My Misery Muse (10 page)

He looked up my body and caught my eye; I had never seen anything more sensual than Seth between my legs, looking up at me with the same look of rapture he gets when playing his bass. I felt my body’s answer to that look leach out.

“God, I’ve missed you,” he breathed, the pad of his finger found and oh so lightly played with my clit.  He brought his lips back down to my wanting flesh but kept his eyes locked on mine while he took that sensitive bud in his mouth and sucked lightly, I cried out from the intensity of it.  I felt one then two fingers slip inside and I knew my orgasm wasn’t far off.  He bent his fingers and started lightly rubbing that spot that always drove me higher while he gently sucked, nipped and licked my clit.  It was on me before I fully realized what was happening my hands fisted the comforter, my upper body thrashed around and Seth held on to my hips while he continued to draw out the orgasm. I howled out his name and finally after what felt like years I started to come down from the rush that only a great orgasm can bring.

Seth started sliding up my body and only then did I realize that at some point, he had lost the rest of his clothes.

“God, baby you are beautiful when you come,” he whispered.

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She smiled at me, her breathing still labored from the orgasm she just had.

Her hand reached over and she slowly ran her nails down my chest, over my nipples, making me shiver.  Her hand slid down from my chest and my cock jumped at that first brush. Her hand slid over the head of my cock, then down the shaft where it stopped.  I looked over at her and grinned, “You’re not the only one with a surprise,” I said then laughed at the emotions flying across her face, confusion, anticipation, glee.

“When?” she said copying my earlier question when I found her nipple piercings, it took a minute to catch my breath as she slowly slid her fingers around the sensitive skin that surrounded the barbells through the shaft of my cock.

“About 2 years ago, I decided to add to the Prince Albert,” I wheezed out. “What do you think of my Jacob’s Ladder?”

“I can’t wait to feel it,” she said while still playing with the barbells.

“If you keep doing that, it won’t happen tonight,” I gasped out.

She laughed, rolled on to her side and kissed me, while playing with the ring through the head of my dick.  She broke off the kiss then rolled onto her back flung an arm over her face and groaned.

“What’s the matter baby?” I asked worried she’d had second thoughts.

“I don’t have a fucking condom,” she muttered.

I bit back a grin then reached over to where I had dropped the condoms when I took off my pants.

“Don’t worry, I have it covered,” I said, ripping open one of the packages, and slowly rolled it down my cock, she watched her eyes going glassy with lust.  I reached over and grabbed her hips pulling her so she straddled my hips.  She wiggled against my erection and I groaned, “Stop teasing you little vamp, I need to be inside you.”

She flicked at the barbell in my nipple causing me to moan then took ahold of my cock and rubbed the head across her opening. I had to squeeze my eyes shut and take a deep breath to keep from coming then.  She, ever so slowly slid down with just the head inside her, and I knew she was paying me back for my earlier torture. I looked up at her and she smirked, she knew what she was doing to me.  She slowly took an inch at a time and we both gasped when the first of the four piercings entered her, her wet heat slowly enveloping me, I couldn’t take it anymore so I jerked my hips up fully piercing her on my cock, and we both let out sighs.  We both sat still while her body got used to me being there again, nothing felt better than being inside Devi, and I knew I would never let her go willingly again.

She started on a slow sensual ride, which did very little for my sanity. She, oh so slowly worked herself up then back down my shaft until I thought I would lose my mind. After a few more slides down my dick I couldn’t stand it any longer.  In one quick move, I rolled us over taking control of both our pleasure.  I gave a hard quick thrust that had her moaning and panting;  I picked up one leg and draped it over my shoulder, fucking her hard and fast just like I know we both needed.  Our breath becoming ragged, and I could tell she was close her muscles kept tightening driving me even more crazy with the need to come. If I didn’t hurry her along, I would finish before her and I couldn’t let that happen, so I slipped my finger to where our bodies joined and teased her clit. I felt her muscles begin to tighten even more, and her breathing was even choppier, I picked up the pace then felt her tighten around me like a fist, she screamed out my name just as I felt the telltale sign of my own orgasm. My balls tightened against my body and I felt the shiver at the base of my spine, with 2 hard thrusts my own orgasm erupted. It felt like I had electricity running throughout my body, I yelled my release, while Devi was still whimpering and shuddering with aftershocks, prolonging my orgasm.  Finally when it was through, I dropped down on top of her and gave her a slow languid kiss, which had us panting even harder than before.  I was about to roll off her so as not to squish her but sensing my plans wrapped her arms and legs around me and nuzzled into my neck. She ran her fingers through my sweaty hair, I leaned down and brushed a kiss along her collarbone, “That was it…was… damn, I don’t know what that was,” I whispered against her hair. A slow smile formed on her lips, she disentangled herself and I rolled off thinking nothing in the world is better than making love to my Devi.

Seth slipped out of the bed to take care of the condom while I laid there trying to get my breathing back to normal.  I refused to give in to the thoughts running through my head. I wouldn’t let real life seep in and ruin the afterglow.  Seth walked in looking delicious as always, his long lean muscles still glistening with sweat, his hair disheveled more than usual, the light glinted off the balls of his piercings on his cock, damn, there was a lot to be said about the Jacob’s Ladder.  With that thought I giggled, Seth sent me a look I couldn’t read.

“You know it’s never a good sign when the girl starts giggling after sex.”

That made me giggle even harder, he then leapt on the bed and started tickling me, causing me to laugh, squirm, leaving me gasping for breath.  “Give,” I squeaked out between peals of laughter.  Seth stopped tickling me and lay down beside me dragging me against his chest. 

“Oh crap, I need to go check on Jaks,” I said trying to wiggle out of his arms

He just pulled me tighter into his embrace, “I already did. I thought you might have woken him with all your screaming,” he said with a bit of male smugness in his voice.

I shrugged as best I could, “What can I say you’re great at what you do.”

He chuckled, “I’m glad you enjoyed yourself.”

He went silent after that, and I could tell he was thinking and I wasn’t sure if I wanted to know what about.

“How many other than me, Dev? I keep telling myself that I don’t need to know, but its driving me insane that I don’t know,” he finally whispered.

I went still, not sure what to tell him. I knew I hadn’t been his first and I hadn’t been his last, I mean the guy was a famous rock star. I didn’t want to sound pathetic with my answer.

“Come on Dev, tell me, I won’t be mad,” he said misreading the tension in my body.

“There’s only b
e
e
n
you,” I muttered.

“Really?”

“Yes, really, I’ve had offers but I could never bring myself to sleep with anyone else.”

He kissed the side of my neck and I was afraid of what he would say.

“I’m glad,” he finally responded.

“Really, you don’t find me pathetic,” I blurted out then cringed.

He rolled me onto my back where he could look at me, his eyes had a possessive, smug look to them and I knew the answer before he spoke it.

“No, I’m relieved,” he said running his hands through his hair and letting out a breath. “I wouldn’t be mad at you if you had had another lover, but I was jealous as hell thinking that someone else had touched you like that.”

I reached a hand behind his neck and pulled him down for a slow languid kiss. “No one ever, but you,” I whispered against his lips. Then wished I hadn’t, that one sentence told him just how much I still and had always cared for him.  When we finally broke the kiss, I burrowed tighter into his chest and let my eyes drift shut, thinking about what an idiot I am.

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I woke up in the morning with Devi lying across my chest, she looked so peaceful and more like the 16 year old girl who had caught my attention now than ever.  I watched her sleeping form tracing the tattoos on her back and arm; she added a lot of new pieces to her body, the back piece I recognized from a design she had been working on when we were still together.  A Japanese Cherry blossom tree that started at the top of her buttocks and worked its way up her spine, the branches that splayed across her upper back and shoulder blades were beautiful soft pink cherry blossoms. Some of the branches carried on to her ribs, chest, and the sides of her breasts.  I remembered from the sketch that there would be delicate designs in the trunk made by the bark of the wood; she could never decide what scenes she wanted though, always changing her mind and re-sketching the piece.  Each of the blossoms had a small flaw each unique and when I asked her why, she had told me nothing in life is perfect, even at the age of 17 she was slightly jaded.

I traced my fingers up and down her spine making her move against me, and I felt myself start to stir, I had woken her up twice during the night. The first time with my hand between her legs, the second I had filled her from behind, moving slowly, taking our time to reach our orgasms.  I didn’t think I would ever get enough of her, which brought me back to how would I be able to leave her when the album was done.  A squeak from outside the door took me out of my silent revelry, I looked over and Jaks was standing in the doorway rubbing his eyes.

“Morning buddy,” I said quietly, “you hungry?”

He looked and nodded, not much of a morning person like his mother.

I carefully untangled myself from Devi, covered her up and kissed her forehead. “Come on, let’s go find breakfast.”

I padded into the kitchen and found a box of cereal, “Will this work?”

Once again, I just got a head nod while he climbed into his booster seat; I fixed us both a bowl of cereal, and started the coffee pot.  We sat there eating in silence when I heard the front door open then footsteps heading this direction.  I looked up and Drake and Sam stood in the doorway.

“Long night?” Sam asked.

Jaks grunted and went back to his cereal; I had to fight not to laugh at my son, so like his mom in the mornings.  You didn’t dare try and talk to Devi before she had her coffee.

“Kinda,” I said then got up to put my bowl in the sink and fix myself a cup of coffee.  I heard Sam and Drake chuckle at my answer and threw a glare over my shoulder.

“So what brings here too damn early in the morning?” I asked though I had a feeling I really didn’t want to know.

Sam just gave me a look, and I knew my suspicions were right.  “The guys want to know what you’re going to do,” he finally said.

“I don’t know,” I replied. “I’ve had 48 hours to get used to the idea, I haven’t thought much beyond what’s going to come next.”

“That’s what I told them you’d say.  I also told them to give you some time to figure everything out, but you know how they are.”

“Yea I know, throw money at my obligation and leave it at that,” I said then noticed Devi standing behind Sam, and I knew she hadn’t heard anything but what I just said.  Fuck.  “Devi, that’s not what I meant.”

She spun around and then I heard a door slam. “Fuck!” I yelled and glared at Sam.

“Give her a little time to cool off, you know she won’t listen until she’s ready,” said Drake.  “If you need me too I will talk to her.”

“No, I’ll do it, but would you mind hanging out with Jaks? I need to go deal with Xavier and Alex, and then hopefully get her to listen,” I said, hearing  my car start and squeal away from the house. “Sam, can I get a ride?”

I sat in Seth’s car looking over White Rock Lake, looking for some answers in the choppy waters, none came, of course.  I can’t believe what an idiot I was, I knew he would end up leaving me and I had thought I would be able to handle the fall out of that, but I never expected him to also leave Jaks behind, and that’s what hurt most.  Be honest, my inner voice said, so ok last night and this morning I started getting ideas of the three of us as a family. I knew it would be difficult, but if we wanted it enough I knew we could make it work, but it looks like the only one who wanted an ‘us’ was me, and that made my chest hurt more.  The thought that hurt the most was that Seth thought he could throw money at his “obligation” and make it all right, just like my parents did. Well if he thought of Jaks as an obligation then he can just leave, we don’t need him, we were doing just fine without him, we can do it again.