Not Enough: Is love ever enough? (The Enough Series Book 1) (13 page)

Now that
Austin and I have decided we want to be together and cleared the air I am
standing in the shower under the cascade of hot water contemplating our
immediate future. He will be up here in a minute, he stayed behind to let Boss
out one last time and to lock up. It has been over three years since I have
been with a man and I have never been with someone who makes me feel the way
Austin does.

I haven’t even seen a penis in over three years. Penis is a
strange word. Who in the world came up with that word? I don’t think I like
that word I guess I could use dick, but that sounds like a man’s name. So what
does that leave? Cock, gees that seems like such a harsh word. Cock, cock, cock
it makes me giggle just thinking about saying it aloud. However, it rhymes with
rock and well that makes sense. Cock rock, cock like a rock.

Now laughing I shake my head and turn placing my face in the
spray. What in the world am I thinking about, he will be up here any second and
I am standing here comically debating the proper term for his anatomy, thank
god thoughts cannot be heard.

As I stand here in the shower, waiting for my boyfriend of three
hours to show up I can’t help wondering how this will go. I am severely out of
practice in the sex department. I have only been with two different men in my
29 years and Austin well he is sure to be more experienced than I am. I find
myself worrying what if I am a huge disappointment to him or what if I turn him
off completely.

Oh god, what if I suck at sex. I mean I know Austin won’t
suck with a body like his there is no possible way. As I debate whether I
should run out of here sparing him my questionable sexual prowess, two strong
hands glide around my waist.  

I tense at his touch not because I don’t want him to touch me
but because I am overwhelmed by nervousness. He slides his arms around me and
the butterflies in my stomach take flight. Leaning down and resting his chin on
my shoulder he asks, “Is this ok? You are just so damn sexy standing here under
the water I had to join you.” His voice seems deeper than usual and is sexy as
hell.

I reach my arms behind me and wrap them around him as best I
can. “This is perfect.” Just his touch put to ease all of my doubts. I can now feel
his arousal pressing into my back and decide that rock cock is the right term.

My wayward thoughts are replaced by desire as he plants soft
kisses over my neck and shoulders. When he reaches my ear, he kisses it before
taking the lobe between his teeth and sucking which sends my hormones into
overdrive.

I turn into him and step back so that the water is now
cascading over both of us and he lowers his delicious mouth to mine. With the
water running down my face, I can barely open my eyes to take in the beauty of
the man in front of me.

The kiss starts soft, slow, and full of passion. I run my
hands across his muscular back settling them at his shoulders. He breaks our
connection momentarily, and I look up at him through the streams of water to
find lust filled fire in his eyes. He gives me a slight smile before crashing
himself into me.

All at once, his mouth is on mine, his tongue dancing with
mine, and his hands find my ass lifting me up. My legs wrap around his waist
and my arms around his neck with my hands in his hair, I dive into him with the
same fervor.

He braces me up against the tiled wall that is warm from the
steam in the shower. His length is now rubbing against my aching core. I want
him to enter me and I try to make that clear by grinding myself against him. He
removes one hand from my ass and massages my breast before pulling the nipple
into his mouth biting softly causing my insides to tighten with pleasure. Switching
sides, he toys with the other nipple and I nearly explode biting down on his
shoulder.

He smiles a wicked smile at me knowing I am close to losing
control. “Baby, I won’t last long if you keep doing that,” he growls in my ear.

I continue grinding against him in search of that sweet
release. “Please Austin,” is all I can manage, and it comes out breathless and
needy.

“I don’t have protection in here,” he whispers while
continuing his delectable assault on my body.

“I have it covered,” I pant needing him more by the second. I
don’t have it in me to explain I have an IUD and all the details right now.

He looks at me as if asking permission and I nod my head. His
arm slides under my ass as he guides me further up the wall placing his length
at my entrance. “Are you sure Ry, I won’t be able to stop myself after this.”

The want in his eyes is clear behind the droplets of water
falling from his eyelashes. I reply by melding my mouth to his. My god he is
sexy. He responds by lowering me onto him and I gasp at the sudden intrusion.
He fills me completely, stretching my velvet walls to the point of pain, but he
stills allowing my body time to adjust.

Once he is fully inside me, I let out the breath I didn’t realize
I was holding and the pain is replaced with pleasure. “Fuck Ry, you are so
tight baby. You feel amazing.” His words alone almost undo me as he pumps in
and out of me at a gentle pace.

My body is tightening around him and my nails are dig into
his back as I climb higher and higher. “God, Austin… Austin.”

My sex clinches around him. He moves faster and after a few
rounds, I come apart at the seams. My wetness drenches him as I go limp. He
slams into me hard and fast a few times before finding his own release. I have
never in my life come that hard or that easily. I knew he would be good!

I run my hands up and down his back as he rests his head on
my shoulder. I find it amazing, after all of that, he is still holding me. Of
course, I am not sure if he put me down I could stand. My body feels like
jelly.

 I can hear his breathing begin to even out when he raises
his head finding my eyes with a small smile. “Ry, you, you are absolutely breathtaking.”

Placing my hands on either side of his face, I smile lovingly
at him. “No, darling you are the one who takes my breath away.”

Right on cue, the water runs cool, and he reaches over to
shut it off. He kisses on the lips. “I am going to set you down and go grab us some
towels, okay?”

I brace myself for the inevitable cold that will come when
his heat leaves me. “Ok.”

After Austin leaves the walk-in shower to get towels I stand
there predictably cold and missing his body heat. I realize though I don’t just
miss his heat I miss his arms around me. I miss his comfort and reassurance. I
never thought the day would come where I wanted someone with me and intertwined
with me again.

In the span of one day, my world has been transformed. When
he walks back in with a black towel wrapped around his waist holding two more
for me I cannot help staring at him. He is gorgeous. He has turned my world
upside down and doesn’t even realize it. Without a word, he wraps me into one
of the big fluffy towels and holds me until I warm up. He leans down and rains
kisses on my neck as he runs his hands up and down my sides before whispering, “Let’s
go to bed, baby.”

Before I can climb into bed and give my body the rest it is now
demanding, I have to dry my hair and at least comb through it. “I’ll meet you
in there, I have to get ready.” He pouts at me before heading back into the
bedroom.

As I am wrapping the towel around my body like all girls do,
I hear Austin call, “You had better hurry or I am coming back in there and I
will carry you into bed with me.”

I can’t help giggling at his demand. “Keep your pants on, I
will be right there.”
I sure hope he doesn't put pants on.

I towel dry my hair with purpose and run a comb through it. There
is no way it will dry soon so I opt for a quick French braid. Just as I am
wrapping a band around the end, I see him reappear behind me in nothing but his
boxer shorts. “Let me grab my clothes and I am coming.”

He laughs at me. “Oh, no you don’t I told you to hurry, and
you didn’t so I am here to make good on my promise.”

With that, he lunges towards me and picks me up throwing me
over his shoulder. “Put me down, I said I was coming.” I am laughing as I
squirm and swat his glorious ass, but it does nothing to deter him. He carries
me into his bedroom and tosses me in the center of his huge bed.

In a moment of playfulness, I taunt him. “Well, you got me
here now what are you going to do.”

With a mischievous grin lighting his face he toys with me. “Wouldn’t
you like to know.”

I am laying sideways across his bed on the luxuriously
comfortable down comforter. Five minutes ago, I would have told you I would be
asleep within seconds of my head hitting the bed, but that was before I could
see Austin looking at me with raging desire in his eyes. He stalks over to the
bed and pulls my foot up kissing the sole and biting the pad of my toe before
running his tongue up my instep sending a wake-up signal straight to my sex.

“Oh Ry, I let you have your way in the shower, but now we will
do it my way, nice and slow.” His voice is low and raspy igniting a fire deep
within me.

He continues working his way up the inside of my leg lacing
every inch with feather soft kisses and the need within me continues to grow. I
reach down and run my hands through his damp hair trying to urge him to my center.
Instead, he looks up at me with a sexy smirk and shakes his head. Eventually he
does make his way to the center of my V lightly stroking my folds before
running his tongue up and down my slit.

My insides throb and moisten in anticipation. He slides one
finger in furthering my spiral towards ecstasy. I slide up to watch his carnal
assault before he replaces one finger with two and massages me from the inside.
I am so close to plummeting into eternal bliss when he stops and begins a
predatory crawl up my body.

He rains kisses about my abdomen and chest before taking my
nipple into his hot mouth sucking and biting forcefully. He takes my other bud
between his fingers rolling it, pulling it, and causing it to pebble at his
touch. I am teetering on line between pleasure and pain needing his touch as
much as I need my next breath.

I fist my hands in his hair and wrap my legs around him longing
for friction between my thighs to release the unending pressure that continues
to build. He works his way up my neck sucking and kissing in all the right
places. My body has now become one bundle of nerve endings waiting for his next
move.

When he finally takes my mouth into his I am wound so tight I
cannot do anything but suck on his bottom lip and beg for my release. “Austin
please.”

He continues to kiss me as he reaches below to my swollen sex
and rubs the bundle of nerves. “Come for me Ry, now.” I comply on command.

My world goes dark as the orgasm tears through me lighting up
every available feeling. While the orgasm crashes through me, he slides two
fingers in pressing the perfect spot causing the earth-shattering climax to
continue past any level imaginable. My head back, my back arched, and I moan in
pleasure as I grip his muscular shoulders trying to ground myself. “Oh baby,
you are so wet, I can’t wait to fuck you,” he growls.          

My body comes down and I see the heady need and desire in
Austin’s eyes. He enters me slowly before letting out a guttural moan when he
is fully sheathed. I see his jaw tense and release as he tries to reign in his
control. “Ry, after seeing that I’m not sure I can make good on the nice and
slow promise.” As he rotates his hips a few times, the now familiar warmth spreads
within me.

I reach up taking his face between my hands. “Fuck me.”

His control wanes and instinct takes over as he slides out of
me to the tip and back in a few times. “Are you sure Ry, I don’t want to hurt
you.”

His slow torture is causing yet another orgasm to build
within me and I long to see him fall apart the way I already have. I clinch my
insides around his cock and meet his strokes with my hips. He leans down and
kisses me hard. “You are going to unman me.”

As he slams into me, I slide up on my elbows to watch as our
bodies join. I don’t make it in that position long before my body coils in sweet
desire. My breasts are bouncing and I reach down to hold them only to see that
my hands on them send Austin overboard. He slams his mouth down onto one
causing his pace to slow infinitesimally. His warm wet mouth on my nipple
causes me to need him closer. I pull on his shoulders pulling him into me while
wrapping me legs around him.

Balancing his weight on his forearms next to my head we
become a tangle of body parts joined in every possible way. Our tongues meld,
my hands fist in his hair, and he nips my lip with his teeth. I feel like we
are one, we are here solely to bring pleasure to one another. He circles his
hips as he drives into me and my body goes rigid with pleasure. I clinch my
walls around his cock hoping to increase his pleasure. “Fuck Rylee.”

I continue to milk his cock within my sex the friction
causing my arousal to peak as he slams into me. His length throbs and flinches
unleashing my pent up orgasm. We come apart screaming each other’s names.

We lie still with him on top of me and still buried within me
for several minutes. His head is nuzzled into the crook of my neck and we are
both breathing hard. His heart is pounding against my chest in time with my
heartbeat. Who knew sex could be like this, I have never in my life had sex
that can only be described as life affirming or in this case, life altering. Austin
shifts his weight so that his side is on the bed, but his head remains cuddled on
my chest. I stroke his back content and happy in this moment. I hope it never
ends.