Total Abandon (3 page)

His groin flooded with heat as he caressed her.

Oh, man, what was he doing? He’d promised himself. If he moved ahead with this now, took her to bed as his hormones demanded, he’d ruin everything. He’d mess up any chance he had of winning her for the long haul.

And that was too important to blow for one night of passion, no matter how sweet the experience would be.

Summoning all of his willpower, he drew his hand from her ample breast and released her lips. Her eyes, still closed, quivered a little, then her eyelids opened. She stared at him, her olive eyes dazed.

“Sandra, I’ve really got to go.”

Slowly, comprehension seeped in and Sandra drew herself back. “Oh. Um, okay. Sorry.”

“Sandra, you and I … this…”

“No, I understand.” She stepped back, her cheeks flushing.

He grasped her hand, stopping her escape. “No, I don’t think you do. Look, we’re friends and I wouldn’t want to do something to ruin that.” His heart thundered in his chest. He wanted to say more, to be more reassuring, but he had to get away from her before he caved. He squeezed her hand. “Okay? Are we good?”

She gazed at him, her chin trembling a bit, but finally she nodded.

“Yeah. We’re good.” She shifted onto her tiptoes and kissed his cheek. “You’re a good friend, Devlin. Thanks.”

He nodded and picked up his shirt and jacket. “Anytime, friend. You going to be okay?”

She nodded. “Yeah. Of course. Thanks for the ride home.”

She followed him to the entrance and he opened the door.

“See you next week,” she said.

“Sure thing.”

As she closed the door behind him, leaving him in the abandoned hallway, he wondered if he’d just made the worst mistake of his life.

*   *   *

Sandra leaned against the door and sucked in a breath.

Oh, damn, how embarrassing. What the hell was I thinking?

She pushed herself from the door and walked to the bedroom, her cheeks still burning.

Devlin was her friend. And now she’d gone and thrown herself at him. How could she face him again?

Especially since he was so clearly not interested.

She stripped off her clothes and pulled on her pajama pants and cotton camisole. She went into the bathroom and grabbed her hairbrush, then gazed in the mirror as she pulled the brush through her long black hair.

For a little while there, she’d thought he’d been interested. She’d been sure she’d seen more than a spark of interest in his eyes. But clearly that had been the piña coladas affecting her brain.

She picked up her toothbrush and squeezed some toothpaste onto the bristles. She began to brush her teeth with vigorous strokes. What an idiot she’d been. If he’d been interested in her, he would have shown her by now. Sure, he knew she’d sworn off relationships after her divorce, but that never stopped a guy from trying when he wanted a woman. As her friend, maybe Devlin was more inclined to respect that boundary, but wouldn’t he have hinted at his interest somehow?

She rinsed her mouth and stuffed the toothbrush back into its stand.

If
he had been interested. Which clearly he wasn’t.

She strode into the bedroom and climbed under the covers. Now, if she could just forget the sting of her embarrassment and fall asleep, maybe tomorrow she could forget the whole thing. Or, at least, act as if she’d forgotten about it. Devlin, sweet guy he was, wouldn’t bring it up again. He was that kind of wonderful.

Remembering the kisses they’d shared, the feel of his muscular body against hers, her insides warmed again and, at the memory of his hand on her breast, her nipples ached. Oh, God. She had actually taken his hand and …

She pulled the covers over her head. How could she ever face him again?

*   *   *

As soon as Devlin got into his car and closed the door, he grabbed his cell phone and tapped in Aimee’s phone number.

“Hey, Aimee. I didn’t wake you, did I?”

“You kidding? You know I’m a night owl. So, did you make a move on Sandra?”

His heart skipped a beat. “Why would you ask that?”

“Oh, like I haven’t known you’ve had a thing for her from day one.”

He saw no reason to deny it. Aimee had a way of reading people.

“You’ve never mentioned it.”

“Why should I? You knew how Sandra felt about starting a relationship and you respected it.”

“Does Sandra know that I’m interested?”

“No. A guy would have to send her an engraved invitation with his intent before she’d believe he wanted her. So are you planning to pursue her?”

“Yes, but not yet. I want to form a real relationship with her. She won’t be ready for that with the first guy she goes out with. After swearing off men for a year, she’ll want to do some … I don’t know … experimenting before she settles down with one guy.” Roughly, he figured he should give it about six months.

“So you want to give her time to sow a few wild oats, then you’ll sweep her off her feet?”

“I’m not sure about that.”

“Well, don’t underestimate sweeping a gal off her feet. It’s really quite romantic.”

Romantic. He liked that.

“So how can I help?” she asked. “That is why you’re calling me, right?”

He smiled. Aimee really was sensational. If he didn’t have it so bad for Sandra …

“Well, I was thinking about that list you and Sandra made tonight,” he said. “Maybe we could get her to fast-track through her sexual exploration by doing the items on the list.”

“And you’d like me to arrange this miracle somehow.”

“Well, that would be nice.”

“And how would you feel knowing Sandra’s off having a threesome with a couple of other guys? Won’t you be jealous?”

“Sure, but I’ll live. And, say, if you could arrange it so I could watch…” He trailed off, a grin on his face.

“Well, sure, why not? It’s not as if it’s going to be hard to get her to follow the list in the first place. What’s that one small addition?”

He chuckled. “That’s the spirit.”

After he ended the call and slid his cell phone back into his pocket, he settled into the driver’s seat and stared out the windshield. Rather than the cars parked across from him in the apartment building parking lot, what he saw were images of Sandra naked, between two men, crying out in pleasure. His fingers curled around the steering wheel as his groin tightened in need.

He glanced up at Sandra’s window on the eighth floor. The light was out. She’d be in bed by now. Probably in some skimpy, slinky teddy.

His cock pushed painfully at his jeans.

He should just open the car door right now and stride up there. Tell her what he wanted and take his chances. The memory of her responding to his kisses, her body responding to his touch, sent his hormones skyrocketing.

Why wait when every indication told him she wanted him right now?

Three

Sandra glanced up at Devlin’s handsome face.

“You’re here.”

He drew back the covers, revealing her naked body. Had she peeled away her pajamas since she fell asleep?

The heated look in his eyes sent her insides melting. He sat on the bed beside her, then leaned in and kissed her. His hot lips brushing against hers took her breath away. She arched forward and he wrapped his arms around her, then drew her close. He explored her mouth with his probing tongue, urging her lips apart, then gliding into her mouth. She stroked his tongue with hers, then sighed as he sucked her tongue deeper into his mouth.

He lay down beside her and stroked her breasts. Her nipples tightened into hard buds. Then he tasted one, stroking his tongue over the tip, driving her insane with need. She glided her fingers along the back of his head, then released the leather tie that held his hair behind his head and stroked her fingers through the long strands. She’d wanted to do that for so long.

He slid to her other nipple and sucked lightly. She gasped at the intense pleasure.

She stroked down his solid chest, then to his belt buckle. She released it, then his fly and tucked her hand inside. His erection pulsed with life as she encircled it with her fingers.

She sat up and stared at his wonderfully large cock. She pressed her lips to the tip and licked, then swallowed his cockhead whole.

“Sandra, that’s fantastic. You are fabulous at that.”

She beamed and dove down on him, taking him deep into her throat without a single gagging sensation, even though he was big and thick. She sucked and licked, then bobbed up and down.

“Oh, God, sweetheart. That is incredible. I’m going to … Oh, God.”

In a rush, hot liquid flooded her throat. She swallowed and smiled up at him. She’d never gotten her ex off that quickly.

She grabbed his pants and pulled them down, then tossed them off the bed. He tugged his shirt and T-shirt over his head in one quick movement. He drew her into his arms and kissed her, her naked breasts crushing against his rock-solid chest. Her beaded nipples driving into his ridged flesh.

She pressed her hands against his chest and he lay down on his back. She arched her leg over him and wrapped her hand around his straight-as-an-arrow cock and pressed it to her slick opening, then slowly lowered herself onto him.

Oh, God, it had been well over a year since she’d had a man inside her. And now Devlin was gliding into her. Deeper. And deeper.

Finally, she rested on his groin, his cock embedded in her. He twitched and she thought she’d fly over the edge right then and there.

He stroked her breasts, sending tingles rushing through her. She leaned forward so he could take one in his mouth. It was such sweet heaven to be touched by a man again. She moaned at the exquisite sensation of his hot lips covering her hard nipple, and his hard cock filled her so full she thought she’d explode.

She lifted her hips, then lowered herself again. Pleasure swelled through her. She glided up and down. She sucked in a breath at the intense sensations writhing through her.

“Oh, dear God, Devlin, make me come.”

He wrapped his hands around her hips and lifted her, then lowered her again. Lifted and lowered, augmenting her rhythm.

The phone began to ring, but she ignored it. Bouncing up and down on Devlin’s big cock. Gazing into his delightful, star-speckled blue eyes.

Ring.

Pleasure burst through her, washing through every cell.

Ring.

Devlin seemed to dissolve. The phone rang again. Light filtered into her eyes. The orgasm that had seemed so close only a second ago also seemed to dissolve. Her vagina clenched, but Devlin’s big cock had also dissolved.

Oh, God, no. It was only a dream!

She gasped for air, her body twitching with need. She stroked between her legs and found her clit nestled in the damp folds. She stroked it, then gasped and moaned as the orgasm finally overtook her. Her body convulsed, and she collapsed on the bed.

The phone stopped ringing.

As she stared out her sunny bedroom window, catching her breath, she remembered what had really happened last night. How she had thrown herself at Devlin and he had turned her down.

Damn, what a crappy way to start the morning.

*   *   *

As Sandra gazed out the sunny window of the restaurant, she saw Aimee walking toward the door. A moment later, Aimee entered the restaurant, glanced around, and waved at Sandra. She walked toward the table.

“Hey, there.” Aimee hooked the shoulder strap of her purse over the back of the chair, then sat down. “Did you order for me already?”

“Pastrami on rye and a diet cola.” Sandra sipped her own diet cola, a vice she had picked up from Aimee. She really didn’t need the caffeine.

The waitress arrived at the table and placed plates loaded with food in front of them. Aimee’s sandwich and fries and Sandra’s chicken wrap with a side salad.

Aimee picked up a long, slender fry with her fingers and took a bite. “Mmm. These things are way too good. And really hot. Just the way you like them. Want one?”

Unable to resist the delicious aroma, Sandra grabbed a fry and took a bite. Heaven. She swallowed, then pushed her fork through a chunk of salad. One fry was her limit.

“So, do you want me to pick you and Devlin up for the movie tonight or do you want to drive?” Aimee asked.

Sandra’s chest constricted. “Oh, well, um … I think I’m just going to stay home tonight. You two go ahead.”

The thought of facing Devlin after last night mortified her. She knew she had to find a way to get over it eventually, but that wasn’t going to be soon.

Aimee put down her sandwich. “Okay, what gives?”

Sandra realized she’d stabbed her fork into the salad multiple times, gathering several chunks of lettuce on the tines. She glanced at Aimee.