Rocking Esme (The Rocking Series Book 1) (17 page)

Jackson

We were all buzzing, we were at The Dome and getting ready for our gig, it was nice to be playing somewhere different and we had heard that there were going to be record producers in the audience. Esme and the girls were coming and we were the first act on so we could enjoy the rest of the bands, too. We hadn’t played here in nearly four months, since we first came back to Plushton, so much had happened it felt like a lifetime ago.

“Hey, man, you ready for this?” Rick asked me.

“Yeah, totally… Are the girls here yet?”

“Marce just text me, they should be here any minute, they have their backstage passes so are gonna come see us first, before we go on.”

“Ok, great.”
We were sat in our dressing room, chilling out before the show, we had some beer and a couple bottles of Jack.

“Hey, guys, you got visitors.” One of the bouncers said as he stuck his head in the door.

“Bring them in.” Rick said. The bouncer stepped back and Marcy flew in the room and straight into Rick’s arms.

“Babe, you must be so excited… This is so cool. There are lots of people out there.” Rick began to kiss Marcy in an attempt to keep her quiet.
Esme walked in with Kate and Danni and they sat on the sofa but Esme came and sat on my lap.

“Hey, baby. You ok?” I whispered in her ear. She nodded her head then she turned to me and gave me a quick kiss on the lips. “Is that all I get?” She giggled and threw her arms around my neck and kissed me deeply.

“Come on you lot, get a room.” Danni said.
I pulled away from Es as Rick pulled away from Marcy, just as there was a knock on the door. A woman walked in and said;

“Five minutes, boys.”

“Aaahh, so excited, we better go find our seats.” Esme said as she kissed me again.

“Ok, we will come find you after.” I told her.
The girls left the room and we got up and made our way to the stage.
Once we were introduced, we walked on and my eyes immediately went in search for Esme. The girls were all sitting in the front row, Esme looked directly at me and I gave her my panty dropping smile, just like I did all those months ago.

Esmeralda

The guys sounded so good, everyone enjoyed the show and we were waiting for them to join us. It had been thirty minutes since their show finished and they were still nowhere in sight so we decided to go back stage and look for them. Danni and Kate decided to stay and watch the group that were performing.

“Let’s check the room they were in before.” Marcy told me.

“Ok… Do you think we should wait just in case they are in a meeting or something?”

“Hell no, I want my man.”
I followed behind Marcy and showed the bouncers our back stage passes. We made our way to their room and the door was open and the room was filled with people. We tried to squeeze our way in, whilst doing so we earnt ourselves dirty looks from some girls.

“Where are they? Are they definitely in here?” I asked Marcy.

“Yeah, they’re over there… With all those girls hanging off them… Oh no they don’t.” Marcy stormed ahead leaving me trailing behind her, she stood in front of Rick with her hands on her hips.

“Hey, Angel.” He said to her as he walked away from the girls and straight to her. He put his hands on either side of her face and kissed her.

I looked around and couldn’t see Jax, then I felt some hands grab at my hips from behind and I yelped.

“It’s just me, baby.” Jax whispered in my ear. I turned around and as he moved closer to me pressing our bodies together, I looked over his shoulder and was being glared at by a lot of girls.
I stood on my tiptoes, put my arms around his neck and kissed him, he was mine and all these girls would know that by the end of the night.

“What’s going on Rick?” I heard Marcy ask quite loudly, which made me stop kissing Jax and look for her.

“Nothing, Angel, there are certain people who are given back stage passes and they wanted to meet us.”

“You mean all these skanks just want in your pants?”

“No, Marcy, come on you knew there would be lots of people here.”

“Yeah, I knew. But I’m NOT ok with them all touching you.”

“Me neither, Angel. I just want your hands on me… Especially now. Seeing you get all possessive of me.” He then winked at her and it looked like she had melted a little bit.

“Rick, Marce, let’s go out and enjoy the rest of the show.” Jax told them as he grabbed my hand and we started heading for the door.

“Hey, where have you all been?” Kate asked as we all arrived back to the show.

“Oh, we just had to go pull some skanks off these guys.” Marcy told them, she looked over her shoulder at Rick and he was laughing. “It’s not funny, I don’t want them all over MY man!”

“Come dance with me, Angel?”
She nodded and he led her over to a little area where people were dancing.

“I’m gonna grab a drink, anyone want one?” Jax asked.

“Vodka and coke, please.” I asked.

“No, we are fine thanks, where are Will and Frank?” Danni asked.

“Back stage probably getting it on with some groupies.” Jax said as he walked away to the bar.

“You ok?” Kate asked me.

“Yeah… just… I’m not used to the whole groupie thing. It’s gonna take some time getting my head around it.”
They both nodded their heads in agreement with me. I looked over towards the bar and saw Jax was talking to a girl, I couldn’t help the jealousy that I felt inside. I did trust Jax, he had never been unfaithful to Cindy and he was used to this whole scene, being nice to his fans, I guessed. Rick had told me about the summer tour, but Jax hadn’t mentioned it to me yet. I didn’t know what was going to happen to us once he left, and I wasn’t sure I could cope with this lifestyle. It was a lot to take in, but was he worth it? Yes, he definitely was.

Cindy

I walked into The Archer to find Jax; he couldn’t be dating that nerdy girl behind the bar, he was mine, I needed him. As I walked in, I saw him stood at the bar with her, they were all touchy feely and little kisses here and there, it made me feel angry.
She was going to pay for this, pay for taking my man away. If she wasn’t around, he would have forgiven me about the affairs and we would be on the way to marriage and that meant his money for me. That’s what I wanted, what I needed.
It was getting near the end of the night and I saw Jax sitting at a table with the other guys, so I went up to him and said; “Jax, I need to talk to you.”

“I’m not interested, Cindy.” He said and went back to talking to Rick.

“Please, Jax, just five minutes.” I said as sweetly as possible.

“Fine, five minutes. That’s all because I’m sure I’ve heard it all before.” He said to me.
I pulled him away from the other guys and made sure that we were in line with the bar so that little bar bitch could see us.

“Get on with it, Cindy.” He said to me, sounding really uninterested.

“Jax, baby, we’re so good together. Come on, you don’t want a nerdy girl like that when you can have a woman like me.”

“What? I can’t believe your saying this. It’s over.”

“No, come on, you remember what it was like, the passion, just let me remind you.” I said, trying to convince him to take me back.

“No, Cindy, you were the one that screwed all this up, you were the one that slept with Will and Frank and God knows who else.”

He shook his head at me and went to walk away. I grabbed his arm and pulled him back and went to kiss him but he jumped out of the way quickly and said to me;

“It is all your fault we’re not together and I should thank you, because of you, I met that gorgeous girl over there.” He pointed towards the bar.
I was angry, and needed to hurt him, and her. He would not get away with being happy while I was miserable, I needed him and that band, and now Will and Frank wouldn’t have anything to do with me either.

“Yeah, well, let me tell you something about your precious girl, she knew. She knew I was sleeping with Will and Frank.” As I said it, his head snapped up and looked towards her at the bar. She looked worried and she should have been, I thought to myself. He stormed over to the bar and I just stood there watching with the biggest smile on my face. If I couldn’t have him, she won’t either.

Esmeralda

The lights to the bar came on, and that was the signal to let everyone know we were closing in thirty minutes. I’d been happy and cheerful all day. I’d just kept replaying mine and Jackson’s first time together, and every time together since. Yeah, it hurt like hell at the start but when the pain was gone it was so good, especially in the shower when he made me bend over and place my hands flat on the tiled wall, then took me from behind. I needed to stop thinking about this, I probably had the stupidest look on my face all night. I cleared my head and started cleaning the bar area; the sooner I did that the sooner I would get to go home and hopefully, not alone.
I looked up to see if Jax was still around and I had a feeling of dread in my stomach, he was talking to Cindy. It looked quite heated and he looked like he was getting angry. Then all of a sudden his head snapped up and he was staring at me and it wasn’t a nice look; he looked angry. He started making his way over to the bar and I swallowed nervously, what could have been wrong? I couldn’t think what it could have been, could he be coming to tell me he had made a mistake and he was getting back together with Cindy? God, I hoped not. I felt sick all of a sudden that my world was about to come crashing down, I looked around to see if there was a bucket or anything around in case I had to throw up.

“Jax?” I asked worriedly

“Is it true?” He asked.

“What? Is what true?” I asked, not knowing what he was going on about.

“You knew? About Cindy cheating on me?”
I looked over his shoulder and could see Cindy standing with her arms crossed and she was smirking at me, as if to say she had won.

“Jax, let me explain. It’s not like that.” I said quickly.

“Go on then, explain”

“Can we talk about this later? At home?” I asked, I really didn’t want an audience for this.

“No, I want to know. Did you know?” He asked again.

I nodded my head and went to speak but he had already turned around and walked out the door. My heart sunk and I turned around and threw up in a nearby bucket.

“Hey, Esme, you ok?” Rick asked, jumping over the bar.
I just shook my head and felt tears falling down my face.

“What’s happened? Where has Jax gone?” He asked.

“He left.” I whispered to him.

“Left? Why would he leave without you, he has been non-stop talking about you all day.” He told me.

“I saw Cindy and Frank together once and heard her and Will together. I didn’t say anything because she threatened me not to. I didn’t know what to do. I never thought we would actually be together and now I’ve ruined it all.” I said, as I started crying.

“Moving on already? I think I will go get what’s mine.” I heard Cindy snarl.
I saw her leave through the same door that Jax did.

“Oh God, I’ve lost him now. What am I going to do?” I asked Rick as he held me while my heart broke.

Jackson

I left the bar and stood outside but was a bit unsure of where to go. In the end, I just started walking down the street when I heard someone call my name, I immediately thought of Esme. But I was wrong, when I turned around I saw that it was Cindy running towards me.

“Baby, wait for me. I can make it all better for you.” She said to me and I shuddered at the thought of letting her near me again.

“Go away, Cindy.” I said to her as I carried on walking.

“No, Jax, we were good together, me and you, like old times. I won’t cheat on you again, I promise.” She pleaded with me.

“No, Cindy, I can’t. You wanna know why?” I stopped and she nodded her head. I carried on and shouted at her; “I am in love with that girl in there.”
Cindy gasped and looked horrified and started saying “No, no you can’t be, she lied to you, she knew what I was doing, she never told you, she kept it from you.”

“I can’t help who I love.” I said to her and then walked away. I jumped in a taxi to get away from her.
I got the taxi to take me back to Rick’s flat. I couldn’t keep sleeping on his sofa, I needed to get a place of my own. Maybe after our summer tour I would look into it, we were leaving in a couple months, so it seemed pointless now.
I got to Rick’s, found a bottle of whiskey and started drowning my sorrows, until I heard the door go and Rick call my name.

“Yeah, in here.” I shouted back, I was sat on his worn sofa that he had had forever.
Rick walked in, looked at me and shook his head.

“What?” I asked.

“She is breaking her heart... Cindy threatened her.” He explained to me.

“What are you talking about?”

“Cindy pinned her up against the toilet wall in the bar and threatened her not to tell you about Will and Frank, she is in pieces, man. She wanted to tell you but didn’t know what was best to do. I took her home. When I left, she had just crawled into bed like her heart was breaking.”

I didn’t know what to do with this information, I couldn’t get my head around the fact that she didn’t tell me. How could we have a relationship if she was keeping things from me? I would need a couple days away from her to figure things out.