Class Trip (17 page)

“Shh Sandra, we
talked about this. You need to be brave.” He was looking at me as
he spoke and I had a feeling that he felt sorry for me.

The doctor was
checking me out and I left my eyes on Tata. He was looking back and
forth from me to the doctor. He looked like he was trying to be quiet
but he had something on the tip of his tongue.

Tata started
talking in whispers and the doctor wasn't answering him. He looked
worried, making me worry too. The doctor started talking and Tata
sighed relieved. He was nodding and the lines on his face were
relaxing.

Tata was still
asking questions and nodding. He looked so serious that I got worried
again.

The doctor pushed
away from me and Tata sat me up and gave me my underwear back, which
I quickly put back on. He had a hand on my shoulder and he finished
talking to the doctor. He pulled me to my feet and pulled me out of
the room.

Tata pushed me
against the wall and grinned at me like the cat that ate the canary.
“He said that you are all healed up now.” He leaned in and kissed
me. “I am so happy that you are still with me.”

He wanted to kiss
me again but I pushed him away before he could. “But what did he
say about having another baby?”

“He said that
he thinks everything is okay. We will first know when you are
pregnant or if you don't get pregnant.” He had that serious look
again.

“Is it
important that I do get pregnant?” I asked him.

“It is
important that you stay healthy and alive. After almost losing you
like that. I realized how much I loved you and that I don't want to
have to go on without you.”

I smiled and
looked down as I blushed. When I looked up I saw Kelly watching us.
She was within earshot too. Now she knew what had happened.

Tata saw that I
was looking at something so he looked that way too. He looked mad
when he saw her.

I felt sorry for
her.

Tata leaned in
and whispered in my ear that he wanted to go to our room so we could
be alone. He took hold of my hand and we walked off.

Kelly was
watching us go the whole way.

Tata's mother was
waiting for us in the living room. So was his brother Thomas, who
still felt really guilty. He was sitting on the sofa and looking at
his feet.

I was really
surprised that they were here. I figured that they needed to watch
the new girls. I was kind of moved that they thought that I was more
important than the family business.

“The doctor
said that Sandra is all healed up and that it looks good for having
another baby but we will know first when she is really pregnant. That
has time anyway. We aren't going to worry at all yet, are we?” He
was looking at me.

I shook my head
no, agreeing with him. Maria hugged me and left. Thomas also got up
from the sofa. He nodded at both of us and left too.

“I should be
helping downstairs but I was thinking that the others could do that.
If you are feeling up to it I would really like to make love to you
now.”

I felt my face
turn red. I couldn't say anything like that aloud.

He swooped me
into his arms and carried me into our bedroom. He lay me down on the
bed and then he closed the door. His fingers went to his buttons and
he quickly undressed.

I was just
watching him. The last three months we had gotten used to each other.
I didn't look away when he was naked anymore and I didn't mind him
seeing me. We were comfortable with each other. I sat up and removed
my dress over my head.

He was grinning
again when I looked at him. “I love you so much, Sandra.”

I took off my bra
and underwear and reached up to him. “I love you too, Tata.”

He picked me up
and spun us in a circle.

I grabbed onto
him tightly while he laughed at me.

He sat down on
the bed and moved back so he was leaning against the headboard of the
bed. I was still on his lap and he was looking at me rather seriously
now.

“Did you mean
that? Do you really love me?” he asked.

I had had my
hands on his shoulders but then I laid my head on his chest. “Oh
Tata. You know I do, don't you?”

“No, I don't.”

I sat up and
looked at him. “I do. I really do.”

I watched his
face light up and then he looked confused. “Since when?”

“I can't tell
you that. You would think that I was crazy.”

“Now I want to
know more than ever. Tell me.”

I shook my head
no.

He wrapped his
arms around me and smiled at me. “I will annoy you until you tell
me. I can be very annoying.”

“Yes, I believe
that but I would rather not say.”

He looked so sad
and disappointed that I sighed. “It was the day I saved Wolf.”

“But I gave you
a thrashing on that day that I shouldn't have given you in your
condition.”

“You did a lot
of talking while you were hitting and you said how worried you were
that you would lose me and things like that. Then you held me and
rocked me. You laid your arm around me and joked about Wolf and I
realized that you really wanted what was best for me more than what
you wanted for you.” I shrugged my shoulders, hoping that I
explained it right.

He laid a hand on
each side of my face and then he kissed me. I pushed him away and
raised an eyebrow. “When did you know that you loved me?”

The smile I got
for pushing him away was huge. “At first I thought you were
suicidal, the way you were reading but then I figured that you had
just moved to the area or something. When you stood up in and greeted
me in perfect English I was impressed and you were trying so hard and
your sense of wrong and right. I have never had anyone grab on while
I was spanking. I really liked you before that and you were
constantly in my thoughts, but when I spanked you and you confessed
that you had never been spanked before – the idea of another man
laying a hand on you was driving me crazy. Just I spank you, and just
I make love to you.” He hugged me again and laid my head on his
chest.

“Tata, I'm
really good, don't you think?”

He carefully made
a noise agreeing with me.

“Why don't we
agree that I never need another one as long as we live?”

His chest started
shaking. “I really like that you think about us in the long term
but I can't promise that. The last time was because you were
impulsive and put yourself in danger. I would spank you again if you
ever did something like that. I know you don't talk back or lie to
me. You are really very good, angel, but when it comes to helping
someone else you don't stop and think. I hope you have learned your
lesson but I somehow doubt it. You are a die-hard helper of any
underdog. I love you the way you are. Alive.”

“Tata,” I
whined. I had kind of figured out that it meant something like Papa
or Daddy. He wanted to take care of me and I obviously needed to be
taken care of.

“I love you
enough to spank you. I care how you act. You are lucky to have me as
your husband.” He sounded very sure of himself.

I pushed him away
again. “I knew I shouldn't have told you that I love you. Now you
are thick headed about it and you are going to take me for granted.”

He sat up
straight. “Never. I am so thankful to have you. After almost losing
you, and that was entirely my fault – It was my fault that we lost
our child. I should have stayed. I would have noticed when your
period didn't come. I would have noticed that you were starving and
slaving away without enough sleep. I never should have left you. You
needed me.”

“Tata, are you
going to leave again?” I looked in his eyes. My life was definitely
better with him here with me. I bit my lip while I waited for an
answer.

“I'm so sorry,
but yes. I will be leaving in about two weeks.”

I burst out in
tears and clung to him.

“My mother has
promised to take the best care of you. I know she will this time.
They all love you now. You are so special to all of us. No one is
going to hurt you. You just have to stay here and be good. Promise me
you will.”

“Yes, Tata,”
I sobbed.

“Tata will
hurry up and earn lots of money so we can take off. You want that
right? You want us to start our new happy life together, right?”

“I don't want
to be apart from you.” I sounded like a little girl, as I bared my
soul to him.

“Angel, I don't
want to be apart from you either. I hate that. I need you this close
to me.” I was still on his lap and he was hugging me. Then he
kissed me and sucked on my nipples, lifting my breasts closer to him.
He rubbed me in between my legs and I moaned out.

“I want to try
a new position. Raise up on your knees.”

I did and he took
hold of his penis. “Lower yourself down. You can control how you
need it. If it hurts say so and we will stop, right away. Your Tata
can be very patient with you.”

I slowly lowered
myself and it was a strange feeling at first. Not so much pain, as I
just wasn't used to it anymore.

He took hold of
my hips and moved me up and down on him. I was holding onto his
shoulders, wishing I were stronger. He let go for a second and I
moved on without his help. “Good girl, Sandra.” I moved faster,
wanting him more but then I had to slow down. I felt like crying
because I didn't have the strength to do this better and I really
needed him.

“Don't cry,
angel. Tata is going to flip you over now. Hold on tight.” He laid
me on my back and took over. I was moaning in pleasure and whispering
Tata, again and again. He smiled at me and held my hand and sucked on
my nipples, giving me the feeling that I was the most beautiful girl
in the whole world.

A feeling was
building inside of me and it was the best and worst feeling I had
ever had. It was building and I wanted to reach it and call it mine,
but I feared that I wouldn't.

He was watching
me closely and I was starting to feel embarrassed but then I didn't
care and then I did again. I was so confused.

“Breathe,
angel, keep on breathing. Nice deep breaths.”

I was moaning
louder than before and I was afraid that someone would hear me. My
legs were shaking and I was squeezing his hand as he held mine and my
other hand was moving from his shoulder to the pillow under my head
and holding it tight too.

“Concentrate.”

I concentrated on
the feeling that he was giving me. An explosion washed over me.
“Tata,” I screamed.

“That's right.
Good girl.” He took a short break and then he started in again and
I was screaming out his name. He looked so pleased and then he came
too.

Tata rolled us so
we were side by side but he still had me in his arms, holding me
tight. He kissed my shoulder in a very relaxed way.

“I am so
pleased that you were finally able to enjoy our love-making.”

“Does it feel
that way for you too?”

“Of course it
does. It is so wonderful and special with you.” He was smiling at
me like he was really pleased with himself.

“But – with
the others?”

“That's my job.
There is no love there and they are interchangeable. You aren't. They
come and go. You don't. When this is over I will be completely
faithful to you. I'm really looking forward to that.”

“Me too.”

Kelly looked mad
when we finally showed up hand in hand and smiling at each other.
Maria stepped forward and asked if I could serve the food because
they had so much to do today. Tata reluctantly said yes.

I served the food
and once again new boys were here. They were French and the way they
were looking at me made me think that they wouldn't hate their new
jobs, but most would be bought by men. The exact going ons about what
happened here, and after anyone was sold, was too much for me to
think about, so I tried really hard not to. I didn't want to envision
Tata going to those girls and sleeping with them, then him selling
them.

I was serving
soup again. That meant breadbaskets and crumbs. While I cleaned up
the tables the boys tried to talk to me in French. I shook my head no
at them and they laughed at me. They didn't know why they were here
or that they were trapped here yet. They were a small group of
musicians. I wondered what they thought about their cells being taken
away. As far as I knew I had the only functioning computer here, but
if they were selling people over the Internet than their had to be at
least one more.

One of the boys
grabbed onto my hand. I pulled it away and looked over at Tata who
was coming over fast. He grabbed the boy by the ear and pulled him
out of the room. The others turned to me in their shock, asking me
what was happening to their friend. My French wasn't good enough to
answer anything like that.

Kelly came over
and sat down among the boys and spoke with them. They all smiled at
her. I backed away and just let them flirt.

I got the next
pot of soup out and set everything up. I heard a scream. Everyone
turned their head to look. Well, not Kelly or anyone else from the
family. They kept doing what they were doing like nothing had
happened.

Maria caught my
eye and looked down at the pot in front of me. I went back to work
and the next group was coming in. The boys were looking at the girls
and then back to Kelly. This was the group of virgins. How I knew, I
wasn't sure, but I was getting a feel for it.

I gave them their
soup and instructed them to go to a table far away from the boys. A
couple of the girls were crying.

Tata came back
and laid a cane down on the table. The girls were all watching him
scared. They didn't know what he could all do but I'll bet their
instincts were warning them.

He was putting on
a show. With me he was different. I hoped that this was the show and
not the time spent with me. He could easily be pretending with me.
Kelly had thought something that wasn't true too. I felt really sad
again as I refilled the breadbaskets.