She's Dating the Gangster (17 page)

papasok na rin ako. goodnight..”

“Kenji wait..” hinawakan ko yung kamay niya.. “I have to tell you something really important.”

“Ano yun?”

“I.. I.. I..”

“I, what?”

“I… I.. I love you.” Habang nakatingin ako sa kanya, hinde nag bago expression ng mukha niya.

“Ano ka ba. Bakit ba masyado kang nagiging seryoso? Ok ka lang ba?” ok, I wasnt expecting this kind of reply.

“Because I am serious. Seryoso ako sa mga sinabi ko..sa nafefeel ko. I love you Kenji..”

He lightly poked my forehead “Yung binitawan mong salita, parang katumbas sa pag sabing hinde ka

makahinga. Alam mo ba yun? Sige na. umuwi ka na. Goodnight.” after my confession ganito ang nakuha ko. what’s wrong with him?? Just fcukin tell me if he doesn’t feel the same way!

“You know what?! Fine! Just forget about everything that I have said! It meant nothing naman diba, kasi I was TOO SERIOUS! Just don’t mock me about this. Sorry for feeling this way. Goodnight.”

Tumalikod ako then nag start na akong maglakad papunta sa car. Gusto kong tingnan yung reaction

niya! nakakapikon siya. Ewan ko ba kung bakit ako nag kakaganito, eh sabi ko naman diba na ‘wala

akong pakialam sa kung ano ang sasabihin niya, positive or negative..it doesn’t matter..right?

I was about to open the door ng car pero nag salita siya

“Athena wait.. I can’t..” naka pause lang ako dun. Not moving. Not moving. Not moving. “I can’t.. I can’t breathe..”

I can’t sleep.. 1:58 am na.. and si Kenji pa rin naiisip ko.. ano bang ibig niyang sabihin dun sa ‘I can’t breathe?’ niya? he’s weird. That’s why I left him standing. Hinde niya alam kung anong feeling ng isang taong nagcoconfess sa taong love niya then biglang ang weird ng reply.. It was supposed to be serious because it came from my heart you wacko!

“I can’t breathe.. Psh. My heart is aching, dummy.”

“I… I.. I love you. ”

“Ano ka ba. Bakit ba masyado kang nagiging seryoso? Ok ka lang ba?”

“Because I am serious. Seryoso ako sa mga sinabi ko..sa nafefeel ko. I love you Kenji..”

“Yung binitawan mong salita, parang katumbas sa pag sabing hinde ka makahinga. Alam mo ba yun?

Sige na. umuwi ka na. Goodnight.”

“Katumbas sa pag sabing hinde ka makahinga..” I got up from bed then turned on my monitor.

“He’s on.. message ko kaya?” I changed my status to online, para he’ll be the one to message me.

5 minutes had passed. Pero wala pa rin. I guess he’s asleep na or nag tatampo.. bumalik ako sa mya bed tapos humiga.

My cellphone suddenly vibrated.. someone’s calling me. I checked my phone and I saw the name ‘CROO

CROO’ flashing on the screen. It’s him! He called!

I flipped my phone

“Athena..”

“Kenji yah.. mi an hae..” *mi an hae = sorry+

“Algettso..Bogoshipda..” *al get soh = I understand; bogoshipda = I miss you+

“Na do.” *me too+

“Yun lang alam ko. hehe! Hinde na ako makapag construct ng sentence sa Korean. Gawa mo?”

“Wala naka higa lang.. ikaw?” 'Iniisip ka.' i said to myself

“Eto.. iniisip ka. Lumilipad yung kukote ko papunta sayo..” OK.. I can’t stop myself from smiling. Sweet pala siya pag madaling araw eh.

“Baka naman sa iba yan lumilipad ha..”

“Hinde ah. Sayo noh. Ay wait.. I can’t breathe..”

“I love you too..”

“BUTI NAMAN AT NA-GETS MO NA!” OMG! Does he have to do the shouting part??? JESUS!

“HEY! You don’t have to shout!!” I heard him giggled

“Slow ka kasi eh. nakakaasar. Iniwan mo pa ako kanina dun.” I giggled

“Eh nakakaasar ka kasi eh. Ang tino nung pagkasabi ko, tapos biglang sasabihin mo sakin na masyado akong seryoso..” *yawns*

“Sorry na nga diba? Wag ka na magalit, ok? Sige, matulog ka na.. baka mag bago pa isip ko at kausapin pa kita ng matagal sa phone..”

“Okay.. good night..” I was about to end the call..

“Athena, I really can’t breathe..” then he hung up.

Dahil dun, nakatulog ako ng naka smile. YES, I KNOW. I AM A LOSER… IN LOVE.

I woke up around 10 am. Of course, etong si Sara, nag tanong kaagad tungkol sa nangyari samin ni Kenji yesterday. Eto naman ako, nag kwento. Siyempre masaya ako sa mga nangyayari sa amin eh.. dapat

naman siguro akong maging proud dahil dun, right?

Nakapag lunch na ako pero hinde pa rin nag-paparamdam si Kenji. Baka tulog pa. grabe, couch potato. 2

pm nag check na ko ng computer, baka kasi may nag message na or whatnot.. si Kenji, as usual.. naka online. Pero BUSY siya. busy saan?

Princess Athena: Busy with what!?

He didn’t reply. IS HE REALLY BUSY??

Princess Athena: My Sexylove’s a snub ! T_T

Meanie! He didn’t reply. Maybe he is busy. I checked my MySpace, I got a lot of invites.. 1 week lang akong hinde nag check tapos may 24 invites na ko. and I have 11 new comments.

Siyempre ang pinaka una kong nakita ay yung kay Kenji, ‘I MISS YOU BABE!’ naka CAPS na nga tapos ang laki pa ng font size. So cheesy. I have a cheesy boyfriend. Come on.

After browsing the net for 46 minutes, a pop-up came.

Athena’s Sushi: SORRY BABE! Was busy.

OMG! Babe?! Since when did he start to call me babe? Why is he being mushy?

Princess Athena: Who’s babe?

Athena’s Sushi: Uhh.. you are? Anyway, it’s almost 3 pm and I miss you badly.

Princess Athena: why are you calling me babe suddenly? I miss you too. Jigs’ here.. He brought some food for Sara! IM SO JEALOUS!

YES! I AM JEALOUS! My boyfriend’s busy with some stuff that I don’t know while Jigs’ here, visiting Sara..

ok, so what if I exaggerated. He didn’t bring food for Sara. It was just a lollipop. I just want him to rush over.

Athena’s Sushi: Talaga? Oks. So gusto mo ba bago kong iskrin neym?? Palitan mo rin yung sayo!

No. Coz he has two Athenas in his life. Athena 1 or Athena 2? ‘Coz I’m Athena 2.

Princess Athena: Sino bang Athena yan? 1 or 2?

Athena’s Sushi: Sino pa ba? Edi yung 1.

Princess Athena: Then I don’t like it. I’m Athena 2. I hate you.

Athena’s Sushi: I call her BEE. Kung si Bee yung tinutukoy ko then it should be BEE’S SUSHI. Not

ATHENA’S. stupid.

Wala lang. gusto ko lang i-explain niya sa akin, para naman kiligin ako. HIHI!

Athena’s Sushi: Baguhin mo na! amp!! ALIS TAYO! BIHIS KA NA! May sasabihin pa ko sayo eh.

Change? Why should I? I love my SN! Aalis? Where to?

SL’s Athena: Ok. BE HERE IN 5 MINUTES! Kenji, 사랑해요! [saranghaeyo]

LOSER ALERT. I changed my SN just for him >.< What’s taking him so long to reply?! Is he THAT busy??

LB’s Kenji: NA DO, SARANGHAE! ^__________________^v

OH. He changed his SN pa pala. OMG! SERIOUSLY! Where’s my KENJI?? What happened?? He’s

changed.. >.< dapat masaya ako diba? Pero bakit parang ang weird nung feeling??? Parang nasusuka ako kasi.. iba na siya! OMG!

At exactly 5 minutes dumating si Kenji. Wow. He’s fast. As usual, naka jeans na shorts lang siya tapos shirt and a beanie. Bakit ba kelangan na lang palagi siyang mag mukhang gwapo sa harap ko? Can’t he like…. Look ugly just for once? Sigh.

Nung nakita niya ko, his reaction was so… normal. He doesn’t seem to miss me, and it looks like he’s not serious dun sa pag tawag niya sakin ng BABE! Thank God. although it was pretty much disappointing.

We went to a sushi bar in BF (see. everything’s in bf!) as we finished ordering our food, he started talking na.

“Babe.” What?

“What did you call me?”

“Babe?”

“Ohh. I though I heard it wrong. What’s up?” he smiled. Stop smiling. Can’t you see you’re burning! >_< (it means he’s HOT)

“Wag ka ng mag-english. Nahahawa ako eh. Ay oo nga pala, ok lang ba kung magtatrabaho ako? kasi

ayoko ng humingi ng pera sa parents ko eh. gusto kong maranasan yung paghihirap ng tao para lang

kumita ng pera.” JOB?! KENJI DELOS REYES’ LOOKING FOR A JOB?! “Wag mo nga akong tingnan ng

ganyan. Hinde ako nag loloko.”

Still staring. O_O

“Anak ng! YOU’RE FREAKING ME OUT!! STOP IT!” I blinked twice “AMP! Tama na!!”

I giggled. “San mo balak mag trabaho? Baka naman mawalan ka ng time sa akin niyan..” then I pouted.

“Basta malapit sa school.” is he talking about this place? Eto lang yung kainan na malapit sa school eh, unless ibang work yung gusto niya.

“This is the nearest. You might wanna ask na para maayos.”

“Oo nga noh. Wait lang ok?” tumayo siya then he went to the cashier. Girl yung kinakausap niya, and she’s making pa-cute kay Kenji. UMM.. GIRLFRIEND RIGHT HERE? Nagpunta sila sa may office nung sushi bar. The store’s name is ASIANIZED. Korean, Japanese at Chinese foods yung sineserve nila. Sushi bar lang talag gusto kong i-tawag.

Dumating na yung order namin, pero wala pa rin si Kenji. I swear pag labas nung dalawang yun

masasapak ko sila! Aish. After ilang minutes lumabas na silang dalawa, naka smile sila pareho, KENJI YA!!! YOU BAE BAN JA! [Traitor]

I started eating my food pag kadating niya sa table namin. Snob him. Snob him. Don’t smile Athena.

“She’s cute, right?” sinabi niya while smiling at the cashier girl. Stop smiling you idiot. You’re girlfriend’s here.

“Sure. Whatever.” I said coldly.

“Nag-seselos ka ba?” me jealous?! OF COURSE NOT!!!

I shook my head. “Kumain ka na. gutom lang yan.” he grinned at me.

“Tanggap na ako. I just have to pass my resume bukas tapos I can start na raw sa Monday. Wag ka ng mag selos. Natuwa lang ako dun sa babae kasi nagmakaawa siya dun sa manager na tanggapin ako.

hinde ko siya gusto, ok babe?”

OMG! The girl begged? Ibig sabihin gusto niya si Kenji at palagi na silang mag kikita!! Life’s unfair.

“Alam niyang girlfriend kita, at pinapasabi niya nga pala sayo na maganda ka at bagay daw tayo.” Ok, hinde ko matago yung smile ko. Malay ko ba na ganun pala yun.. ok she’s not on my hate list.

3 days ng nag-wowork si Kenji sa sushi bar, after class ihahatid niya muna ako pauwi ng bahay tapos didiretso na siya sa work niya. from 4-10 pm yung work niya, wala siyang break.. so pag uwi niya sa bahay, mag shoshower na siya at matutulog. Oo tama kayo, hinde siya gumagawa ng assignments niya!

gagawin niya lang yun sa school unless research yung assignment, dun lang siya gagawa.

3 days na rin kaming nagbobonding ni Kirby. Inamin na niya sa akin na napapadalas yung pakikipag away niya, although hinde naman siya yung nag sstart nung fight. We've been IM-ing for 3 consecutive nights already. Kinukulit niya ako about kay Kenji, while ako fishing parin sa love life niya..

Fall Out Boy: Hoy lab beyb! Punatahan natin si seksi lab mo! sunduin kita jan oks?

SL’s Athena: Now na?

Fall Out Boy: Uu.

Uu?? WTF?! Does he need to drop some ‘bomb’?

SL’s Athena: Kelangan mo mag cr? Sige, bilis.

Fall Out Boy: Boploks! Hinde. Sabi ko, OO. Punta na ko jan. babayoo!”

He logged off. I changed my clothes and waited for Kirby outside the house. Pag punta namin sa sushi bar, hinde kami makapaniwala sa nakita namin.

ANG DAMING TAO! Lahat ng tables may mga customer. Tapos si Kenji kumukuha ng order sa isang table

na puro babae. He’s not even wearing his uniform! Teka, required nga ba silang mag uniform?

We went to the last table near the door since yun na lang yung table na bakante. Magkatabi kami ni Kirby para pareho namin makita si Kenji. Halos 3 minutes namin siyang pinag mamasdan at hinde pa rin siya umuupo, walang tigil yung pag tawag sa kanya ng mga customer.

“Nag bago na si young master ha! Dati ayaw na ayaw niyang pabalik balik siya, pero ngayon walang tigil oh.” Young master kasi tawag kay Kenji sa bahay nila, since MASTER naman talaga siya.

I agreed sa sinabi ni Kirby, sa lahat ng ayaw niya yung uutusan siya tapos pabalik-balik lalo na yung ikapapagod niya tapos hinde siya may kelangan nung bagay na yun. Pero ibang Kenji yung nakikita

namin ngayon, seryoso ba talaga siya sa mga ginagawa niya?

After another 3 minutes napansin na rin kami, pero hinde niya kami nakilala since nakasuot si Kirby ng cap at naka tago yung mukha ko sa may menu.

“Anong order niyo?” what the… ganun siya mag tanong sa isang customer?? Hinde ba parang ang

bastos nun?

“Pare hinde ba parang ang bastos ng pagkatanong mo samin? Baka gusto mong i-report ka namin sa

manager mo?”

“Anong proble---PAPS! Sino tong kasama mo? Bago mong chick?” Hinde niya pa pala ako namukaan, sa

bagay.. hinde naman ako nag tatali ng buhok eh..

“Oo, bago kong chick. Teka ipapakilala ko sayo.” kinuha niya yung menu para ma expose ung mukha ko kay Kenji then I smiled, “Surprise ko sayo.”

“ATHENA!!” lahat nung tao napatingin sa table namin nung sinabi niya yung name ko. then nag

bulungan sila.

I smiled at Kenji tapos tumayo sa seat ko para lumipat ng upuan para tabi kami.

“Teka anong ginagawa niyo dito? 9 na ha!”

“Para sunduin ka. Sige maiwan ko muna kayo, kakausapin ko yung babae dun.” Tumayo si Kirby at

pinuntahan yung girl sa may cashier.

“Mukhang malakas itong restaurant na to simula nugn nag work ka dito ha?”

“Siyempre. Gwapo yung nagseserve sa kanila eh.” hinde pa rin nawawala pagiging conceited niya.

Pag balik ni Kirby sa table namin naka smile siya, “Tara na. ok na lahat paps!” tumingin kami dun sa girl sa may cashier na nakasmile. Ano kayang sinabi ni Kirby dun sa babae at pumayag na pauwiin ng maaga si Kenji? Hmm.

Umalis na kami sa sushi bar tapos nag punta sa Central para uminom. Ok I was the one who asked them out. Hehe! I feel like drinking, so what? Girls can’t drink ba? Iba na generation ngayon lovers!

Habang umiinom kami, hinde nila maiwasan ang pagusapan yung work ni Kenji, nag tatanong tungkol sa mga babaeng customers si Kirby, kung madami daw bang chicks at kung may nakuha na siyang number.

“EXCUSE ME!! Andito girlfriend!” tumingin sila sa akin tapos tumawa.

“Sabi na sayo eh!” sabi ni Kirby kay Kenji. Kenji smiled at him. What did he tell him? What are they talking about??

Medyo nahihilo na ko, pero ok lang. we’re drinking ‘badtrip’ mababadtrip ka nga. Traitor din eh! I placed my arm on the table para ma-rest ko yung head ko.

“Teka nga pala Kenji, ano na nangyari sa inyo ni Abi?” Abi who?

“Wala.. friends? Wala naman siyang sinabi nung sinabi ko sa kanyang seryoso na ako kay Athena..

bahala daw ako..” HEY AKO YUN AH!! Awww.. my lovey dovey’s serious about being with me..

“Ahh.. akala ko nagka problema pa eh. teka, pano pag bumalik siya..?” tahimik lang si Kenji, “Babalikan mo pa ba?”

“HINDE!” I got up and I answered Kirby’s question, unconsciously. “Hinde kita hahayaang bumalik sa kanya. I wont let you.. No..”

They were staring at me.

After my sweeeeeeeeet confession, I ended throwing up in the cr. Medyo ok na ko, kaya umuwi na kami.

Thursday, October 19, 2006. 59 days with the Gangster.

I was having a BAD HANGOVER. I have to wake up early kasi may pasok pa! Sara already left the house, 9:00 am na ako nagising. Nagready na ako tapos nag pahatid ako kay Mang Danny sa school. so it took me 7 minutes, since sa main gate kami dadaan.

I was excused, because I made a letter. So everything was settled. I entered class like any ordinary day.

Parang hinde ako nalate noh? 2 hours and 45 minutes na lang and titiisin ko. Bad headache. It was really a bad idea drinking during weekdays. The bell rang 2 times already. Yung unang ring, warning na time na at may 5 minutes ka na lang para pumunta sa kanya kanya niyong classroom, yung 2nd one naman

kelangan nasa room ka na. if wala ka pa sa room then ibig sabihin you’ll be needing a late slip na, para maka pasok ng class.