What We Saw (25 page)

‘I just don’t… why?’ was all I could say.

Donald sighed. ‘I think you do know, Liam. You’ve just been confused. Any kid would be. It still confuses me. But you’ve seen the bruises. We’ve all seen the bruises.’ He paused, and looked away. ‘And I know you saw me burying the girl.’

My thoughts raced.
The girl?
‘But I thought… we though—you, because of— the girl was your daughter.’

Donald shut his eyes and shook his head. ‘Boys, that girl I was burying was not my Patricia. Patricia passed away a while ago. No, I saw him doing it. I saw his hands wrapped around her neck.’ Donald looked up into the sky, visibly shaking. ‘I tried to get away, but he was on to me, and before I knew it he was forcing me to do things. Bury her. Whispering things in my ears. I had to get Emily away. I couldn’t leave her in danger.’

‘Then… who is the girl you buried?’ I asked.

Donald scratched at his chin. ‘The girl. The missing girl from the—from the TV. Beth Swanson.’

Everything clicked in my head and I stumbled backwards.
Donald hadn’t been burying his daughter—he had been burying Beth Swanson. Her disappearance wasn’t a coincidence.
I felt my head spin as the pieces of our mystery cracked into place.

‘
Her
dad
killed Beth?’ I whispered, pointing to Emily.

Donald nodded. ‘I had to take her here. I had to get her away. We’re both going to escape, and we can start again. I can’t leave her with him, and I can’t stay here, boys. You were never supposed to get mixed up in any of this.’

My knees froze. Adam looked on, open-mouthed. He tried to say something, but no words came out.

‘But—why are you out here?’ I said.

Donald exhaled fast and surveyed the house. ‘He’s framing me, Liam. He’s going to get me sent down for her murder. He knows about my daughter and he made me bury the girl—Beth. That’s all he needs. Emily will be stuck with him forever, and I can’t allow that.’

I felt myself knocked back by a wall of realisation. ‘But we’ll say you didn’t do it. We’ll say you were with us. We’ll sort this, Donald.’

Donald shook his head. ‘It’s no good. He says he has pictures.’ He scratched his head and waved his arms around. ‘I panicked, Liam. I panicked, and I took Emily. I can’t go back on that now.’ He put his hand on my shoulder. ‘You have to understand… maybe Adam won’t understand yet, but you can explain in your own way. But I’m helping her, Liam. Helping her get away from it all. Get away from that man. You see that, I know you do, deep down. I think you’ve known it for a long time.’

I remembered the rage in Emily’s dad’s eyes as he pinned me against the wall, the venomous saliva coating my cheeks as he roared into my face at the side of the launderette. I remembered the way he stood at the top of our road after we’d received the note, after the window had been smashed.

I remembered the way he had clutched Emily’s arms. The bruises. I knew what was going on now, and I had suspected it for some time, but I still couldn’t work out why anyone would hurt someone like that.

I lowered my head as Donald looked into my eyes. He was trying to help Emily. He was just as manipulated as the rest of us by Emily’s dad, the true killer. Bringing her up here, bringing her food and blankets. I looked over at Adam. His frown lines were visible, trying to make sense of it all. I smiled at him, and he straightened his face and nodded back at me and Donald. He might not really understand the situation yet, not truly, but he was accepting it.

There were still things we didn’t know. Carla’s disappearance.
Had Donald really had anything to do with it after all?
I opened my mouth to ask him. He was looking at Emily, grinning. He nodded towards her, gesturing me to look.

I turned round and shined the flashlight on her as she began to wriggle from side to side. Her mouth opened, and a frown twitched across her forehead. She opened her big brown eyes. I stared into them and she stared back, unalarmed and in complete, perfect silence.

‘Thought I’d bring some friends along to see you,’ Donald said, before heading towards the opening of the house. ‘I’ll give you lot a few minutes to catch up.’

Chapter Thirty-One

The three of us were completely still, unable to speak. Emily pulled herself up slightly, and her eyes twitched from me to Adam. I expected to feel happier to see her alive, but my gaze kept drifting towards the bruise on her neck. As she turned her head into the light some more, I noticed a cut above her eye. It was only a few centimetres long, but it was definitely there. Her hair was plastered to the side of her face without its usual bounce. Her tracksuit bottoms were peppered with bits of soil, and her oversized hoodie looked creased from where she had been lying in it.

‘So, uhm, what are you doing out here?’ she said, avoiding eye contact. I thought about her question. Just hours ago, minutes even, Emily had been dead. Donald’s latest victim. But after the cabin and the confession, things had changed. I looked at the bruise on her neck again. I didn’t want to think about how it had gotten there. I wasn’t sure I could ever go back to seeing the world how I used to see it again.

Adam stared at Emily. His face had been void of emotion through the entire exchange. It was very rare that I couldn’t tell what he was thinking or at least figure out what sort of emotions he was going through. He was a very visual person. But right now, as he stood there rooted to the spot, I found it impossible to read him. I contemplated how much of Donald’s explanation he understood. What it meant to him. We could talk about it again in the future. Or maybe we wouldn’t. He would understand in time.

I broke the silence. ‘We were wondering the same about you.’ I tried to make it sound lighthearted, curling my mouth upwards at the corners as I spoke. Instead, the lump in my throat made it sound childish, squeaking as I said the ‘you.’

Emily raised a hand to her eyes and winced. ‘If you get that light out of my eyes I’ll tell you. Not a fan of speaking to shadows.’

Of course—I had been shining the torch at her all this time, forgetting that she could barely see us. She smiled as she spoke.
How could anybody smile when they’re sleeping in a place like this?
I lowered the torch and rested it on the floor, so it shone up through a hole in the roof of the house, like a lighthouse beacon. I sat down next to Emily, gesturing for Adam to join me. Instead, he stood there like a rake.

Emily looked into my eyes and smiled, reaching over and squeezing my hand. ‘My little mystery solver. I knew you’d bloody find me.’ She grinned, and I tried to smile back, but it was more like a pose on the dentist’s chair. Her hand felt nice. It reminded me of that day, outside the launderette. She reached her other hand out to Adam, who seemed unresponsive. Noticing his reluctance, she tapped him on the hand twice, patting him like you’d pat a lost dog. His eyes were wide as he stared at the head of the torch.

‘How long have you been out here?’ I asked. I looked at the rucksack and the items scattered around Emily. Toothbrush. The crusts from a sandwich with a bit of meat still peeping through the edges.
This place would make a brilliant den.

Emily rooted through the bag that Donald had brought her and pulled out a bottle of J2O, shaking it before swigging it back. ‘Oh, not long. I’ve been away for a bit but I’m just here for the night. What’s up with your head?’ She pointed at my forehead, where the marks of my car accident were engraved.

‘Oh, I sort of had a car crash. But I’m fine. We’re both just worried about you.’

Emily winced when I told her of the crash and laughed when I told her about Adam’s top notch detective work, hiding details of her disappearance in a crossword book. Adam remained speechless and distant, staring onwards into the light as he crouched down. We didn’t pry though. Whenever we cued him to speak, we promptly changed the topic or switched the conversation back to ourselves.

My head still spiralled with thoughts.
Why had Donald taken her here? What did it mean for him and for her?
I pulled my hand back. ‘Emily… I don’t want to push you but—’

‘Why’s he brought you out here, Emily?’ Adam snapped. It was disorientating to hear him speak, but now his eyes twitched as he broke free from his trance.

‘Adam,’ I said.

‘No, Liam, I need to know. I need to know why she’s out here with that man. Did he kidnap you, Emily? Because if he did, we’ll sort him out.’ He clenched his fists and gripped at the edge of the blanket.

Emily leaned over to Adam and touched his arm. He flinched backwards and looked past her, gritting his teeth.

‘Adam, Emily might not want to talk abou—’

‘It’s okay, Liam,’ she said, smiling. ‘It’s okay.’ She turned back to Adam and lifted his chin upwards, slowly, so that their eyes interlocked. After some reluctance from Adam, they stayed fixed in place. ‘Adam, I know it’s hard. I know it’s hard to understand because I can’t understand either. But my dad, he did some not nice things to me.’

Adam exhaled fast, and his eyes dropped towards the floor again. I felt my eyes begin to sting and get heavier.

‘Look at me, Adam,’ Emily said, smiling and keeping her calm, putting her hand on his arm to console him. ‘He did some not nice things to me and I needed to get away. Not forever, just for a while. Donald helped me. He felt bad for me, and he saw what my dad… what my dad was doing. My dad is just sad though. Mum says he’s sick. I don’t know why he’s acting like he is. So Donald looks after me. Brings me food. He’s been looking out for me for a bit now.’

Adam shook his head and rubbed his hand against his face before staring back at Emily. ‘But why?’ He was helpless.

I put my arm on his shoulder and squeezed. Emily looked back at me and smiled.

It was at that moment that I heard shuffling near the doorway. I grasped the torch.

‘Just me, kids.’ It was Donald, waving reluctantly as he approached. I had forgotten he was even here. I wanted this moment to last, for morning never to arrive, and for us to stay here forever. It was the perfect den. Emily was safe with us. Donald could bring us all food. We belonged here. But deep down, deep in the pit of my stomach, something gnawed at me. Things weren’t ever going to be normal again, especially not for Emily, not after this.

Donald’s face was glum when he returned. He looked at Adam, who slumped and stared vacantly into the light.
Did Donald realise that Adam understood now?
Emily looked at Donald and nodded. He removed his glasses, wiped his eye, and reached down for the rucksack.

‘Come on, kids,’ he said. ‘Time to take you home.’

I almost forgot about the caravan. It felt like we had been out here for an eternity. We had learned so much. Damn—we had effectively ‘solved’ our mystery.

I stood up and prepared to leave. Emily reached over and kissed my cheek with her soft lips. She grabbed me, the warmth of her body seeping through into my chest. When she let go, I saw her eyes reddening as tears collected on her long eyelashes. I felt the heaviness in my eyes give way to warm tears.

‘At least I’m not the only one, softie,’ she said, smiling. She looked over at Adam, who was so vacant and distant that he practically fell into our arms. We hugged and rested our heads against each other. Only the sound of sniffing cut through the perfect silence, like birdsong at the break of dawn. Donald stood at our side with the rucksack over his shoulder, waiting to leave.

I thought of Emily’s dad. The way he pinned me up against the wall of the launderette and told me to stay away from his daughter. The way he had followed Donald into the woods, shouting down his phone. The letter and the rock through the window. Beth Swanson and Donald’s despair. It all made sense now.

I felt uncomfortable as we pulled apart. A sick feeling in my stomach.
Another secret to carry around with me.
I looked over at Donald, and he smiled.

‘I’m not doing this,’ I said.

Everyone turned to face me, mouths dropping in disbelief.

‘What do you mean?’ Emily asked. ‘Not doing what?’

I looked towards the floor, and stopped biting at my lip. I felt like a volcano waiting to erupt. ‘Donald, this isn’t right. Well, it is right but it isn’t. You’ve looked after her and that’s the right thing to do, but this isn’t how we should do it. The police will find her and take her back. I don’t know what will happen to you. But her dad will start again and there’s nothing anybody will be able to do.’

Donald’s head tipped back on his neck, looking towards the ceiling. ‘I don’t care about what happens to me, Liam. I’ve lost everything. Emily and you kids are all I’ve got, really.’

‘Just stop it,’ I said, the volume of my voice raising. ‘Just stop. I’m so sorry for whatever happened, but this isn’t right, Donald. I care about what happens to you because I care about Emily.’

Donald walked closer to me. He nodded but shifted his eyes, debating what I had said. ‘Then what do you propose, son? Because I can’t think of any better ideas. I’m sorry.’

I took another deep breath. ‘I think… I think it would probably be a good idea to go back to Emily’s caravan. Make her dad confess. We need to get the truth from him. End this once and for all.’

Emily winced. Donald curved his eyebrows inwards.

Adam looked round at me in disgust. ‘Why the fuck would we do that, genius?’

I looked at them all staring back at me with their different expressions of bewilderment, but I knew what I said was right.

I squared up to Adam. ‘Because it’s the right thing to do. This is no way of life. Say Emily runs off with Donald. What then? Donald gets done for kidnapping and for murder. You heard what Donald said—he’s being framed by Emily’s dad. So Emily ends up back with her dad and everything starts over again. We’ll get done for knowing about what’s happened. Then who will Emily have?’

Adam kept his eyes aimed at mine, refusing to yield. ‘He’s evil, Liam,’ he said, drawing out the word
‘evil’
as if I’d forgotten what the word meant.

‘Maybe he is. Maybe he isn’t. Things don’t work like they do on telly, Adam. You know that now. I know that. If they did, we wouldn’t have ended up here. We’d be given those junior badges for our detective work, remember? And all these criminals, these people who do evil things, they would be stuck behind bars. But it doesn’t work like that. You know that now.’