Wayward Temptation (Wayward Saints MC Book 6) (19 page)

“I can’t fix this shit if you don’t tell me what’s wrong.” She slowly lets her legs go
.
She grabs my hand
,
and pulls it to her chest. She clutches onto me like I’m the only lifeline she has
,
and I like that. I want to be the only one that she comes to when she needs someone.
 

I want to be the person to protect her from everything
,
and anyone who tries to hurt her.
 

“Why did you do it?” Her eyes open
,
and shoot to mine. They widen
,
and I know she wasn’t expecting me to ask her. I’ve never asked her anything that she wrote about
,
and I sure as hell am not ready to find out why she wanted to take her own life.

“Marco
,
” she whispers. Her voice is so sad
,
that it hurts to listen to the words
.
But, I need her to at least talk about it. I need to know all the facts
,
before I go up against my father to fight for her.
 

“What did he do?” The question is innocent enough, but I see the rush of feelings that he brings up in her. None of which are good either. She looks devastated
,
and I have a feeling that he did something to her.
 

“At the beginning of our relationship, everything was good. We had fun together, we were happy
,
” she blows out a breath and frowns. “Well at least I thought that we were happy. We had been together for a while
,
and I found out I was pregnant. When I told him that we were going to have a baby, he freaked out.”
 

Shit. I see the tears start to fall down her face faster. Sitting down beside her, I pull her into my lap
,
and she continues with her story. “He demanded that I take care of it
,
” she sniffles a few times before she says anything else.
 

“When he found out that I didn’t a few weeks later, he forced me to go to some doctor that serviced his mob friends. I was forced to have an abortion. When it was all said and done, he dropped me off at my mom’s house
.
He told me that I needed to get on the pill
,
and that he would be picking me up in a week
,
after I stopped bleeding.”
 

Closing my eyes, I am fucking pissed that he got off with just a bullet to the chest. He fucking deserved to be put down like the fucking cold-hearted bastard that he was.
 

He deserved a whole hell of a lot more than he got.
 

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He urges me to continue because I’m sure he wants to know what happened next. “Before he could come and get me, I went into the bathroom
,
and took as many pills as I could find in our cabinets. I wanted to end my life. I couldn’t stand what he made me do
.
By the time he got to the house, I was high as a kite
,
and he knew something was wrong. He tried to drag me out of the house
,
but by then
,
the pills finally kicked in. I fell to the ground
,
and started to seize I guess. My mom called an ambulance
,
and I was rushed to the hospital and had my stomach pumped.”

I can feel him tense under me
,
and his fingers dig into my thighs. “I wanted to die. I didn’t want to be in a life where someone could force me to do something against my will.” I start to mess with my hands
,
and I can feel his stare. It’s almost like he can see right through me.

“You didn’t deserve that Darlin’. He’s lucky he’s fucking dead
,
or I would have killed him myself.” His words warm my heart
,
and I wish I had him on my side then. Things would have been different
,
and I might even be a mother right now.

“Thank you.” He kisses me sweetly on the cheek
,
and lays us back in the bed. “After that, he watched me like a hawk
.
He never let me have any type of pain medication
,
and when I tried to get away, he wouldn’t let me leave. I became a prisoner in his home
,
and after about a year, I finally got him to trust me again. I was able to stay at my own apartment again
,
and then I noticed that he was hanging out with new people. I tried to break things off with him
,
and he just wouldn’t take no for an answer. That’s why I ran.”
 

He kisses my forehead
,
and closes his eyes. I can’t read his expression, but I’m sure that Marco is glad that he’s dead. If he wasn’t, I’m pretty sure he would be by this time tomorrow.

“Are you going to be okay?” His voice is low
,
and when he opens his eyes, I can see the anger in them.
 

“I’ll be okay. Are you leaving?” He looks almost regretful, but he nods his head yes.
 

“I just want to make sure you’re okay
,
before I go see what the plan is. I’m pretty sure I’m going to have one hell of a fight with my old man.” Running my fingers along his cheek, I stare into his blue eyes. He looks a lot like his father and brothers. I can only imagine what his sister looks like.
 

“What happens after this is all over?” I can hear the uncertainty in my voice
,
and I know he does too. I have no idea what I mean to him
.
A part of me is scared that once no one is coming after me, I won’t have anyone left on my side; or worse – I won’t have Raef.

He gets a cute smirk on his face
,
and I hope that I am not just forcing myself to believe in a fairy tale that isn’t real.
 

“Then I take you home with me. You can meet the rest of my family. My sister is dying to meet you. Dom told her about you when he got back to Vegas
,
and she’s pissed that I left you here with these fucking idiots.” My heart skips a beat
,
and I can’t help but smile back at him. Wrapping my arms around his neck, I bury my face into his neck
,
and just hold onto him tightly.
 

“I take it you like that idea
,
” he laughs.
 

“More than you know.” I press a kiss to his lips
,
and he wipes the remaining tears off my cheeks.
 

“Good. Just get ready to be surrounded by people all the fucking time. My sister will probably annoy the fuck out of you. She always wants to do dinners and shit, but my nephews are pretty dope
,
and I’m about to be a big brother again
,
” he grins from ear to ear
,
and I can see how much he loves his family.
 

“Your dad is having another child?” I’m shocked. Sure he looks good for his age, but he has grown children already.
 

“Yeah, his old lady is gonna be spitting out a kid pretty soon. Hell
,
my sister is probably going to go into labor at any minute.” He sounds excited about being a big brother
,
and uncle again. His eyes light up when he talks about his sister
,
and part of me is excited to meet her.
 

His phone starts to ring
,
and he sighs
.
He pulls it out of his pocket
,
and looks at the screen. “Speak of the devil.”
 

“Hey Ans.” He listens for a few seconds
,
before he starts to laugh. “No fucking way. I know I promised you.” He shakes his head
,
and I can see just by the look on his face that he loves his sister.
 

“Okay fine. Yeah, I know I didn’t live up to my end of the deal. I’ll do it when I get back. I’m sure Sailor would love to help me watch your brats,” he winks at me
,
and I can’t help but grin back at him. He somehow turned a terrible hour
,
into something amazing that I will always cherish.
 

It’s almost like he knows the words that make everything okay. He changed my mood in the blink of an eye. I’m sure everyone will think I’m crazy, but the more time I spend with him, the more I fall for him. Sure at first he was the temptation that I craved, but now that I’ve gotten a chance to see this side of him
,
I can’t help but have strong feelings for him. More than I ever thought possible.
 

He hangs up the phone with his sister
,
and turns his attention back to me. “I promise that no matter what happens here, I won’t leave you behind. I will protect you until my last breath
,
and won’t let my family come between us.” He presses his mouth against mine
,
and he kisses me like I’m the only thing that is important to him.
 

When he finally pulls away, I feel my heart flutter with the thought of being with him even after this mess is done. He wants me. He doesn’t question my past
,
and he doesn’t force me to do things against my will. He treats me with respect
,
and I love that about him. Shit. I think I love him.
 

Holy shit. Grabbing my notebook, I start to jot down some more in my story. I want to make sure I capture exactly how I feel
,
right in this moment. Maybe when he reads the rest of it, he will see how sorry I am for what I said to him the last time I saw him
,
and how I feel about him right now.
 

I don’t think I will be able to get the words out in person
.
So it’s nice to be able to write down my feelings
,
and have him read them instead. Hell, I’m sure that I would mess it all up if I tried to tell him face to face. Plus, I wouldn’t even know what to say.
 

Words were never my strong suit
,
and I don’t think I’ve ever really had feelings about someone like the ones I’m having about Raef. He has made the darkest time in my life
,
colorful and meaningful. We may not have been on speaking terms when he left, but I hope that we are able to move past the hurtful words.
 

I still don’t even know how he’s handling the information I told him. Maybe he won’t even want me now that he knows the truth about what happened between Marco and me. Setting the pen and paper on the bed, I lie back against my pillows
,
and curl up in a ball. Losing him will crush me.
 

I won’t survive it.
 

I’m not even sure I would want to survive it. The only thing I would have left is Butch
,
and with the way his club has treated me so far, death would be better.
 

Every soft touch and stolen kiss keeps me holding on to him
.
I know that at any minute
,
he can change his mind
,
and leave without another look in my direction. Closing my eyes, I try to think of only good thoughts. I think about the way he said he came back for me. Knowing that he came back for me means something
,
it has to.
 

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