The Dawn of Christmas (15 page)

“I don’t remember meeting them. Old Order Mennonites can have electricity. Why would she take a step into a harder life?”

“Because they fell in love, and she wants to be a part of his family, his church, and his business.”

His words made her mouth and throat go dry. “Oh.”

Levi drew a deep breath. “Omar, our bishop, has a lot of love for people, and as a bishop he can make it easy and appealing for people to return if they’ve left Apple Ridge or to join their loved ones here to build a life, like Jonah did with Beth.”

She heard his words, but after he said “fell in love,” she couldn’t pay much attention. Running the brush down Bay’s side again and again, she held her tongue, afraid her voice would betray her.

“We’ve missed most of it.” Levi fidgeted with Bay’s mane. “But if we go, the gathering will only include five couples. They had an indoor picnic earlier, but tonight they’ll roast marshmallows inside, drink apple cider, and play board games.”

She moved to the far side of Bay, staying focused on the short red hairs flying as she brushed the horse. What kind of people pretended to be a couple to those they cared about?

Or were she and Levi only pretending to each other?

“I guess.” Emotions caught in her throat again, and she turned her back to him and walked to the weathered barn wall where she laid the
brush on a chest-high beam. When she turned, Levi was directly in front of her.

There it was again—that feeling of him wanting something. Hadn’t she sensed this same thing in him for weeks now? She could ask him about it, but as she looked into his eyes, she knew the answer.

And he wasn’t the only one who’d like to stop their pretend courtship long enough to share a very real kiss.

Go around him, Sadie
. But she stood there, feet planted, staring up at him like a schoolgirl. “What have we done, Levi?”

“I wish I knew.” He sounded as confused as she felt, but he brought one hand to her face and caressed it. “Still, I think any courtship that’s lasted three months should include one kiss.”

Her heart turned a flip, wanting the same thing he did. From what he’d told her, it’d be his first kiss.

He looked at her face where his fingers barely touched her skin. “Seems like when I’m gray, this old bachelor should at least know what it’s like to put his lips against yours.”

His words were a mix of keeping up their pretense and letting it slip that he didn’t want to experience just any kiss. He wanted to kiss her.

Is this who they were, only able to share their hearts when pretending they weren’t?

“Seems like.” She let her response continue their stupid charade, too afraid to let him know that somewhere along the way over the past three months, she’d crossed over from their faux nonsense into truly caring.

He lowered his mouth to hers. Stiffness greeted her lips, sort of like being kissed by a warm rock.

“Relax, Levi.” She tugged on the collar of his coat. “Release your expectations and preconceived ideas. Let nothing get between us.”

He moved his lips over hers again, and in one shared breath, her
guard—and his—melted. His arms tightened around her, and as she let herself be lost in his embrace, she pushed away the question clamoring at her heart and mind …

How would she ever again convince herself that what they had was only make-believe?

Beth leaned over her desk and jotted down more notes for the morning meeting. In the distance a rooster crowed over and over, grating on her nerves. It’d begun its nonsense thirty minutes before sunrise, and it’d been daylight for about that long too. Wishing it’d stop, she opened a drawer and pulled out a file.

Her abdomen contracted again. Braxton Hicks contractions. That’s what the midwife had called them. It was a sort of false labor the body used as it geared up for the real thing.

She glanced at the clock on her office wall, waiting for her muscles to relax. The night had been a long one because the tightness awakened her at least once an hour. Were the contractions getting harder?

Someone tapped on her office door, and before she had enough air to respond, Jonah opened it. “Everyone’s here, and we’ve cleared enough space for a circle of twenty chairs. You ready?”

“Soon.”

“Would you like a cinnamon roll?”

“No, denki.” Another contraction made her heart rate go wild. It was just December 10. How many more weeks needed to pass before she’d be full term? Maybe she’d calculated wrong.

Holding that hope, she forced a smile and began gathering her papers. “I’ll be right there.”

He winked and closed the door, and she swiped the papers and folders off her desk calendar. Today was December 10. The doctor set her due date as January 21.

Maybe he was wrong. But what if he wasn’t?

She pulled air into her lungs, wishing she could get a full breath.

“Beth?” Jonah called.

She grabbed a red pen and circled the date on her calendar, counting the days until she’d be full term. The midwife said there was a difference between premature and preterm—a vitally important difference. What had she explained? The pen squeaked as Beth marked each day. She’d be full term December 31. That was … nineteen, twenty, twenty-one days from now.

Could their child survive if born this early? She wiped perspiration from her forehead.
Look at what you’re doing to yourself, Beth. They’re Braxton Hicks, and you’ve got yourself all keyed up over it
.

“Beth.” Jonah opened the door. His eyes moved to the papers in the floor, the pen in her hand, and the red marks on the calendar.

She smiled. “Sorry. I’m getting clumsier with each passing day.”

“Not a problem.” He picked up the mess, sorting out her meeting notes from the invoices.

She peered out the door.

With the exception of her and Jonah and Mattie and her husband, Gideon, everyone else attending was an employee.

Gideon stood next to Mattie, one hand on her back as they talked with Lillian. Gideon’s eyes reflected such joy, and he looked vibrant and strong. He’d been given another clean bill of health a few weeks back. There was no trace of the rare cancer that had tried to destroy him. Mattie’s return to Apple Ridge had allowed Gideon and her to face the truth that they loved each other enough to face an uncertain future together.

Beth thought about Levi. He wasn’t here, but he’d been out of his neck brace for a few weeks now, another tale of woe turned into triumph. She could remember trials and triumphs in the life of almost everyone she knew.

Still, her heart beat faster and faster. Surely she and Jonah would have a triumph too. In fact, a beautiful little triumph to cherish for the rest of their days. But one common thread ran through each victory: no one had ignored their symptoms while hoping for the best.

She laid the pen on her desk. “Jonah, honey.”

He looked up from the mess of papers on the floor, and the confidence in his eyes turned to concern. “Something wrong?”

She shrugged. “I’m not sure.”

He moved toward her. “Do you need to be seen?”

“Probably not.” She hated to cause the worry she saw in Jonah’s eyes. “But maybe we—” Suddenly Beth felt a jolt, as if the baby was sideways. Another contraction tightened across her stomach, stealing her breath. She clutched Jonah’s hand.

He grabbed the phone. “I’m calling the midwife.”

A gust of frigid air thrashed against Levi as he left the barn, leading the last horse toward Daniel’s trailer.

Daniel had pen in hand and a forearm planted firmly on the papers piled on the hood of the truck. “She’s number twenty-six fourteen, right?”

Tip sat inside the cab, talking on his cell phone.

“Technically,”—Levi patted the mare’s strong cheek—“her name is Angel.”

Like nearly everything in his life these days, she was a source of
memories that connected Levi to Sadie. Tobias and Sadie had sat on a fence while Levi worked with Angel, and they’d each ridden her, helping him make sure the horse listened to women and children almost as easily as she listened to him.

He directed Angel up the ramp and into the trailer and closed the gate. One more task accomplished, and that meant he was one step closer to his date tonight with Sadie—an evening he hoped would change both of their futures.

After their kiss six days ago, he could no longer ignore the truth: he loved her. He couldn’t let her leave without telling her how he felt. Sure, her plans were in place, but he could wait for her to return. Why not wait? It wasn’t as if he was giving up anything—except time with her. He could wait.

That night, after the kiss, they’d gone to Beth and Jonah’s. The evening of parlor games and fellowship had been a lot of fun, but he’d spent most of the time trying to figure out what to say to Sadie. On the way home, he’d told her to think about what she really wanted from their relationship and he’d do the same, and they’d talk about it next week.

Levi moved to the front of the truck. Daniel held up some papers and motioned to Tip, who was still on the phone behind the wheel.

Tip ended his phone conversation and got out. “I think we’ve got three of the four horses placed already. There’s a man a hundred and fifty miles north of here who wants to see them. If he agrees they’re all I told him they are, we’ll get top dollar.”

“Good.” Daniel passed him the papers. “You know what to do.”

Tip headed for the house. Andy handled the business end of Daniel’s arrangements with the Fisher brothers.

Levi was headed inside to get warm and have some breakfast, but Daniel wanted to talk. He leaned against the truck cab and pulled a pack
of gum from his coat pocket. “You’re raking in a lot of dough off these horses lately, aren’t you?”

Levi chuckled. “We aren’t doing bad, me and you.”

“Not bad? I’d say that’s how we’ve been doing the past few years. But since being thrown from Amigo, you seem to have figured out the key to taming horses.” He held out the pack to Levi.

Levi took a stick and put it in his pocket for later. He wasn’t much for chewing gum, but Sadie liked it. He hoped that, after her week of thinking about their upcoming conversation, she’d accept how he felt. He’d certainly count that as a step in the right direction, but it’d be the night of his life if she actually had feelings for him too.

Daniel played with the foil wrapper, straightening it and flipping it. “It’ll take me and Tip most of the day to make our deliveries, but we’ll be back to pick you up if you want to go to the auction tonight.”

“I have other plans.”

“What?” Daniel’s brows arched. “This seems to be a regular occurrence of late. Are you seriously seeing somebody?”

“I hope so … I mean, we haven’t talked about how we feel or where we’re going.”

Daniel poked his shoulder, grinning. “I’ll tell you how to feel—like your tail’s on fire and you should run for the hills.”

“I got plenty of that going on.” Levi needed no encouragement when it came to wanting to run from relationships. But Sadie was different. “We met in July, so I think I’m getting to know her pretty well.”

“Are you tellin’ me this is the same girl you dumped me for in August?”

“I showed up at the auction.”

“Ya, hours late and completely spent.”

“Ya, it’s the same girl.”

“Really?” Daniel angled his head, apparently confused by Levi’s change of heart. “You need a ride into Stone Creek again?”

Levi chuckled. “You’re behind the times. She’s living in Apple Ridge with her grandmother.”

“You haven’t talked about her much.”

What could Levi say? He was pretending to court a girl and got caught in a very real snare?

Daniel crossed his arms, his breath a white vapor as he chewed his gum. “I guess it was bound to happen. You thinking about turning in your bachelor’s license?”

“Thinking about it—if there is such a thing.”

Daniel rolled his eyes. “You’re playing a dangerous game, man. You’ll be in love one minute and daydreaming of her demise the next. All the while she’ll be stacking the deck against you, and you won’t even know it.”

“Sadie’s not like that.”

“I believe you. You’ve got a knack for seeing into horses. I’m sure that works on females too.” Daniel chuckled. “Although you can clearly be wrong about horses, or you wouldn’t have been riding one that overreacts to fireworks on the Fourth of July.”