Lost In Our Darkness (Demons Of Darkness Book 2) (2 page)

I glanced at my watch. It had been two hours since I got off the phone with Nitro. I was getting nervous. Shit was going to hit the fan when he got here. When he realized what I was hiding. I had our bags packed and was ready leave at the first sign something was up. It wasn’t a way to live. But ever since I messed up I had been so paranoid I couldn’t take any chances. Zaiden let out a small cry. “Shhhh, it’s going to be okay. Momma’s got you.” I laid him down and quickly changed his diaper and just snapped the last of the buttons on his pajamas when I heard a knock at the door.

I picked up my gun leaving Zaiden sitting on the floor as I tiptoed to the door and peeked out the peephole. I sighed in relief when I see the face on the other side.

“Just a sec.” I put the gun down and picked Zaiden up before I went to work unlocking the door. I took a deep breath in before I pulled it open.

He stood there shocked when he seen that I wasn’t alone. “Stella tell me that’s not Nix’s baby.”

“You want the truth?”

“Never mind don’t tell me.” He stepped in and closed the door behind him. And pulled me into a hug. “This is why you ran isn’t it.”

“Yeah.” I felt the tears run down my face. I pulled back and wiped my eyes with the back of my arm. “Want to hold him?” He nodded. “Zaiden this is Nitro your grandpa.” I smiled as I handed my baby boy over. “How old is he Stella?”

“Eleven months.” I smiled as Zaiden reached for my dad’s beard. “I need to go back.” I looked down at my feet as told him. “Can I stay with you for a while until I figure things out?”

“Yeah. But you need to know some things first. How long you need to pack?”

“I’m ready now.” I reached behind the couch and grabbed two duffle bags and a diaper bag. I set them on the couch and picked up the car seat and sat it down in front of me.

“I got Zaiden, if you can get the bags I want to have one hand free in case anything happens.” I gave him a weak smile. Nitro nodded as he threw one duffle bag over his shoulder and held on to the other one. He carried the car seat in his other arm. I threw the diaper bag over my shoulder and holstered my gun behind my back. Picking up Zaiden with my other arm. “Let’s go.”

The walk down to Nitro’s truck was nerve-racking I had become so paranoid that with every other step I was checking my surroundings. Waiting for something to happen.

It didn’t take long before we were on the road. Back to the place I ran from.

“I don’t want anyone to know I’m back.”

“I got ya Stella don’t worry. But you know you need to tell him right.” I nodded. I didn’t have to though. I just needed to figure out my next move.

I stared out the window as he drove. Zaiden was asleep next to me in the front cab of the truck. We were twenty minutes out when his phone rang.

“Yeah.” I looked over at him as he talked. “About twenty minutes. Yeah okay I’ll be there.” He hung up the phone and looked at me. “Well looks like your gonna have to tell him sooner then you hoped for. Lock down.”

“No you can drop me off at a hotel or something. I can’t just show up after over a year.” I begged him. But he wasn’t having it.

“Stella, Nix ain’t the same as he used to be. When you left something in him changed. There is more but shit, it’s not my place to say anything. And after the accident that made Edge step down it’s Nix that stepped up as president. I can’t disobey a direct order. And you and I both know you will be safer at the clubhouse then you will at a hotel. I ain’t going to leave you and my grandson to fend for yourself. Shit I just got you back Stella.”

“Fucking shit. Fine.” I had no choice it was now or never. I looked down at the clothes I was wearing. A pair of baggy sweatpants and a hoodie. I pulled the hood over my head and crossed my arms as I sat back in the seat. I stared out the window as he drove. Once things started to look familiar I started to panic. I didn’t want to be here. I wasn’t ready to tell Nix. We pulled into the clubhouse. I looked down at Zaiden.  Nitro put the truck in park. “Ready?”

“No, but do I have a choice?”

“Nah come on I’ll get your bags, you can stay in my room.” I nodded as he hopped out. I adjusted my hood making sure it would block my face from view as I took Zaiden out of the car seat and wrapped a blanket around him and held him to my chest. I stepped out of the truck with my head down.  I didn’t look around as I followed Nitro inside.

“What’s this? You been hiding something away from us Nitro?”

“Fuck off Red.”

“Shit you go off and have yourself a kid and didn’t tell anyone.” Venom laughed.

I felt my Nitro’s arm as he wrapped it around me. I looked up. I seen Venom first as he stood at the bar holding a baby. His old lady standing next to him. Cheyenne was behind the bar and Red was laughing next to Venom. Nix was sitting at the bar on the other side of them only he wasn’t looking this way.

“Holy shit. Trix is that you.” Cheyenne stared right back at me. Everything slowed. I watched as Nix dropped the bottle he had in his hand and turn around. He was pissed. I adjusted Zaiden in my arms as I pulled my hood back from my head revealing myself. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath as Nix stood up and looked straight at me. Before he looked down and realized I wasn’t alone. I could see the anger seeping from him as he stalked over towards me. Venom was right behind him. Nitro stepped around and stood in front of me.

“Move out of my way.” Nix gritted through his teeth.

“Now just wait a second. You two have a lot of things to talk about but I think you need to do this somewhere else. And after you calm down.”

“Nitro step the fuck down. This is between Trix and me,” he growled

“It’s okay, Nitro.” I stepped around him as Zaiden let out a cry. “But first I need to get this guy a bottle.” I handed Zaiden to Nitro as I took the diaper bag over to the kitchen to fill the bottle with water. No one moved, they just stood there wondering what the fuck just happened. Cheyenne followed me into the kitchen.

“Where have you been?” she asked as I filled up the bottle with water and pulled the formula from the diaper bag I still had slung over my shoulder. I screwed the top on and shook it.

“I didn’t want to come back. I left so that I could have my baby someplace safe. Only nothing out there is safe. No matter what, my past was going to come back and haunt me.” I smiled at her.

“Well I’m glad you’re back. Nix was a mess without you.”

“I’m not here for Nix, Cheyenne. And even if I was I think there is too much that has happened between us, it’s just not going to happen.” I shook my head. “Now I have a baby out there who wants to be fed.” I held up the bottle and walked out the door.

The pain of seeing Nix was evident in my heart as I made my way back to my son. The expression on his face as he turned to look at me. He hadn’t changed much. His facial hair had grown out since I last laid eyes on him, and even with his white hat pulled down I could tell his green eyes had lost their spark.

What the fuck was going on. She was back—my Trix was back—but it wasn’t just her. She was back with a baby.

I was going to lose my shit. I stared at Nitro who was holding the baby. What the fuck was happening, it couldn’t be. 

“Here.” She handed Nitro a bottle and he stood there like he had no idea what he was doing.

“Like this. He will hold it himself you just got to hold him for the most part.” She moved his hand so that he had the bottle positioned and the baby sucked the bottle in his mouth.

I stared at her while she explained what all to do. “Now Nix, we need to talk.”

“Ya think.”

“Yeah I think we do.”

I turned away from her and walked back to what was now my office. I turned around when I heard her shut the door behind her.

“He’s yours,” she whispered.

“Yeah and were you ever going to tell me?”

“No.”

“Then why are you here now?” I tried to keep my voice steady as I spoke to her.

“I didn’t want to come here but I was with Nitro and you called a lockdown. I didn’t have a choice.”

“This is twice now Trix. Twice you didn’t tell me about my fucking kid.”

Her mouth dropped. She didn’t know I had known about the first one.

“You weren’t supposed to know.”

“Why, why was I not supposed to know.”

“Not after everything. I didn’t want you to blame yourself or me. I should have known but I didn’t. I didn’t know and then everything with Disco, I didn’t want you to blame yourself. But it wasn’t your fault, it was mine.”

“You’re right, Trix, it was your fault. You should have known but no. You were too busy getting fucking high to realize you were fucking pregnant with my fucking kid and then when you found out it was too late. Too late Trix. It didn’t have to happen like that and you know it.”

“It doesn’t matter Nix. That baby is gone and now I have Zaiden. He is all that matters.”

“Why did you run Trix?”

“I was pregnant Nix. What was I supposed to do?”

“Stay, marry me. Have our kid here.”

“Yeah okay Nix. How was that going to work? A baby would have fucked us up and you know it. We lived for blood, you and I. You were once my light in all of this but you drug me into the darkness and I liked it, no Nix I loved it. But I couldn’t be a mom and be that person too. He would have been a fucking liability and a weakness for the both of us. So I left with him.”

“You know what Trix. You are a selfish fucking cunt.”

“Fuck you Nix.”

I couldn’t help myself I stalked over to her and pushed her against the wall. My hands pushed on the wall blocking her in.  No matter how angry I was all I could think about was my dick in her pussy. My pussy. I turned her around and pressed and pulled her hoodie and shirt over her head. There it was. My name on her back. I shoved her sweatpants down. I spread her legs with my leg as I unbuttoned my pants and released my cock. I wrapped my arm around her waist as she stood there naked pulling her back to me as I rubbed her pussy. Wet. I bent her forward. She braced herself on the wall in front of her as I pressed my cock into her. Shit. I wasn’t going to last long. Her tight wet pussy gripped my cock as I moved it in and out of her. When she started moaning I was done for. I stilled as I shot my cum inside her. I pulled out and pulled my pants back up and buttoned them.

I leaned down. “That’s my pussy. Don’t forget that.” And walked out of the room leaving her naked. I could hear her yell something. Probably a fuck you but I was already out the door and making my way to the bar.

I shouldn’t have done that but I couldn’t help myself.

I looked over to Nitro who was holding my son. What the fuck was I going to do.

Chapter Three

Fucking asshole. I couldn’t stop him though. I didn’t have the willpower. I hadn’t been touched by anyone since I left him and as soon as he touched me I was done for. But for him to walk out of here like that. Fuck I knew he would be pissed but fuck him, he didn’t even ask about Zaiden.

I walked out of his office with my head held high and walked straight to Nitro and took Zaiden out of his arms. I glanced around and spotted Nix back at the bar. Leaning his back against it as some girl I didn’t recognize cozied up next to him. Oh hell fucking no he was not going to do this shit in front of me. Whether or not we had been together for the past year or not he was still mine and I was still his.

I even had his name on my back to prove it. And that was exactly what I was going to do. I took Zaiden into my dad’s room and made him a spot on the bed for him to sleep.  I took my bag and fished through it looking for something to change into. I slipped on a black tank top with a lace see through back. I pulled my necklace out from in between my boobs where it stayed hidden and made sure it could be seen. I slipped on a pair of skinny jeans and a pair of black leather boots. I took a look in the mirror and with my head held high I walked out of the room shutting the door softly behind me so that I didn’t wake Zaiden.