ he said,
raking a hand through his shining black hair.
She smiled coldly at him. “I don’t have any wrong ideas,
Max. I merely needed to get away from everyone to come
to my senses and consider what I nearly threw away.’
She meant the words to cut him to the hone and they
did, she was sure of that. He recoiled slightly.
‘What,’ he said, eyes narrowed, ‘does that mean precisely?’
‘Just that,’ she replied. ‘Simon’s a good man. I can’t
believe I nearly threw my whole future away for a hen
night fling.’
The words nearly stuck in her throat. Her night had
been nothing like a hen night fling. It had been wondrous,
passionate, the most incredible night of her life. But she
couldn’t let him know that. No way.
‘So that’s all it was to you?’ he said. ‘A hen night fling?’
Evie could see hurt and bewilderment in his eyes but
she ploughed on.
‘Come on, Max,’ she replied, words dripping cynicism,
‘don’t tell me it was any different for you?’ “I love you” is
very easy to say in the heat of passion, isn’t it?’
‘No,’ he said flatly. ‘It’s not. Not for me.’
‘Poor you then.’
She walked past him into the garden, wanting to put as
much distance as possible between them. It would be so
easy to crack, to cling to him and say she didn’t care if he
had ten women on the go at one time, so long as she could
be one of them.
Swallowing deeply to control the lump in her throat,
Evie walked across the lawn, still damp from the morning
sprinklers. All she had to do was get through the journey
home and then she’d never have to see Max Stewart again.
CHAPTER FOURTEEN
The washing machine repair man ate three Penguins and
had two mugs of tea before he left.
‘I’ll give you a bell when I’ve got the part. Should he
Thursday,’ he said cheerily as Evie stood on the doorstep
seeing him out. ‘I still think it’s better to get a new
machine,’ he added, shaking his head at the notions of
women. ‘That’ll only give you another few months at best,
but it’s up to you.’
‘No, it’s not,’ she muttered to herself, slamming the
door. ‘It’s up to the bank manager.’ Buying a new washing
machine was undoubtedly the most sensible option since
the motor in her seven-year-old one had conked out faced
with acres of holiday washing.
But replacing the motor would give her at least
another year out of the machine and, as she couldn’t
afford a new one, it was the only option. Irritatingly, not
getting it fixed until Thursday meant she’d have to lug
everything down the road to the launderette. Just as well
she’d taken Monday off to sort herself out after the
holiday. Some holiday! She may have looked happily
tanned, but on the inside Evie felt as blue as Picasso’s
famous monochrome period. She sneezed abruptly and
her eyes watered. A cold; she was also getting a cold. All
she bloody needed.
The phone rang and she answered it listlessly, trying to
reach the tissue she’d jammed up her cardigan sleeve to
stem her sniffles. It was Simon, phoning for the second
time that day to assure her he was on track for their
lunch time reunion. He’d been at his favourite aunt’s
hospital bedside over the weekend and so hadn’t seen Evie
since she and Rosie had arrived home from Spain.
Which was merciful, she thought, feeling the usual
pangs of guilt whenever she thought about him. At least
with a couple of days’ grace, she’d be able to arrange her
face into some sort of post-holiday smile and pretend
she’d had a good time. Otherwise, he’d see the bleak,
hollow eyes that stared back at Evie every time she
looked in the mirror and even Simon, not the most
sensitive person in the cosmos, would realise that something
was wrong.
‘Hugh gave me a wedding present this morning,’ he was
saying proudly, obviously thrilled that the senior partner in
the firm had deigned to remember Simon and Evie’s
forthcoming nuptials.
‘Oh, what is it?’
‘A Lladro dancing couple,’ Simon said excitedly. ‘Apparently,
it’s very expensive stuff
Lovely,’ Evie replied. She hated Lladro.
‘I’ve booked a table for one o’clock in Kite’s in
Ballsbridge as a special treat, is that all right?’
“I have a wedding dress fitting,’ Evie reminded him, ‘so I
might be late. You know what the traffic is like.’
‘I’ll order for you if you’re late,’ Simon said cosily.
‘Sesame prawn toast and chicken in black bean sauce.’
Evie suppressed an urge to shriek that she didn’t want
anyone deciding what she’d eat, she’d bloody well pick her
own lunch, thank you very much.
‘Great,’ she said. ‘Must go, love. ‘Bye.’
She was running so late that she had to abandon the car
on a double yellow line in Ranelagh to run into Bridal
Daydreams where four women were oohing and aahing
over a short blonde who looked miserable at being jammed
into yards of unflattering satin in a design that looked like
a meringue waiting for the cream and kiwi fruit to be
ladled on.
‘I prefer the shift dress,’ the poor girl was saying,
although nobody was listening.
At least I don’t have a committee orchestrating my wedding dress, Evie thought gratefully, slipping into the alterations room. Sweating from her sprint, she ripped off
her clothes and then had to fan herself with a Brides magazine for five minutes so she wouldn’t destroy the dress with perspiration.
‘Lord, haven’t you lost weight?’ squealed Delphine, the
dressmaker, as delightedly as she could with several pins
jammed into the side of her mouth. All my brides lose a
few pounds but you’ve lost at least half a stone.’
‘Really?’ commented Evie, totally unmoved by information
that, two months ago, would have thrilled her to her
bones. What a way to lose a few pounds! The Max Stewart
Disaster Diet - spend a few nights with our hero and
you’ll never fancy a mayonnaise-and-full-fat-cheese-sandwich
ever again.
“You don’t want to lose too much,’ warned Delphine, on
her knees and pinning expertly. ‘Or it’ll be hanging on you.
This style needs some bosom.’
The dress was a Jane Austen classic: Empire-line oyster
satin with an embroidered bodice and lace-covered sleeves.
The sort of dress Evie had purred over on the cover of her
favourite Regency novels. Now, it didn’t give her the same
frisson of excitement when she thought she was actually
going to glide down the aisle wearing it.
Delphine was going on about being thin again and how
she’d gone back to Weight Watchers in the hope of getting
rid of that impossible-to-shift three stone.
Evie looked at her own reflection in the wall-sized
mirror gloomily. Despite having lost a few pounds, she
was never going to be thin. Not Mia Koen thin anyway.
You were either born with that thoroughbred bone structure
or you weren’t. No amount of dieting would give her spindly legs perfect for wearing floaty knee-length dresses and strappy sandals in sorbet-coloured suede. Or even
casually thrown on sarongs and minuscule Tshirts, for
that matter.
They were now on to the knotty subject of low-calorie
biscuits. Delphine, mouth still full of pins, was an aficionado of every calorie-controlled item in the supermarket.
Evie let her chatter away and mentally drifted off to a
warm Spanish night where the cicadas made sweet music
and Max’s body had worshipped hers. What was he doing
now? she wondered. Was he tucked away in some remote
cosy hotel with Mia, kissing and making love, hating
themselves for having wasted so much time when they
could have been together? Did Max cuddle Mia after
they’d made love, spooning his big body around her
fragile one, stroking her with a sense of affectionate
wonder? Evie must have looked so desolate suddenly that
Delphine stopped talking and stared at her little face,
pale under the tan.
‘Cheer up, love.’ Delphine squeezed her arm encouragingly.
‘All girls get last-minute nerves - so do the lads, come
to think of it. But it’ll be fine. He’d want to be out of his
mind to leave a lovely thing like yourself standing at the
altar. Anyway, as the bishop says, there’s always divorce if
things go wrong!’ Delphine screamed with laughter at her
own humour.
‘Yes.’ Evie replied politely, thinking that things had
already gone wrong and they hadn’t even got as far as the
altar.
Simon was sipping mineral water with a very pleased
expression on his face when Evie rushed into Kite’s,
twenty minutes late, having guiltily abandoned the car on
yet another double yellow line.
‘Had to park on Pembroke Road,’ she gasped. “I hope I
won’t be clamped.’
‘Oh, Evie,’ he said disapprovingly. ‘You should have
parked in the Herbert Park Hotel like I did.’
‘You’re not supposed to unless you’re going there,’ she
protested, tired from all her rushing about and twice as
tired of Simon’s small-mindedness. He could bore for
Ireland in the Olympics about car parking in Dublin city.
‘Have you ordered?’ she asked. Anything to stem the
inevitable “I know a little car park on Shelbourne Road
that nobody else knows about’ conversation.
‘Yes. I hope you’re in the mood for sesame prawn toast?’
he added, looking unsure of himself. ‘If you’re not, you can
have my spare ribs.’
Touched, she got up from her seat, leaned over the table
and kissed him on the cheek. For once, Simon didn’t shy
away from the public demonstration of affection.
‘I missed you,’ he said in a whisper, and grabbed her
hand under the tablecloth when she sat down again.
Evie smiled back, desolate at the thought that, after a
separation of a week, Max would have grabbed her in full
view of the entire restaurant and kissed her so hard she’d
have needed mouth-to-mouth resuscitation and a moment
in an oxygen tent afterwards.
After a quick squeeze, Simon withdrew his hand and
began to describe the Lladro wedding present in great
detail. He only stopped when their starters arrived and
then, after a brief nibble of his spare ribs, went on to
discuss the implications of receiving such a large and
expensive present from the boss.
‘It’s a good sign,’ he said earnestly, pushing his hornrimmed
glasses on to the bridge of his bony nose, one hand
wielding a spare rib recklessly. ‘Hugh wouldn’t do that for
just anybody, you know. It’s fast track all the way to
partnership, I tell you, Evie.’
Evie, thinking of the whiskey-drinking, bimbo-loving
Hugh of the Christmas party and his sad wife, Hilda,