Midsummer's Eve (6 page)

His soft reassuring voice carried through the open window as he found her hiding spot and persuaded her to leave the safety of the closet. I heard him promise to protect her, with his very life if
necessary, from the insane woman
at the door. The fact that she believed that lie was tangible proof that
I wasn’
t the only one who might benefit from some quality time on a leather couch.

“Go sit
by the fi
replace and don’
t talk.” He pronounced
each word slowly as you would if you were speaking to a six year old child, or a brain dead adult.

If the slut had been home with her husband and six kids,
where she belonged, she wouldn’
t have had to worry about being the recipient of a few minor bruises or hairline fractures. Now would she?

I craned my neck toward the window straining to hear, while he told her in a loving, tender tone that I just wanted to meet her. Then I would leave. Right. I would leave. Keep dreaming Alice, for you are still in Wonderland. Just
Adam
’s tone made me want to snatch her bald headed. I took a steady, calming breath as he finally reached deep within and summoned the courage to unlock the door.

Glancing through the bay window with my now squiggly vision as he was unbolting the door, I
glimpsed Chia’s
shadowy silhouette floating across the room and coming to rest near the fireplace. Evidently to be within arms reach of the fire poker should the need arise? Perhaps I should bring my brick inside, consequences be damned.

Somehow,
I resisted the powerful urge to claw at
Adam
’s eyes with my French manicured nails as I followed him in
to the house. Within
minute
s
I would fervently wish
that
I had relented to the urge and gouged the beautif
ul blu
e orbs right out of their
sockets.

For once inside,
Adam
let it be known loud and clear that I wasn't the welcomed visitor here. Oh no! She was perched on the hearth in a most provocative fashion!

And can you believe the man didn’t even bother to offer me a seat? Fine then! So much for the pretense of being civilized. Instead he, rather inhospitably, left me sta
nding in the middle of the room
while he went
to immediately
position himself protectively in front of his play date shielding her from my view.

Of a sudden
his severe attack of nerves seemed to flee in her presence. If he could have sprouted vibrant tail feathers and a beak he would have resembled a proud peacock. With an evil glint smoldering in his crystal blue gaze and a smile of extreme satisfaction playing across his soft moist lips, he stepped to the side with a flo
urish as if to say, “Ta Frigging
Dah!”

Oh, my Sweet Jesus!

Even though my vision was a far cry from 20/20 at the moment, it was clear enough
for me
to be cognizant of the fact that I should have stayed my happy ass at home and minded my own damn business. All the anger left my body in one breath as miserable defeat settled i
n its place. If my world hadn’
t alre
ady begun to crumble,
well let me tell you
the foundation sank into the mud with a loud sucking noise within mere seconds.

She was absolutely gorgeous. A delicate porcelain china doll with waist length silky black hair, the requisite slanted eyes surrounded by exquisite features, and a dainty little body snugly tucked into low
-
rise jeans and a pink V necked t
op
.

In that instant
,
I realized I could give up, pack it up, and go home. This was a hopeless fight.
I
f I were a man I wouldn’
t leave her for me either. Any man would be proud to stroll through Bass Pro Shops with his arm draped possessively over her slim shoulder. I kid you not. The woman would give Halle Berry a run for her money, and in my
humble
opinion
,
there are few woman on earth who can accomplish that feat. 

I wasn’
t about to let them know that I felt like Miss Congeniality with nothing but a flimsy ribbon draped across my shoulder in her presence. While she, blessed with a spectacular gene pool, strutted down the runway with two-dozen roses trailing from her arms and a diamond-encrusted tiara situated on top of her gorgeous head. 

“So Chia,”
I hissed
,
realizing that
Adam
’s and my time together had reached its zenith. Like Elvis,
Adam
’s love for me had left the buildin
g. I had nothing more to lose. “How are the husband and kids?”

She focused her ebony gaze on
Adam
and took it upon herself to ignore me. Now why would she do that?

“Okay, let’
s try this again. On the off chance that y
our religion doesn’
t frown
up
on this particular sin, does your husband seem at all bothered by the fact t
hat you are committing adultery? W
ith astounding frequency!”

“We weren’
t doing anything except
talking.
”
Adam
abruptly
jumped
to her defense.

Rest assured this action sent my anger leaping with pole
-
vault worthy bounds. “In the bedroom!”
S
harp bolts of pain seared through my head and flashed like jagged forks of lightening behind my eyes, causing me to stumble and clutch the back of a chair for support.

“Yep.”
He had actually
succeeded in making matters much worse. Obviously, he had forgotten his numerous and previously ut
tered lies.
“We were just lying across the bed talking. Since when is talking considered a mortal sin?”

I opened my mouth to accuse him of being the pathological liar that he was, when our girl finally found her
voice and lowering her head whispered
, “
I just a friend.
”

As she dropped her head her soft shining glorious mane cascaded down to cover her exquisite features. She raked a quivering hand through the silky smooth tresses and pushed the hair over her forehead in what came off as an extremely sexy gesture.

Oh! W
hat I wouldn’
t have given for a pair of heavy duty thinning shears at that moment.

“No! You just a ho”
I
informed her with ill concealed contempt. Then, glancing at
Adam
’
s idiotic grin
,
I offered a suggestion.
“Since you have to leave in about five minutes, you might as well take her to the bedroom and finish what I so rudely interrupted. Then you’ll still have four minutes left to get dressed for work.”

Then, in abject defeat, I turned and left before I was blinded by the approaching onslaught of excruciating pain or before either of them could pierce through the bold brazen exterior and see what was really happening to my tortured in
sides. It was beyond humiliating
to realize that I had been played for such an enormous fool, and that
Adam
and Chia had
carried out the deed with
such
consummate precision. 

Even though I wanted nothing more than to sink behind the steering wheel of the Jeep, dissolving into a s
huddering mass of tears, I didn’
t have the luxury. Not with them glaring at me from the window. Every ounce of attention was required to focus and prevent the wheels from veering off the shoulder of the road, sending the vehicle flipping across the field in a crunching conglomeration of twisted, smoking metal. The need for concentration necessitated that my impending collapse be put on hold for a few minutes. 

Razor sharp, slicing stabs of sheer agony took up residence behind my eyebrows. At the same time, the few squiggly lines had been fruitful and multiplied until all but mere pinpoints of light were now blotted out. Leaning forward, I placed my chin on the steering wheel in my increasing haze of anguish and searched desperately for the yellow line. It was there but, lo and behold, now there were two of them. And the sides of the pavement and everything else had been swallowed up by the gaping black hole of tunnel vision.

I should under no circumstances be operating a motor vehicle in my present condition. I was going blind, not ignorant.
Yet
what was I supposed to do? Degrade myself by politely requesting that
Adam
pry himself from the clutches of
Miss Married Universe
long enough to chauffeur me home? Not hardly!

After what seemed like two solid hours of pure driving hell, and by the grac
e of God, I made it home safely.

Stunned.

Dazed.

Temporarily blinded.

And numb to the outside world,
I
had
crawled into
bed and
allowed
myself
the luxury of a complete mental breakdown.

So, I was
now painfully aware that his murmured words of loving me until the day he died were just idle chitchat to the man who
had
held my fr
agile heart in his filthy hands.
They were words designed, rather successfull
y, to get what he could from me.
Let’s just suffice it to say that I am a giving soul. While the reality is that every second he spent with me, dreams of the moments that he and his beloved Chia could be together were evidently running ram
pant through his deceptive mind.

Still, my thoughts raced with the speed of a lap at Concord Motor Speedway as I invented dozens of excuses to convince myself that Justin had been mistaken. His horrid tale of Adam’s lies and betrayal couldn’t be true. Could it? I had found it an almost impossible task to wrap my mind around the fact that Adam could hold me in his arms at night whispering declarations of undying love, and then utter the same words of devotion to another woman the very next day.

Was one person actually capable of committing such extreme depths of deception? I had found out the hard way, with the force of a 2 by 4 between the eyes, that the answer to that question was a resounding
you better believe it!
 

My father had recently deeded my siblings and me several acres of land in the woods. Just the week before Adam and
I had tromped through the tick-
infested woods and chosen a secluded, shady spot nestled between towering oaks on which to build a cozy log cabin and spend our weekends fishing in the nearby river. Lord knows I hate to fish.

But
,
in the name of love, I would have waded kne
e deep through the muddy, snake-
infested and poison
ivy
thriving riverbank, waited patiently for that stupid little orange cork to bob, and swatted mosquitoes
and risked malaria
for the entire day
,
to be near the man I love. The week before
,
we had even discussed going on an Alaskan Cruise. Adam had the desire to spend a few nights in an igloo and do some ice fishing in Alaska. Be still my heart!

What does a person do whe
n the heartbreaking truth come
s
crashing down on them
? You already know the answer to this question. But in my case, as I explained earlier, you run! Run! Run!
Run! Hop in the car and
don’t dare look back! Never
mind the fact that every
convenience store you pull into is operated by a diminutive Asian with long, flowing, silky black hair. Could someone please explain to me why the Asian populace never seems burdened by split ends?

At any rate, Christm
as 2011 had been hell in a hand
basket. The good part, the only good part, was that I had been so sick with the flu that it passed by in a blur. I had remained heavily medicated and slept through the never
-
ending festivities. The thought of pasting on a fake smile and pretending to enjoy the holiday cheer with family and friends, without Adam, sent me spiraling out of control into a bout of deep despair. It was a depres
sion that I knew none of my tee
totaling relatives could possibly serve enough eggnog to alleviate.

Thank God my son had
n’t been able to come home for Christmas
. Don’t get me wrong! I love that child with every part of me that loves! Yet
,
I would have felt obligated, and he would have insisted, that I show a little holiday cheer at the dreaded family gatherings! The horror!

Then New Years rolled around. My flu symptoms had abated, but were replaced by feelings of hurt and betrayal so unbearable that it made the flu feel like a joyous romp in the park. Whoever coined the phrase
time heals all wounds,
certainly wasn’t spending any quality time in my bedraggled bedroom slippers.

At long last
,
the celebrations for those who had cause to celebrate ended
,
and it was Adam’s birthday, January 10. How many times I picked up the phone, hit *67 and dialed his number just to hear his voice? I knew he knew it was me, but did I care one whit? Hell no! Not when thanks solely to him my golden years would either be spent punching out license plates or modeling the latest fashion in designer straight jackets. I was going stark raving mad. My moods flipped like coins
,
with crying jags of melancholy
one minute and raging fits of
murderous intent the next.

I began having my first ever full-blown panic attacks. My broken heart thundered against my rib cage. My sweating body shook with uncontrollable spasms of misery. In short my life had become little more than a
huge
pain in the ass.

I explained these thoughts to my doctor who prescribed a daily dose of Valium. The drug calmed my body to the point of being catatonic, yet did nothing to slow my racing mind. A mind that recalled every marvelous second spent with Adam in too vivid detail. A mind that felt compelled to continually replay the soft voice of Adam calling Chia “baby”. A mind that seemed determined not to let me live one day without remembering the demonic gleam in his eyes as he had slowly stepped from in front of Chia in a sadistic, calculated move designed to convince me that I could cease the battle. The North had soundly whipped the South’s ass once again.

Which reminds me to beg this question; why couldn’t I have passed my remaining years without witnessing the Charming Chia up close and personal? I could have been content in my cocoon of blissful ignorance believing that she looked like a woman with half a dozen kids is supposed to look. I mean, shouldn’t she have a few unsightly wrinkles? Better still, a few deep creases in her porcelain skin? Crows feet? Possess an occasional grey hair? Be bordering on obesity? Facial hair? Couldn’t she at least have one hanging mole? How is it possible for a 35
-
year
-
old mother of six to resemble a 20
-
year
-
old runway model?

I had heard recently on GMA that 60 is the new 40. Then 49 should be the new what? 29?