Vengeance (12 page)

“I don’t…
I…
what if you die?” I put my head in my hands.

He sits beside me, stroking my leg. “I won’t die.”

“You don’t know that.”

“I am immortal now Jade, it’s unlikely.”

Oh yeah, I forgot. “Well what about the Lilly, she won’t understand.”

“It won’t be
long,
dads go away for work all the time.”

Damn
man has a point. “And us?”

“I will talk with you all the time, I will be with you eighty percent of the year baby.”

“I am alone…unprotected.”

“I will have protection with you at all times.”

“Right, a few members of the crew following me everywhere.
It’s not a life Jax.”

“Then go to the island.”

“No, I don’t want to right now. I am not ready to just stop living.”

“You can live over there.”

“Jax, it can’t be all your way. If you go, then you go but I don’t have to.”

“Fine but I don’t want you working at that bar.”

“Fine.”
I snap.

He t
akes my face in his hands. “You’re
my girl Jade, I won’t ever leave you behind again but I need this. I need it.”

“I know you do.” I whisper.

“I will come home to you.”

“When will you go again?”

“I want to head out next week. I need to track Ben and his movements.”

“How long?”
I whisper.

“A month?”

I close my eyes, don’t cry. You married a
pirate,
you knew this was part of his life. “Ok.”

“You ok?”

“I will get used to it Jax. I married you, knowing what you are…I just…a month or two without you will be so hard.”

“Tell me about it.”

“Who will I make love with?”

He grins. “I will ring you all the time. Maybe send you some pictures.”

I giggle and he pulls me into his arms. “I love you darlin, trust that ok?”

“Ok.”

“I am going to leave Jack and three of my crew behind this time.
Just while Ben is around.”

“Ok.”

“You won’t fall for him while I am gone, will you?”

I grin up at him. “Scared pirate?”

He smiles down at me.
“Maybe.”

“I have eyes only for you. If sexting it is for a month then so be it.”

He chuckles and kisses me, for a long, hard moment. “I like sexting.”

I giggle again.
“Me too.”

“I’ll miss you, my little fighter.”

“How did the other girl pull up?”

He grins. “I taught you well, good left hook you got there.”

“Well, I did learn from the best.”

He gives me a wicked smile. “When can you come home?”

“Tomorrow I think. Jax, you won’t leave until we can…I mean…”

“Till we can fuck again?”

“I was going to say make sweet
sweet
love…”

He laughs.
“Or that.”

“I want to make sure…before you go that we…”

“I will make sure of it.” He grins, kissing my earlobe.

I giggle and pull back, my face becomes serious. “Jax, I can understand why you slept with Bella back then, I hate it but I get it.
We weren’t together.
I want you to promise me though, that it never happened again?”

“Never.”

“And there are no more secrets?
Because I am tired of lies, fighting and betrayal.”

“I have none, I swear to
God
mate.”

“Me either.”

“You forgive me?”

“I love you Jax, and you have been there for me when no one else wanted to be, so yes, I forgive you. And I will love Aiden just as much as you, if you want him in our home.”

Emotion washes over his face. “You are amazing Jade, really you are.
I don’t believe I will see a lot of Aiden
though,
Bella was in town so she brought him over but she doesn’t live here. I imagine my relationship will be quite sour with her and my son. I hope when all this crap with Ben is over though, that I can go and see him and maybe fix it.
”

“We will do everything we can Jax, to make sure you see your son.”

He strokes my cheek. “You should hate me. It can’t be easy accepting another woman’s child.”

“Maybe not, but he is also your child and Lilly’s brother. He deserves to be
apart
of this.”

“Thank you, I mean it, thank you.”

“He is a cute kid and Bella seems happy with her life.”

“I don’t think she would dare glance at me after your little comment.”

I snort. “Yeah well, she better not. I can trust you Jax, because part of me knows deep down that you love me.”

“You are my heart, always have been. I was honestly trying to protect you, after RJ I didn’t know how to tell you I had a son.”

“Well, it is done now. No more lies, please Jax?”

“I swear, no more.”

“Good, then kiss me.”

He grins and leans over, then begins trailing a kiss down my neck when Layla walks back in.

“Good to see you two have made up.”

Jax grins and steps back. “What can I say? She knows me too well.”

“That I do
Mr
Watts, that
I do.”

CHAPTER
7

Jax is preparing to leave two weeks later; he has waited for me to recover before he goes. I am not happy about it still, but part of me knows it just has to be done. My mother is coming up for a month to stay with me, and I have all our family here, so I know I will be fine. I will just miss him so badly. I am not a fan of being alone. I look down at the suitcase I am packing; I have one of his shirts in my hand. I sigh. I fold the shirt and pack it in. The door opens, and Jax walks in.

“Hey you, what you doing?”

“Packing your clothes.”

He smiles warmly. “Good little wife you are.”

“I guess so.”

He sits beside me on the bed. “It’s going to be ok.”

“I’ll miss you so much.”

“I know baby, me too.”

“I hate to be without you.” I whisper, fighting back emotion.

“It won’t be long.”

I curl up in his lap on the bed, and rest my head against his warm chest.

“Did you ever think you would get married and do all this Jax?”

“Nah.”

“Are you happy you did?”

“Yeah, I have it all now. I am a pirate, a dad and a husband.”

“You are great at the first two.”

“Hey!”

“Bit sucky on the husband part.
Too old and craggy.”

He rolls on top of me, pinning my arms above my head. “I can show you old and craggy.”

I giggle, and he tickles me until we are both in fits of laughter.
God
how I will miss him.

“I gotta go work on my ship, stop distracting me.” He murmurs, pressing a kiss to my lips.

“Don’t you want me Jax?”

He stiffens a little.
“Yeah…of course.”

“Then why haven’t we…had sex?”

He winces. “I…don’t know. I have to go.”

He stands and is out the door before I can answer; well now that was weird. I pout to myself a while, then come up with a plan, the man is NOT leaving without having one off with me, I will make sure of it. I dig through my cupboard until I find one sexy, lacy little teddy. Oh yes. I dress it, let my hair down and pretty myself up.

I wrap a long trench coat around me and walk out of the house and down to the ship. When I get in, I can’t find Jax. He must be down below. I walk down to the bottom, and see him tinkering with some boat part. He is lying down with it jacked up above his head.
Damn
. He is in only jeans and has
grease
smudged over him. Jax is a sexy pirate, but boy does he make one hell of a mechanic too.

“Hey.” I say, with a definite purr in my voice.

He doesn’t come out. “Hey mate.”

I clear my throat, nothing. I drop the trench coat, nothing. He won’t move.

“Jax, can we talk?”

“Yeah shoot.”

“Jax!”
I snap, and he finally rolls out.

When he sits up, he drops the spanner in his hand and hisses.

“Fuck.”

“I thought…” I purr. “You would like a going away present.”

He leans back on his elbows and gives me a hooded expression.
“Oh yeah?”

“Yeah, and considering you run every time I look at you, I am going to make it painful.”

“Baby, I wasn’t…”

“Painful.” I cut in.

I look around the room and spot his stereo, my heart is thumping.

“Don’t move.” I say firmly, then walk over and flick on a song, a slow, sexy song.

“Jesus.” He moans when I turn and begin swaying my hips.

“Don’t…move.” I whisper, as I trail my fingers up my stomach.

“Kind of hard.”
He pants.

“I want to see what it does to you
Jax,
I want you to touch yourself.”

His eyes widen, oh yes,
Mr
Watts looks shocked.

“What?”

“
Do
it, or I walk out.”

I walk to the door and flick the lock, making sure no one can come in. My eyes travel over my husband on the floor, and all I can think is fuck. He is beautiful. He is panting and looking at me with such desire it nearly burns. His chest is heaving, his washboard abs are contracting.

“Jax, touch yourself.”

“I…”